Alright, so, this week has been kind of awful.
My class was canceled Monday, but we weren't told so until we actually got to school, so waste of gas there.
Tonight I had a test in Political Science; I think I did alright, but I don't know for sure, and it was a very large stress enducer for me, and even though it's over with, I'm still stressed about it. Then, once the test was over, we started going over our new stuff, and I told him that I wasn't going to be there on the 20th and he was like "... yeah, ok" and then this guy Jake told him he wasn't going to be there on the 13th and he just like snapped and started bitching and being really rude. So, that was awesome.
Tomorrow I have a speech to give, and I only just got done writing it, but it only has to be like 2-4 minutes and I can bs my way through it if I forget anything.
Thursday I have a powerpoint presentation to give which is worth 200 points. I hate powerpoints. They're effing retarded and just annoy me. On this one I have to insert a sound clip and it's not freaking working so I don't even know what to do. Once I get out of class tomorrow I guess I'll just work on it for a million hours until dumbass Erma (the bitch-face I hate that works at the school) kicks me out. Oh how I loath her.

Anyway, on top of all the stress I have from school, I'm REALLY sick and have these gigantic pills to take, and though I'm not sure what ass tastes like, I'm sure they're fairly close.

The only good thing about this week is that I should be going shopping with Ashley on Friday. She called and asked if I wanted to, and it actually works out because I need to go. I don't have a winter coat yet because... well I live in Missouri and quite frankly it doesn't get all that cold until later into winter, but since I'm goin to Michigan and I'm a huge baby, I need one now. I also need some more jeans and tops. And bras.
I'm thinking I'll ask my parents to just give me money for clothes now instead of waiting for Christmas. Dad'll be cool with it, Mom... I'm not so sure about. Fingers crossed though.

Despite my ranting, I'm actually in a good mood. I get to see Kelly, so I can't even stay in a bad mood if I wanted too, I'm too excited.

In short:
Rachel - Happy until further notice.

Dear lord I wish sleep would come to me now.
I'm tired but no matter how much I will myself to go to sleep, I lay there staring up at my ceiling. Can we say torture?
Yes, indeed we can.
I laid in bed for over an hour just thinking of things and then I had a huge list of questions I wanted answered, so I was like, "eff this, I'll go google everything," so now here I am, googling shit at 1:20 in the morning, when I would actually like nothing more than to sleep.

I was just sitting here thinking, and even though we're not physically together, just talking to Kelly makes me the happiest person ever.
I can't wait to be up there. I love him so much, and I hope he know's that I would be a mess without him.
<3 you babe.

Invincible - Crossfade
I memorized all the words for you
But if you only knew
How much that's just not like me
I wait up late every night
Just to hear your voice
But you don't know that's nothing like me

You know I wonder how you already figured out
All these things that I try to hide
All this time i've been hoping you don't find out
All these things that I hide on the inside

I can't be held responsible
This is all so new to me
Just when I think I'm invincible
You come and happen to me

I want to make sure everything is perfect for you
If you only knew
That's not like me to follow through
Maybe even give up all these dead end dreams
Just to be with you
But you don't know that's nothing like me

Hey yeah I wonder how you already figured out
All these things that I try to hide
All this time i've been hoping you don't find out
All these things that I hide on the inside

I can't be held responsible
This is all so new to me
Just when I think I'm invincible
You come and happen to me

Now I'm waking up
I've finally had enough of this wreck of a lifetime
I never thought I'd survive it
Now I'm taking back
All I gave up for that
Leave my pain behind
Wash these stains from my life

Just when I thought all was lost
You came and made it all okay

I can't be held responsible
This is all so new to me
Just when I think I'm invincible
You come and happen to me

I can't be held responsible
This is all so new to me
Just when I think I'm invincible
You come and happen to me

I memorized all the words for you
If you only knew
How much that's just not like me

Same old, same old... as always
/sigh

I got a letter from Crowder today, and it seems there were funds left over from Financial Aid, so I'm going to be getting back a lot more for this semester than anticipated, like a couple hundred, so I'm excited about that.

That's really all that's new.
Kelly's still amazing. And still mine. <3