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xobabiphatox

:: 2003 22 December :: 8.49pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: fear factor ppl screamin..along wit me and my mom

<333
..i'm talking to him*!! =D
aahh...that was nastay wit dem eatin spiders yo! ...more later..time for football...he so saxi =D

*me

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:: 2003 21 December :: 10.02pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: Beyonce`* Be With You

Woo! four months!
Lushuz X anjeL: what did u think of him! :-)
TaylorDuzer: uhh
TaylorDuzer: i dont kno him but from a physical aspect
TaylorDuzer: hes rather attractive
Lushuz X anjeL: lol
TaylorDuzer: lol... thats my way of saying he is cute
Lushuz X anjeL: i noe

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me + michele were talkin for like 1½ hours it was halarious..den I was talkin to LaShanna, Pookie, Emu, Pooh, Chuckie, Ashley, Ashley D, and of coursee....Ashley Taylor!

get better Cristina & Pooh and my grandma, mah uncle, and mah baby bro!

::finds a bottle of bacardi:: "mom i thought u said u didn't drink tonight" "since when did u start drinking" "i don't drink! it was next to the little oven on the counter" "did jerry come over?" "no..." "so when did you start drinking?" "i don't drink!" ::walk away:: "courtney" "yeah" "cheers to you too!" ...bad girl

my style is so crazy, I think u like it baby, do u want to get nasty? I dare you to undress me..

How about those Eagles?!


ahahahaha!!!! 31-28 f/overtime San Francisco woo wooo wooooo!!!! you losers! all you Eagle likin losers!!! i'm sorry...but no home court advantage for you! you still goin to the playoffs tho so stf up! =D tomorrow's fbg is gonna be hott Packers vs Raiders two teams that I like.

guess what me + pookie came up with while we were talkin... lip sex i think it sounds weird but he said it sounds funny. whachu think? broncos vs colts halftime 21-17 i believe. ...aiight Ima go now! he said he likes me a lot! ::smile smile smile::... niiii nite

pook + chuck = <333 ! ! ! ! !

<33 always,
*c.p.N.c.j.


-----> 1 day 'til Winter Solstice, 4 days until Xmas, 5 days until Kwanzaa <-----

-----> 4 months until 1*5 <-----

-----> days until break!! <-----

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:: 2003 21 December :: 2.05pm
:: Mood: thankful
:: Music: Babyface* This Is For The Cool ---> Jumpoff Remix

Thank goodness...
Honestly, I have no idea why I'm writing right now but I just felt like it. So I'll do what I please. Right now I'm watching Giants vs Cowboys...and I like them both ..so I'm screwed.. it's 3-10 now and Quincy Carter is actually playing decent.... yo yo... four days until the Mavs play the Kings! Yooo ... I saw this beautiful Bibby jersey at champs...AND this pink Yankee's jersey! And Claire's had the most prettyful earrings I've seen in my life [besides the ones in Dots]..all of Fashion Cents earrings were gone yo! I was so upset..but me and my mami are going out again.

I am really happy now.. like I remember when I said I have a boyfriend and I'm not happy...wtf is wrong with me...well I'm happy now..damn happy..soo happy..keep thinkin bout him happy...wanna call him 24/7 happy! [yes javonne we did hug lol] Lord..thank you so much..because I was really stuck on that other boy..and I promised myself I'd find someone who was worth my time..and I think I did..thank u sooo much!

don't waste your time fighting blind...

I mean I flipped out ...terribly when she said I couldn't go to the movies ..meaning I couldn't see Chuckie... AMERICAN IDOL COMMERCIAL!!! oohh yeaaa! Coming in January... Simon's baaccckkkk!

Trust and honesty to must be the golden rule, you'll feel the strength of passion in your soul...

