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2004 19 September :: 7.55 pm
:: Mood: creative
alive with the glory of love
When I watch you, wanna do you, right where you're standing yea
Right on the foyer on this dark day right in plain view oh yea
Of the whole ghetto, the boot-stomped meadows, but we ignore that yea
You're lovely baby, this war is crazy, I won't let you down oh no say no
I won't let them take you, won't let them take you hell no no
I won't let them take you, won't let them take you hell no no
No no no no no
And when our city vast and shitty falls to the Axis
They'll search the buildings collect gold fillings wallets and rings
But Miss Black Eyeliner you look finer with each day in hiding oh yea
You're lovely baby this war is crazy, I won't let you die oh no no
No I won't let them take you, won't let them take you hell no no
Oh no I won't let them take you, won't let them take you
Treblinkah is alive with the glory of love
Treblinkah, alive with the glory of love yea
When they catch us and dispatch us to separate work camps yea
I'll think about you I will not doubt you with the passing of time
And when they kill me your love will fill me with every bullet
I'll know my purpose this all was worth this I won't let you down
I won't let them take you, won't let them take you hell no no
No I won't let them take you, won't let them take you hell no no
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2004 14 September :: 4.29 pm
untitled 4
Hello.
Did you enjoy fucking him as much as I enjoy fucking you over?
Was he as good as you've always ever wanted and dreamt of?
Guess he must have been cooler and easier to be with than me.
I'll do what I want as my jelousy strikes me.
Its just like you to fall for ever guy like him with his thoughtless words.
Let's skip these pretenses darling, don't come back.
I'll enjoy this dissilusion of lonliness as much as I enjoy watching you suffer.
"you're so useless" well sorry girl I learn from the best.
Seeing me outside your window while you're with him will seem like the fucking golden age when I'm done.
Its just like you to fall for ever guy like him with his thoughtless words.
Let's skip these pretenses darling, don't come back.
It's damn cold this time of year, won't you let me inside quick?
I'll be your best and last mistake.
This is your last call?
Think of anything witty to say?
With the barrel of a gun in your mouth you only speak in vowels.
Goodbye.
2 breaths |
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2004 9 September :: 6.29 pm
so i got dropped back down to JV, my leg is killing me. so i'm not going back to practice. i'm #1 JV, so i guess thats cool.
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2004 7 September :: 7.42 pm
:: Mood: dead
:: Music: Saetia - Endymion
so i made varsity today, officially. the running killed though, its like "okay, let's see how many ways we can try and kill eric today" but they almost killed 3 other guys with me. so yes, my method for running with a torn groin muscle, take two advil, zone out and think about a certain person. how the hell do you think i ran a 19:41? i thought about her the whole race. now i must do homework so i can sleep.
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2004 6 September :: 7.11 pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: the postal service - such great heights
i drove to romeo and walked around alone. haha, i'm such a loser.
Here comes the sadness that I miss so much
That lonely aching comes from every touch
I’ve grown accustomed to the grays and blacks
Because they’re always coming back
Sit down for supper, won’t you dine with me
Or can’t you handle seeing all I see
I’ve grown to colorblind to cease my bitching
And I’ve grown to love the pain
And I move too slow and I think too fast and the first rainbow I see will be the last.
Here comes a view I’ve seen a million times
Here comes a boring song with thoughtless rhymes
I know you’re sick of me so tell me here
Because you could have be the one
To make it all disappear.
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2004 5 September :: 3.03 pm
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