:: 2004 15 March :: 4.46 pm
:: Mood: in a lot of fucking pain
:: Music: alkaline trio - bye bye love/alkaline trio - weak week

first breath after coma

:: 2004 11 March :: 9.07 pm
:: Mood: fuck you

If I gave you pretty enough words could you paint a picture of us that works? an emphasis on function rather than design.


spoon out my goddamn heart, i don't want the fucking thing anymore. I'll show you that place in my chest where my heart still tries to beat.







heres what came to mind and on paper last night.


what would you say if i asked you not to go
to forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me
would you take my hand and never let me go
promise me you'll never let me go

and the stars aren't out tonight,
but neither are we to look up at them
why does hello feel like goodbye?
these memories can't replace,
these wishes i wished and these dreams i chased
take this broken heart and make it right

i feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know,
you're not making this easy

i never thought i'd be the one to say
please don't, please don't leave me

i feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know,
you're not making this easy

you're not making this easy...

take my hand and never let me go,
promise me...
you'll never let go
make this last forever

i feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know, you're not making this easy

you're not making this easy

so i'll fall asleep tonight, because that brings me closer to you...

first breath after coma

:: 2004 7 March :: 12.33 am

Hold my hand
Cut my wrists
Bleed, to show you Im alive
Take this rusty knife
Carve to see inside
My guts will spill to show you Im alive
Your lips, so smooth to feel
Couldnt they be razor blades?
Bleed to know your real (bleed to know your real)




Discard
Discard the flames
And what are we left with, without love
(We're left with nothing)
Were left with nothing without love
And you
Can throw me in the fire
Flames that burn my face
Its all this I admire, its all this I admire

first breath after coma

:: 2004 6 March :: 10.54 am

Opening credits:	converge - the saddest day
Waking up:	coheed and cambria - an end to a beginning
Average day:	slow coming day - watching it fall apart
First date:	dashboard confessional - remember to breathe
Falling in love:	ben folds - the luckiest
Love scene:	further seems forever - new year's project
Fight scene:	taking back sunday - theres no "i" in team
Breaking up:	a static lullaby - lipgloss and letdown
Getting back together:	the lyndsay diaries - mixtapes and memories
Secret love:	something corporate - konstantine
Life's okay:	brand new - the no seatbelt song
Mental breakdown:	thursday - this song brought to you by a falling bomb
Driving:	thursday - understanding in a car crash
Learning a lesson:	a static lullaby - a sip of wine chased with cynanide
Deep thought:	thursday - mass as shadows
Flashback:	taking back sunday - the things we'll never know
Partying:	weezer - buddy holly
Happy dance:	the rocket summer - this is me
Regreting:	atreyu - lipgloss and black
Long night alone:	thursday - how long is the night
Death scene:	brand new - play crack the sky
Closing credits:	straylight run - existentialism on prom night

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i was bored.

first breath after coma

:: 2004 1 March :: 7.26 am

call me a safe bet, i'm betting i'm not.

first breath after coma

:: 2004 27 February :: 3.32 pm
:: Mood: bored

As if you were born into a world of tears, you
always tend to look at the darker things in
life. Inside you crave attention yet push away
society, and you're a hopeless romantic. Drawn
to things like the occult and mysteries, you
spend your time daydreaming.


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You are guided by darkness. Chances are you are
depressed, or you just always see things in a
negative point of view. You sit back and take
everything in. You are the gentle giant. But
one day you will snap. (Rate my test)


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i'm bored. jack called me at 1. i was awake but i didn't feel like answering the phone. he sang me a song, lol. and apparently i missed latino boxing.

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