I haven't been able to go to bed/fall asleep any earlier than 2/3 am lately. I know it's just stress and things but I'm so tired of it. Literally.
I haven't been really France shell shocked lately. I'm excited but not as much as last semester. It's not noticeable, my excitement. C'est pas évidant, ma joie. My fear, on the other hand, is pretty evident.
I'm going to finish reading this article on Crime Library and then I'm grabbing my Pigeon book and going to bed. I work tomorrow at 9.
Did I mention my car wasn't working? I haven't tried it since Wednesday but it wasn't starting. We're going to test the battery and things before taking it in. I'm working full time until I leave but this lack of a car is killing me. I want to see everyone but I can't drive anywhere.
You guys have to come home once more before I leave. I wish you guys didn't have class so you could see me off.
Okay, now I'm nervous. I'm going to finish reading and stop thinking.
I keep thinking that I'm going back to school on the 8th. I go back to work on the 3rd. Hopefully then I'll get the schedule of when I can work during the time after classes start and before I leave.
I made crepes. Sort of. They turned out lame but it was my first time with my new happy crepe maker.
I'm afraid to go to France.
My parents got me luggage as an early birthday present. The thing is huge. I could fit comfortably in it.
I got an email from my Spanish professor asking us if anyone was going to Traverse City and could deliver a package for her. She gave us her cell phone number just in case we were.
Tyler Epps
I miss my cousin. I don't even remember the last time I saw him. It had to have been at his mother's funeral in 1999. We're really close in age so we were inseparable for the longest time. Mom says no one knows where he is anymore.
I used google to search his name and found a picture of him. It's from March. I'm going to cry. I never realized how much I missed him. He's all grown up with facial hair and everything... Apparently he was still really good at basketball. Hey, Tyler. Ty Ty. I miss you.
Just in case you google yourself: this is Rachel, your cousin. You should contact us or Mike or someone. What are you up to? How is everything?
I was way too excited then quickly depressed today.
I saw Emily (!) whom I missed dearly which made me excited.
I also saw, for probably the last time ever, Micah, Tim from my creative writing class, CG and everyone in my creative writing class. Then in French I will have to deal with seeing Marah for the last time. Ever.
Stupid semester abroad. You screw up all my goodbyes.
I am thinking of totally not doing this paper for marketing but I sort of have to. It's all of my grade. But he wrote 0 notes on the one I have to rewrite (except for "good" and "okay maybe") so I have nothing to improve.
Exam week has me stressed and excited and sad. I miss people already.
We wear our scarves just like a noose
So tomorrow we are going to Chicago so I can get my French visa.
Emily was going to come with us but she has to work on Saturday so she can't. Which makes me more depressed than you can ever know.
In other news, I received a letter telling me who my host family was. I emailed the last two students who had that family and they both said that was the best family in France. I am excited.
