so yesterday was the first day of school, fuck that. it went by quick, but then i had cc practice. my left leg is starting to hurt, if somethings wrong, free leave for me, i wouldn't mind that if its not serious or anything. so yes, i got home at like 10 and had to do my chem homework, it wasn't fun. don wants to go to homecoming and he wants me to go too. i'm like, there's no fucking way i'm going to get a date, but don is "the man" and has "a plan" so we'll see.

Every Time I Die - I've Been Gone A Long Time
What we're doing is so wrong, and what you're wearing is so right (it's so tight).
But I've never felt better so I'm going out to get her and I don't care what set of wheels I steal to get there.
Balance is a minor setback.
What she thinks is all right, and the way she looks is just fine.
She sure as hell ain't you, but lord knows she'll have to do.
She don't know I'm alive but neither do I so there's nothing left to lose.
If I could only make it make you want to want me. One more drink, I think, should do.
I wish that I could say I love to watch you walk away, but you probably
won't be back in time to hear it.
So it's just as well. No one out there gets back in alive.
So I'll love the way you stand so close to a guy who we both know can't get near it.
Strike when ready. Burn the highway down.
Let me hear her high heels moan. I'm ready, set, go.
There's cocaine in the key that took us from the bar to her car to the bedroom.
Only the lonesome love us. Only the careless can handle us. What's wrong
with us that we're so unamused?

i feel really weird today. messed up dreams last night. made me miss somethings. kinda like how i felt while i was away. missing basic things. own bed, homecooked meals, space alone. its different though now, just miss being with someone. its a melancholy day and thats how i feel.

i got my new cell phone today, its pretty hxc. went to the dls football game, it was boring. talked with people mostly. saw a lot of people i haven't seen in a long time. met some new people, that part was fun. hung out with don and olga mostly. gave don his "karate kid" picture. went to nine's today. played poker, lost like usual. i'm going to go to sleep now. little song for you to ponder or look at.




Your name
Here, believe me
It's not what you'd think
Wish what you want
It's all the same to me
I'm not breathing
But anyway
It's just it's nothing so simple
Nothing so silly
Nothing so mundane


Go east on Sunrise Highway
Turn left at Carmen's Avenue
Go right at the first stoplight
I'll be outside waiting for you
I'll be waiting for you


Your name in lights
It was only a matter of time
Your name in parentheses
'Cause after this mess
I guess you bet
That I'd collapse before you do
Hell, maybe that's true
Or maybe it's not at all


Go east on Sunrise Highway
Turn left at Carmen's Avenue
Go right at the first stoplight
I'll be outside waiting for you
I'll be waiting for you

so i had orentation today. it sucked. i have such a kick ass hardcore schedule this year though. could be good. gah...today my mom asked me if i will ever go to homecoming or prom or something like that. why the hell did she have to ask that? my explaination "i don't feel like bringing some girl who either i like just a bit or barely know. which involves lots of work on my part and cash from my pocket for a few hours of me having to listen to bad music." also, theres so no chance in hell i will ever get a date. i complain too much.

corey: u close to having a g/f yet?
me: fuck no.