:: 2006 5 May :: 12.54 am

I AM SERIOUS! MICHELLE EMAILED, YOU OTHER PEOPLE NEED TO TOO, CUZ I NEED ONE TREE HILL TO COME BACK!!!!

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:: 2006 4 May :: 4.19 am

if you guys love me you will send an email to

tvdiva@eonline.com with the subject One Tree Hill

it takes only a second, and it would really make me HAPPY. This email could help get my show renewed hopefully.

P.S. I WOULD DO IT FOR YOU!

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:: 2006 4 May :: 3.34 am

Fun in the ghetto
tonight was SO fun. i was expecting to come home after work and go to sleep and be borihg, but instead i went on some adventures w/ Melanie from work. We also smoked a TON of hooka. it was a really surprising and i hope it happens a lot more. The other good ting is that she has fun friends too. OH AND MICHELLE: i watched an episode of the X-files ad i got all freaked out and i had to have them walk me out to my car. I am a loser, but it lifted my spirits from yesterday a lot. I LOVE HOOKAS!

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:: 2006 3 May :: 3.41 am

i dont know what to do with myself. I seriously am short of breath and my heart hURTS. what am i going to tell my family? if i am dissapointed in my, thiers is going to be tenfold. how can i tell them that i am wasting thier money? i feel like a waste. WHAT AM I GOING TO DO? i wish i could dissappear. they are going to send a letter home about my suckiness, then i will really feel great. I HAVE TO DO BETTER!!

No one is up! i have no one to freak out to! ahhhhhhhhhhhhh

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:: 2006 3 May :: 3.27 am

FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK

I am on academic warning

I got SUCKY grades ( no surprise) and now...well i just feel like i suck in every aspect of life right now.

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:: 2006 3 May :: 2.51 am

Am I doing the right thing? I am so scared tat i made the wrong choice, now i can't take it back either. What if it was supposed to be different and i messed up my whole life. what if this summer was supposed tobe te one? I am scared to be without camp. with out Ryan. I am having high anxiety right now. I was just on facebook and i saw all the other camp people had tat as thier summer plans and they are all gooing to be together. arg a larg why is this so hard? but mostly, will i even be missed?

I spent the entire day with kate. It was fun, I spent Way too much money though, so now i have to be good until sunday.

I put up a shit ton of pics on facebook.

AHHHHHH. I am freakin out. Sean, Brad, Ryan, puckwagee, tiedye, buddy board, ahhhhhhhhhh. how do i get rid of this?

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:: 2006 2 May :: 1.08 pm

i think if a person looked at the pictures of me that are online, they wold assume i am a GIANT HOE...oh wait.

I am talking to kate for the firt time in like, hmmmm...4 months maybe. WOOOOOOt.

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:: 2006 1 May :: 4.08 pm

LAST NIGHT WAS SO FUN!!!
I went out and did some stupid stuff w/ miche;;e that we found way more fun than most would. then we met bia at monaco. it is really weird though, cuz even though i was with a group of people, i feel like i was in my own world most of the night. I am currently making a cd for one of the piano players. Good times.

P&H party tonight! I am going to dress up so well. I am going to look like a 20 dollar cracked-out street walker. YES!

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:: 2006 27 April :: 7.20 am

well, it is now 7:20 and i just got my 10+ page paper done.
One more 3-5 and i am DONE!!! it is due in 3.5 hours, so i better get on it...then SLEPP SWEET SLEEP...then work, then sleep, then work then slepp, then work, then FREEDOM!!! (for a couple days)

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:: 2006 27 April :: 3.16 am

Wrote lots of stuff today. I am still writing my last final too. It is due in 8 hours. I have 5+ more pages to go. I amlso have a shorter paper i have to turn in w/ it about the research (haha) process....BLAHBLAH

its 3:18 am...do YOU know where Alicia is?
UP SHIT CREEK W/O a PADDLE>
MAybe I will get everything done, and do alright, and pass the class, and get sleep...arg a larg...back to work.

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:: 2006 26 April :: 2.02 pm
:: Music: Travis: 12 Memories

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:: 2006 26 April :: 1.37 am

Carson Daly has lost a lot of weight.

