Life Is An Ever Changing Road

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:: 2006 11 August :: 11.46am

:: 2006 12 August :: 9.37am

I hate stressing about things.
Because then I sit here and my heart starts racing.
And I start thinking about everything that is wrong, and all the things that could be wrong, should be wrong, and about to go wrong or that I feel like I have done wrong.
But honestly, I've done nothing wrong, I don't think there's anything wrong, there's probably a lot of things that could be wrong, not sure what should be wrong and who knows whats about to go wrong.
He doesn't come to bed right when he gets home, which is weird because he always has, even if it was just to lay with me for a little bit.
This morning he left without saying anything (on the bike leaving all his stuff) and when I called him, he sounded like there was something wrong.
But of course when I ask him about it, he says nothing.
Which leaves me here, thinking there's something wrong.
And I won't know if there really is something wrong until he gets back, and who knows what time that will be.
And of course I'll stay here waiting until he does get back to find out.
Because I am who I am, and I always think that the moment I leave when something is wrong, he's going to pack up all his stuff and just leave me.
I had a dream last night that Courtney asked him out and he told her to give him to the rest of the day to answer. And when he came home he grabbed some of his stuff and made that phone call.
And being that when I dream, it's like i'm having an actual conversation, I'm scared.
It makes me feel like we're falling apart. Or maybe I'm just being stupid and paranoid.

EDIT:So I get out of the shower and he's back home. And he's pissed off yet jumping with joy, because he got a letter from an impound saying that they have his truck. So we get to go pick up his truck and whatsuch.. Finally. Now I can give back the suburban, and my brother will get off my back! yay.

skife

:: 2006 10 August :: 11.46am

So yeah, I just told beth i didn't want to take her home, and she threw a tempertantrum and was kicking her feet on the bed and everything, you guys should have seen it, it was fucking great.

:: 2006 10 August :: 7.40am

She threw a fucking rock at us....

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angel_bob

:: 2006 9 August :: 9.07pm

TO ANYONE WHO HAS A CHILD, PLANS ON HAVING A CHILD OR IS GOING TO HAVE ONE SOON:

I can babysit.

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upchuck

:: 2006 9 August :: 4.58pm

Updating is fun.

Okay, so we set a date. I'm not going to post it because if you want to know you'll have to work very hard to track me down. Admit it, I'm a difficult person to get a hold of.

I also now have a cell phone. A phone that I am not allowed to use. My number is also secret. So your all going to have to work to find out my secrets.

More updates later, I hope.

:: 2006 9 August :: 4.44pm

interview tomorrow. dont care if i get it. have a good day everyone else

:: 2006 10 August :: 2.57pm

If I didn't have my boyfriend by my side, I'd completely lose all control.
As of today, my unemployment is up.
Went to peoplelink today, I have to go back tomorrow for safety orientation.
Hopefully they can place me somewhere right away.
My bank account is overdrawn so much.
Makes me cry.
My mom and I aren't talking.
Laundry needs to be done.
We might be moving.

:: 2006 8 August :: 12.17pm

Do you ever wonder what peoples lives would have been like if you wouldnt have gotten involved? I have.

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:: 2006 7 August :: 11.51pm

The last few days I've been helpnig my dad side his house.
It sucks major ass.
Friday Carley and Hilary came over. And we had fun.
Saturday night Mike, Leon, Wayne and Bowser and I went to Howard City to some anniversary party. It was kind of boring but we had our own fun.
Yesterday I went to my grandma's for awhile, and then I went back to my dads. Then Mike came over there and we went and got something to eat and then went to his uncle Tim's then we went back to my dads and watched a movie..
Which then left me reformatting my computer, losing all my pictures (well over 500) and all my music files (well over 300).
Sucks major ass.
And that about sums it all up..

:: 2006 4 August :: 8.57am

I'm home from camping. It was full of experiences, some of which I had never partaken in before.

