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2004 24 April :: 3.35 pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: yellowcard - ocean avenue
There's a place off Ocean Avenue
Where I used to sit and talk with you
We were both 16 and it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night
Staying up all night
There's a place on the corner of Cherry Street
We would walk on the beach in our bare feet
We were both 18 and it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night
Staying up all night
If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away
There's a piece of you that's here with me
It's everywhere I go, it's everything I see
When I sleep, I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that you're here tonight
That you're here tonight
If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away
I remember the look in your eyes
When I told you that this was goodbye
You were begging me not tonight
Not here, not now
We're looking up at the same night sky
And keep pretending the sun will not rise
We'll be together for one more night
Somewhere, somehow
If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away
the retreat was really great, and thats all i can say about it.
going 65 in a 45-50 mph zone while weaving around cars is really fun while listening to ocean avenue.
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2004 22 April :: 7.13 am
i've gone to find myself, i'll be back in a day or two.
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2004 18 April :: 9.31 pm
InotGuitarded: DUDE!
InotGuitarded: dude dude dude!
InotGuitarded: i met a chick
InotGuitarded: on my birthday
InotGuitarded: and she was hot
InotGuitarded: yea
InotGuitarded: lol
InotGuitarded: and shes the friend of my friend derek
InotGuitarded: and like she lives by me
InotGuitarded: and has a bf
InotGuitarded: but hes gay
InotGuitarded: so
InotGuitarded: im keepin my eye on her
InotGuitarded: lol
InotGuitarded: stalker!
thescreamoamigo: lol
thescreamoamigo: every breathe you take, and every move you make, i'll be watching you
InotGuitarded: yep
InotGuitarded: lol
InotGuitarded: Police
thescreamoamigo: oh can't you see? you belong to me!!
lmao, good times jack
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2004 18 April :: 12.15 am
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: michelle branch - leap of faith
leap of faith
One less call to answer,
feeling full of despair
don't think I can get through it,
just one last prayer.
And it's a leap of faith,
when you believe there's someone out there,
it's a leap of faith when you believe that someone cares, oh,
and when I call out to you,
will you be right there,
right there.
Searching for the answer,
nobody seems to care,
Oh how I wish that you were here,
beside me,
to wipe away my tears.
And it's a leap of faith,
when you believe there's someone out there,
it's a leap of faith when you believe that someone cares, oh,
and when I call out to you,
will you be right there,
right there.
Waiting for the answer,
remembering times we would share,
somehow I feel you here beside me,
even though your not there.
And it's a leap of faith,
when you believe there's someone out there,
it's a leap of faith when you believe that someone cares, oh,
and when I call out to you,
will you be right there?
Right there
And I'll be waiting by the window for your smile to come through,
and I'll be waiting in the darkness when I call out to you,
and I'll remember when you told me,
I could trust in you
And it's a leap of faith,
when you believe there's someone out there,
it's a leap of faith when you believe that someone cares, oh,
and when I call out to you,
will you be right there
It's a leap of faith,
and I believe that you are out there,
it's a leap of faith and I believe you truly care, oh,
and when I call out to you,
I know you'll be right there,
right there,
and it's a leap of faith.
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2004 17 April :: 8.33 pm
| Whats with you? | | Your name::: | eric michielutti flores | | Name you wish you had::: | i don't know | | Age::: | 16 | | Age you wish you were::: | 17 or 18 | | Number of sibling::: | 1 | | Number of siblings you'd like::: | i'm fine with one | | Your Opinions | | Is there anyone you're better than::: | no | | What kind of person do you consider yourself::: | pessimist, artistic, creative | | What do you enjoy doing most during a regular day::: | reading, writing, painting, drawing | | Who do you find most beautiful::: | certain people | | On a scale of 1 to 10, how sane are you, 1 being most sane::: | 9 | | How do you view the rest of the world::: | not very good | | How does the rest of the world view you::: | don't ask | | what controversal topic do you feel most strong about::: | communism | | What is heaven to you::: | a place | | This or That | | Life or death: | death | | Pain or ecstasy: | pain | | Tears or laughter: | tears | | Solitude or Company: | solitude | | Night or Day: | night | | Storm or Sunshine: | storm | | Cuts or Bruises: | cuts | | Cloths or nudity: | cloths | | Honesty or secrets: | honesty | | Humility or Criticism: | humility | | Dark or light: | dark | | Frail or strong: | frail | | Gentle or rough: | gentle | | Eccentric or normal: | eccentric | | Dreamer or realist: | dreamer | | Why not the random things | | Where is your happy place::: | the sea | | who makes you happiest::: | a few people | | Who makes you depressed::: | people | | Worst moment in your life::: | don't ask | | Best moment in your life::: | can't remember | | Most farfetched life goal::: | a quiet life with a family of my own, emphsis on family | | What do you try hardest to do::: | live | | What bad habit do you catch yourself doing most often::: | nail biting | | What irritates you most::: | people | | do you believe in true love?: | i used to |
Just to get you thinking... brought to you by BZOINK!
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2004 17 April :: 7.59 pm
ska on the beach: i havent painted in 4 days, im starting to feel very ineffectual
thescreamoamigo: i painted 3 days ago
ska on the beach: what did you paint
thescreamoamigo: something with the moon and the stars over farm-like horizon
ska on the beach: awesome
thescreamoamigo: i got bored
ska on the beach: good, you should get bored more often then
thescreamoamigo: lol
thescreamoamigo: i feel like doing something that some people would find very odd right now
ska on the beach: and what is that
thescreamoamigo: i want to like go out on a quick picnic type thing, watch the sun go down and fall asleep under the stars and moon with somone
thescreamoamigo: *someone
thescreamoamigo: but i have no one, so thats not going to happen
ska on the beach: i dont think thats odd
ska on the beach: it sounds nice
thescreamoamigo: well, thats good
ska on the beach: i wish i had someone to do that with too, actually
thescreamoamigo: yeah
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