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:: 2006 26 April :: 12.21 am

I hate my checkbook. It is not balanced. i have not balanced it in a LONG time, and now i feel very overwhelmed by it. The good news is that the computer says i have more money than i should...it has said that for my last 3 statements too...arg a larg moolah hurts my head...i have to pay the cable bill (split in 2 not 4) and i have to get the money for my summer class. the absolute worst part is that i just got my taxes from my mom...( it is a long story) so i will probably not get any financial aid next year. I am working a lot though...this is good and bad. I also am for sure going to fail one class, possibly two, maybe 3. I HATE LIFE> I HATE COLLEGE> FIND ME SOME GILLYWEED> I AM DROWNING

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:: 2006 20 April :: 1.53 pm

DISCLAIMER: WHILE I DO NOT AGREE W? ALL OF THESE, SOME ARE DAMN FUNNY. (not funny haha, funny sad, although i did laugh a little)

What you need to believe to be a Republican:

Being a drug addict is a moral failing and a crime, unless you're a conservative radio host. Then it's an illness and you need our prayers for your recovery.

The United States should get out of the United Nations, and our highest national priority is enforcing U.N. resolutions against Iraq.

Government should relax regulation of Big Business and Big Money but crack down on individuals who use marijuana to relieve the pain of illness.

"Standing Tall for America" means firing your workers and moving their jobs to India.

A woman can't be trusted with decisions about her own body, but multi-national corporations can make decisions affecting all mankind without regulation.

Jesus loves you, and shares your hatred of homosexuals and Hillary Clinton.

The best way to improve military morale is to praise the troops in speeches while slashing veterans' benefits and combat pay.

Group sex and drug use are degenerate sins unless you someday run for governor of California as a Republican.

If condoms are kept out of schools, adolescents won't have sex.

A good way to fight terrorism is to belittle our long-time allies, then demand their cooperation and money.

HMOs and insurance companies have the interest of the public at heart.

Providing health care to all Iraqis is sound policy. Providing health care to all Americans is socialism.

Global warming and tobacco's link to cancer are junk science, but creationism should be taught in schools.

Saddam was a good guy when Reagan armed him, a bad guy when Bush's daddy made war on him, a good guy when Cheney did business with him and a bad guy when Bush needed a "we can't find Bin Laden" diversion.

A president lying about an extramarital affair is an impeachable offense. A president lying to enlist support for a war in which thousands die is solid defense policy.

Government should limit itself to the powers named in the Constitution, which include banning gay marriages and censoring the Internet.

The public has a right to know about Hillary's cattle trades, but George Bush's driving record is none of our business.

You support states' rights, which means Attorney General John Ashcroft can tell states what local voter initiatives they have a right to adopt.

What Bill Clinton did in the 1960s is of vital national interest, but what Bush did in the '80s is irrelevant.

Trade with Cuba is wrong because the country is communist, but trade with China and Vietnam is vital to a spirit of international harmony.

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:: 2006 20 April :: 1.03 pm

I am, of course, avoiding doing what i am supposed to be doing.

Tonight i am going to Monaco w/ the C-crew (plus some cocks). Then tomarrow i have an extra credit talk i am attending, then i HAVE to get some of my finals shit done. I also have to go to bed reletively early since I have to ONCE AGAIN open at 6am on Saturday. Hopefully it will be nice on saturday so i can read outside again in the afternoon.

Today i bought some italian crusty bread at McKenzie's BAkery. It was AWESOME.

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:: 2006 13 April :: 11.58 pm

Convo w/ Miche;;e:

ME: You're just glad he's coming...with an O. *giggle*
Miche;;e: What? Oh. haha. I was like " nothing she said started with and o...*giggle*
Me: *LAUGHES OUT LOUD*
Michelle: I just don't have a dirty mind like you.
Me: *Laughs harder* *subsides* I just really cracked myself up.
Miche;;e: *patiently* I know.

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:: 2006 13 April :: 5.53 pm

Thur:
Kohls 630-1030
Fri:
Paper due 4pm;
Kohls 730-1130
Sat:
kohls 6-noon
PARTY W/ C-Crew

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:: 2006 11 April :: 1.42 am

the more i watch RENT the more i love it. I really feel connected to these characters. I love anthony rapp. those gay guys...

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:: 2006 9 April :: 11.30 pm

There's only now
There's only here
Give in to love
Or live in fear
No other path
No other way
No day but today

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:: 2006 6 April :: 10.43 am

Hey, there is a funny video of a bush impersonation at www.chippens.com

check it out guys...i laughed...not out loud, but still, it is worth a look.

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