Life Is An Ever Changing Road

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:: 2006 20 October :: 8.54am

uggghhh, more stress.

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:: 2006 18 October :: 8.40pm
:: Mood: nostalgic

Midterms are done. That's a definite relief. I've forfeited sleep a few nights for it. I don't think it was worth it. I felt a little overwhelmed with all of it, but it's better now knowing that I got an 88, and two 92's.

My first semester of college is half over with!

michelle

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:: 2006 18 October :: 3.31pm

so i hung out with gravy today, we ended up decided we're going to pay marini a visit, we get about half way there and my car runs out of gas (not my fault, fuel gauge doesn't work and the odometer doesn't work) but its my fault that i didn't have my phone on me, we ended up walking from peterson and meyers lake, up to young, down to 11 mile then to meyers lake and then finally to 10 mile, it was like a 6 mile walk... and it sucked, thank god i had some good company

:: 2006 18 October :: 3.02pm

Congratulations on your acceptance to Central Michigan University, Rueben.

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:: 2006 17 October :: 11.20pm

I am seriously stressing about France. I just completed my housing form and I sound so boring. I like books. I like to read. I am nice and smart. I like writing and playing video games. I have siblings.

I wouldn't want me to live with me.

Plus Nick me manque. I don't know how I'll be able to survive France if I can't survive a day.

I love my mom and my dad, by the way. I called home really quickly earlier (forgot my phone charger, I'm stupid) to tell my mom that the new Nancy Drew game was out and the first thing she said was "what's wrong." After a brief discussion about how they popped out this game faster than a baby and faster than the last game, she said my dad wanted to talk to me. My dad said that the son of one of his friends died of a drug overdose last night and I shouldn't do drugs. I assured him I wouldn't and he told me the kid was in Kalamazoo even. I thought back to sirens last night then reassured my father once more before asking him if he would be joining me to see Sherman Alexie tomorrow.

SPEAKING OF WHICH, I am going to see Sherman Alexie tomorrow so if you're in town and want to come along, call me.

I am going to go to the doctor and get my woman parts checked out next week or so. I also am going to stop taking the pill once my prescription runs out. I've been moody for the past month or so and I think the meds are behind it.

Also, once my passport arrives, I will be going to Chicago to apply for my French visa. It is going to be a pain in the ass.

I love you all.

P.S. I am visiting Katie. She is awesome and she knows cool people. Some girl from an apartment next door made a boob holder that didn't fit her so she gave it to me. I am wearing it and it is cool beans.

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:: 2006 18 October :: 5.58pm

I have the internet back!
Im happy.
I love my boyfriend.
And did I mention I have my internet back?

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:: 2006 17 October :: 4.46pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: whatevers playing on the ipod

hmm so .. i met this guy.. yeah awesome right. I'd really like to get things straight with bran and I, but no matter what I just can't be completely happy with him anymore. Lopez asked me what bran and I have in common.. it was hard to think of more that just a few superficial things. Bran and I are complete opposites. I just don't know if I want to end it and really end it after a year. Well, I'm going off to basic in january and will be gone for about 6 months. Lopez leaves the day before me and is only gone for 13 weeks. doesn't he suck. well... i've just been in one of these "i can't stop thinking" moods. I'm not sure what I want out of the men in my life. I don't want to make bran suffer anymore I know he can hardly handle me anymore. He hates my attitudes. I can't put up with his any more either. this is just bs. I just don't know what to do.well anyways i just thought I'd post since I haven't in ages.

:: 2006 16 October :: 6.16pm

where did everyone go?

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:: 2006 16 October :: 10.40am
:: Mood: drained

"Why it was that upon this beautiful feminine tissue, sensitive as gossamer and practically blank as snow as yet, there should have been traced such a course pattern as it was doomed to receive...An immeasurable social chasm was to divide our heroine's personality thereafter from that previous self of hers who stepped from her mother's door to try her fortune at Trantridge poultry-farm."

-from Tess of the D'Urbervilles by Thomas Hardy

:: 2006 16 October :: 12.15am

I need to go to sleep, but the urge is not there.

I did absolutely nothing today. Well, I moved my car, and watched Legally Blonde for the first time, but nothing as momentous as doing homework.

Nothing profound.

Nothing new.

Nothing good.

michelle

:: 2006 15 October :: 5.45pm

Yesterday was Nick's birthday and stuff.

He's old now. A whole not-teenage-age of 20.

:: 2006 15 October :: 2.52pm

i never knew how boring i am.

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:: 2006 15 October :: 1.48pm

Like...OH MY GOD.

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:: 2006 15 October :: 2.01am

After 22 years of waiting.

WE'RE GOING TO THE WORLD SERIES BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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:: 2006 14 October :: 4.47pm

i dont feel like going to work today...
damnit.

:: 2006 14 October :: 4.33pm

I have friendship pasteries. That excites me.

:: 2006 14 October :: 3.09pm

I bought fuzzy yarn with my casino winnings (yep, i won fourteen dollars at the casino last night). I'm making an exquisite scarf.

michelle

[edit] Jackie makes me cream my fuzzy pants, too.

:: 2006 13 October :: 5.08pm

Oh, I forgot to mention this.

Sherman Alexie will be speaking on Wednesday at 7 at GRCC. If I am home, I will be going. Hopefully my father will also attend so I don't have to drive.

