Life Is An Ever Changing Road

:: 2006 25 July :: 9.08pm

PICK UP YOUR FUCKING PHONE!

:: 2006 24 July :: 11.28pm

I know I know,
I need to clean up my mouth.

*not good*

upchuck

:: 2006 24 July :: 10.00pm

So I'm sitting here at Mica's and we're looking for wedding music.

Today she listened to some of the classic songs, and she didn't like them. I too think the traditional stuff is just a little too stuffy for us. Does anyone have any good ideas on wedding music for the cermemony itself. We will be good on reception music, due to our unique and diverse musical taste.

skife

:: 2006 24 July :: 9.41pm

So yeah, I've decided i'm not happy with my live at all
beth makes me happy.
my job doesn't
the way i live doesn't
i wish i could go back 2 or 3 years and fix some shit i fucked up.
i feel all stressed out and i shouldn't be at all
i'm losing my mind right now.
6 days of work a week is a pain in the ass right now, its killing me.
help me

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jedibumblebee

:: 2006 24 July :: 8.19pm

Best Paul Quote Ever:

"I've been in love with you for so long that I'm starting to understand country music!"

:: 2006 24 July :: 12.10pm

If Mike and I got married, PJ FRENCH and I would be cousins by marriage. hehe

skife

:: 2006 23 July :: 8.51pm

couldn't break the t-maxx today.
10+ feet of air at about 30 feet long.
landed fine this was at full throttle too.

:: 2006 23 July :: 2.16pm

I have a new interest in Motorcycles.
Last night Mike and I were talking about how we could get 2500 bucks to buy a Kawasaki ZX6E Ninja. For ME! :)
That way I can learn to ride.
Last night was so much fun riding even though Courtney kept calling all the guys to come get her and no one would. They'd all say "we'll be there in a minute" and never go. They all new how I felt about her, because I voiced my opinion of her rather loudly at the beginning of the night when she tried to hang all over Mike. At the end of the night I was told I was much better company than her.

Yay. Im bored.

joeydomina

:: 2006 23 July :: 12.12pm
:: Mood: Eh.
:: Music: Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars

I Dont Know
well i dont really know why i'm feeling the way i have been lately. being nice is just not cutting it for me anymore so maybe i should just be a normal person. then maybe i might be treated like everyone else is. my entries lately are meaningless and unpoetic but yet are thoughtful. why is that? oh well i dont really know anything about anything anymore.

m&ms487

:: 2006 22 July :: 6.46am
:: Mood: listless

I haven't slept in 28 hours, and if I go to bed soon I'm looking at about four hours of sleep before the park picnic and then work until 10 tonight.

I had my CMU orientation yesterday morning. Very informative. I got some of the classes I wanted, the others I dropped and added the correct ones. Twelve credit hours, not bad.

BIO 101 (and lab)
CSP 10something (computers and society, i know...but i had to fill a gen ed requirement)
ENG 235 American Literature
COM10something, intro to speech and communications.

All fun things. No ensembles, no music classes right now. Because I had to change schools so quickly, I can't be in their music program until next year. However, I may still pick up my entry level music classes and an ensemble next semester, until then, studying by myself is the only option I have.

We went to IHOP and played mau. I drank real coffee for the first time in my life, with a lot of cream and sugar mind you. The waiter made us triple strength coffee (three bags of coffee grounds in the pot). That shit really gets you. I believe that is the reason why I am not tired at this time.

Driving home from IHOP I witness the most beautiful sunrise, so, I took out my writing journal and compiled a few thoughts I will share with you here.

July 22 2006 6:30a

The dew soaks thorugh my clothing as I sit here, witness to this event. So few times have I been so aware of this constant change of my home. Something so beautiful would be more cherished if it were rare. We prize the true diamond because it is rare, but would we not just as easily be careless with it if it were common to us? Would we not use it as an adornment fabricated to eventually break to keep the economy going. The slogan would not be "Diamonds are Forever," rather they would be quite common place and often disposed of, losing all significance of importance. Beauty is only acclaimed in the rarest of forms. A perfect sunflower is often only left for the birds to admire.

This magnificent event before me may be prized by another people, another culture, because of its rarity, such as in the north. The sun sets for half the year, and is risen for half the year. Do you think they are not joyous after six months of darkness when the sun rises, illuminating their world? It seems beauty and admiration are only warrented for the rare, but never the equally admirable but common.

-michelle

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upchuck

:: 2006 22 July :: 12.27am

So, I got rejected on that State Department exam thingy. Oh well. I thought it would be cool but I wasn't really counting on it.

