Brandi's Journal

:: 2007 9 October :: 6.29pm

i'm quite sure one of the many reasons i am not doing well in this stupid one night a week, three hour class is that there are computers in here. this a fricken computer lab. not a classroom. dude. seriously. it's 6 at night-there are plenty of other classrooms but no they stick us in a classroom with computers with access to facebook and myspace and woohu and email. ughghghhh and then the boredom hits and i'm online.

i've never done so bad in school. i think it's a sign. i shouldn't be a nurse. i doubt i can handle it. i'm compassionate but i'm too compasionate i cry whenever someone else gets tears in their eyes. i'd be walking around crying 24/7 and my waterproof makeup wouldn't hold up and also would clog my pores.

fuck you davenport .....i have such mixed feelings towards you- you gave me so much money and a good oppurtunity but no choices.

i think maybe we should break up. how do you feel about that davenport? i think maybe you are no good for me and i am getting no where being with you.

is anyone good at statistics? i'm not.

i really should just leave this class. i think i may. there's no point in me being here. i leave with pointless notes that i never ever look at. they mean nothing to me.

damnit.
stupid college. What else could i do with my life? seriously i dont think i would be good at anything. i'll be a good mom and that's really pretty much it.
i duno. gotta check homework i'm sure i'll be back

:: 2007 8 October :: 3.28pm

goodbye red robin hooray!!!

:: 2007 8 October :: 12.06am

So today i was in a really horrible mood. really life isn't that bad. i am just really really stressed and overwhelmed. i have too much stuff going on.

what it comes down to is that i am horrible at making decisions. and yeah

gosh now i forgot what i was going to say.

:: 2007 7 October :: 6.53pm

what the hell is a wedding anyway.

fuck this shit . i need a mother fucking vacation i swear to god if i wouldn't lose my scholarship i would leave this stupid fucking country in an instant. fuck the sholarship, i'm going to lose it anyway because there is no god damn way i'm passing that fucking class. who the fuck am i kidding whydidn't i just enroll in chic or some shit so i could actually have some income by now. seriously how the hell do people even fucking do it. theres no fucking way . i'd say i shoudl move back in with my parents but fuck it they are moving to florida anyway so too god damn late for me.

:: 2007 6 October :: 7.21pm

okay so red flannel is like scary and loud and ugly

and i dont know if i can go to one ever again. it had good parts and i liked the band competition but i couldn't wait to leave. i know, bad right but i duno

whatev

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:: 2007 2 October :: 10.46am

Okay so I work on Wednesday and then I don't work again until Sunday.

I have to tell you guys something...

I'm so excited for Friday and Saturday. AHHH i'm such a loser. I've never been way excited for RED FLANNEL DAY lol except when I was in a band-it was a pretty big deal because of the performance and parade. but still.

I am like counting down the day until the Friday game and excited for RFD and the nothingness. I dont know.

I miss...
home?

and guess what!

I HAVE AN INTERVIEW AT THE PLACE I WANT SO BADLY TO WORK AT YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

:: 2007 29 September :: 7.55pm
:: Music: fever

well, if i never make it as a nurse at least i know i'll be a good housewife.

i make the best damn chocolate chip cookies ever.

i have the potential of being an excellant housewife.

sad.

:: 2007 28 September :: 1.54pm

i feel so sick to my stomach because i dont want to go to work. i would do anything seriously to not go. i want so bad to just not even go in but i know thats wrong and stupid. but i've only worked there for like a month so it's not like they'd be a good reference anyway ughghghgh i should just not go in but i dunno

any advice?

i need a new fucking job.

i'm gonna call midnite sun and cruise right now and try to fucking get hired so i have an excuse not to go in!

:: 2007 27 September :: 10.27am

ahh i love tr night. why does he have to be gay?

yay greys anatomy tonight i am so fricken excited.

:: 2007 26 September :: 5.53pm

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i need a new job.

please

:: 2007 25 September :: 8.20pm

college sucks

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:: 2007 23 September :: 9.57am

some of my money is missing.

:: 2007 17 September :: 12.50am

gunnie if you are online please get on aim

:: 2007 17 September :: 12.05am

finally finished dying my hair. thanks to roman of course.

it looks kinda dumb but i dont care. i like the change. and since i am not cutting my hair because iwant it to be long at least this is a little change.

i love grey's anatomy omg. i love it so much. if i had a dying wish i think it would be to be a charatcter on greys anatomy. yeah fer realllllllllll.

shit.

i should replace meredith. because she is annoying and i loveh er but hate her at the same tie.

time

dont mind my typos. i just dont care and omg i can't breathe i feel like my throat is bleeding from all those chemicals and standing in the bathroom with all those chemicals for so long gahhhhhh can't breathe.

yesss! i love endoplasmic reticulum and ribosomes. gosh.

:: 2007 11 September :: 5.58pm

hes a handsome black man.

adn i just opened my book and it is confirmed.

i will fail this class.

grand.