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2010 21 January :: 5.24pm
I miss you. And people make me sick.
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2010 21 January :: 4.41pm
I hope you revisit our past and hold onto something to last us in the future.
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2010 21 January :: 11.51am
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: Sweet chaos of college-student angst.
This bloody cough
I can't seem to kick this cold. At least i'm not suffering from the fever part of it anymore
But then again, it's only been a day or so since my last fever.
I am so cold it's hard to breathe.
Well not really.
It's just hard to type, or get warm.
I'm sitting in the middle of my student cafe I guess, and there are these two people sitting at my table seated for five.
I need to get gloves...but a kind of glove that makes me not feel so desensitized to touch, but still keeps my hands warm.
Dilemma.
I've gotten rid of all the distractions in my life, and cut off some ties to some people, not just one, and I think this clearing of my head will be good.
I can just focus on school and things in my immediate line of view.
I still love you though. I promise.
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2010 20 January :: 4.57pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Cardigan Weather-Meg & Dia
Journalsss
It's taken me a great part of the day, but I've managed to read and delete all my past journal entries.
God...Reading them makes me hate myself, and give mad props to those who chose to stick around.
I was a disgusting creature.
Super attention craving, addicted to everything, everyone, I fed off of my own illness to be more sick.
And so, now comes the regret of...life.
Sorry to all of you who won't read this and who knew me back in '03-'06.
I was a wreck. and an awful one at that.
An awful wreck.
So...I'm sorry. I hope my sorrow reaches all of you who I don't talk to anymore...And I hope you feel it and recognize it well.
I can't stop thinking about you today.
Reading my journal entries makes it even worse.
So...To You especially, I am sorry.
I feel like I'm losing you again.
And it sucks.
Listening to an old song I used to love made me...hurt.
:[
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2010 20 January :: 10.58am
:: Music: Can't get you off my mind-Lenny Kravitz
I'm freezing
Someone came over last night and was telling my father and I a story about her life.
She was telling her tale of marriage, and how her marriage lasted twenty years, of true devotion.
And she didn't want to give up.
So she came to a crossroads in her life, and asked herself what she should do.
Her husband wasn't been that at all, he cheated and lied and decieved. The classic case.
So she was telling how he left. One night, she talked to him, and said "I want whatever God wants for us...And if that's to separate, then so be it."
and the very next morning he left.
She was devastated.
But she was telling us, how she would look at her old pictures from her marriage, and she'd feel bad for the person she was looking at.
She'd have sorrow for that woman, the one trapped in an unhappy marriage.
It was hard, so hard to let him go. Twenty years is a long time.
But she said she's happier.
More fulfilled.
That woman is insightful.
I've been thinking a lot about her lately.
Even though that was just last night I heard her story.
But I've been dwelling on it for quite some time.
The only reason I write in this journal is because I feel a bit more connected to my past than I was before.
In some way or another.
I think...When I stop writing in it, I'll sever the connections forever.
I don't want to. Not at all.
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2010 19 January :: 4.50pm
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: Some crappy starbucks jingle.
Life in general
I think I'm gonna start updating this thing religiously.
Even though I have to be careful with my laptop.
I dropped it today, because of my stupid backpack strap!
It's cool though.
I think these next couple weeks are going to be stellar.
I keep looking at my pictures, remembering the one guy I love has yet to see me in my essence with brown eyes.
Dearest love, here is a link to some pictures.
I hope you enjoy. I'm not as bad as I thought I was.
http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#/photo.php?pid=938520&id=1404716521
I have to pee.
andddddddddd
I just demolished a sub.
It was so delicious.
I like writing in journals. It;'s healthy.
Anyways. I'm going home.
I hope that dumb guy I love calls me tonight.
Because I might not call himmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Paper due thursday.
Hooray.
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2010 19 January :: 12.16pm
:: Mood: amused
Depression
It's been clinically proven that some cases have arisen in psychological studies that people who have seen the movie "Avatar" have been diagnosed and are dealing with severe cases of depression.
And I quote..."James Cameron's completely immersive spectacle "Avatar" may have been a little too real for some fans who say they have experienced depression and suicidal thoughts after seeing the film because they long to enjoy the beauty of the alien world Pandora."
...
Our society is doomed.
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2010 19 January :: 9.04am
:: Mood: calm
I'm back
With some artistic inspiration, I've found my muse again...
Even though that sentence was kinda backwards.
I am freezing.
I can't feel my fingers, and every attempt to make my legs stop hurting is futile.
What's wrong with me?
Today started off kinda bad.
This morning I was supposed to use my father's truck and take it to the bus stop and leave it there. And then supposed to take the bus to school, but alas, I didn't wake up to my alarm clock, but I successfully got ready, with shower, in ten minutes. High five.
And my dad was running late also, blaming it all on me (Of course!) and was yelling profusely all morning, I ended up missing the bus, my dad tried to chase it down with his truck, and he stopped right in front of the bus on a main highway and the bus driver didn't care. I got out and tried to wave him down, but he ignored my attempts to be saved JIT, and I ended up soaked in the rain walking across a busy highway to get back into my dad's truck.
I was cool through it all.
At first I wanted to scream, mostly at my dad, but then I was ok.
I figured I'd just take the next bus into town, which came at 9, takes an hour to get to my school, so I'd miss my first class. Which I was fine with, because I thought I'd be missing one of my due dates for an assignment, but I found out that it's not due until the 28th, hoo-feckin-ray.