WOOOOOOOO!!!! TOUCHDOWN DALLAS!!!! fumble recovery...haha sorry! ... I think they were wrong..but they said it was us. Oh gosh..this song makes me cry every time [babyface* nobody knows]...yeah no fumble the touchdown was taken back

I pretend that I'm glad you went away...
These four walls are closin more everyday..
And I'm dyin inside...
and nobody knows it but me..

ike a clown i put on a show,
pain is real even if nobody knows
and i'm cryin inside
and nobody knows it but me

why didn't I say the things I needed to say
how could I let my angel get away?
now my world is just a.. tumblin down
I could say it so clearly, but you're nowhere around...

the nights are lonely and the days are so sad...and...
I just keep thinkin about the love that we had
and I'm missin u..
and nobody knows it but me...

girl[boy] your smile when i'm broken in two
and i'm nobody without someone like you
i'm tremblin inside
and nobody knows it but me...
lie awake it's a quarter past three
i'm screamin at night if i'd thought u'd hear me
yeah my heart is callin you
and nobody knows it but me

how
blue could I get?
you could ask my heart..
my life a jigsaw puzzle.. it's been torn all apart
a million words couldn't say just how i feel..
a million years from now u know i'll be lovin u still..

the nights are lonely and the days are so sad...and...
I just keep thinkin about the love that we had
and I'm missin u..
and nobody knows it but me...

tomorrow mornin, i'm hittin the dusty road
gonna find u wherever u might go
yeah i'm gonna lure my heart
and hope u come back to me...

said when the nights are lonely..

the nights are lonely and the days are so sad...and...
I just keep thinkin about the love that we had
and I'm missin u..
and nobody knows it but me...


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I remember how it used to be...
you never was this nice u cared for me
now u talkin like u never changed
the more u talk the more things sound the same

what makes you think u can walk back into her life
without a good fight

I just sit back and watch you make a fool of yourself
coz you're just wasting your time..oh

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the kick is goooooddd! 3-13 ::smile::

;; Have you
smoked?:secondhand
done drugs?:motrin
had sex?:virrginnn
;; Do you?
smoke?:yup
if so, what kind?:air
do drugs?:motrin frequently
pot/ecstacy/acid/speed/cocaine/heroin?:nah not yet..sike nah..nah
have sex constantly?:virgin yo! haha
;; What?
eyecolor?:brown
zooanimal?:any wildcat / elephant
hatedpeople?:..?
doyouwanttobe?:famous music producer
doyouwant?:to see Chuckie
outoflife?:to be happy and be known for something
;;either-or
boys/girls?:boys
meansexy/niceugly?:nice + ugly..u can -get- cute
true love or a hot face?:tru love
fun/enlightenment?:fun
;;would you?
have sex for money?:nah
a LOT of money?:with a celeb..-maybe-...
have sex with a person of high status to get famous/rich/powerful?:haha..prolly
have sex with a frisky hot teacher to get all a's and a good placement?:nah..i'm smart as it is
give up your morals for what you think is happiness?:nah
give up your life for a friend? or a child?:..maybe a child
zee end of zee quizzy!

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I wear tight clothing high heel shoes..
that doesn't mean that i'm a prostitute
I like rap music, where hip hop clothes
that doesn't mean that I'm out sellin dope
..suttin suttin..
...suttin suttin..
I might date another race or color
it doesn't mean i don't like my strong black brothers

why oh why must it be this way?
before you can read you got to learn how to see me

chorus..i'm lazy..

so i'm a sister, buy with cash
that really doesn't mean that all my credits bad
so why dispute me and waste my time
because u really think the price is high for me
i can't look without being watched
you ring my mind before i've made up my mind
oh now attitude..why even bother
i can't change your mind..you can't change my color

why oh why must it be this way...
before you can read you've got to learn how to see me.. i said

free your mind and the rest will follow
be color blind don't be so shallow..


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when can my heart beat again?
when does the pain ever end?
when do the tears stop from.. runnin over?
when does you'll get over me end?
I hear what you're saying but i swear that it's not making sense...
so when can I see you..

when can I see you again?...
when can my heart beat again?...
when can I see you again?...
when can I breathe once again?...
and when can I see you...

