Brandi's Journal

Brandi's Journal

:: 2005 29 December :: 3.28pm

Stop, stare, and watch me burn. Someday it'll be your turn. You can't fool me. I can see all the things that you didn't want me to see. You threw my heart away and thats the price I paid. I know it's never fair, you promised me you'd always be there but you never really cared.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 28 December :: 11.53pm

What the hell am I supposed to say to that? Seriously. I don't think I have ever been so shocked in my entire life. That is the nicest most weird thing ever.

Stacy: I have to tell you something and I know what you told me wasn't supposed to be anything exciting but my news is. It's actually pretty much top secret. No joke.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 28 December :: 11.23am

Last night was so much fun. I love you Stacy, Mishy, Dani, and Brittani. Devin and Ben were also pretty awesome guys. Nate on the other hand, let's not go there. Stacy and I are sluts, we rocked their worlds, end of story. Kidding we aren't. We stayed out all night and we went to Morningstar, Vertigo, and Skelletones. It was so fun. We met Trisha, Natalie, and Brittani there too. Dani is the worst driver ever. I'm not kidding. We almost died a few times. She just drives downtown in GR and she doesn't even stop at red lights or stop signs. The worst part about it is that she doesn't even realize that she runs red lights and stop signs. So I figured that most of us didn't really want to die so I made sure to tell her where she needed to stop and go at. We went to Bens at around 1 and I was playing video games with Mishy and at first she was losing so she just quit and I didn't really realize this until afterwards but I got so into the stupid game. They have this video of me and I'm like freaking out while I'm playing it. It was hilarious. Anyways we didn't get home until like 4:30 and I slept probably about three hours so I'm sort of tired but I'll be okay. I had so much fun and we are going to do it again.

"Use my strong hand"

"105.4" lol

I didn't realize that if you wear a skirt in the middle of winter, it made you a slut but then again what do I know?

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 27 December :: 10.49pm

i was loooking at these pictures from last year and i was just even more fully convinced about how i gained weight. i mean, i know i did. a scale doesn't lie right... but oh my gawd. i'm hidious how the hell do you spell that

i swear if i'm away from roman all i feel is fat and ugly

and well other than that..
i wanna go barf.

tootaloo

wait no, i must add more. I know some of you self centered biatches just read that post and were like "score. one more hoe out of the way" or something liek that... i think there are some PEOPLE who get kicks out of when their friends get big ol zits on the ends of their nose or gain 10 pounds for example. .... or wear an ugly shirt.... or have a bad hair day. there are some PEOPLE who just enjoy the fact that they know they look better than their "friend" on that particular day.
it's a constant obscene and fucked up battle for some PEOPLE.

wow.

some people huh?

I hope at least one person understands that. maybe even the person it is semi-directed to out of pure angst and a little bit of self-pity.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 26 December :: 11.31pm

okay. so here it is plain and simple. I'm not feeling very well. And would you like to know something? You're not making me feel any better. would you like to know something more?

I obviously am a big complaining bitch. Obligations and responsibilities I know, but wah wah wah I want to be first and I'm a big fat bitch.

I am sad and yeah I pretty much totally would like to cry now. I feel just forgotten. And I'll never understand why it's so easy for you.

and why it's so extremely difficult for me..........

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swimfan14

:: 2005 26 December :: 8.05pm

I'm seriously the worst minesweeper player in history. Ever.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 26 December :: 6.25pm

I don't know why but I just have a bad feeling that you lied to me and I hate being lied to more than anything.The worst part about being lied to is knowing that I wasn't worth the truth and if thats the case then we have some problems. I don't even know, maybe, just maybe I'm wrong but right now that seems highly doubtful.

TEN FIRSTS
First Best Friend: Chloe
First Screen Name: I don't remember the very first one but one from millions of years ago was cutiepie15032
First Pet: Jackson (Dog)
First Piercing: When I was like 11 months old
First Crush: Curtis, my little boyfriend when I was four
First CD: Like I remember
First Word: Probably Mommy or Daddy
First Real Love: I can't really say that I have been in love
First Stuffed Animal: An elephant named Ellie

NINE LASTS
Last Alcoholic Beverage: A sour apple martini and then today at Olive Garden my sister told me to drink some of my moms drink (I don't know what she was drinking) and I thought she meant drink the whole thing but apparently I was just supposed to take a sip of it and I drank the whole thing and wow that was a mistake ;)
Car Ride: Coming home from shopping today
Last Movie Seen: I don't remember but I watched Laguna Beach this morning if that counts
Last Phone Call: Jessica (were talking on the phone right this moment and it's not going well at all)
Last CD Played: Taking Back Sunday
Last Bubble Bath: Like last Saturday
Last Time You Cried: Last night AND the day before AND this morning..wow I sound like a basketcase but each time was for a differen't and good reason.