And the study guide I need isn't due until the end of the year.
High five.
I feel like i was saved by the...angry dad?
But it turns out my dad was looking for an excuse to be late to work, good employer's award be delivered to Patterson, california, and so he said "I'll just take you to school."
So...He gave me a ride to school, totally unexpected. And he seemed he was cooled off on the ride there. Which everyone in the world could benefit from.
He was joking and what-knot.
I'm glad he was chill.
I think I'm going to apologize to him just for good measure.
that will make him feel bad.
Muaha
I hope my fingers warm up after a while...I don't think I could successfully write anything in my psych class.
It's that much harder to type.
It's taken me twice as long to write this because I keep having to go back and correct my spelling errors.
People make me sick.
Btw.
I am looking at my student body, and disgust is the number one feeling I have regarding them.
I told my friend Donald that I hated my whole entire student body.
I don't think that idea is too far fetched.
Anywaysss...
I have 15 minutes to get to my first class, so I better be doing that.
Ah I need to catch up on my assignments, ALREADY.
It's literally the 3rd day of school.
Oh well.
I'll make it.
You won't have to share me, I'm yours for the taking.
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2010 19 January :: 8.20am
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: the Test-A Classic Crime
College
This song makes me think...
"All I can think of is how much I'd kill to be sleeping.
I'm squinting my eyes, my mind's drifting to secrets I'm keeping.
And the long-hauling trucks are all parked in their stops, just like...
luminous ghosts of something that once was.
The riggs look to empty when framed by their lies.
And that's what I'm feeling...
So here's to the promise of glamorous living.
You must drink up now cuz that's all that you're getting, If you
Haven't been tested, you certainly will.
And I promise, it's going to kill."
I wrote a long drawn out journal entry, but woohu messed it up.
So...
I'll write one later.
Blehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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2008 20 June :: 8.00pm
:: Mood: Contented
Don't Cross the Streams
RGay: We could play rock band i have a voice like an angel
Emlah: An angel getting it's neck wrung by an angry god.
RGay: Only if he had marshmellow hands :>
Emlah: XD Angry marshmallow god.
RGay: Ghostbusters XD
Emlah: So true. XD
RGay: Just remember em... Dont cross the streams.
My friends are stupid. XDD
Just finished Ironside, the sequel to Tithe, by Holly Black. She writes pretty epicly.
Currently working through Carrie by Stephen King - looove the movie, reading the book.
Need to read more of the NECRONOMICON e--e;
Finally made my little brother's duct tape wallet I promised him.
Hopefully get my business going.
YOU WANT COUTURE, HAND-MADE DUCT TAPE ACCESSORIES?
YOU'VE COME TO THE RIGHT LADY.
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2008 19 June :: 11.53pm
:: Mood: Cynical, quiet, out of it, etc.
:: Music: Scary Kids Scaring Kids
So it's been like.. forever.
And I think this place might be moar private than LJ. Though I don't want privacy.. or something.
I don't remember.
Hi.
Shit has happened.
A lot of shit.
Maybe I'll spill my guts tomorrow.
.. probably.
Right now, quiet time.
~wavies~
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2006 4 December :: 9.49pm
:: Mood: Sad, depressed, etc.
RYAN, I LOVE YOU, YOU RED HEADED TWIT.
The Mouth of the Rat – Police on Monday continued to investigate a collision that killed a 16-year-old bicyclist over the weekend.
Officers said the fatal crash occurred at Glades Road and St. Andrews Boulevard around 8:23 p.m. on Saturday while the driver of a Mitsubishi SUV -- Audrey K. Ives-Smith, 47, of Wellington -- was westbound on Glades.
At the same time, Ryan Hruska was northbound on St. Andrews on his Huffy bicycle.
At the intersection, police said, the front of the Mitsubishi collided with the right side of the bike.
Hruska was pronounced at Delray Medical Center a short time later.
Ryan.
December 2nd, 2006
You fuck. I miss you so much already, and it's only been an hour since I learned of your tragedy... You poor boy. You poor, beautiful boy. I'm sorry I yelled at you for dumbing yourself down and switching schools, though I wish you stayed with us. Oh, Ryan.. I hope you're okay 'up there'.. strangling puppies.. or pointing and screaming "He's drowning!" Oh my god, do I love you T---T You're the only one who could go out riding a pink Huffy. I can't even taste my Dr. Pepper. I've been crying since I heard you died from Victor. Please, let this be a cruel, terrible, practical joke. Haha.. hidden cameras, you saw Emily break down in tears, funny funny.
Can you come online and laugh at me now..?
Please..?
Ryan Hruska, I love you and I'll miss you so much.
<3<3<3<3<3<3
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2006 24 October :: 9.50pm
:: Mood: POTC e---e
:: Music: Barbossa is Hungry - Klaus Badelt
Something I wrote during Computer Class. xD
DEAR JOURNAL.
