Life Is An Ever Changing Road

:: 2006 13 July :: 2.08pm

I have a job offer from one of the coolest places in the world......

GUITAR CENTER!!!!!!!

i'm supposed to go and talk to the manager about it tomorrow. its not even an interview its a straightup offer skipping the interview process.... yay

skife

:: 2006 12 July :: 8.41pm

i'm in a bad mood today, i dont know why.

allyson

:: 2006 12 July :: 12.13pm

Wedding and now..
I can't believe how much has happened since I last wrote. My grandpa L died on the 21st of February.. It needed to happen. It was a relief that he finally made it. He was so sick all the time. Then.. my other grandpa died one week before my wedding. One week before. Totally unexpected. They found out he had pancreaitis and I guess it burst causing all the stuff inside to spill out. It effected all of his organs and they basically had him knocked out and on life support for three days when finally he gave up.

On to good news, Jared and I got married on the 27th of May. I couldn't have asked for a more perfect day. Jared could have. It was about 85 degrees and sunny as hell. He was in two maybe even three layers of a tux. THrere was some drama with christy finding out that she wasn't the maid of honor and my best friend who flew up from arizona was. But she ended up showing up. Anyways, we picked morgan up friday and went to help set up for our reception and then was the rehersal which.. everyone was late for pretty much. Then dinner after that. what fun.. haha. I was upset at how dumb jared's mom can be when it comes to morgan. It's like she could not allow her to be with my parents or something. There was an open seat next to them but she had to squeeze in a chair next to her which happened to be at the corner edge of the table where I was sitting. HOw ridiculous. Anyways, we left that and I got my nails done and we went to lansing to pick kaleea up at the airport. we got back home at like 11 and guess what.?!?! Our cat was in labor. She was bleeding all over our room all day. It really wasn't that bad though. there was just a cuople spots that were relatively easy to clean. She finally had them by 8 in the morning the next day. We got woke up at six that morning though because jared's mom was going tot he hospital and for some reason they couldn't drop morgan off at my parents house they had to have jared drive all the way to belding to drop her off five miles away from their house and him drive all the way back. I was pissed. It's not like we can relive that day over again... It sucked. Just like our reception. No one even paid attentiont o us or even my brother when he gave his awesome toast. They all just kept right on talking. Anyways...

Sunday we were late dropping Kaleea off at the airport she had about 15 minutes to make it through everything but she made it so that was good. then... when jessica came to pick up morgan she had to bitch at us for like ten minutes about no seeing her all weekend and blah blah blah her crying and being dramatic of course. So that was my crazy weekend.

We left monday for our honeymoon. It took us two days to get there and we staying in Manhatten haha.. kansas. We thought that was funny. we video taped pretty much the whole way down and while we were there. It was fun and beautiful. I miss it. THe animals the sunrises and sunsets. Amazing. I wish I was there right now. While we were there it was really hot like.. over 100 degrees hot. we went up to the mountains on those days. We went all the way to cottonwood pass. There was still snow up there. The air was so thin that I was dizzy and had a headache the whole time we climbed around. We also went up to the castle again and had a picnic on Lake San Isabel. We also went to the pueblo zoo! It was so much fun. We went to the colorado city pool although we didn't go swimming because it was so confusing on where to go. Let's see we ate out at fazolis and a really good place called black eyed pea and also maxes. We left on a sunday because we planned on moving out of the house in rockford as soon as we got back. We started packing the following day. We got most of our stuff out with out idiot lance suspecting a thing. Then he realized what was going on and there were some arguments and basically he kciked us out and I told him we'd see him in court then. So that was that and now I'm babysitting for my brother and living with my parents.. .with jared of course.

Bad news. I have high grade cells in my cervix.. and they are progressing. I have to get a colposcopy or whatever and decide what to do with those cells and how to remove them.

:: 2006 12 July :: 10.31am

wow i cant believe that close to hearing it...... wow

:: 2006 11 July :: 9.54pm

It's in Life...

