I'm feeling particularly sappy/lovey today :]
I had all but given up on finding
The one that I could fall into
On the day before you
I was ready to settle for
Less than love and not much more
There was no such thing as a dream come true
Oh, but that was all the day before you

Now you're here and everything's changing
Suddenly life means so much
I can't wait to wake up tomorrow
And find out this promise is true
I will never have to go back to
The day before you

In your eyes I see forever
Makes me wish that my life never knew
The day before you

Oh, but Heaven knows those years without you
Were shaping my heart for the that day I found you
If you're the reason for all that I've been through
Then I'm thankful for the day before you

Now you're here and everything's changing
Suddenly life means so much
I can't wait to wake up tomorrow
And find out this promise is true
I will never have to go back to
The day before you

Was the last day that I ever needed alone
And I'm never going back
No I'm never going back

Now you're here and everything's changing
Suddenly life means so much
I can't wait to wake up tomorrow
And find out this promise is true
No I'm never going back
I will never have to go back to
The day before you


He's probably the only thing that is keeping me from completely falling apart and sinking below the water. MC is still being fuck faces, and I'm STILL not working. I never got some letter that they supposedly certified and sent out [how convenient], so I finally called and was all like, "um do I have a job or what?" Then I found out that I had to have my doctor fill out some form stating what my restrictions are or aren't, and I ended up having to go back in and waste another $20 that I don't have all because MC's quack of a doctor claimed my lower back strain wasn't work related nor was it a back strain even though my regular physician said it was..

So that form got faxed yesterday morning, and here I am still waiting for the cunts in HR to get their heads out of their asses and either tell me I can go back to work, or tell me that they aren't hiring.

I am SO sick of being thrown around and jumping through hoops.

In the mean time, I've been stalking careerbuilder.com and monster.com, and I've reached a high level of desperation that has lead me to applying to restaurants as a waitress :[ I have yet to hear back from anyone. Not even temp places call back :[[

I feel like a grade A failure.

I put down a $100 down payment to my best friend in CT on his Canon Rebel XT because that, the lenses, and everything else that is being sent with it was only $550 and WAYYY too good of a deal to pass up. That finally got sent out yesterday after almost a week of being told "I'll send it out this day," and then something randomly coming up that prevented it from happening. 2-3 days, so either Saturday or Monday I'll have it.

I heard from GRCC, but it was only to tell me that they needed my HS transcripts and ACT score. I sent in a written request + money to my HS last week, and hopefully they [GRCC] got everything this week.

My car is completely unsafe to drive, yay. Pj's is slowly imploding, so we are going to Waukesha [where I'm from in WI] tonight and giving a $50 down payment to my parents on my mom's Escort that she can't drive anymore. 2001, ~50k miles, and no problems to speak of. It's a Ford. It's automatic, but it's SOMETHING, and right now something is better than nothing :\

My anxiety meds were upped and then dropped back down to the lowest dosage not too long ago, and currently it seems as though they are working.

Kelly leaves next weekend which makes my heart ache every time I think about it. I hate when I get separated from my best friends, but you would think that after how many times it has happened, I would be used to it or good at it by now. Not so much, unfortunately. I'm proud of him though. REALLY proud.

And that's my life.

Woo.

Rah rah.

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