I LIKE THINGS THAT ARE GOOD. LAST WEEK WAS VERY EXCITING. TO ME AS A PERSON I ENJOY MANY DIFFERENT TYPES OF FOOD. MY FRIENDS AND I HAD TO GO TO THE COMMUNITY HIGH SCHOOL’S FOOT BALL GAME. I GO TO THE COMMUNITY HIGH SCHOOL. IT IS NICE AND THERE ARE A LOT OF DRUGS THERE. YAY FOR DRUGS. ANYWAYS, LIKE I WAS SAYING, IN OTHER WORDS, SO ON AND SO FORTH. NAOMI AND I PLAYED THE CLARINETS THAT WE OWN. THEY ARE VERY AMAZING AND GOOD. LIKE THE MANY TYPES OF FOOD. NONSENSICAL. ANYWAYS. IF YOU EAT THE MUSHROOMS, YOU WILL FLY TO THE SUN AND DANCE WITH THE SOLAR FLARES. A LOT.
IN THE END, WE ARE NOT ALONE. LAST WEEK, JADE WENT HOME WITH NAOMI AND I AFTER THE GAME. WHICH WE WON WITH. IT WAS VERY HAPPY. OF COURSE, YOU ARE BETTAR THAN NATASCHA’S NONSENSICAL PIECE OF LIPPY NONSENSE. ENJOY THE PANTS A LOT. ARARARARAR. YES, SO, WE WENT TO BED VERY AT THE LATE AT NIGHT. IT WAS SLEEPY SLEEPY TIME. THE AMAZEMENT. BONJOUR, JE M’APPELLE EMILY. J’AIME MANGER ET DANCER. BIEN VENUE! CRACK IS BAD.
I AM NOT RETARDED, BUT NATASCHA IS. NAOMI LIKES TO DANCE, TOO. SO ON SATURDAY, JADE AND I WENT TO THE MALL TO FIND JENN A BIRTHDAY PRESENT. RJ WORKS AT CHIK-FIL-A. WE WAITED UNTIL HE WAS FINISHED WITH HIS SHIFT AND THEN WE WENT TO THE BATH AND THE BODY WORKS AND THEN WE SAT AT A TABLE IN THE FOOD COURT AND READ MANGA.
MRS.HABIDASHER WENT TO WINDOW AND LOOKED OUT OVER THE DANK, SPRAWLING, SNOW-BLANKETED LAND, LETTING OUT A DISCONTENTED BREATH. “HOW COULD JAMES BE SO LATE,” SHE ASKED NO ONE IN PARTICULAR, SEEING AS SHE WAS THE ONLY ONE IN THE ROOM. SO JADE AND I WENT TO JENN’S AND JENN HAS A LARGE DOG NAMED MAGENTA. ANEMIA IS A BLOOD DISEASE IN WHICH THE BLOOD CELLS CAN NOT DEVELOP FULLY. JENN LIKED THE KINGDOM HEARTS MANGA AND THE CAT EARS AND TAIL WE HAD RETRIEVED FROM THE DEPTHS OF THE BEAST NAMED BEELZEBUB. HE HAD HEART BURN, POOR DEAR.
SO THEN JENN, JADE, GABBY, ERIN, AMANDA, MRS. KRAMINGTON, AND I WENT TO FRIGHT NIGHTS AT THE SOUTH FLORIDA FAIRGROUNDS. SUPER FUN. I WOULD POINT OUT ALL THE SCARERS AND THEY WOULD SCARE ME NONE THE LESS. I AM A VERY SCARYD. NATASCHA’S INNER THOUGHTS CONSIST OF “MMMM, BURGER.” WTF IS THAT. I DO NOT KNOW. MRS. HABIDASHER WAS EXTREMELY PRETURBED THAT IT WAS HALF PAST THE HOUR OF FIVE AND HER DARLING JAMES HAD NOT ARRIVED. THAT DOOR OVER THERE IS 1312A. SIMPLY AMAZING. I LIKE TO TYPE A PAGE OF SIMPLE SORTYSLSD. LSD. NO GOOD. BAD TRIP, AM I RIGHT? ELI IS ONE CRAZY PIECE OF NONSENSE.
LOVE,
EMILY
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2006 9 October :: 9.23pm
:: Mood: Yey!?
:: Music: Cradle of Filth <3
Okay, so, my birthday party..?
Severly awesome. If you missed out, you're gay and fuck you. Kthnx.
Anyways. It was themed the Twisted Teaparty, Alice in Wonderlandish, annnnnd.. BOY WAS IT A LOT OF WORK. XD We changed my backyard into a huge maze, omfg. It took ALL day to put up. Then the Queen of Hearts (JADE) didn't show up forever so she didn't get to sit in her little place and laugh at people if they actually got to her.
Psh. Tft.
ALL day I was liek "Jade, if you need a ride, we can pick you up" and she's liek "What kind of toothpaste do you use?" "Let me call my mom" "I have a lot of homework, Em..."
TCHHHHH.
o--o
Trying to blow off my GODDAMN birthday party.
Ass hole.
In the end, she came at 10 and left at 12 and looked amazingly hot inbetween, even though she wasn't.. wearing panties..? o--o;;;;
Wtf? <--<
Yah. No. Whatever. XD
I had a lot of fun and so did everyone else so YEY ^^ As I said before, if you didn't come you're gay and fuck you.
Except for Oscar. He was recovering from getting his appendix taken out =x
And maybe David. He didn't have any way to get directions. Maybe.
BUT THE REST OF YOU ARE GAY.
<--<;;
I mean, 17 out of 40, come on. XDDD
Not only that, but 2 people I invited THAT night. Liek, Andy-kun called and he was liek "What's goin' down" and I'm liek "Oh, my birthday party, wanna come?" and he's liek "Sure, I'll be there in an hour" and I was liek "Awesome."
