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2004 17 December :: 7.03 am
so let's pretend that you're someone
who's worth this train wreck
i'll let my ego split in half
as she's approaching
together, we'll chant outloud
the satisfaction
lose ourselves so we're not found
you don't know me i'm permanent
you don't know me i'm permanent
you don't know me i'm permanent
and you don't know the half
from fire to fading embers
she remains fragile
under stage lights
we both aren't sure
i beg for a purpose
take my hand
we'll make it through
the satisfaction
and lose ourselves so we're not found
you don't know me i'm permanent
you don't know me i'm permanent
you don't know me i'm permanent
you don't know the haaallllfff
i like to think that i'm someone
who's wings have grown enough to lift him
and i like to think that i'm someone
who's wings have grown enough to lift him
who's wings have grown enough to lift him
who's wings have grown enough to lift him
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2004 14 December :: 8.00 am
you'll the only one that can pick me apart.
too fragile to realize
you make me who i am
you're everything that is real.
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2004 11 December :: 10.54 pm
:: Mood: gloomy
:: Music: inmemory - paper street
You can see nothing yet
By candle light
I'm soaked in kerosene
I will keep on dreaming
You light a cigarette
To calm your nerves
I swallow knives for fun
Pretending knives are words
When your planes in the rain
I still feel safe
I'm holding onto you
Along with two grenades
These wings are flammable
They're your way out
When we can trust the ground
Then we can head back down
I'm calm within
Under camouflage
I'll stay calm within under camouflage
so I decorated my christmas tree today. I'm that awesome. talked with corey for a few minutes. he wants a girlfriend, i wouldn't mind having one, i just really want someone to talk to about lots of things. pnumonia/bronchitis sucks so i'm going.
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2004 10 December :: 8.00 am
so what say you
and all your friends
and all of my friends
in the alley tonight
so what say you
and all your friends
stand up to my friends
in the alley tonight
2 breaths |
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2004 8 December :: 7.16 am
I like you. Do you like me? Check Yes or No.
___________Yes
___________No
Wouldn't that be cool if that still worked.
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2004 6 December :: 9.57 pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: inmemory - daddy raised us kings
$300 for my varsity jacket, thats no fun.
$65 a week for doctors visits and physical therapy
$10-$90 a week for photo including gas, depends on how motovated i feel.
i feel poor. leg needs to heal. i wouldn't mind a life. maybe i'll do something with baker this weekend. that will be fun. i could always call eric. ha, its pretty sad when you're down to two friend that will actually hang out with you. not so funny when you're losing a lot of friends too. and people wonder why i don't go online to talk anymore. i can't speak without fucking things up.
It's official, I'm helpless, a hopeless romantic.
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