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i got another man but he ain't like you..and i could be your baby motha tho i'd like to...

sike Chuckie's my baby...THE KICK IS GOOOOOODDDD!!!! 3-16! wooo woo woo!

Band VS. Band
Good Charlotte or Sum41:gc
Brand New or Dashboard Confessional:....
Vendetta Red or CKY:...
Blink-182 or Box Car Racer:..blink
Green Day or Rancid:green day
Story of the Year or Coheed and Cambria:....
Mest or Simple Plan:simple plan
Minor Threat or H2O:...
Social Distortion or The Clash:...
Actor VS. Actor
Johnny Depp or Mel Gibson:johnny
Orlando Bloom or Elijah Wood:orlando
Dominic Monoghan or Billy Boyd:...
Ashton Kutcher or Josh Hartnett:ashton
Matt Damon or Ben Affleck:matt
Actress VS. Actress
Hilary Duff or Amanda Bynes:amanda
Julia Stiles or Kirsten Dunst:i like them both
Keira Knightley or Natalie Portman:natalie
Jennifer Aniston or Courtney Cox-Arquette:courtney coz she got mah name!
Cameron Diaz or Lucy Liu:both
Uma Thurman or Drew Barrymore:drew
Rapper VS. Rapper
Ludacris or Eminem:LUDA!!!!
Tupac or Biggie Smalls (aka Notorious BIG):both
Jay-Z or 50 Cent:50
Outkast or B2K:outkast ::gasp:: i noe!
Singer VS. Singer
Christina Aguilera or Britney Spears:xtina..duh
Beyonce or Ashanti:...hmm
Michelle Branch or Vanessa Carlton:michelle
Fefe Dobson or Avril Lavigne (PICK FEFE CUZ AVRILS A POSER!):fefe..but she was a ditz on moviehouse
Raven Symone or Hilary Duff:hila..no..NEITHER
Clay Aiken or Justin Timberlake:justin
TV Show VS. TV Show
That 70's Show or Everwood:70's
7th Heaven or Smallville:7th
The OC or One Tree Hill:..
Viva La Bam or Punk'D:punk'd
Saturday Night Live or MadTV:snl
Lizzie McGuire or That's So Raven:neither
The Osbournes or The Newlyweds:osbournes
Real World or Road Rules:REAL WORLD!
Magzine VS. Magazine
YM or J-14:j-14
Seventeen or CosmoGirl:cosmo
Bop or TigerBeat:...wtf
Alternative Press or Guitar World:...
Animal VS. Animal:...
Dogs or Cats:dogs
Fish or Birds:fish
Insects or Spiders:insects
Snakes or Turtles:snakes
Horses or Llamas:horses..
Pigs or Cows:brown spotted cows? if not pigs
Food VS. Food:..drink!
Pie or Cake:cake
Chips or Crackers:crackers
Hamburgers or Hotdogs (Vegeburgers and Vegedogs for vegetarians!):hot dogs..
Candy or Cookies:cookies
Fruit or Veggies:fruit
Popcorn or Nachos:popcorn
Electronic VS. Electronic
TV or Computer:computer
DVD or VCR:dvd
Radio or CD Player:cd player w/ my radio in it
Digital Camera or Camcorder:digi camera
Scanner or Webcam:scanner
Drink VS. Drink
Dr. Pepper or Mr. Pibb:both
Sprite or Sierra Mist:sprite
Coca Cola or Pepsi:pepsi
Diet Coke or Regular Coke:diet
Mountain Dew Code Red or Mountain Dew Live Wire:code red!
Orange Juice or Apple Juice:..hmm both
Grape Juice or Cranberry Juice:grape
Kool-Aid or Soda:KOOL-AID! u askin a black girl dis
Sport VS. Sport
Baseball or Basketball:basketball
Football or Soccer:both
Snowboarding or Skateboarding:snowboarding
Tennis or Swimming:both
Random VS. Random
Hot or Cold:cold
Thumb-tack or Safety Pin:thumb-tack
Snow or Rain:rain
Car or Airplane:car
Singing or Instrument:both
Show or Movie:both
Book or TV:tv
Snail Mail or Email:e-mail
WalMart or Target:both...
Punk or Prep:punk
Play the Sport or Watch the Sport:both
In-person or Phone:depends
Half Empty or Half Full:full
Glass or Cardboard:glass
Rocks or Pebbles:pebbles
Comedy or Horror:horror
Color or Black and White:color
Old or New:not too old not too new
Poop or Dookie:...dookie!
Piercing or Tattoo:piercing
Now I must ask: Are you glad the test is over or Do you want more questions:nah..

