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So as some of you know I post my thoughts on whateva on AOL message boards..but most of them are stupid f*cks..so I started gurl.com posting.. I mean I've been on racism, civil rights, body image, sex, advice, school, blah blah.. and after like maybe two weeks of just reading everything I'm getting more of a sense of what I wanna do in life.

I want people to know what I've got to say.. A journalist would be good..because I can write in magazines..and when I own my magazine I can put in what -I- want and what I think is important. Being a politician..uhm.. no they lie to much but I cud shove my foot up those stuck up grown old men's behinds.. a news anchor helps me out too just so I can know whats going on.

Im so happy that I finally know what I might major in in college. Now I know what classes I need to take my junior and senior year..this is gonna be good. It just sucks that this basically is my last day of vacation cuz tomorrow... kinky twists =D alll day man.. well at least Edmond & Donesha called today she was like "hey cuz.. I hope Im not botherin you cuz I know you're not feelin good but I love u and jus checkin up on you" I thought that message was so nice I saved it. I'm adding a poem on the bottom I got on the civil rights board..it almost made me cry man..

no offense to those of other races intended.. jus like the writer wanted, no offense to others. But yea.. I guess I'm finally ready to see.. uhm "everyone" some folk I can do w/o but I should have a pretty fun time. Thus..good bye summer.. it has been fun.... [aunt flo jus came at the WRONG damn times!!!haha...]


yea mini-camp yesterday.. ugh it was hott as hell but yo lunch was crazy! Me, Taylor, Alyssa, & Danny played "dodge sneaker" in the wrestling room..it was supa dark in there so u couldn't see...we spent like 10 minutes trying to find my shoes..it was so much fun. I was out after marching band..but hey! no tan! :)


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Lord ... Why did you make me black?
Why did you make someone
the world would hold back?

Black is the color of dirty clothes,
of grimy hands and feet...
Black is the color of darkness,
of tired beaten streets...

Why did you give me thick lips,
a broad nose and kinky hair?
Why did you create someone
who receives the hated stare?

Black is the color of the bruised eye
when someone gets hurt...
Black is the color of darkness,
black is the color of dirt.

Why is my bone structure so thick,
my hips and cheeks so high?
Why are my eyes brown,
and not the color of the sky?

Why do people think I'm useless?
How come I feel so used?
Why do people see my skin
and think I should be abused?

Lord, I just don't understand...
What is it about my skin?
Why is it some people want to hate me
and not know the person within?

Black is what people are "Labeled"
when others want to keep them away...
Black is the color of shadows cast...
Black is the end of the day.

Lord you know my own people mistreat me,
and you know this just ain't right...
They don't like my hair, they don't like my
skin, as they say I'm too dark or too light!

Lord, don't you think
it's time to make a change?
Why don't you redo creation
and make everyone the same?


God's Reply:

Why did I make you black? Why did I make you black?

I made you in the color of coal
from which beautiful diamonds are formed...
I made you in the color of oil,
the black gold which keeps people warm.

Your color is the same as the rich dark soil
that grows the food you need...
Your color is the same as the black stallion and
panther, Oh what majestic creatures indeed!

All colors of the heavenly rainbow
can be found throughout every nation...
When all these colors are blended,
you become my greatest creation!

Your hair is the texture of lamb's wool,
such a beautiful creature is he...
I am the shepherd who watches them,
I will ALWAYS watch over thee!

You are the color of the midnight sky,
I put star glitter in your eyes...
There's a beautiful smile hidden behind your pain...
That's why your cheeks are so high!

You are the color of dark clouds
from the hurricanes I create in September...
I made your lips so full and thick,
so when you kiss...they will remember!

Your stature is strong,
your bone structure thick to withstand the
burden of time...
The reflection you see in the mirror,
that image that looks back, that is MINE!

So get off your knees,
look in the mirror and tell me what you see?
I didn't make you in the image of darkness...
I made you in the image of ME!

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