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2006 21 October :: 4.34am
oh my gosh.
i woke up at 4 am today .
do you want to know why?
so i can go to menards. MENARDS. what kind of crazy person shops at 5 am at menards. or anywhere for that matter.
i have no idea why they scheduled me for 5 am. i thought they had designated people committed to ruining their lives and getting up that early and working the 5 am shifts. but i guess not???
i can not believe i am going to work this early. god i'm crazy. I HATE MENARDS!
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2006 11 October :: 12.20pm
So I must vent just a tad to just feel just a tad bit better.
I have changed my major from Paralegal studies to Nursing. Reason being: my full scholarship Lettinga Campus scholarship things has JUST changed the rules and instead of only being allowed to use the scholarship at the either of the two Grand Rapids Davenport campuses, I am now allowed to use the scholarship at any Davenport campus. There are many.
There are 3 campuses that offer the nursing program. Midland, Dearborn and Warren.
Long story short, next year, if all goes well, Roman and I will be moving to the Detroit (Dearborn or Warren) area and living there and going to school and being 2 and a half hours away from any sort of Cedar-ish area.
My scholarship is renewable up to 4 years. But there is a catch. I must earn a 3.4 GPA or better. So, if my math is correct, if I am taking four 3-credit hours, I can afford to get two B+'s as long as I get two A-'s or A's. I am pretty sure I can do it, but I need to set my standards higher. I used to think that a B was a pretty good grade, not that great, but I can deal with it. Now, I need to accept nothing less than an A.
I'm scared.
Okay different subject.
I know i'm just a lil ol white girl from non-diverse Cedar Springs and I'm not saying that peoples' feelings or thoughts especially of themselves and their history and yada yada isn't important but it is really necessary to cry in an English 110 class over a fricken article? IS IT? okay, that sounds very insensitive, but come on, if anyone knows me they know i am very sensitive. It's okay to feel strongly about it and to have those feelings in you and to really be that upset about the thing as a whole but not this article. It was a thought-provoking satire. A THOUGHT-PROVOKING SATIRE. THAT'S ALL!
I honestly can't take it.
in other news. roman and i bought bikes and rode a lot and had fun and rode them all the way downtown as in ridin along on wealthy and fulton and division. it was fun. and the day before that we rode on some trail and saw a deer and a fawn and then we ended up on 52nd and rode all the way back to burlingame and then home. it was so fun. coolie cool.
"Hey popo! We're ridin dirty but I betcha can't tell!!!"
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2006 11 October :: 12.11pm
ommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmgggggggggggggggggggggg
seriously, i'm gonna kill myself. i knew i shouldn't have came to english today. why is it that everything that people say seriously feel like knives poking into my spine. i CANNOT stand people.
"my fiance"
bull shit you prissy little bitch. two weeks ago you were screwing the milkman.
i wanna throw up and also i want to leave school. i'm so stressed out
shannon do you have my yearbook? can i get it? do you have it? whadoido
omgggggggggggggggggggggggggggg I HATE .......... it's like blah blah blah blha blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah. people think everything they have on their mind is so damn important. not everything a person thinks needs to be heard by everyone in the room. shut your mouth and if you really feel like expressing your feelings, go right it in a journal. I seem to be doing a fine job of it myself...
UGH
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2006 9 October :: 10.18am
so i've decided i'm going to do nursing like i orginally wanted to do and i think there are gonna be alot of changing coming to my life.
and ps.
i love roman garcia yeehaw
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2006 2 October :: 8.40pm
it's so bad. because i'm sitting in this class. i'm giving it three hours of my Monday night... and it's not even what i want to do with my life. i dont want to be a paralegal. gaaaaaaaaawd what am i doing... i dont want to be here at davenport. this isn't even what i want.
i just wanna go have babies and be a happy mommy and i duno. something else that isn't a paralegal exactly.
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2006 2 October :: 8.35pm
i can't take this anymore. i have to get away. i seriously can't just sit here anymore. and i dont totally and completely mean just getting out of this 3 hour long LEGL 101 class that i'm sitting in right now.
i mean i think i'm gonna go do something drastic..
you've been warned.