Then there was RJ, I called him and I was liek "Come to my house, okay?" and he did!
And then there was KEITH who wasn't even going to come 'cause he hates me and wants me to die - he hurried over so fast he didn't even bring any shoes. xDD
<3 you all.
Yah. You're forgiven-ish. =x
NYMPHETAMIIIINE. o--o
HALLOWEEN HORROR NIGHTS THIS FRIDAY
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YEYYYY!
I'm SO EXCITED AHH.
Score.
xD
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2006 24 September :: 4.46pm
:: Mood: Indifferent?
:: Music: Some nonsense my dad's listening to.
So yesterday..
Was good.
I needed that. A good day off with a friend and a bit of retail therapy, before something of a night out. It was theraputic.
I struck out with this kid named Matt on Friday - it was pretty ghey - so I wasn't feeling too good, miriet?
So after school around 5 I walked to Eli's house. His mom wasn't having a good day either -- it was the anniversary of her marriage. She's divorced now. Poor lady. So yeah. He showed me the stuff he got while he was in Japan over the summer. It was pretty great.
I walked home just before 6 and watched gramma make dinner with my mom. What are we going to do when she leaves? Die, probably XD Yuh. So then we ate and then good ol' Gram, ma, and I went to Target.
I saw Heather! ^^ Yeyyyy! She works at Target. Good stuff. So I found a bunch of the CUTEST beads - colored mini dice, animals, stars, hearts, letters, all sorts of stuff - for a buck a box. Totally stocked up. Kandi tiiime. I looked at all the Halloween stuff and sweet god. Do I love Halloween. It's just so.. great. I bought a couple of black metal lanterns - so cute. Omfg. I love them. I got some black and orange tea lights, too ^^! Yeyy!
So we bought all our nonsense and it was 'bout 10, and we were right near Jade's. So I called her, but she didn't pick up. We drove over anyways and I tried to get in, but it was all locked up. Jade was asleep, of course, 'cause she sleeps all the time, but never when one should. =p
Ennnyywaayyys. I went home. I went on the computer for a bit but I was too bored. 'Bout 12 I went into my room and beaded 'til 1. I made a cell phone charm thing =x It has a purple turtle on it ^^
So I woke up 'bout 11:30 the next morning and got dressed. I ate a couple pieces of toast and we went to pick up Naomi. Gram, ma, Na, and I stopped by the Boynton mall on our way home to get to the Hot Topic 'cause Naomi wanted to try and find a purple corset there for her Cheshire cat costume ( since my party's on the 7th of October ) and yuh. She ended up finding a corset and a dress in Charlotte-Russe -- cutest little things ever. She's so adorable. I love Naomi.
I tried on some stuff there, too, but I'm too fat for everything. It's really depressing.
Anyways. We went home and watched Benchwarmers -- funniest shit ever. I loved it. Afterwards we chilled with the family and then left for the show at Boomers at 8. Chris got us in without having to buy bracelets, but we had to hide our wrists the whole time. We finally decided we didn't feel like waiting until 10 for [dot]EXE to play, so we walked over to Muvico and found Andrea and her boi. We got tickets for The Covenant at 10:45 - so we really could have stayed for [dot]EXE - and took some pictures in the booth. Cutest stuff in the world.
The Covenant was fucking awesome. So. Great. And all the actors were really. Hot. And it was awesome. So good e-----e I would watch that again. A few more times.
It was cool because it kind of interlocked with The Crucible - a play about the beginning of the Salem Witch Trials - that Na and I are reading in english. We're just liek "OMFG, PUTNAM BARN" -- it was great.
We got out at 12:35 and decided we'd have to hang out with Andrea more often 'cause it was a lot of fun. She invited us to go out to eat or something 'cause we really didn't feel like going home yet, but knowing my pole-up-her-ass mom she wouldn't let me do a damn thing like that. Especially since that weekend of mass destruction. She was so paranoid about Na and I leaving Boomers to see a movie. She's liek "Are you sure..? Are you sure you're doing that?" and I was just waiting for her to ask if I was lying.
It's hard not to sound suspicious when people are suspicious of you. It sucks.
Yeah. So we went home and went on a walk for a half an hour 'cause we really didn't feel like being pent up yet. Of course, my mom got suspicious about that, too. I might as well just walk around with a lie-detector hooked up to me so she can see if I'm lying or not. Maybe then she'd trust me a bit more.
I doubt it.
Anyways.
We came back and I beaded for an hour or so, and Naomi worked on her play and then we went to bed.
We got up at 12 and Na went home about 3:30 - 4. I made a shelving unit and cleared out some boxes from my room and now Jade and I are talking about self-pity.
I feel really skeptical right now. Or judgemental or cynical or something. I don't know. But not really.. nice. Maybe.. indifferent.
I suppose I don't care..
I don't know.
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2006 31 August :: 10.38pm
:: Mood: Sweepy. Excited.
:: Music: Dance. Hoho.
Omfg. Jade's hint. XD
Jad: The hint lies between that which is not yours
Jad: That's my hint. =3
Em: Between that which is not mine
Em: God, Jade. WOW. THAT. Is deep.
Jad: Are you teasing me.... T--T
Jad: I tried to make a good riddle.
Em: No, honestly, I'm baffled XD
Em: Between that which is not mine. Sooo.. it's between hot-freshman-Matt's legs.
Em: 'CAUSE THEY AREN'T MINE.
Em: LAWL.