BIG This VS. That Quiz (105 Questions) brought to you by BZOINK!

my D'Angelo song Lady is on..seriously that's like his best one..besides the one wit Raphael.. Saadiq? [lol] in You Should Be Here

Yooo..y'all negroes better comment yo... after all this shhh I wrote and sang! lol

Javonne's puppy is so cute it's almost cuter than me! lol sike nah..she adorableeee! I keep thinking about yesterday* and thinking if everything is still real.. I keep thinking I'm dreaming..the last time that happened was September 18, 2oo3 when I won historian and found out my crush knew I existed and dubbed him Nickel Boy! I <333 days like that! OMG... there's a possibility of seeing Chuckie* up to three times this week!!!

many say .. that i'm too young
to let you know just where i'm comin from..
but you will see..it's just a matter of time.. my love will surely make you mine..
well... i'm ... livin in a world of ghetto life
everyone seems so uptight
but nothing's wrong and it's alright with my man
i like the way we carry on
his love ..suttin..wit my man
people out there can understand
i'm givin him somethin he can feel
to let him know..this love is real...
givin him somethin he can feel..
to let him know this love is real..this love is real..

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I've got my eyes on u..baby[chuckie] let me tell you that you are the truth.. I love your Indian flute.. oooh watta ooh datta ooh doo doo..

..yeah it's like 3:o0 now...and Ima eat my pizza [with no ham coz it's my Jewish holiday hahaha..ashley believed me..so did Jackie..that was funny!!] ...and yeah Ima go..do... stuff I guess...ahh my stress-free life now is excellent! Woo... I love thisss...


oh snappp! I put Papa Was A Rollin' Stone on this CD uttt ooooo!

comment yo!

<333,
da boo of Chuckie*

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:: 2003 20 December :: 11.02pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: Hooked on your love in my head and aim

aaahhh!!!
I've got problems and I'm proud

haha Tiffi! ...shit I was playin the game so well..and I fell for it* ... again..dammit!!!! ...no pookie...if Ashley Taylor found out she'd eat mah head alive..besides... I'm with ...him*.......well anyways

I was chillin wit mah babi from like 3:3o-1o:0o!!!!! woooo yesss! my mom's sleep...oh my...I had a lot more fun @ tha movies than the mall..but I didn't kiss no one..[yet..keyword!]..but I had soooo many opportunities. woo wee! sexy sexy! ..aahh got some gifts..part of my mom's present..and we walked to the mall. lol we were funny crossin the street like that. I coulda walked ahead..but he's a slow walker and I wanted to savor every moment so I walked with him..and he waited for me and stuff....aahh!

=D!!!

omg... he has freckles...black boy with freckles...I do like him.. I mean really..not enough to screw him really..just ..yeah lol..hope it ain't lust ..wait why did I strike it out..lust is good! lol but yeah..convo during the movie and after was good...he kept trying to take mah stuff..and i was playin with his hat and pattin his puff ball hair. javonne + tiffy thought i was patting something lol but I wasn't! i'll talk about the mall and my day more later...but yoo i was kickboxing and doing tae-bo...and my tummy looks so tiny now...and woo! i tell ya ima get to my desire. ..."i don't like this" "i don't know what kinda stuff u like chuckie.." "you should" "aiight whachu like" "you"... =D!!!

i've moved on jewelz..so kiss my ass!

