My hair's frizzy from all the rain and it makes me sad so I've been living with ponytails for the past week. I'm scared I'll have a permanent ponytail crease.

Two finals down, two more to go.
-I got 300/300 on my research paper that I waited until the day it was due to write... that was fucking awesomesause to the max.
Then I got the highest score on the final with a 168/200 which is SAD.
-I don't know what I got on my Political Science final. I feel like I did alright, though surely not good enough to maintain my A. I might be okay with that, depending on what I made.
-My final for speech tomorrow... fucking easy. Whatever, no worries about this one.
-Computer Applications... this one got split into 2 seperate tests. The first part we had from last Thursday to this Thursday to do it, and it was ... actually hard. We had to open a Word document and do all this shit to it, and the same with an Excel document. We had instructions that the teacher had typed up, but it was worded awkwardly, and she forgot words... it was just fucked up. I had to skip some stuff because it simply didn't make sense.
The second part is a written test over Word and Excel.
I feel like I got jipped in this class. I was taught everything that I already knew. It was supposed to be a more advanced class for people who were already fairly familiar with Microsoft Office, but there were these old hags in there who hadn't even opened Word. Whoever put them in the class was a fucking dipshit.
Plus, if you'll notice, I only ever said "Word" and "Excel"... that's only half of Office. There's still PowerPoint and Access. We briefly went over those, but... fucking whatever. The class was a huge waste of money, but I had to have it.
It makes me mad though, obviously.

Another thing that irks me is that my personal message on MSN refuses say what song I'm listening too. Soooo not a big deal, but it annoys me that I can't figure out why, and that it bugs me enough to even attempt and figure it out.

-end rant-
<3 you Kelly.

Life as is
I've had a lot of weird shit happen lately that involves my family and people whom I consider family and it's all just kind of freaked me out.

Finals start Monday. I want to say that I'm ready for them 100% but... well I'm not. I have put sleep on hold a lot this week, and Kelly said that he was going to laugh when I fell asleep during the actual final and I'm beginning to wonder if that's actually going to happen. I'm completely aware that I need sleep, that I have to have it in order to function like something other than a zombie, but every time I lay down I'm like 'omg I can't possibly be thinking about sleeping, can I? I have to study for English and Political Science and Computer Applications. How on earth do you start a query on Access again? Oh hell, I better go look that up.'
It is madness. It is taking over my life. I cannot control it.

The only good thing going for me, as far as school goes, is that my teacher loved my final speech. We always say it the week before for practice and then give each other help and say what sucks and all that shit, and I was told to slow down (as always) but no one had anything for me, and my teacher pretty much promised me a perfect score on it if only I could slow down a bit.

As far as Kelly and I go... we're doing great. We always are. I miss him... a lot and I get bummed out a lot. I enjoyed my time up there so much and it's just hell being here without him and ... yeah I just miss him a lot.

I want to be back there so badly. I don't see how I'm going to be able to wait until around January to be with him permanently. It seems things will suck around here for awhile.
It was a great trip though, minus the flight screw-ups/delays. Shadow even let me pet him this time around which made me happy.

3 days. Holy smokes.

There was a party tonight and Tessi and I got into this huge fight with this guy, Jeremy. It was AMAZING. She freaking punched him in the face. Greatest thing ever.
I have massive amounts of homework, still. We're having a "girls night" tomorrow and it's been planned forever so I can't get out of it but dear lord. Homework gallore.
I did find a coat today. Everyone was like "omg it's so cute" but ... I don't know if I like it all that well, but seriously, it was the only coat I found that I didn't hate. Hopefully it'll grow on me a little more.

Didn't get to talk to Kelly all that much today and I miss him :(

!!!
So Jacob told me he was still in Columbia at Mizzou and then I get home tonight and a few minutes later he come's strolling into my room. It was amazing. He just left because his dad had to have the truck tomorrow to go to work. If that hadn't been the case he probably would have just crashed here.
Anyway, tomorrow Ashley and I are having lunch together and then getting our nails done, and then attempting for the second time to find a coat.... and now Jacob's coming with us. I'm super excited. Ashley doesn't know yet, but she should be fine with it... I hope.

Seriously though, this is cracking up to be like the best month of the year. I get to see my boyfriend in a couple days, I just saw my best friend, I'm going to get pumpkin pie --totally my favorite thing EVER-- and just ... yeah. Fantastic.

School is teh suckzorz
I've got so much damn homework. Kelly's probably going to kill me while I'm up there because my nose will be buried in books.
HOPEFULLY I can get it done this weekend, but Jacob, Tylor, and Jessica are coming in and I haven't seen them in forever and Saturday night we're supposed to have a little "girl's night" over at Tessi's and just UGH.
Seriously though, I'll probably have to skip church Sunday just to get some of this shit done. It's fucking crazy.
-8 page research paper with bibliography, notecards, and works cited page for English
-6-8 minute speech to write and memorize for Speech
-a bagillion work sheets and a one page essay over Madison's Model and how we use it today for Political Science

BLAH is what I say to that. Asshat professors.

-Tuesday- I got an 85% on my test

-Wednesday- My speech went wonderfully

-Thursday- My teacher loved my powerpoint and is going to make me show the people who weren't there next week. She also said I was pretty.... which made me feel kind of awkward.

-Today- Shopping went wonderfully. Like everything in every store was on sale. I got two pair of jeans and a pair of khakies, three pair of sleep pants, two sweaters and a long sleeved shirt, five pair of underwear and two bras at Victoria's Secret, which I had to get resized and that's always just awkward imo.
"Hey... you see that tape measure around your neck? Yeah.... I'm going to raise my arms up and let you wrap it around my boobies k? Awesomesauce. Oh I'm a ___? Sweet thx. Bai2u."
Ugh.

Anway, everything that I stressed about all week went perfectly fine. Blah.

I haven't talked to Kell in like 1 1/2 days and now apparently I have to go all weekend without talking to him and who knows how much longer.
i r sad.