Em: Or someone else's legs for that matter
Jad: Eh... I guess it was too vague
Em: 'CAUSE THEY AREN'T MINE, TOO.
Jad: The item is within your possesion
Em: ..
Em: So if I already have it, then why would you get it?
Jad: No, no, no.
Jad: The hint lies between that which is not yours.
Em: .. WHAT?
Jad: And that which is not yours is in your possesion
Jad: Now your hint isn't as cryptic
Em: Wow. Really?
Em: xDD
Em: I DISAGREE, MY FRIEND.
Jad: Well.
Jad: I narrowed it down a bit
Jad: The hint is in your possesion
Em: That which is not mine is in my possession.
Jad: Mmhm
Jad: It's the hint
Jad: You have the hint
Em: That's the hint?
Em: That I have a hint?
Jad: No.
Jad: The hint, whether you realize it or not, is in your possesion.
Em: Oh, so I liek.. know the hint, but I don't realize it?
Jad: No. You might not know the hint.
Em: Wtf.
Jad: Look back.
Jad: Into times long since past.
Em: It's not clothes.
Em: It's my concert ticket.
Jad: No.
Em: Times long since past.
Em: Are you liek.. Gandalf now?
Em: XD
Jad: She is the sun, and the moon.
Em: Juliet.
Em: But the moon is envious of her.
Em: Sailor Moon.
Em: 'Cause she's FIGHTING EVIL BY MOONLIGHT. WINNIN' LOVE BY DAYLIGHT.
Jad: She is the mother.
Jad: She is the creator.
Em: ... The earth?
Em: GAIA
Jad: Unable to be tamed, is this one.
Jad: Alright
Jad: I'm tired of being cryptic
Jad: That's all I'm telling you
Em: Wtf, no, I like when you're cryptic. IT'S FUNNY
Jad: Psh.
Jad: You cracker.
Jad: I wonder if you'll get this when I give you your present
Jad: You should save this conversation
Em: I plan on it
Em: More because it's hilarious
Jad: Why?
Em: It just is
Jad: Mmkay
Jad: Oh, oh, oh.
Jad: My last hint.
Jad: She is The One Who Is All
Em: WTF
Em: XDDD
Any help? XDDDDD
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2006 27 August :: 6.07pm
:: Mood: Rushed
:: Music: Dance, of course.
Character List for The Twisted Teaparty
The Twisted Teaparty is the theme for my sweet 16 ^^ It'll probably take place the evening of September 30th, save the date? Here's the character list, taken and not, and some ideas for the costumes. Each character has an alternate for the opposite sex.
<3 Girls <3
Alice - Moi =p
Alice Sister - Amanda
Dinah - Karina ( Alice's cat )
Cheshire Kitty - Naomi
Mad Hattress - Michan ( I have hats you can use. )
March Haress - Gaby
Miss Walrus
Dormouse - Jenjamin
Blanc ( female white rabbit ) - Lonilu
Miss Pillar - Dylia
Tweedle Dee - Anita ( I have hats you can use )
Bell the Lizard - Sexye Melissa
x Boys x
Alix - Vince
Alix's Brother - Victor
Din - Eddie ( Dinah's alter-ego )
Cheshire cat - Warren
Mad Hatter - David W. ( I have hats you can use )
March Hare - Juliano
Walrus - Eli
Moze ( male Dormouse ) - Villex
White Rabbit - Evan
The Caterpillar - Josh
Tweedle Dum - Ryan ( I have hats you can use )
Bill the Lizard - Bill
CARD SUITS
Hearts:
King: Diego
Queen: Jadera
Ace: Adrian
Spades:
Queen: Natascha
2 of Spades: Ducky
Ace of Spades: Gabe
Diamonds:
King: Nick
Queen: Lindsay
Ace: Kim
Clubs:
King: Chris C.
Queen: Nox
Jack: Uh.. Rachel's date
Ace: Rachel
THERE YOU HAVE IT?! People who KNOW me, have met me, been to my house before ARE INVITED. Leave a comment if you know who you want to be and you'll be added.
<3
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2006 22 August :: 6.52pm
:: Mood: Somewhat disheartened nao xD
:: Music: Jade and some nutso song with cows
OMFG, EDDIE.
Eli: HE'S SO HAWT OMG
Eli: OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG
Emleh: I KNO RIET.
Emleh: Lmfao.
Eli: HIS SHARP FEATURES
Eli: CLOTHING
Eli: AND DARK SKIN TONE
Eli: MAEK THE MOST EROTIC MAN MIRITE?
Emleh: AND SUPER GREAT EMO GLASSES.
Eli: YEAH
Eli: FUCK CONTACTS
Emleh: AND GELLED HERRS. OF GREATEST AND DEEPEST NOIR.
Emleh: AMAZING.
Emleh: SIMPLY BEAUTIFUL.
Eli: URITE
Eli: AND HE'S SO AWESOME MIRITE?
Emleh: URITE.
Eli: I JUST WANT HIS BIG FAT DICK INSIDE MY ANAL CAVITY MAKING ME BLEED
Emleh: XDDDD
Emleh: I KNO RIET.
Taking the joke too far? XD Well. There was my eventful after-school-ness. I suppose. I spent like.. two and half to three hours on homework. I listened to my P!ATD CD like.. four times. xDD S'gewd. And I can sing to it. And I like that.
