Ok, so I can't really thinkof what to say, but maybe if I just keep typing it will come to me...well i watched the game in Steve and Walter's room, i didnt really care who won, but Steve wanted the Marlins to win so much I found myself rooting for them too...sorry BT...we also went to Great Sexpectations tonight which turned out to be really funny...ummm it is sort of weird to hang out with Steve so much cuz i feel like everyone is judging me all the time...we are just friends...its not like i wanna jump his bones or anything, no matter how much we joke about it, it would just NOT happen...ok and while I am on the subject of boys might I just say that Max and ryan are being super sucky friends...i hate that they can make me SO depressed...i hate letting anyone in like that, andi totally let them in and now they totally just trample over me...grrrr...

I wish i had a car so much...sometimes i just wanna get away...things are awesome...but sometimes i feel so trapped...i miss kenz soooo much, no matter what she always knew the exact way i felt...

Talking to Steve is the only thingthat has gotten me through a lot of crap...no one really knows what is going on with me...i guess it is that part of me that keeps everything inside, but i only talk about surface stuff...i sort of hate it, but i cant open up yet...soon maybe...i like the manlies though...i need to lay off a bit though which is why i am in my room right now...