On a happier note, I got a five out of five on my assignment for SS300. That's five percent because the prof works on a strict 100 point scale. I also got 21 out of 25 on my midterm. Not bad, expecially considering the calss average was a full letter grade worse (18 of 25). I guess that's all, now just one more job option closed.

Did I mention I was looking for a job? Oh yeah, I am, despite the fact I already have one. Want mine? Trust me, you don't want it.

:: 2006 20 July :: 2.30pm
:: Mood: Angry
:: Music: I loved her first - Heartland

Sometimes I wish I was a rock because then it'd actually hurt when I hit people..
In recent news, I can't stand my mother.
However, I suppose that isn't recent news now is it?
Another reason why I don't want to get married or have kids, and if I do get married, I am going to elope (sp?), is that I can't stand the tension between my parents. That and I'm always dragged into the middle of their fights.
He still loves her, but talks shit about her to keep from admiting it.
She's a lying self center alcoholic i can't live without pot/cigarettes tramp.
Yes, I just called my mother a tramp.
I have sent my resume to several places.
Still nothing.
There's probably enough gas in the burban to get to the gas station.
I won't have money for about a week.
I hate struggling.
But I'm not the only one in my family that is.
My dad seems to be the only one that is financially stable but lives like he's poor.
Even under all this stress and anger towards my mother, I am still incredibly happy.
After being torn apart and knocked down by my mother, I am still standing strong.
But under that layer of happiness, there's nothing but tears.
I hate emotions.

:: 2006 19 July :: 1.49pm

Nothing like being woke up from a nap to a big burly old man knocking on your door to tell you that you have to get out of your apartment ASAP because there's a natural gas leak in the building behind you.
When I got downstairs there were cops and fire trucks everywhere. And I could hear this really loud leaking noise (the gas leak).
Kind of scary. Now I have a headache and my stomach hurts.
But I have cable TV now.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 18 July :: 11.34pm

Bleh.

I worked for five hours today, over 6 yesterday and Sunday.

I don't even know what day it is anymore.

Tomorrow I work at school for five hours (sitting down! excitement!), Thursday I work both school and Meijer (all day school 9-5 and 6:30 to 11 at Meijer) then I work all day at school then at Meijer (9-4:30 at school and 8 or 8 and a half to midnight).

I'm almost to the weekend. As I mentioned before, Nick and I are going to Cleveland on Saturday. His work has some celebratory "we rock at making money" thing. We'll be leaving at 10 in the morning on Saturday and returning at some random time on Sunday. Yay, weekend with the boyfriend.

This was pretty pointless and you didn't really learn anything.

Oh, I'm EXAUSTED and SORE ALL OVER.

I love you all.

P.S. I almost forgot. Working last night at Meijer, the electricity went out at about a quarter to 10. It was neat because everything went really dark except my little cashier screen and then the generator power came on and it was really quiet. Driving home was awesome! It was constant thunder and lightning with a teeny bit of rain but the roads were soaked. My windshield wipers had this neat strobe effect.

P.P.S. I'm excited about tomorrow. Episode two of the new season of Project Runway and no Meijer work. Booyaka.

P.P.P.S I forgot. Geoducks look like giant penises.

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m&ms487

:: 2006 18 July :: 10.27pm

why do i keep on missing everything?

why do i ruin everything?

why?

:: 2006 18 July :: 12.51pm
:: Mood: Ecstatic
:: Music: Crazy Bitch - Buckcherry

I love rainy nights..
Last night the storm was amazing.
We kept losing power about every 15 minutes for like 5 minutes at a time from about the time the storm started til about 4 this morning.
After two hours of that, Mike and I just decided to leave the tv off and the lights and sit in candlelight playing games on our phones and talking.
We wrestled for like an hour too. I tried to prove that I had a little bit of strength in me. ha ha.
He got laid off... for a day.
So he went back to work today, but it was so nice spending the day with him yesterday.
I cooked lunch, and we had fun. We didn't argue until later when we both got home. I had a moment of crabbiness. Not sure why. But he went and got us some food before the storm hit. And things were fine again.
I still haven't decided how I am going to get my hair cut. Perhaps just a trim will suffice.
I need to quit being lazy, and get a job. ha ha.

jedibumblebee

:: 2006 17 July :: 6.33pm

This is what happens when I forget to put the laundry away.

Read more..

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:: 2006 17 July :: 2.19pm

Does anyone have a gun?

Because I want to shoot myself in the head.

*boom*

:: 2006 17 July :: 1.19pm

Yes I said shit, god-damn.

I'm a man, I'm a man.