School's good. I like it so far. I know. You're liek "YOO LIEK SKEWL?! SHWAT." but hey.
People watch. Constant friends. Eh, reasonable amount of eye-candy, gets me out of the house.
So there.
Lmfao, I got invited to go to AUSTRALIA this summer. It sounds like a shit load of fun an all, not to mention the credits, but we'd be outside like.. the whole time. I'd probably die. Kthnx.
It probably costs a lot too.
So there.
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2006 14 August :: 7.47pm
:: Mood: Reflective?
:: Music: 1 Night in Bangkok - Vinylshakerz
Scribbles before bed last night.
Yes, so, well. Hmn.
School is starting in two days. And I'm in for it. This will probably be a hard year. And I don't even know what to major in in college. Paranormal sciences? Art? Language? I don't know like.. anything. I'm lazy and self-centered. Indecisive. But perhaps I'm absorbing these things into myself to have limites.
I limit myself a lot.
Maybe I shouldn't. Maybe I should change. Maybe I'll like it.
Maybe is the key word. It shows my doubt of these new hypotheses. At the same time, it's trying to weaken my limitations. I've already weakened one - my limitations towards other people intimately. And one might supposed that's the first step..? Perhaps I'll meet some one who will break down my other barriers.
I've met people, but apparentally they weren't the right ones. Though I wanted them to be. I thought they could help due to their experience with substances, though I guess - ultimately - I'm attempting to give into peer-pressure by hoping to break these 'barriers'. It's expected of me to abuse substances, not really by my friends, but by the youth of society.
But I can't say I am what people expect.
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2006 10 August :: 4.11pm
:: Mood: Giggly, unpack-ee
:: Music: Waking Up Beside You - Stabbing Westward
ECKS DEE.
Eric: i luv u
Auto response from Emila: What?
<3
Eric: y did u crush my <3
Eric: you broke my life
Eric: foiyuyuyuyu
Eric: uyuyyuuyyydfgjkdkyh
Emila: LMFAO
Haha, you remember that guy ^^ I asked him to go out with me and then I was liek "JUST KIDDING LAWL." And he was liek "WHUT. I knew yoo were." Greatness ^^
Anyways, I'm unpacking my room. My dad said that's how I could have a party tomorrow, getting everything back in my room. Though I don't know where it's all ganna go =x
I went and got my schedule today e--e;; S'good. But I didn't get Portfolio 1! She wrote me down in the 40 she could take and I was like.. number 17! WTF MRS. KRUG. >----<
I submitted a schedule changer but if it doesn't go through, I'm gonna go into Mr. White's keyboarding class. >--<
Ms. Kunf taught that scary Lehrman Saturday class I was in. I am not going to have fun this year.. ~sighuu~ It will be much work.. T---T I'm going to hurt.
So yeah. If you haven't heard about tomorrow evening and you've met me and/or have been to my house before, I'm tossing a "Shit, school's here" party at 6 or 7 pm 'til about 11 or midnight-ee. Ish. So come if you can. And bring some crowd-quantity snack-ee foods. Because you love me and don't want me to buy a million dollars worth of food.
Oh yeah, no substance abuse during or before this dig, please.
I don't like it. Seriously. And I will rip you apart. Seriously.
And people will help me because they love me.
Seriously.
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2006 7 August :: 10.16pm
:: Mood: Giggly. Cramped. =x
ECKSEFFDEEOHMIFUGUHBARBEEQUESAUZ.
Potate: Max and Matt just totally came over to my house
Banann: And made out, riet?
Banann: XDD
Potate: And then they tatooed each other with their make shit tattoo guns
Banann: XDD
Potate: And then Matt asked me to if I was a virgin
Potate: And when I said yes he asked me to fuck him
Potate: And then you came up and he was like "Yeah, I totally almost fucked her."
Potate: Then your virginity was disputed
Banann: Wow. XD
Potate: I kno, riet?
Banann: Truth.
Potate: Then Matt asked me to make out with him
Banann: Matt almost fucked me or Max? o--O
Potate: Then they left
Potate: You
Banann: ?
Banann: Matt?
Potate: Matt almost fucked you, you tard
Banann: I've like.. seen him four times since goddamn middle school XD
Potate: xD
Banann: AT BOOMERS NO LESS.
Potate: lol
Potate: Great, eh?
Banann: Wow, I must have been knocked out or something
Banann: PASSED OUT AT BOOMERS.
Potate: Max doesn't think you're a virgin xD
Banann: XDD
Banann: The love is strong
Potate: I was like "Yes she is."
Potate: And he was like "Barely."
Potate: And Matt was like "Oh so she took it up the ass?"
Lawl.
I love me some Potate.
<3
P.S. Room's done ^^ <3
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2006 16 July :: 5.08pm
:: Mood: Jet-lag
wo0t
Back in my own damn house ^^ I just got home from Michigan ( I left Friday evening and returned Sunday-day) annnd.. yah.
It was fun.
So yeah. Last you heard from me was.. Friday. Okay. So I went to Roadhouse with my dad and we had the habanero chicken sangwiches which really weren't that spicy at all, then he dropped me at Jadie's which wasn't too far away. The Jadelaloo and I rejoiced and then - as a Jade came home and Emily's leaving present - we got to babysit her baby sister!
YEEEY.