It was extremely hot. I went swimming. I slept. I ate. I made friends. I fried criss cross potatoes in a wok.

milk....milk was a bad idea.

michelle

:: 2006 2 August :: 11.47pm

Talk about random things..
This is a text I got...
From: 63232
Beyonce Knowles was sued for 1.5 million dollars by a former business associate who claims she didn't compensate him financially on securing a business deal..
11:37pm 2-AUG-06

That and I love the movie The Good Girl.

skife

:: 2006 2 August :: 3.07pm

wow, i got 9 emails today from various forums telling me happy birthday.
i think its funny they were all the same message too
it was pretty much
"Hello skife,

We at (forum name) would like to wish you a happy birthday today!"

:: 2006 2 August :: 1.37pm

Trying to sleep off a headache is like the hardest thing to do when you can't seem to cool off and you keep being mauled by your boyfriend in his sleep, which makes you sweat more because he's sweating. For some reason it's not very cool in this apartment.. my a/c is on.. but you can't tell..

sugarjackj

:: 2006 31 July :: 9.41pm

Things are wonderful.

I'm almost set.

This is going to be an amazing thing for me. I'm so excited.

Friday night was a blast, and saturday after everything settled down, was super chill.

Kirah is one of the most amazing people i have ever met. In our nine years of being best friends we have never fought. She just reminded me how much our lives are just begining. And again, that some things will never change. I love her almost as much as i love my family. Its the most amazing thing ever.

I'm in a great mood, even though i hurt, a lot. At the hospital today, it was the most physical pain i have ever been in. I know my pain was nothing compaired to what my mom has been through. Even though she is weak, she is the strongest person i know. I thank God that she's here.

I know what i want, and im making it happen.

:)

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:: 2006 31 July :: 8.18pm

PLEASE TAKE INTEREST
i am selling the following.....

300 watt car amp for 25 dollars or best offer

sword for 50 dollars or best offer

video camera for 10 dollars or best offer

and be be gun for 25 dollars....

please take interest i really need the money

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:: 2006 31 July :: 7.42pm
:: Music: Doll - Foo Fighters

well i had a great interview..... i dunno what else i'm gonna do for the week. i dont know when i'll get to see my girl.

:: 2006 31 July :: 7.17pm

Camping with matt and rueben and katie and joe tomorrow.

ah the bliss.

eating mother's stir fry. tastes odd. first home cooked meal in days.

callouses forming on my finger tips. beautiful music to my ears.

Plan B may be available without a prescription.

michelle

:: 2006 31 July :: 1.12pm

Where to begin.
Friday I went to the drag strip with Mike, Jerry, Johnny, Cally, and Leon to watch Wayne and Busa Bob race. As well as all the others.
It was kind of boring. Woo watching people go down a straight track as fast as they can. Would have been better if there were more people racing.
Then we rode around downtown GR for awhile. When we were down by the Margarita grill, talking and trying to figure out where to go next, this drunk black guy walked up to Waynes bike, got on it, turned the key, put Wayne's helmet on and expected to just ride off with it. But Wayne ran over to his bike, took the key and the helmet off the guy and the guy just walked away. He deserved to get his ass beat.
I guess Lindsey and Courtney aren't friends anymore, all because Lindsey was talking to me, and realized that I'm not a bad person, that Courtney's just a dumb bitch.

Saturday Mike's daughter came over for a few hours. She was going to spend the night, but then she called her mom and was like will you come get me i want to come home. We still dont know why. It was her choice.

Yesterday Mike and I went to his Grandma's house becasue Stanley was being a douche bag and was in jail that morning. And so if Stanley screws up one more time, he's coming to stay with us until Will gets out of jail. The first time he pisses me off, he's gone.

And now I am sitting here watching Final Destination 3. I live a boring freaking life.

jedibumblebee

:: 2006 30 July :: 6.05pm

:: 2006 29 July :: 4.26pm

I am currently watching Footloose with Mike's daughter.
While he is out riding around on his bike.
I love how he calls me to tell me that he is going to spend time with his daughter today/night and she will be staying here and asks if i can go get her, and then when i get there he tells me that he's going to Ionia for a few hours..
Someone save me.