Pookie + Chuckie = <33333333 and more <33333! =D

<33 alwayz,
c.p.N.c.j. ...da boo of Chuckie*

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:: 2003 20 December :: 2.21pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: en vogue* hooked on your love

yayy!
I'm about to go to tha mall with Tiffy, Erroll, Ant, and Chuckie*!! yayyyy! just thought I'd let y'all noe...woooo! I'm sooo happppyyy!

*c.p.N.c.j.

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:: 2003 19 December :: 10.09pm
:: Mood: hopeful
:: Music: Mary J. Blige* Real Love* ----> Jumpoff Remix

Happy Chanukah!
Well yeah...my mom appologized to me and wouldn't let go of my neck until I said I love her too. Then I told her I'm goin shoppin w/ Erroll tomorrow and she said that was fine so I guess we cool. And she said I could go wheneva she got home after her test. But I'm still thinking of what I could be doing with chuckie*...dammit! lol

Yo let me tell you how I took two knives at the drawer..turned around and faced her..walked a lil bit and got sooo ready to throw it and she still didn't noticed..then I just walked back in the kitchen and started slicing newspapers..hehehe...I'm a nutcase..that's why I say "don't mess with me I'm crazy"... I literally am...hehe... [don't call no one..please =D ]
I don't want nobody but you...I don't need nobody but you..so I don't love nobody but you...

all I need...all I need...all I need is you..baby your everything everything, everything that's you..all I need all I need all I need is you..baby you're everything that's you..-aaliyah

utt oh! rite thurr remix PORKCHOP TIME!

Miss Courtney make tha ballas wanna sturr...

Hmm I'm watchin the Pistons vs Paces and it's..uhm...48-41... I like dem both.

Whoa Dang! you are such a band nerd. Sometimes it's
nice to see what the world has to offer every
once in a while!


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aim
whats your aim sn?: lushuzXanjel : babisistah421
are u on it often?: on X more
whos your fave person to talk to on it?: .. lot of ppl
whos your least fave person to talk to on it?: can't say.. =D
have u ever made an sn just so u didn't have to talk to some1?: what?
who do u talk to most on it?: prolly ATP / Erroll / Edmond
who do u talk to least?: Aaron Hall
how many people are on ur bl?: 180
do a lot of people have there away messages up?: about half...
whats your fave thing about aim?: talking to people
least fave thing?: connecting is annoying..it keeps screwin up lately
how many sn's do u have?: 3
why do u change them?: coz my personality changes
do u ever stalk people online?: nah
do they know?: ^
what do u think they would think if they found out?: ^^
Questions for Pondering
What would you do if...
you woke up and were a different gender?: go f*ck someone
you woke up and were the opposite sexual orientation?: hmm...
you woke up and had gained 40 pounds?: track back what I ate
your shampoo made all your hair fall out?: get some weave and call ppl and cuss them the hell out
you could speak only after being spoken to?: give sum1 the finger so they'd yell and i could talk
you could halt time at will?: man ppl would be dead
your family and friends suddenly forgot who you were?: ...peace out!
you could only have sex once a year?: ..i'm a virgin yo..
nothing that came out of your mouth made any sense?: write it down!
you became stricken with a disease that kept you from going outside...ever?: ...hmm... as long as i'm rich by then
you were able to change bodies at will?: ..power to that
you had to wear a mask for the rest of your life?: ..the man in the iron mask..not good i'm to pretty! lol
you were unable to speak to your lover?: write him notes!
whenever you flirted, you emitted an unpleasant odor?: lol eww...body spray
you were magically able to change one body part without surgery?: ..oh hell yeah! big boobs for me! sike nah.. prolly cheek reduction lol
you were able to fly unaided but were deathly afraid of heights?: ..sounds like me..i'd still do it
food tasted like cardboard?: get some alcohol and get drunk
you inherited a large sum of money but could only spend it on someone else?: ..could i be the someone else

we got a smoked turkey...smoked turkey is the bomb aiight..you have no idea! wooo once a year and we get it in the mail for someone....ooh can't wait! Chanukah started at sundown tonite...soo happy Holiday #2...Winter Solstice is next! ...aiight now to my day.