IF

:: 2006 11 July :: 8.24am
:: Mood: *awake*
:: Music: *jolene - mindy smith*

*the sun rises as i sleep, but i watch it intently as it starts to peek*
Lately my emotions have been more in the blah state. I have no reason not to be happy. However I don't have any particular reason to express my happiness. Well, no new reasons anyway. I think it may have to do with being a female. Oh well. I'm working on not being as insecure. It's taking longer than I want it to. But obviously you can't rush a feeling like that away. It just doesn't disappear. As much as I wish it did, I will have to deal. I think I'm still in shock that this is my longest relationship and I haven't tried to run away from it. There are moments where I piss him off intentionally just to test him. I'm really surprised that he's still with me and still wants to be with me, after all the shit that has gone on in the last 8+ months. I'm getting used to this whole 'mom' thing. Slowly. I'm still unsure of a few things. And it'd probably be easier, a lot easier if she were younger. Also, it'd probably be easier if she were mine. But I guess I'll have to deal with that as well. Then again, I'm trying not to get too attached, because you never know what may happen. As happy as we are, things could be over just like that.

Anyway.. I hate being up early. It makes my day feel even more pointless. More time to sit on my ass and think about what to do. More time to stress about finances. Not having a job. More time to spend thinking about things that 'normal' people don't think about. To clean an apartment that I despise. I need a hobby. I started a puzzle. I seemed to have lost interest in it. Most likely because there are a few edge pieces missing, I get bored easily, and I think I have A.D.D.. I'm reading a book, but I only read when I'm in the tub, because it's the only place I seem to be able to focus enough to actually comprehend what is going on in the book. It's sad really.

My eyes burn when I wear my glasses and I'm more tired. My eyes burn when I wear my contacts. There seems to be no happy medium. And its like the worst feeling in the world. It feels like someone is taking grains of salt/sand and rubbing them across my eyes.

My hatred towards Courtney has grown these past few days. I don't know why I get so pissed. If he wanted to be with her like she claims he does, then he'd obviously be with her instead of me. But clearly he's not. She's like mom in a way. Once things are going great and there's a friendly atmosphere, she fucks it all up. This whole situation reminds me of the song Jolene.

Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
I'm begging of you, please don't take my man
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
Please don't take him just because you can

~~Your beauty is beyond compare~~
With flaming locks of auburn hair
With ivory skin and eyes of emerald green
~~Your smile is like a breath of spring~~
Your voice is soft like summer rain
And I cannot compete with you, Jolene

He talks about you in his sleep
And there's nothing I can do to keep
From crying when he calls your name, Jolene
But I can easily understand
How you could easily take my man
But you don't know what he means to me, Jolene

Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
I'm begging of you, please don't take my man
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
Please don't take him just because you can

You could have your choice of men
But I could never love again
He's the only one for me, Jolene
I had to have this talk with you
My happiness depends on you
And whatever you decide to do, Jolene

Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
I'm begging of you, please don't take my man
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
Please don't take him just because you can

Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
I'm begging of you, please don't take my man
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
Please don't take him even though you can
Jolene, Jolene

Sadly this is what my life consists of. Fighting her off, watching music videios and finding songs to fit my mood.

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:: 2006 10 July :: 8.13am

Today is 10 months for Jess and I. It only seems like yesterday I got to spend time with her for the first time. I can't believe it.

Joey

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:: 2006 8 July :: 9.20am

Second job went okay last night. I was so stressed out once that I cried and had to sit down. The night went quickly, hopefully today and tomorrow and Monday will too.

I need a hug.

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'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

:: 2006 7 July :: 4.45pm

how funny is this

:: 2006 7 July :: 1.11pm

A proof (!) in pictures (!):

Read more..

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:: 2006 7 July :: 12.08pm

You suck.

:: 2006 7 July :: 11.35am

When did Becky's mom pass away?

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1010101

:: 2006 7 July :: 1.28am

Well, not sure if anyone here even knew I had a girlfriend to begin with since I never really posted on the matter here anyways, but I don't know. The relationship lasted all of 18 days. Kind of pathetic really.

And now the search for a girl continues. Quite annoying really.

Though, on the plus side, it was a very gentle almost mutual breakup. Aaaand, I'm single again! woo..?

Ah well, in any case I'll live.

Other highlights of the day include:
-Acing my last calc quiz
-Hitting my first animal on the road today (an american woodcock (see my xanga for full details)
-Coming up with a new novel ideal (and this one is really good, possibly replacing my original project II)

Also, I'm starting to really think that I may need glasses. As I type, I can barely focus on the letters, and every now and then I find myself unable to read a word. And I'm only sitting 3 feet from the screen tops.

And, that's all for now.
Va con dios mis amigos.

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:: 2006 6 July :: 9.48pm

I hit my first woodland creature today.

I cried and called Nick. He reassured me that the poor chipmunk had cancer and I relieved it from its suffering.

I didn't get a chance to brake.

Read more..

I have on the job training tomorrow. So basically my first day of my second job. I'm nervous.