EIGHT 'HAVE YOU EVER...'S
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: Yeah but it was just a summer fling
Have you ever been arrested: Nope
Have you ever skinny dipped: Yeah in California lol
Have you ever been on TV: Yeah on the news here but that doesn't count because here sucks but I was on National Tv when I was in LA
Have you ever kissed someone and then regretted it: Oh quite a few times
Have you ever cheated: Thats just a sketchy question to ask
Have you ever spent more than 5 hours online: Oh yes
Have you ever cried yourself to sleep: Yeah and it's not exactly fun

SEVEN THINGS YOU'RE WEARING
1. Tank Top
2. Jeans
3. Earings
4. Sweatshirt
5. Socks
6. Necklace
7. Livestrong Bracelet

SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY
1. Watched Laguna Beach
2. Bought 5 cds and lots of clothes and a purse
3. Ate at Olive Garden
4. Fought with someone
5. Drank
6. When we were walking out of Olive Garden this car almost hit us and he was supposed to stop for us but he didn't so I hit his car really hard with all my shopping bags haha

FIVE FAVORITE THINGS IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER
1. California
2. Modeling
3. The O.C.
4. Music
5. Clothes/Shoes/Purses

FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL [ALMOST] ANYTHING TO IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER
1. Chloe
2. Lisa
3. Mishy and Stacy
4. Veronica (well before her memory loss)
(that was five but I don't really care)

THREE THINGS YOU HOPE TO HAVE IN THE FUTURE
1. Love
2. Career (be famous)
3. Kids

TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. Go to where I'm from (ITALY!!) lol
2. Go on a road trip across America. Every state. ( I agree with Jordan on this whole little thing)

ONE SECRET
1. I'm scared to be in love.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 26 December :: 12.13am

I seriously can't believe my friends sometimes. Okay let's just say one of my friends in particular. I thought we were supposed to be in this whole thing together but she just proved that it's now a competion to see who is better. Yeah well we'll see about that now wont we? Sounds like someones a little jealous to me. Whatever. I'm going to go cry now and be upset like I can be because this is our first fight over the dumbest thing ever.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 25 December :: 7.05pm

((10-1))
TEN FIRSTS
First Best Friend: my first and my last! Jessica Lynn SlutMchazen
First Screen Name: jessalyn62
First Pet: Rhea dog ollie and cat bea
First Piercing: ears in 1st grade
First Crush: nick wiebenga like kindergarten
First CD: googoo dolls
First Word: fuck lol no just kidding. i sasked my mom and she doesn 't even remember. wow what love.
First Real Love: Although i thought it was Kevin ;0) lol . it was definetely roman.
First Stuffed Animal: i duno. a lamb thing

NINE LASTS
Last Alcoholic Beverage: The Cap'n .... lol i am so gay
Car Ride: Back from a movie just now
Last Movie Seen: the family stone.... weird. and GAWD sarah jessica parker is ugly and has an annoying name.
Last Phone Call: jess/kevin
Last CD Played: a mix of kanye and michael buble and my humps remix and shit
Last Bubble Bath: too long ago. maybe i'll take one tonight
Last Time You Cried: kind of last night but only for like a minute. other than that it would be thursday

EIGHT 'HAVE YOU EVER...'S
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: well, besides Jess... it would be that roman became my best friend after we're together. other than that no i guess
Have you ever been arrested: No thank god
Have you ever skinny dipped: no
Have you ever been on TV: um kinda
Have you ever kissed someone and then regretted it: yeah lol sickoooo
Have you ever cheated: no
Have you ever spent more than 5 hours online: Probably
Have you ever cried yourself to sleep: Yup. unfortuantely

SEVEN THINGS YOU'RE WEARING
1. ferris shirt from roman yay
2. pannnnties
3. Jeans
4. bra
5. that's it! oh makeup
6. ring
7. Earring in cartilage

SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY
1. slept like forever
2. been bored on effing christmas
3. Been online
4. missed roman
5. talked to jess
6. absolutely nothing on christmas :0(

FIVE FAVORITE THINGS IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER
1. roman
2. jessie hazen
3. sleeping
4. being in love
5. being careless or worryless

FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL [ALMOST] ANYTHING TO IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER
1. roman
2. jess
3. stef
4. justin i guess

THREE THINGS YOU HOPE TO HAVE IN THE FUTURE
1. marriage
2. a career as a successful nurse
3. babies!

TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. lose these nasty ass thighs.
2. travel everywhere with roman. everywhere! lol.

ONE SECRET
1. I am a messed up motha

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 25 December :: 12.53pm

absolute shitness. it is christmas and we are just sitting here. i slept in till eleven... found out my sister's getting married (yay stef and paul make lots of cute babies) and went to the bathroom.... then i talked to stef then i put some makeup on then i talked to jess

and thus has been my christmas. i am so sad and i will never go on vacation ever again during christmas because at least i will have some control. i can't believe my parents actualy made us come down here. but oh well thats how our fam... wait.... famil...no fa..fa... group of people who live together works i guess.

fuck the po lice

and call my cell phone because i am bored and have nothing to do at all whatsoever. cry cry cry is all i want to do.

i love my babbbbby roman and i hate brandon

fuck htis

i cant wait for the day i have a real family and a real christmas. this will happen in less than 10 years. hoorah.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 24 December :: 10.21pm

MERRY CHRISTMAS! I LOVE EVERYONE!!!!!!!! says:
HEY BABY!!!!!!
MERRY CHRISTMAS! I LOVE EVERYONE!!!!!!!! says:
I MISS YOU!!!

I miss Danielle too. I feel so lost without seeing some of my friends.

MERRY CHRISTMAS! I LOVE EVERYONE!!!!!!!! says:
lol its ok...if anyone laughs ill be like "hey trailor bitches! thats one of my favorite people in the world over there face first in that snow drift with those little feet sticking straight up! so back the fuck off niggaaaaaaa!"

Haha, wow. She cracks me up.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 24 December :: 10.56am
:: Mood: Tired
:: Music: A Decade Under The Influence- -Taking Back Sunday

Christmas Eve
This morning I had Christmas at my dads house. It was quite eventful. We didn't really go to bed at all. I slept for like 10 minutes here and there but other that that, we stayed up all night and we opened presents at 6am. Pretty crazy I know. I'm really tired and I want to go back to bed right now but I can't. I basically knew what I was getting the whole time anyways but I was still excited. My dad hates malls so I just went on websites and made wish lists and then he told me to just order what I wanted because he was afraid he would order the wrong thing so that basically defeats the whole "being suprised" purpose but oh well. I got a dell laptop and it's pretty awesome. I'm hoping that I will get internet for it in the next few weeks. I'm just rambling and I'm out of it so I'm going to go.

Smile cuz in one day......

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swimfan14

:: 2005 24 December :: 1.15am

I love him and I love her

mish is electric: when youre famous
mish is electric: youll get to meet him
mish is electric: and have his children

Yeah shes right. So right.

Read more..

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wildthing

:: 2005 23 December :: 6.43pm

Hey What yall been up to? I've just been workin and goin to school, I cannot believe this school year is almost done! I mean i'm thinkin about next and what ill be doin and it wont be high school anymore, the other day i was lookin through my yearbook from last year, *Autumn Silvers picked it up for me...thank Audie!!* and i was thinkin about what i would do with my hair next year, then i was like wait...I'm not in High school next year, To tell you the truth, I'm scared, Now is the time for real life and reality to hit me, and I really dont think I'm ready for it...I mean i have my dad to help me but He isnt always gonna be there, Its nuts...
I feel like i have just now moved to Tennessee and am just gettin to know my friends down there whom i love to death, I'm so glad i got down there and met new ppl, They mean the world to me...But so does everyone up here, Its 2 different worlds ill tell you that much, What with the KKK, yeah its real shit down there, get this a new mexican resturaunt came and within a week the KKK Spray painted KKK on their New sign...Thats when it hit me that its totally different down there...But anywho.
I hope ya'll have an Safe and Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year,Good luck with your Futures!!

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