I was outside with Taylor for like... probably a long time, idk, and Kelly went to bedzorz so like le sigh and stuff.
I was like "oh I'm nauseous... Taylor come outside with me so I can get some fresh air plz /sad face" and so we went and sat outside and talked and then I come back in and Kelly was like "I'm going to bed... love ya" and so now I'm NOT tired and have no one to talk to and it's midnight and so I guess movie ftw.
Blah.

Talking to Kelly...
He always makes me feel good.
I love him, and I love being mushy.

Ok so I was in my room piddling around, going through stuff that I'd kept from high school and was throwing things away, and then the phone was like "oh watch me ring" and I was like "Oh? well watch me answer you"
and then there was my old boss from Country N. He was like "ugh the waitress broke her arm and you're the only one I know so ... come in" and I was like "bitch, you better pay me better than you did last time I worked, or I'll mess you up so good" and he was like "um... okay??" and then ... that was all. I got ready and went in and worked.
It was freaking dead though, I only made like $25 in tips. Blah.

Anyway, tomorrow I shall spend the day at the gross park because of the annual Wheaton BBQ and my parents part in it. Blah.

Oh and then my parents get in a fight and mom forces everyone to sleep. Imagine the hostility I feel for her atm.
/Shooting her with my laser eyes.

Working outside sucks. I always end up with poison oak or poison ivy, yet my parents are always like "outside, now!" and then freak out with when I get either of the aforementioned things.
Stupid heads.
/eye roll

Anyway, my parents are like "zomg fireworks" and idk they kind of bore me. Yeah, you get a cool one every now and then, but for the most part they're boring and reduntant.

Kelly's going to leave and either go hang out with PJ or watch Transformers.
It's times like this when I wish I were still in Michigan. I had such a good time up there, and we didn't really do anything. Good company is how to explain it I suppose.
Blah
Watch me have an emo moment.

I went to bed at 3 something and got up at 7 and did a million errands and now my head hurts and I leave in like 7 hours.
It doesn't seem like I'm even leaving because usually you leave for trips in the morning, not at 9 effing 15 at night.

--Editzorz--
My dad went to the bank with me because he had to talk to this guy that had to sign my check that I was getting cashed, and on the way to Cassville he told me he was proud of me, and I started crying because it was the first time he'd ever said that. I and my amazing powers pulled it off as eyes watering because they do that a lot, but... I don't know. It made me sad.
But anyway, now I'm off to sleep. Hopefully this headache will go away because it is very unwanted and unneeded.

I opened up a checking account today. I got sick to my stomach doing it, too. I'm just doin loads of things all by myself. Buying a bus ticket with My money, not battin my eyes and having daddy pay for it, I'm goin to Michigan alone, goin to school where I aint got no family, and now I've opened up my own checking account.
It's terrifying.
I leave tomorrow night. I'm going to be on a bus, by myself for like 19 hours. That reminds me that I need a little light thing to read. I so doubt I'll sleep much, if at all.
I'm so excited though!!
Gosh, I feel like a hormonal freak, my emotions are just everywhere.
Scared, nervous, excited, ecstatic, on the verge of throwin up, giddy... there just aint no end to it.
I hope Kell's just as much of a mess as me though. Ha. He aint gotta sit on a bus in the company of strangers for 19 hours and get a numb ass. I doubt I'll even remember how to walk once I'm off that dumb bus. Stupid Greyhound.

I was such a bum at the start of the day, but I feel justice has been served by my dearest mother.
I went to bed around 2:30-3:00, and got up a little after 2:00.
Then mom was like "haha, I tricked you with letting you sleep." handed me a broom and a mop and told me to get to work.
So, the floors are all pretty now, and I even dusted, cleaned the stove top with the shiney-making stuff, cleaned out the fridge and did laundry.
It makes me sick when people walk on the floor after I mop though.

Yesterday was fun. Renkoski came over and we sat and goofed off at the house for awhile, and then we went to Tessi's and watched Brokeback Mountain.
He had never watched it before, but Tessi, Johanna, Whitney and I all watched it when it came out on dvd. Awkward.
lol it was fun to watch his face throughout the movie.
... well if that didn't make me sound like a creephead.
WOW.
Done with that story now.

Anyway, later that night all the guys went camping and Tessi and I met up with Kandace at Kyle's and sat around and screamed/sang angry girl music to Joey and Kyle (which pretty much made their ears bleed) and played cards. It was great fun.

Other than that, I've fallen in love with this song all over again.

Bother - Stone Sour

Wish I was too dead to cry
My self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochists to which I cater
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

[Solo: Corey]

Wish I'd died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shell forgotten
with its memories
Diaries left
with cryptic entries

And you don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on:
I'll never live down my deceit