BIATCHES!
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2006 2 October :: 7.10pm
im drifting so, so very far away from woohu.
i hate being too busy to do anything you actually want to do. if i keep living like this, i'll surely die soon.
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2006 25 September :: 8.52pm
ughhhhhg i do not like to NOT get along with teachers but seriously it's like everything i say, or every question i answer, this teacher disagrees and they re-word it just a TAD BIT and say that THAT way is correct. no. sorry. that's what i just said. didnt you just hear me? i just wanna be like hello?! thats the answer i just gave! where were you? ugh it is pissing me off so bad. does anybody else have this problem?
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2006 25 September :: 7.18pm
so it is true. lesson learned. dont trust anyone.
god dammit i am so pissed. due to a stupid person who i thought was okay to trust, i am getting a zero. that is ridiculous. i am so mad.
okay so ulitmetely it's my fault but i am still so angry.
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2006 25 September :: 9.58am
wwow wanna know what i hate?
when bitches lie to you and then ditch you AND THEN ARE TOTAL COWARDS AND CAN'T EVEN PICK UP THEIR DAMN PHONE. AND THEN WILL PROBABLY MAKE AN EXCUSE AS TO WHY THEY DID ALL THAT
PRAISE THE LAWDDDDD@!
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2006 23 September :: 12.57pm
so something has been happening to me and i am allergic to something or something i dont know but my eyes feel like they are on fire and they are all red and itchy and UGLY. and right now i'm doing okay because i got some eye drops but they are so dry and ow they hurt and
i'm not doing that great right now. in fact i'm pretty angry. should i be? probably to some extent. ughghghghhg
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2006 21 September :: 2.58pm
god i hate work so much. i hate the new menards. i miss the old people. i hate work so much, i skipped it yesterday. and if they ask me for an excuse i think i'll just shrug because i do not have one other than the fact that i hate it. but i dont know if i should look for another job or what.. it's realy good pay and i can usually get 40 + hours if i want them. (god this lady behind me, i'm at the library, will not stop fucking talking to her self .... shut up!) i sreiously think i contemplate skipping work every single day i am scheduled to go in. i hate it so much.
i have been trying to get switched into a dept but nobody needs more people and thy all just laugh when i say i hate being a cashier because "all cashiers wnat to be switched into a dept." seriously i hate it. i've htought about going back to waitressing but that is never sure money and i dont know if i want to go back to it because you have to be so nicde. i like working at menards only because if i'm mean, i dont lose my tip... .because i never had one .... you get it.
but yeah i really can't stand working there and i'm even changing my availabilty so i only have 4 available days to work instead of 5. how bad is that?! i mean, it will help with me being able to get school work done easier too but other than that im pretty much just doing it because i can get by without that extra day, i'm can pick up hours if need to because peolpe are always asking people to pick up shifts and most of all I HATE WORKING THERE!
i think maybe ij ust get like this with every job i have.... it's like after 6 months i cna't take anymore. waiiiiit a second, i worked at arbys for a whole year. ugh what am i doing.
i dont know what to do. i would love to work at a day care maybe or something... but i dont think i could get 8.20 and 10.60 on weekends. not many places can beat that.
blkaj;lkdfja;lskdfja;skjflakjsflkajs;fkjas;lkfj i have to leave for work in like 25 minutes. i hate menards so freaking much. i've worked there for over a month and still i dont feel like i know anyone there. nobody is like ...easy to approach. i think i'm scared of like all of them. ughghghgh they are dumb! and i hate it!
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2006 19 September :: 4.09pm
so seriously, i have the best boyfriend in the world.
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2006 18 September :: 10.09am
i really hate stupid college girls.
just like i hated stupid high school girls.
god dont be in school if you're an idiot.
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2006 11 September :: 11.44am
it's 9/11
and i just kind of wish i had been older when it happened because i really want to do soemthing....as
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and any way some people here (at college) are SO STUPID but i
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oh and i seriously love this new going out all the time lifestyle that roman and i have created.
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