:: 2006 29 July :: 4.09am

life......is.......decent

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Angel_Bob

:: 2006 28 July :: 10.41pm

My FREE bumper sticker came in the mail today:

Yay for more liberal bumper stickers on my car!

And in related news:
Read more..

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:: 2006 28 July :: 10.29pm
:: Mood: depressed

I can't help but feel that I'm wasting my life.
I'm wasting my talent.
I'm wasting.

I'm wasted.

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jedibumblebee

:: 2006 28 July :: 11.45am

i had forgotten how fun this is...
Describe yourself using ONE BAND and only SONG TITLES from that band

Band :: Ben Folds
Are you male or female :: Zak and Sara
Describe yourself :: The Luckiest
How do some people feel about you :: You to Thank
How do you feel about yourself :: Not The Same
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend :: Gone
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend (husband) :: Sentimental Guy
Describe where you want to be :: Rockin the Suberbs
Describe what you want to be :: Fired
Describe how you live :: Still Fighting It
Describe how you love :: Trusted
Share a few words of wisdom :: Give Judy My Notice

Band :: Barenaked Ladies
Are you male or female :: I'll Be That Girl
Describe yourself :: Alternative Girlfriend
How do some people feel about you :: Never is Enough
How do you feel about yourself :: Some Fantastic
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend :: Long Way Back Home
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend (husband) :: Falling for the First Time, I Love You
Describe where you want to be :: The Old Apartment
Describe what you want to be :: Celebrity
Describe how you live :: Off the Hook
Describe how you love :: It's All Been Done
Share a few words of wisdom :: This Is Where It Ends

Band :: Cat Stevens
Are you male or female :: Kitty
Describe yourself :: (I Never Wanted To) Be A Star
How do some people feel about you :: The Tramp
How do you feel about yourself :: Oh Very Young
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend :: I Love Them All
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend (husband) :: Here Comes My Baby
Describe where you want to be :: Home In The Sky, Miles From Nowhere
Describe what you want to be :: Here Comes My Wife
Describe how you live :: I Wish, I Wish
Describe how you love :: Wild World
Share a few words of wisdom :: If You Wanna Sing Out, Sing Out

sugarjackj

:: 2006 28 July :: 10.52am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Eagles of Death Metal

*SARCASIM*

Lance Bass is gay.....

Who knew?

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:: 2006 28 July :: 7.18am

Everything = A big cluster-fuck of chaos.
I made a kick ass CD last night.
Don't have a vehicle to listen to it in when I'm cruisin' around.
Just when I think that my boyfriend is too serious, he surprises me.
We were watching tv yesterday and out of the blue he asks one of the most random questions possible.
"Do you think midgets have midget cocks? 'cause if you think about it, if they were big then they'd trip on it or something."
I didn't have an answer for him because i was laughing to dang hard.
Also made me wonder why he was thinking about midgets and their penis'.
We've also become quite the gameshow junkies.
Quite pathetic if you ask me.
CSI and Any gameshow that is on when CSI isn't, make up our lives.

AhhhhhHHHHhhhhhhHHHHhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHhhhh...

sugarjackj

:: 2006 26 July :: 7.29pm

Sooo........

French is hard.

And and ugly language. Really it is. I dont understand why people like it so much.

Angel_Bob

:: 2006 26 July :: 7.28pm
:: Music: Murder She Wrote

Little Miss Sunshine release schedule:

Read more..

So it looks like I'm waiting until the 18th. Unless people want to make it a road trip and go to Ann Arbor. I love Ann Arbor and I love people so that would be awesome but it still wouldn't happen until after the 11th.

I love you all.

:: 2006 26 July :: 6.27pm
:: Mood: worried

I had a picnic with Kae and Aaron today.

Lovely rain.

I would be a toaster, so I could take two slices at once.

Sometimes I catch a glimpse,
Of the world which I see,
A beautiful scene, magical,
You could never know what I mean.

"Sometimes I think this cycle never ends, we slide from top to bottom then we turn and climb again..."

I listened to Transatlanticism for the first time today. It was beautiful.