i thought could trust you
you really needed a break (my heart)
i hate you
banging my head against the wall
i'll lose these memories
i won't remember you
i hope you open your window again
these rocks are for you

its too bright to shine in here
get out, get out
i don't know enough reasons to hate you
get out, get out
missing you? i won't even remember you
when you get out, get out of my head

im sending my sorry letters to you
i hope they break your heart
too long of going out just falling apart
this isn't my fault, when you can't count
the beats im falling down
i'm falling apart
complete my misery, i can't stand up
you just keep tripping me
standing on my shoes

it's top bright to shine in here
get out, get out
i don't have enough reasons to hate you (49)
get out, get out
missing you? i won't remember you
when you get out, get out of my head

this ticket, one way, i'm not gonna fix it
kiss a farewell but i don't want to know you did.
keep to yourself, i'm just gonna keep on walking,
with a chip on my shoulder
a grudge that won't be forgiven
i hate myeself
but i hate you most of all





some shit thing i wrote. it sucks anyway.







look, ugly me. i enjoy screaming a lot more these days.

going to the movies with jeff, mike and domanski. should be fun.

a smile can mean so many things that cannot be said...
I speak as if you were listening.
A conversation can confuse and a smile can mean so mean so many things that cannot be said.
This slumber is peaceful and I want it to last forever.
I am dreaming in your arms and in your arms I am forever but nothing can last forever.
The first time I felt this nothing was in your arms.
Your arms surround me and you owe me.
I speak as if you were listening and you smile.
My mouth is full of lies and we all lie.
A broken heart is something you cannot mend and this broken heart, and this broken heart.
You cannot mend my broken heart.



demoed, it sucks.



too much contemplation at night, am going crazy. becoming more depressed, bad. was abandoned after school til around 5:30.



this is a .44 caliber love letter straight from my heart

3 track meets left.


i need a vacation....badly.


i could use a girl too, but thats not going to happen.

Drink down that Gin and Kerosene,
And come spit on bridges with me,
Just to keep us warm.

Then light a match and leave me be.
I'll keep my jealousy close,
Cause it's all mine.

If you say this makes you happy,
Then I'm not the only one who is lying.

Keep quiet,
Nothing comes as easy as you.

Can I lay in your bed all day,
I'll be your best kept secret,
And your biggest mistake?
The hand behind this pen relives a failure everyday

She's got a scar on her chest,
In the shape of a badge.
Now its rusted and cracked,
It meant someone once believed in her,
But that time has passed.

So wear me like a locket around your throat.
I'll weigh you down.
I'll watch you choke.
You look so good in blue.




yesterday was fun. kevin, ray, nick, jeff and paul came over. poker and such. we drove up to krogers. this guy in the parking lot had spinners, so we spun them. then we found some rap mix in kevin's car and we started playing it...really loud. then we saw these black people and we were like, "dude, lower it!!" then big super smash bros. competition. i got 2nd and kevin got first. then we went walking around and i took some funny pictures. ray spent the night, we rented american pie 2, disc was scratched so we stopped watching it. went to bed around 3 or 4. got up at 9. i'm kinda tired today. i'm working on a few new songs, i'm not liking how they are going though, so they probably won't make it.