:: 2006 17 July :: 12.54pm

So obviously my boyfriend either cares about whether or not I live through this crappy heat or he just wants me to put more clothes on so we can have people over.. hahaha He decided to put the air conditioner in.. Even though maintainance was supposed to do it and rape us of our money that we do not have.. bastards.. hahaha

So now it is getting cooler in here as we speak and i am happy..

joeydomina

:: 2006 17 July :: 7.03am

ok well i went to this website that they had on wzzm and it said that i look 75% like Carl Sagan. Who the hell is Carl Sagan? try it out and tell me who you look like.

http://www.myheritage.com

oh you also have to sign up to use it...a small price to pay

angel_bob

:: 2006 16 July :: 10.22am

Layout, FTW.

upchuck

:: 2006 16 July :: 3.05am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: "Swamp Music" Skynyrd

So, I'm very tired right now. Jessa can attest to the rambling discourse that comes out of my fingertips tonight. It make take the form of fully formed sentences, punctuated in strange ways, or short choppy sentences. Ones which really aren't, not should they be............. and lots of ......'s

Anywho. When looking at places for receptions today. With Mica, my fiancee. Her sister and her friend Johanna (friend, not sister).

Then Mica went dress shopping. I almost cried when she left. Even the thought of her being in a wedding dress makes me all taery eyed. It makes me think of what that day is going to be like (don't worry, long ways off, in normal terms). But I just can't think of what it will be like when I see her for real. I don't know how I am going to make it. I guess I'll just have to do my best.

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jedibumblebee

:: 2006 15 July :: 6.23pm
:: Mood: busy
:: Music: Barenaked Ladies- Be My Yoko Ono

"..it doesnt seem to me to be such a pain, to have you hanging off my ankle like some kind of ball and chain..."
Three weeks! EEEE!

The to-do list is down to a mere 39 items. Which is still stressing me out, but well, you know. Thats how I roll, yo.

I think I'm going crazy.

I wish I had some more friends, or didn't lose track of some of the old ones. But then again I think about how difficult it is to keep up with the friends I am "close" with right now. So maybe being social is not really my nature.

Is anyone a good artist? I need help painting a mailbox.

angel_bob

:: 2006 15 July :: 11.45am

Blah.

I really don't feel like sticking out at Meijer until school starts. I hate it. I'm tired and then I get home and I can't sleep. Then I'm just sore the next day.

I'm going with Nick to Cleveland this weekend. His work is having some thing down there and I'm going along. It'll be fun. If I can just survive this week.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2006 14 July :: 3.22pm

I want a Brompton bicycle. They fold (!) and look really dorky.

:: 2006 14 July :: 2.55pm

Trimspa baby!

Yeah, we'll see.

...

:: 2006 14 July :: 9.26am
:: Mood: Incomplete.
:: Music: If I Close My Eyes : Reina

It seems like yesterday I was daddy's little girl..
Today is another one of those days where I'm awake at 6 o'clock. You'd think I'd accomplish more on these days. However all I do accomplish is nothing. Haha funny how that works out. This morning was different however. Actually, the whole night was different. It was too hot to cuddle. So we did everything possible to make it cold in there so that we could. Neither of us can sleep if we aren't touching each other. We slept in the same postition all night long. That never happens. And when he moved to turn his alarm off, I instantly woke up. And have been awake since. I didn't want him to go to work. I tried wrapped myself around him to try and make him stay. But it didn't work. He has to go to work. And now I sit here trying my hardest to not text him or call him. I know that sooner or later he will text me or call me. It makes me feel like we're a pathetic old couple or something. If I don't text or call him by a certain time, he calls me. Or if he misses me and doesn't want to admit it, he'll call to see what's up. Like Sunday I think it was he called me like 4 times. And it bugged him that I wasn't at home missing him. I was actually out and about.

I feel like I've let my family down. Especially my sister. I keep thinking that if I had moved to Ohio when I graduated to live with my sister, that things would be better than they are now. (Not that there is anything wrong with my life right now, I'm incredibly happy). I feel like I've let her and Derrick down, because I haven't gone to college yet. And I know how much they want me to. I don't like that feeling. Making my sister happy, and proud of me, means more than making my mom happy and proud of me. I chose a mediocre job that I no longer have, over college. And now I'm choosing what I feel like is love, over pretty much everything else. I'm living this life that most 19 year old don't live until their atleast 22. If I have kids, it won't be until after I'm married. And I don't want to get married, atleast anytime soon.

There's moment where I feel like giving up and just running away, but then I think of what I've got and who comes home to me everyday, who I have to sleep next to every night, and I couldn't be happier. I wouldn't change it for anything. Even though I hate my apartment more than anything, I absolutly love the life I've created. And who I've created it with.

Oh yeah, and I'm getting a hair cut.. I need ideas.

:: 2006 14 July :: 9.28am

Emo emo emo.....

Never will happiness return to my heart!
See? See these tears that flow, beloved, for you alone.