:: 2006 13 October :: 4.56pm

I should really just go home.
For the trip to France, a professor always comes along for any amount of time from a few days to a week or so. I know I haven't expressed to any of you just how stressed I was about this particular situation but I feel that now that it has been resolved, I should fill you in.

The two candidates for the journey were the only two French professors. I will not name any names because this is THE INTERNET and my life is on public display. But I really wanted one professor to take us and I really didn't want the other one.

You see, I had heard stories about this other professor. These stories included multiple accounts of this professor leaving people behind and losing both people and luggage.

I wanted the professor who took people around on a bus all over France and bought them tea at cafes in Barcelona.

Well this week we were told that we would find out who was taking us. Today in class, at the very end, almost sheepishly, we found out who it would be. Thank goodness it turned out to be the one everyone wanted. You don't know how relieved everyone was today when it was announced. There were shouts, cheers and applause. I made sure to call my mom.

In other news, today began Fall Break. On Monday or so, I will be going to see Katie. I will return on Wednesday or Thursday and will work on Friday. I have papers to write so it won't be much fun.

I love you all.

:: 2006 13 October :: 4.36pm

So tired.......

I have to go get my car from the parking lot in hell, by the way, did you know hell is a long way from the towers? It is, because that's where my car is. Anyway, I have to move it before two am. I'm not sure why exactly two am, since the parking department doesn't even open until six, but anyway, I have to walk there, and get my car, and move it, and it's cold, and raining/snowing, and extraordinarily windy, and it all sucks a ton because I'm tired, and my good shoes (the shoes that don't have any holes in them, or the shoes without duct tape on them) are terrible for walking. I don't even know why they make them. They are the hardest things to walk in EVER. Well, except maybe heels, but you're not suppose to walk in heels, you're suppose to look pretty in heels, and why the hell am I talking about heels when I was talking about how my car is in the parking lot from hell?...

heels are from hell, too.

michelle

:: 2006 13 October :: 10.44am

Learn THE TRUTH about Dick DeVos:
"We're holding our Spring formal and my date is the Truth. Tonight we're going all the way." But before I begin, I'd like to apologize because I just realized that I am being mean to many republicans out there with this entry and that's just not who I am. I'd also like to apologize to Katie's roommate because I just discovered that she wrote this. I'm sorry.

Read more..

I love you all.

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:: 2006 12 October :: 5.10pm
:: Mood: curious

It snowed for the first time today as I was walking back from my speech class. I was walking, head down, secretly cursing being born in this state for just that reason, when I tried to think of something beautiful. It's the first snow, a rebirth, isolation, a new canvas, an immaculate blanket; so many things. But I couldn't, I just couldn't. There was nothing there. It was cold, and harsh, and the faster I walked toward the warmth, the farther away it seemed. I switched my hands, giving them each a turns to nestle in my coat pocket, and alternate holding my books. All I could focus on was the bestial instinct to seek warmth. There was no beauty there, only instinct. Nothing creative, nothing intelligent. One thought cursed through my slowing freezing blood-to find warmth. That's all that I wanted.

When I reached the doors, I rushed in, and instantly became overwhelmingly warm. I stood for a moment, and looked out at the blowing snow. I found only beauty in the sight, but only the pain of basic instinct in its throws.

michelle

:: 2006 12 October :: 12.01pm

i've got some sort of new goal, i want to hang out with all my old friends again, saterday was a fucking riot, i really did miss you guys alot. it felt good to hang out with everybody even though some dumb shit happend. But it was fun talking about paintball with jay and AJ, even though my gun is on Ebay right now.

it was really good times.
drinking and video games :D

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:: 2006 12 October :: 11.58am

cold, hungry, stupid car.

:: 2006 12 October :: 9.58am

So.

It's snowing and stuff.

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:: 2006 11 October :: 6.59pm

hey box, you remember that day we did donuts in rowlands field with the brown blazer and the wheel came lose?

Someone took a picture of it.

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:: 2006 10 October :: 10.14pm

:( dang stupid job effed up and now i have no offer....gahhhh

:: 2006 10 October :: 8.05pm
:: Mood: contemplative

I just got out of university band and walked over to the library where I await my english group. We have a presentation to start, and none of us are motivated whatsoever to begin.

Everything seems to be falling into place now. My financial aid is secured for the time being; I'll be recieving a refund check. Next semester will be just about perfect, depending on how many books I have to get. I can't wait to take a million english classes next semester. I went light on myself this semester because I wasn't sure what to expect. I know myself well enough to realize that even I can get overwhelmed. Now, I'm ready to take on some intellectual thought, I crave brain food. I want to not have enough time to do stupid things like party and watch movies. I want to be the girl who has one hundred pages to read everynight. I know I'll grumble about it then, but my most productive times are my happiest.

I see my reflection in the large window to my left painted above the shadows of the trees and the glow of the early night lights. It's so cold outside, but you wouldn't know it from where I sit. You have to get up, go down four flights of stairs, and open the door. The frigidness wil steal your breath away. But it's clean, and crisp, and smells of the dead, fragile leaves of autumn.

michelle

:: 2006 10 October :: 5.31pm

Who is driving?
BEAR IS DRIVING!

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:: 2006 9 October :: 1.11pm

yeah boy new job.....and at 10 dollars an hour yeah this is gonna rock hardcore......

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