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health* ..yeah got some info before I went to health. A.Plashette...lol.. [oohh snappp Spurs about to play!] [66-72 pacers :( ].. yeah in Health..we did our stuff and watched a movie on drugs our president's Daddy was on it. See..the people havin seizures and stuff was dey fault [..mainly black people ..hmmm lol ] ...but the part that brought tears..real tears Javonne saw me..were the crack babies..this lil baby in Philly's mom was abandoning her..and she was just so skinny [wasn't a black baby might I add]..and it was holding on and crying..and it just broke my heart... Info tech* yeah..we had fun...were talkative and stuff..Mrs. Bird's sweater was very festive.. I can't even count how many times I got called a crackhead and slow lol. And Nookie and Sha to tha Ne` were makin fun of Chuckie*'s name in a southern accent lol. Evilness! Band* geez...we had a sub...we had to play..got done early...thank goodness. Why couldn't we just watch a dvd..but no we gotta play the same 3 damn songs every frickin day and it's annoying as hell! Art was being such a dummy but it was funny! "This is why...!" [lol that will neva get old] lunch* more basketball talk.. I will get my point across to them fools who say Carmelo is a child & is crap! He is sexy, is a man and can play him some ball!!

you got lifted, shifted higher than the cieling
and oohwee it's the ultimate feeling...


But yeah.. me, Simone, & Boo were on chill mode in lunch. Layin down singin the sun'll come out...tomorrow... lol it was fun. yeah... some other stuff happened but no comment on that! [aww is ben wallace crying because his team is losing AGAIN?!...poor baby..] geometry* no strikeout because ms downes wasn't dere! yeah I got my work down and me & Ashley Taylor figured out the last formula for the hexagons! we were basically like "i got it" at the same time. woo woo woo! then Edmond came during sixth and then we talked about me being "confused" and he made a game plan for me. it was funny. if he hadn't come my butt prolly woulda fell asleep. le francais* yeah...we did some stuff on contractions..we got a new black boy named Johnny i think he a freshman.. he's a lil skinny 1 but that negro's voice is deep for his size yo! lol "i got my eyes on you...baby let me tell you that you* are the truth" [75-80 final ::tear::] yeah...after ppl finished you could help people out. so I helped Matt B + Johnny it was fun. I was like a teacher!

aahh...when I got on the bus* I figured out that our bus driver is a jerk! He made Aaron get off the bus! Stupid! Crystal was like "white people man!" it was halarious. ...well that and when he walked in front of the bus. bus our bus driver...aahh punk. Yeah..when I got home* I watched my soaps, played NBA Live 2oo3 [want o4 for xmas yo!] ..and then Tiffaney, Anthony, and Chuckie* called me! We all talked for like an hour and 20. It was fun stuff. And I fell asleep like twice coz I was under my blanket on my bed in my robe watchin Dr. Phil [good show!]. But yeah.. some ..uhm "interesting".. "nasty" "mean" "freaky" stuff was goin on! lol "you horny bastard.." "i know he ain't talkin to me!" "omg coco is he talkin to you!" "nah..chuck"..that was scary lol..yeah I can't say the convo on here... =D ...

OMG IT'S TONY PARKER! MY FRENCH CUTIE PIE ON THE SPURS!!! AHHHH!!!