Lmfao. So yeah. We fed the welp of our affections and bathed her and put her to sweepy-Bees. Then we watched TV and movies and Jade and I simpy adore "The Little Princess." That movie is so good. o--o So Kimmeh came home and it was her neighbor David's birthday. We went outside to congregate at all hours of the night with his friends and he - like we usually do. Yap.
Anyways, I went home at liek.. 2 am. Jadie was out so I went to sleep and then we got up and went to see "Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest"! ^^ Jadie dressed liek a pirate ^^!!! And I gave her a braid. Yah. S'good.It kinda went to shit went my dad got to Kimmeh's and Jadie and I were still at the movies. He was a bit flustered about that, but we ended up getting to the airport with just enough time. Southwest is a hippie airline o--o They believe in free seating, so if you ever fly with them with other people whom you'd like to sit with, try to get into group A. Lawl. My dad sat infront of me 'cause everyone like.. took up the aisle seat and the window seat, not the ones in between, so those are the ones my father and I got.
Omfg, so we're in Detroit and it's 12 am Saturday morning and the Avis bus takes us to the rental place and the line is taking for fucking ever. I'm just like.. dying. Because I want to get to my grandma's. We finally get a damn car and we ended up going the wrong way. Thankfully I'm a genius and told my dad to turn around and we got on the right track. So we get to grandma's at liek.. 1 - 1:30 am. And I slept on a couch. ^^
NINE FUCKING AM. Bright and early, bitches. o--o Yeah. I slept like.. 8 hours. It's a miracle. I usually soak up 10-12. Anyways we ( my chick cousin, her friend, my brothers, and I ) are assigned the "DISTRACT YO GRAMAMMY" mission, so we go to the mall with gramma ^^ Kristen ( my cousin ) and Kelly ( her friend ) disappear into Hollister and all of those skin-severing boutiques and my brothers, grandma, and I just kinda wander around. Then we find a Hot Topic <3 My mom only gave me 30 dollars .__. and it was a STRONG debate between the Jack Sparrow messenger bag ( which was REALLY HOT ) and this cute little pinstripe vest.
The pinstripe vest won. Emily likes vests. So I purchased, ending up having to borrow a buck from my brother, and then we went to the food court to continue our stalling. We munched Taco Hell and talked about birthdays, because that's all of what us kids were thinking about since we were keeping our good ol' g-ma out of the house for -- surprise birthday party set up. Our grandma tapes together the amount of ones ( $15 for a 15th birthday ) together for us and sends it to us and we're liek "WOULDN'T IT BE SO FUNNY IF WE DID THAT FOR YOU, GRANDMA? 70 BUCKS TAPED TOGETHER, HAHAHA." and we were having a good old laugh about that.
Because we did tape 70 bucks together.
"HAHA, WE COULD LIEK.. HANG IT ON THE WALL OR SOMETHING. HAHAH."
Which we did as well.
XDDD We are sou good. So finally the stalling ends and we head home and David ( one of my brothers ) almost fuckin' ruins it. My dad was texting him and David reads out loud "Message me when you get to the picket fence, what? Dad, gawd, leave me alone!" and I reach my hand behind J ( my other brother ) and smack Dave and Kristen and Kelly are freaking out, thinking that my grandma caught on but apparentally she didn't 'cause she was pretty damn surprised when she walked in the house. XD
Poor dear started crying, it was so sweet. So yeah, frolicing and mischief and "Barbie's Fairytopia : Mermaidia" ensued with younger chick-cousins. Annnd.. I hid in the basement and drew and listened to Panic! At the Disco. xDD I'm good. Then there was an 11 pm McDonald's run because Taco Hell wasn't enough deep-fried fat for stick-twins Kristen and Kelly. I tagged along because.. I'm a girl. o--o;; Perhaps. >--->;
So yeah. Got up this morning at fucking 8 am and went to the air port. Things went pretty smoothly. I slept through both flights pretty much. And here I am. My ears are still popping.
Much love, dawlies.
<3
o--o
Nyah.
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2006 8 July :: 7.35pm
:: Mood: Profound?
:: Music: The Medallion Calls - POTC 1 sound track ( Thanks Michan! <3 )
Goodbye sweet paradise..
.. of my room.
T---T
For liek.. a week or two.
x---x
Still going to be crazy.. Nyahh..
New furniture and stuff o--o;;
I LOVE PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN.
^^
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2006 7 July :: 11.47am
:: Mood: WOW.ed.
Emily on Pirates of the Carribbean II: Dead Man's Chest
OH MY GOD.
OH MY GOD.
OH MY GOD.
OH MY GOD.
OH MY GOD.
OH MY GOD.
NOT ONLY.. wAS IS BEAUTIFULY.. BUT..
OH. MY. GOD. o------------------------------o
Alright, so I went last night at 12:01 am to see it with the twin-things and Stephen and I met Michan and Chris there and WOAHHHH.
IT WAS.
SO GOOD.
The twinners, Michan, and I dressed up.
xDDD
And I totally have pirate hair right nao.
OH
MY
GOD.
THE MOVIE. WAS THE SO GOOD.
SO GOOD.
GO.
NAO.
SEE IT.
AHHH.
O----O
Oh my god.
Oh my god.
Oh my god!
~will cut off so you're spared any further god-ing~
<3
P.S. OH MY FUXXIN GAWD.
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2006 28 June :: 7.35pm
:: Mood: Grossed Out.
:: Music: Your Eyes Open - Keane
EW
Stephen the Lion: its funny how you never notice how many socks you need till you start packing for a vacation
Emleh: XD
Stephen the Lion: then its like "dude, where are all my socks?"
