SPELLING WORD!!
though commonly spelt "lieing".... the word is actually spelt... are you ready?
lying.


crazy.
i love you Kell!!

Goodbye Life
I fucking am sick of everything!!!
My stupid sister and I have to watch Travis (at my grandma's) 40 hours a month, and if we don't then grandma kills us and we don't get paid. So, I've been working most the weekends and I THOUGHT that she was getting the weekdays. Last night I went over there to watch him because gramma had this TOPS class which is like weight watchers thing and found out that we only had like 8 hours. WOW. that means that i have to get in 32 hours in one week by myself. fuck Ashley. now I have to spend my life over there, I can't go cut wood like I'm supposed to this weekend, because I have to donate my weekend to stayin at grandma's, AND ... I can't get on late at night and talk to Kelly. *sigh* that's definitly the worst.

So tomorrow is Senior Sneak Day. it's gonna kick ass. We're going to Silver Dollar City as they always do.
Tonight at 11:00 Kandace, Tessi, Johanna, Heather, Renkoski, Tylor and I are all going to meet up at the school and spell out "SR 07" in front of the school with plastic forks. it's going to be freaking amazing.

Anyway, Taylor just ALMOST burnt the house down. she put in a TV dinner that I didn't even know we had, or ever had bought any ever, and turned her back to get a piece of cake and i walked through, there's fucking flames everywhere i was like "OM EFFIN G" and jerk open the damn door, and throw the dish into the sink. My hand hurts like a mother, but other than that I'm alright. She's going to die. Not by me, but just because she's a dumbass.
Anyway, I have to go do some stupid homework before leaving for grammas.
Later

Kelly..... I love you. Hopefully I'll be able to get back on before I die.

I found a(nother) song that makes me happy.

--Calling You--
Theres something that i cant quite explain
i'm so in love with you
you'll never take that away

and if i said a hundred times before
expect a thousand more
you never take that away

well expect me to be
calling you to see
if you're ok when i'm not around
asking if you love me
i love the way you make it sound
calling you to see
do i try too hard to make you smile
to make a smile

well i will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me

i thought that the world had lost its sway
(its so hard sometimes)
then i fell in love with you
(then came you)
and you took that away
(its not so difficult, the world is not so difficult)
you take away the old
show me the new
and i feel like i can fly
when i stand next to you
so what if I'm on this phone
a hundred miles from home
i take the words you gave
and send them back to you

i only want to see
if you're ok when i'm not around
asking if you love me
i love the way you make it sound
calling you to see
do i try too hard to make you smile
to make a smile

i will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me

well i will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me

i will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me


Blue October is almost my new favorite band. I need to go get their album.
Razorblade is kick ass
Hate me is sad, yet kick ass as well
Calling You... perfect example of my feelings. though i don't call Kelly 24/7...

One more day!!!
*misses Kelly too much*
*sigh*
This is odd. I feel like a stalker missing him this much, always wanting to talk to him.
Hopefully I don't annoy him :s






... or scare him.
haha

I so did not know that I had an invitation code. I would have used it long ago, because I <3 Woohu.
Anyway, I've got 2 tests today. I thought it was 3 but I was wrong.
Coming up: Business Management test. It should be relatively easy, a lot of it is common sense. I still get nervous and stress about it though.
The Psych one is actually only a quiz, but I don't like the word quiz, so it's a test. We have one everyday after we take notes (which is almost every day) and it's a lot of shit to remember, but it Does make you memorize it, so I guess it does work in the long haul... but I still effing hate them.

Dramatic people annoy me... *sits and listens to 2 dumb girls in front of me* yep... hate them.
I hope I wasn't that dramatic and dumb when i was little. Actually, I can rest assured that I wasn't; they annoyed me then too. If you've got some drama, keep a journal at home. Takes care of that solution. Now if only I can convience about 98% of the female population to do this....

I kind of make me sad. Used to I could smile and listen to dumb things dumb people told me about. Now I'm finding it hard to smile at most people even if they're not telling me anything dumb. I'm annoyed but about 8/9 of the school now a days. ... *sigh* i've become a hateful person I fear. Can't wait to get the hell to Michigan and my love.

Speaking of my love, he's away. Up and left me. He went to ... Mackinac.... i think.... to do his job. He will (hopefully) be returning on Wednesday, though it could be on Thursday I've been forewarned.
He's so cute and I love him

I've a new favorite song!

Pretty Baby - Spin Doctors


Look around your world Pretty Baby
Is it everything you hoped it'd be
The wrong guy
The wrong situation

The right time to roll to me
Roll to me

And look into your heart Pretty Baby
Is it aching with some aimless need
Is there something wrong and you can't put your finger on it

Right then
Roll to me

And I don't think I have ever seen a soul so in despair
So if you want to talk the night through
Guess who will be there

So don't try to deny Pretty Baby
You've been down so long
You can hardly see

When the engines stall and it won't stop raining
It's the right time to
Roll to me
Roll to me
Roll to me

And I don't think I have ever seen a soul so in despair
So if you want to talk the night through
Guess who will be there

So look around your world Pretty Baby
Is it everything you hoped it'd be
The wrong guy
The wrong situation

The right time to roll to me
The right time to roll to me
The right time to roll to meeee uuuhhhhhh

gorgeous hmm?

So tonight there's a party. i don't know if i'll be going or not. i kind of feel like putting on pj's and going to bed early tonight. It's been a really long week, and tomorrow some girls that we babysit a lot are coming over. Their mom was in a really bad wreck and was in the hospital for like 2 months so we kept them a lot. We're not needed anymore, but ... well it kind of seems like we're getting used, "oh, well i wanna go to the movies, so brian lisa and the girls can watch the kids." oh well though, the girls are so funny.

Still nothing out of Ferris.

Ok i just may go lay down, i've had an awful headache all day, and i don't need it turning into a migrain.
Love you Kelly.

Kelly & Rachel
IT'S OFFICIAL!!!!
He asked me!! We're happy and together now!!
Hopefully he doesn't realize how crazy I am just yet lol

*Thursday, September 14, 2006*
9:44 pm (my time)
10:44 pm (his time)


Isn't everything just perfect now? I think so too.

I just realized that Ferris hasn't gotten back to me. I'm scared now.
Hopefully if they thought that I sucked and didn't want me at their school, they would tell me so in a letter right? Surely they wouldn't just trash my application while maniacally laughing... If I were them I'd be nice enough to let the person they're turning down know, rather than letting them hang in the air forever.
Unless of course they don't check the applications until closer to the start of the applied for school term? I bet that's it. I'm probably stessing over nothing.
*Crosses fingers*

So, today was very well compared to yesterday.
I kind of forgot to bring home my homework yesterday so I had to hurry up and do it second hour when I have library. I also had to make up an interview with someone because I was simply too lazy to do that one. I need to stop being lazy and forgetful and do my stuff. It was a damn good made up interview though.

I'm slightly (majorly) disapointed because I've yet to tell the world that Kelly is amazing and that I love him whole heartedly. Again. lol
I never stopped loving him actually, just tried to pretend I didn't. But now we're together again, though not official, and where as that's pretty sad, I guess it's alright because ... hm. I can't think that thought out tonight. We'll let it go.

Fruit Sales for FFA started today, and I kind of don't like it. I'm not good at giving the sales pitch to people. But I sure can take the money!! .. ha.
*makes that invisible to Kelly's eyes*

Ah! speaking of which, I told him to update and I've not even read it yet!! I gotta go do that pronto.
<3