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:: 2006 5 July :: 10.51pm

I know something happend.

I'm just trying to figure out what.

:s

:: 2006 5 July :: 6.01pm

Yesterday Mike and I moved the rest of his stuff in.
My apartment is finally starting to look right..
My living room actually looks like a living room, its not bare anymore.. Still don't have a couch though.
And I've been doing a lot of cleaning.
My fish keep dying.
I clean the tank and they die one by one..
It's retarded..
And right now I am talking to Mike the guy from Tech/Petosky..
It's weird.. haha

Angel_Bob

:: 2006 5 July :: 4.55pm

I'm so tired. I have training again today, I don't know what else we need to learn.

Tired...

:: 2006 5 July :: 3.00pm
:: Mood: irritated

I second Sydney with the one word.

FUCK

Angel_Bob

:: 2006 4 July :: 4.14pm

I guess I passed out yesterday or something. I insist that I just fell but Nick says it sounds like I passed out.

And that's what everyone has been talking about it as.

I haven't told my parents.

It was embarrassing.

I love you all.

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:: 2006 4 July :: 5.01am

It's to late. I should get some sleep but that involves going to bed or else i just pass out right here. i dunno i have my choices.

Joey

:: 2006 4 July :: 1.56am

well i've been trying to get the sound of superman songs from superman returns and yeah its not working to well. kinda upsetting me a bit. oh well. what else. oh happy 4th of july, if anyone's going to sand lake let me know. i'll be there. where i'm not sure but i'll be there. great to see ya'll talk to you later. peace out. JOey

:: 2006 3 July :: 10.00pm

People really piss me off. Especially those who know you're right but won't admit it so they insist on starting a fight. It's completely fucking retarded. And she's a total CUNT!. Yes, Im not afraid to say it. And I know most of you hate the word. But it best describes this person.

:: 2006 3 July :: 9.25am

"It is not time or opportunity that is to determine intimacy; it is disposition alone. Seven years would be insufficient to make some people acquainted with each other, and seven days are more than enough for others."

:: 2006 2 July :: 10.17pm

Jacqulyn --

[adjective]:

Extremely extreme!

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Its funny because of our "SUPER EXTREME GLOW BOWLING!!!!!"

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:: 2006 2 July :: 8.08pm

Some of you know, that I have incredibly screwed up dreams.. Well last night was a series of them. None of them had to do with each other either. Anyway.. The one that was the strangest, was Tony killed himself in downtown GR, and ended up being Mike's brother. And we tried to save him by using cheese to absorb some of the blood. However, it didn't work. And when we got back to my apartment, Jessa, Marty and Clem were here with like 6 other people having a party celebrating Jessa and Marty working through their marital problems. And when I told Jessa about Marty, it didn't seem to affect her. But when I came back from telling everyone else, she was in the corner selling girl scout cookies.

Not sure what the whole dream meant.. but whatever.

Angel_Bob

:: 2006 30 June :: 2.59pm

I am an official member of:

And we are welcoming visitors and new members.

(We will be updating our graphic when time is available to do so/when I'm home.)

skife

:: 2006 30 June :: 5.47am

this is for AJ
http://www.freephotosandvideos.com/videos.php?vid=TerqsvsK9Ec&t=Night%20Ranger%20-%20Sister%20Christian

skife

:: 2006 30 June :: 5.42am
:: Music: the shanty(the friday song) Jonathan edwards

its friday finally.
Gonna sit down in the kitchen
And fix me something good to eat
And make my head a little high
And make this whole day complete
Cuz we gonna lay around the shanty, mama
And put a good buzz on

Well pass it to me baby
Pass it to me slow
We'll take time out to smile a little
Before we let it go
Cuz we gonna lay around the shanty, mama
And put a good buzz on

Well there ain't nothin' to do
And there's always room for more
Fill it, light it, shut up
And close the door
Cuz we gonna lay around the shanty, mama
And put a good buzz on

We gonna sit around the kitchen
Fix us somethin' good to eat
And make ourselves a little high
And make the whole day complete
Cuz we gonna lay around the shanty, mama
And put a good buzz on
Cuz we gonna lay around the shanty, mama
And put a good buzz on

They after i actually looked up the lyrics to this song, i realised its about smoking weed. HA!

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:: 2006 30 June :: 2.40am

The second time is just as good as the first..... to bad there were douche's who watched it too. damn them for being a douche. oh well. hehe thanks for going guys. great to have someone who actually calls to include me in things. thanks again.

Joey