Life Is An Ever Changing Road

:: 2007 11 February :: 6.02pm

best chart ever nate you will appericate this.

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Here are some videos also.

:: 2007 11 February :: 11.25pm

:: 2007 11 February :: 11.03pm

I am slowly getting pictures up. I remembered that I have a flikr account.

I am getting tired of naming them. Here they are. I am going to bed soon so I am stopping for the night.

:: 2007 11 February :: 9.49pm
:: Music: Take Your Medicine by Cloud Cult

You can take it in stride or you can take in right between your eyes
Cloud Cult released a new album! First priority (after chili dogs, cheesecakes and mad makeouts with Nick) once I get back. I hope not all that stuff happens on the same day because I am getting bloaty just thinking about it. Gross.

Anyway, you can stream some songs off their website so that is what I am doing to distract myself from my 8 o'clock class tomorrow (which requires me to get up at 6 and catch the bus at 7:03).

:: 2007 11 February :: 9.24pm

I went to two bars on Friday and a mod concert yesterday. Yes, I am still not drinking. Europe and the legal ability to drink won't change that.

I have been here just over two weeks and people are right, three weeks is the charm.

I am to get my first France period this week. I know you didn't need to know that but it is just one of the many things upsetting me. I would be so happy without this women thing. I think I am going to be constantly pregnant once I am married. Good plan.

I had couscous for the first time today. It was delicious but it is messing with my organs. That might be the impending woman doom though. The food here is beyond good. I will never be able to eat pudding cups or American desserts again.

I am going to eat a chili dog the second I get off that plane. Oh and a cinnabon. I am not going to be able to live this long without a chili dog. mmm Chicago style chili dog... Oh I also miss cheesecake and cake.

France is the best place ever but it can never be perfect without you. Everything is so beautiful but I can't enjoy it knowing you aren't and can't see what I see.

:: 2007 11 February :: 12.02pm

mmmm yota

:: 2007 11 February :: 2.29am

I don't have time for the trivial.

So serious, always.

I'm still in my 'mood'. I'm not sure where to seek a cure.

rayray

:: 2007 10 February :: 10.31pm

I'm a jack ass.
And damn proud of it.
I wish I had a theme song.
Perhaps I will right one later on tonight.

Anyway, I went back to work friday.
For how long, no one knows.
I go back monday to finish doing what I was doing friday.
Gauging hooks on springs is fun!
NOT!
I did well over 5,000 on friday.
I sat alone in a corner for 8 hours.

Booze cruisin' was in store for this evening.
But our parade got rained on.
More like stormed actually.
His daughter came over for a few hours, and by the time her mother picked her up, he was dead asleep.
And dead asleep is where he stays.
I'm not surprised though.

Tomorrow we have wrestling.
Yay! Not. I get to sit on hard bleachers for about 5 hours, trying to look interested in little boys touching each other.

Anyway, it's time to go see if maybe he'll wake up.

:: 2007 10 February :: 3.08pm
:: Mood: pensive

This is the moment that you know that you told her that you loved her, but you don't.
I felt so much better, but it was wrong. Not enough time for self-reflection. Too many people that aren't here.

I've been going through so many different 'moods'. I can't even explain.

...all i see are grey clouds...so when you asked if there's something wrong, you're damn right there is, but we can't talk about it now.

But it was vile, it was cheap, and you are beautiful, but you don't mean a thing to me.

but you have to trust me, that i don't mean You.

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:: 2007 10 February :: 11.28am

We have a break not this coming up week but the next. Laura, Bekka and I are going to go to London then Amsterdam for a few days then back to spend the rest of the week in London.

Everyone is all 'it is cold in London blah blah' but it is not like we don't come from Michigan or anything.

Anyway, that will be fun. English and all.

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:: 2007 9 February :: 11.51pm

Everyone left me. Coincidentally, my room is full of people.

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sugarjackj

:: 2007 9 February :: 10.48pm

I'm sitting here, and Steve-O Teft calls me.

Yeah, the same one I have not seen since sophomore year.

So were going to Frat lane.

hooray for old friends.

:: 2007 9 February :: 10.15am

wooo.
I'm RICH!

the US GOVT dropped a large sum of money into my checking account this morning :D

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:: 2007 8 February :: 11.31pm

I'm really quite anxious right now. I'm not quite sure why.

I have to take a fourty question test and write a one page paper

before i go to bed.

but it's okay, because I'm really anxious and I wouldn't be able to sleep anyway.

ello.

:: 2007 8 February :: 7.23am

man, getting dressed before i went to bed was such a good idea.
I just woke up, took a whore bath.

put some deo-for the beo on.
put my boots on and now i'm ready for class.
thanks courtany for waking my ass up this morning.

rayray

:: 2007 7 February :: 10.53pm

Today I got 2 kind of good phone calls.
The first one was from my mom.
Calls from her usually don't result in anything that makes me happy.
But I get to go work with her tomorrow and make money.
Kind of exciting. I get to answer phones.
It was more exciting to want to do, but now that i get to, im not so excited. haha
And I got a call from Vicki at Peoplelink and I go back to work on Friday!
So I'll hardly be online anymore, and very rarely will I be up past 9 haha.
Things are still good with Mike and I, even though we have had a couple of arguments this week.
He needs to learn to sleep.
And I need to leave him alone when he's trying to sleep. haha
Yeah buddy.