Emleh: I think that's like.. the only cute thing you've ever said
Stephen the Lion: hahaha
Stephen the Lion: so, now you think im cute?
Emleh: No.
Emleh: I thought that what you said was cute.
Emleh: But that's it.
Stephen the Lion: mabye we should get togeter sometime?
Stephen the Lion: awww
Emleh: ...
Emleh: Wow. Umn... No..
Stephen the Lion: haha
Stephen the Lion: your so silly when you react like i was being serious
Emleh: HAHAHAHHA.
Ew.
He was definitely being serious.
x---X;;;
BLAH.
'mabout to go to Linxx0rs.
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2006 25 June :: 6.36pm
:: Mood: Hyper. xD
:: Music: Boys. DOOJE DOOJE.
Dood.
My tonselitis is liek.. Almost gone. ^--^ KNOCK ON WOOD. ~knock~ I fucking love amoxicilin.
- WHAT YOU FUCKING MISSED. =p -
We had liek.. a gawddamn party at Jade's house last night. Fucking. Awesome. I love Jade. And I love Adam and Ducky and Naomi and Amanda and David and Bobbie and Adam ( whom has Hyde-hair and Foreman-face XD ). David is Jade's neighbour that we discovered during her birthday party and we've been chilling with them ever since. Mostly at night. 'Cause it's good. But yeah, so, Bobbie and Hyde-hair Adam are David's friends.
Boobie tried to shoot me with a firecracker once and I just met Hyde-hair Adam last night. Amanda and Naomi were over and Adam and Ducky are always at Jade's because it's like.. their second house.
All in all, we had a lotta fun. Dancing, almost breaking Jade's floor, drinking water, tonselitis.. David slapped my ass and it hurt. o--o
A lot.
So I smacked his tummeh and things were better. ^^
Hyde-hair Adam got super drunk. Annnd.. threw up in the grass x--X;; EMILY PICKED UP THE BARF TOWEL.
We all passed out 'bout 5 or 6 am, spare Jade, who was still in OCD-clead mode. Bleep.
Then we got up at liek 12:30 pm today and I made Emilettes ( EMILY'S OMELETTES O--O; ) annnnd.. they were good. Then my aunt picked Naomi and I up and then my mommy took Naomi home and then we went to the mall and I THINK I WANT TO BE A FASHION DESIGNER WHEN I GROW UP.
^----------^
So there you go.
I like things.
SYC tomorrow.
YEY?!
I love you.
A lot.
Uhhhhh..
I HAVE AN ORANGE WHISTLE.
It's powerfully positive and positively powerful.
<3!!
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2006 23 June :: 1.25pm
:: Mood: Relieved, content
HUZZAH.
I don't have strep, I have tonselitis!
Jadie, I'll probably be over tomorrow. Maybe. I think.
And I get AMOXICILLIN to make it better ^---^
The thick, pink, bubble-gum-ee stuff.
Love.
I haven't had it since I was liek.. 10.
I'm definitely feeling more happy. Really tired, but content.
And I just ate.
So that's good, too.
My throat hurts.
^-^
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2006 23 June :: 8.34am
:: Mood: PAINED.
Sweet Fuckin' Fuck!
I hate you, Ducky! You TOTALLY JINXED ME. AND YOU WOULDN'T KNOCK ON WOOD. AHHHH. BITCH.
Anyways .___.
I have strep throat.
And it's ghey.
I'm going to the doctor at 11:45. And I'm awake. At 8:35 am. Because of my stupid throat. GHEY.
It's all gross and white back there.
Woe is me, fair people, assuming people are reading this!
My Jade leaves Tuesday and I fear I will not be able to see her T--T
I'll probably skip volunteering on Monday - don't wanna infect anyone e--e - but we'll see how it goes.
So my weekend is totally ruined.
And Naomi's is, too, if you think about it.
Naomi, if you get mad at me 'cause I got strep and I can't drive you home.. bleh. o---o
I will just wave idly and fall back into bed.
THIS.
ISN'T.
FUN.
AH.
DEATH TO YOU WHOEVER MUTATED YOUR CELLS INTO STREPTOCOCCIS A AND B.
I HOPE YOU JUST.. DIE.
A lot.
KTHNX.
>---------<;;
I'm gonna go lay down again before I have to get up and shower.
I probably won't be able to eat for a little bit .___.
<3
GHEY.
P.S. I have a stand-in phonular ( same number you have ) since the other one comitted suicide. Ring if you need me. <3
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:: Mood: Tired-ish
:: Music: nothing.
Updating.
'Cause Naomi told me too.
<3
P.S. YouTube is god. I'm on there. o--o Search for drpeppercrusader.
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:: Mood: Hi.
:: Music: Chewing gum, rain, typing
Hallo lovelies
How are you all today?
It's raining outside my window and I'm contemplating popping in one of the movies I got the other day.
Creepshow, Nightmare on Elm Street 2: Freddy's Revenger, or Nightmare on Elm Street 3: Dream Warriors. I thought I got the first one with Johnny Depp in it, but I suppose I didn't.. I got all three for like.. 15 dollars all together.
Super fun time!
Anyways, I had a lot of fun at Jade's and I'm whipped mentally and.. perhaps physically. But not literally.
Did you follow that?
Good show.
I'm gonna go watch scary movies now, kthnx.
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