And yeah... I've been talkin to Erroll for like 2 hours or some stuff like that. Hopefully Chuckie can come to the mall with us when we go shoppin. It's gonna be fun fun! But...stupid black ppl are gonna start stuff when they see us watch..so note: we do not go out! AHAHA! u missed ur dunk bitch! lol sorry about the language in the last entry too..uh..hehehe lol. aahhh...tony parker! i am in love with that man yo! give me a poster of him for Xmas too! ooooh weee! <333 him. and now it's time to send Ms. Penny my AVON order! Good nite!

*Happy Chanukah!!*

pookie + chuckie* = <33333!

<3,
*c.p.N.c.j.

gooo spurrss! 5-1! woot woot! kings game on xmas vs mavs...can't wait yo! let's count!


-----> 28 dayz until The [january] Jumpoff <-----

-----> 6 days until Xmas, 1 week until Kwanzaa, 13 dayz till 'o4! <-----

-----> 4 months and 2 dayz until my burrthday! <----- .



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:: 2003 19 December :: 8.12pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: en vogue* hooked on your love

... ::shiver::...caution..language...
i was looking forward to this all fucking week too...one frickin nite...hopefully i'll get a glimpse of him on Tuesday.. I am SO mad at her...

and I was thinkin of suttin rite. I am pretty good at darts and archery and junk. Like 1/4 of the time I'll get a bulls eye.. so I was thinkin ... if I just threw a knife [one of dem stainless steel ones we got]...and if I'm good at darts and junk..she'd be gone..but then I thought about it more.

ugh...tears are all streamin down my face..
If i did..toss the knife at her and if she died..
a. I'd have to be adopted into a new home
b. i'd be charged..and go to a juvi service for like until I'm 25..which is a like 1o years four months..
c. i'd prolly slit my wrists and die so i wouldn't go to jail...which ain't too hot..
d. too many people would find out
e. i don't wanna clean up the blood and her body is too heavy to drag into a closet or suttin..and there's no way i'd chop it into pieces...


all i fuckin wanted was to see Chuckie* is that so HARD?!

i'm callin Edmond soon...ahh I could really hurt her..or break all of her dead mother's glasses...like I have threatened before. Yeah...all this anger from everything..sick of it all... I'm done.. I just want to give up..I mean like
really give up
do ya understand me? ... ooh i could hurt her...i'm never gonna be a horrible mom like her..at least she could give me a reason..and don't give me a "she's your mother she doesnt have to explain anything to you" coz I'll shoot you with Jerry's gun too.. or my grandmother's..I kno where both of them keep theirs. I just wanna walk out..and go somewhere. Man if she leaves this room I'm grabbin her car keys and I'm the fuck out.. I could handle driving on 541...and I'll just sit in a parking lot or something..and pull an Eddie of the temptations... i'm so pissed off..

it scares me when I say stupid shit like that because the old me comes back..ya noe..that really angry me..that.. I don't know if I wanna tell the whole frickin internet world what went down in 6th grade..but yeah. Yup...I'm just like one of them dudes in the crack movie...and I'm all shaking and junk. It's anger and the fact that I'm cold coming out all at once.

I should make a list of everyone that's gonna get shot one of these days:

everyone

There I'm done..hmm...I'll put up this quiz result..


my internet junk
'what xmas character are you test'
result was.....






1nce upon a time..
there was a girl who was unhappy..
she looked happy on the outside..
but she was pissed the hell off on the inside..
so one day she stabbed her mom
to make it long and drawn out..
and shot herself to make it quick..
the end


i finally saw the hey ya* video today..yeah and Hotel..but I'm gonna go now....sorry y'all had to read that.

fuck her...and everyone else who's pissed me off lately too

you got served,
*c.p.n.c.j.

wolves beat the mavs last nite 114-1o9..just thought i'd tell u

to whoever has a good relationship with their mother...lucky you

i'm really about to stab her..it's not even funny i'm shakin coz i'm so mad..

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:: 2003 19 December :: 8.05pm
:: Mood: melancholy

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my mom is a bitch..
..I hope she dies
and burns in hell
the end


*thanks bre

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