:: 2007 7 February :: 9.08pm

this is turning into a pic post now.

anyone know who's cat this is?

i took a picture of it along time ago and posted it in my woohu.

andy, this one's for you, definatally a good pic i think.

half of this thread got erased :( i'm a sad panda

here we go again

RUNAWAY RALPH!

Rache took the best pic of jay ever

its still in the basement

the last pic of my tasha dog... she's drinking kool-aid, it makes me sad i miss her. (she was actually my uncles, but she was great)

this entry is hilarious
" :: 2004 24 November :: 7.17 am

quote of the night

"at least let me put it in my mouth"

~mindy"

from my first trip ever to lima

when someone photoshopped the cutlass and nate thought it was real paint

DUREX!

andy's doba

I wish it still looked this good.

always a good day when you get 2 boxes from jegs

okay thats all for now.

:: 2007 7 February :: 6.25pm

i hate banks.

Fuck them all.

:: 2007 7 February :: 8.05pm

A guy drove by in a nice car with his windows down blasting Ohne Dich while I was waiting for the bus to go home.

It made me think of Katie which made me miss her which made me sad which made me want to go home.

In other news, classes are easy so far. Too easy.

And France, at least where I am, is the best place in the world.

Oh and Nick can't come visit so I am depressed. And I want to go home.

:: 2007 6 February :: 8.30pm

FIRE GOOOD!

:: 2007 6 February :: 10.58am
:: Mood: thoughtful
:: Music: Bright Eyes-True Blue

Is it moral to use the handicapped stall in a public bathroom if you're not handicapped?

These are the questions that keep me up at night.

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:: 2007 6 February :: 2.00am

i'd just like to make a note that you guys all suck at staying up and being online.

espically rache, i was just talkin to you then your like "i'm tired going to bed night" and bam your out.

i'm not tired, i'm just bored. somone get online and entertain me, some of you dont even have school tomorrow. gah!

/rant

i leave here thursday at like... 8:30 in the morning.

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:: 2007 5 February :: 11.11pm

I feel like crap. I've had a headache all day, and now I feel really queezy. Eh. I hope this isn't the norovirus.

:: 2007 5 February :: 10.28pm

i'm running out of moniter space, i want another one....
its awsome to have so many windows open at once.

:: 2007 5 February :: 8.37pm

i have rediscovered the fun in playdough.
rock on.

:: 2007 5 February :: 9.50pm

Today was my first day of school in France. So far it is waaaaaaaay easy. But I only had two classes. One, technically since it was the same prof but... they are still two different classes.

I live in the burbs and with class starting at 8, I woke up at 6 to catch the bus at 7. We had class from 8-12 then nothing so we went all over. I didn't buy any clothes today which is a good thing. I did buy a 5 euro crepe though. It was so good.

Anyway, every day is 100 percent better like I said but one thing can bring the whole day down. Today sort of crashed and burned. I am pretty sad now but I know tomorrow is another day and I am not going to die or anything.

Unless I die of a broken heart.

Or a plane crash.

Have fun in the snow, suckahs!

:: 2007 5 February :: 11.47am

i'm thinking baja truck....

:: 2007 5 February :: 2.10am
:: Music: MC pee pants (MC chris) - i want candy

so cold, i hate ohio so much, i'm definatally hoping school is cancelled tomorrow.

in other news, things are looking up in life for me.
I'm hopefully getting a truck this weekend.
I've got some hours at howies
going to hang out with some friends.
probably some sledding saturday night after i work.

but like AJ said earlier "What the fuck happened to global warming?"
its like 0 we dont have a tempature in lima i threw some water out on the side walk, come back like 30 seconds later and its ice
i'm betting my car wont start tomorrow to drive to class, and i definataly dont want to walk the 1/4 mile with no temprature. 1320 feet is way way to far in this weather.

anyways, i go to bed happy tonight.

rayray

:: 2007 4 February :: 5.27pm

So I am long overdue for a good rant.
I knew it was too good to be true that I was truly happy.
That all I did was smile.
And that we were getting along so good.
We aren't arguing.
Just creating a huge space.

I hate how when I leave for a few hours when him and his daughter are here, I come back to this place absolutly trashed.
It's fucking ridiculous how little control he has over her.
He doesn't pay any fucking attention to her and just lets her do whatever.
The last time I tried to say anything about it, I got my head bit off.
Not only is it that, she goes through ALL of my stuff.
When she takes a shower, she uses MY towel.
Hello, haven't you ever heard of getting one from the shelf with a TON of towels?
It's actually quite simple. I do it rather often.
I know she's 8 and I shouldn't be so pissed but for Christ Sakes.
When I was 8 years old, I was using my own towel.
Everytime she gets a glass of WATER, she gets different glass.
She attempted to make mac & cheese.
Eats ALL of our food.
It's insane.

What hurts most of all, is that he's not happy.
I try my hardest to make him happy.
I give him everything I can..
I'm not Paula, and I'm not Lori.
Nor will I ever be, and nor do I want to be even close.
For some god forsaken reason, he holds Paula on this pedistal above everyone else.
She cheated on her HUSBAND with Mike, and they had a kid together.

I'm not sure if its the PMS peaking through but I'm in such a terrible mood.
I cried the whole way home from my moms.
And I'm fighting back the tears right now.
Everything is going to fall to shit again.

:: 2007 4 February :: 2.17pm
:: Mood: calm

I am officially a Brother-In-Training for KKP. I had first degree, found out who my Big was, and got my pin. It's all very exciting.