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2008 24 June :: 12.59 am
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: That's What You Get - Paramore
I was all sad and cry-ish in my bed today and then mom got home and killed me for being a bum and made me get ready and she took me shopping to make me happy. It really shocked me; she's an asshole and this is the first non-asshole thing that she's done in a really fucking long time. I actually had fun too, we just walked around the mall talking and stuff. And she bought me three new bras and a pair of adorable heels. Then we bought some hair dye.
And no, Kelly, it's not the purple color. It's pretty much my natural hair color with a bit more red in it. I haven't done it yet, because we got back late and she went to sleep, but I'm excited.
My dad just gave me a, "are you kidding me with this?" look when we got home because the two times I've ever dyed my hair, it had horrific results. First time we attempted highlights. We ended up with orange streaks all over. Second time, my hair was this like neon red, then purple, and it ended up this strange, awkward maroon color.
= Sad times.
Hopefully this one turns out as it should =)
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2008 22 June :: 9.29 pm
:: Mood: discontent
Jacob moved to Kentucky with our friend Tylor. They tried to get me to come along, but... yeah, I didn't do that obv.
Anyway, long story short, my best friend in the entire world moved away and I just want to bawl my eyes out. It wasn't like set in stone that he was leaving with Ty, and he always says he's going to do all this shit and never does it, so our goodbye was kind of half assed.
Ugh, I just... don't want to be alone? Yeah.
I want monies to move to MI.
/sigh
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2008 20 June :: 5.22 pm
I miss the sound of your voice
And I miss the rush of your skin
And I miss the still of the silence
As you breathe out and I breathe in
If I could walk on water
If I could tell you what's next
I'd make you believe
I'd make you forget
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
I miss the sound of your voice
The loudest thing in my head
And I ache to remember
All the violent, sweet
Perfect words that you said
If I could walk on water
If I could tell you what's next
I'd make you believe
I'd make you forget
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
I miss the pull of your heart
I could taste the sparks on your tongue
I see angels and devils
And God, when you come on
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me, drown me in love
It's all wrong, it's all wrong
It's all wrong, it's so right
So come on, get higher
So come on and get higher
'Cause everything works, love
Everything works in your arms
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2008 19 June :: 2.28 pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
zomg /returns
Week and a half and one new hard drive later... Hai again.
Absolutely nothing of interest has taken place in my absense, save for Tuesday night when I went to Heather's bachelorette party. I enter the door (which has penises all over it) and get two smirnoffs shoved into my hand. They want to see me chug them, because Heather doesn't believe I have mad skills. Naturally I prove her wrong =)
The night carries on in about the same manner, and by one I'm completely drunk and there's a video of me fellating this paper penis. I don't know how I pulled through with nary a paper cut on me, but luckily I did.
I then, for some reason, am compelled to leave. This was pretty spectacularly timed because Jacob and Juan were driving around and they were both texting me saying I should leave the party and go hang out with them. So, I did and amused them with my drunk person talk.
Theeeen yesterday evening I got my computer and ran over to Renkoski's house and stole his internets to dl shit and steal his music so that it wouldn't take me 80 years. However, when I got home, I deleted the music accidentally. 7 fucking gigs. Gone. I'm so damn pissed about this but wtf ever.
Uh... mom and dad left yesterday afternoon for Oklahoma to have a little ... sex time I guess, idk. Anyway, they're gone until sometime Saturday. Taylor left this morning to go with her friend Kenslee to a Taylor Swift concert and she won't be back until Saturday either. So, it's just me and bub.... which makes me sad because all he wants to do is have me be quiet so he can watch cartoons.
At least I has my computer now!
The only poopy thing is that my wisdom teeth are STILL coming in and it hurts like no other =(
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2008 11 June :: 2.05 pm
:: Mood: disappointed
Blah.
So, my parents aren't really caring that the computer is screwed up. "We don't get on it... that's your thing, so you fix it," but I don't have a million dollars to take it in and get it fixed... if it's even fixable. Sometimes it will turn on, other times it's just like "oh, hey, I'm a bitch."
I'm sure they wouldn't be so... uncaring about the whole thing, but we just spent $3,000 to reshingle the house, plus when Trevor had to stay in the hospital, it racked up an almost $8,000 bill, and mom's new insurance thing made our deductible $6,000. So since March we've had to pay $9,000+ when we didn't really plan on it, on top of regular bills and shit. In other words, money's rather tight now, so it was like the worst timing for the computer fuck up.
Ugh, I'm on Ashley's computer and for some retarded reason I can't like... okay, she doesn't have Google Chat, obviously, there's not a need for it. So I just signed in and was on the gmail page and Kelly said something and it wouldn't like show what he said or let me talk back so idk what just happened. I just closed out because it annoyed me.
It feels like I haven't talked to Kelly in ages and it's really starting to get to me. I was excited about talking to him today, but google won't even let me do shit. I am so going to like slit some throats if things don't start going my way; this shit's getting ridiculous.
Anyway, I've been listening to "Thank You" by Dido a lot and I like it but it makes me really sad.
My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be grey,
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad
I drank too much last night, got bills to pay,
my head just feels in pain
I missed the bus and there'll be hell today,
I'm late for work again
And even if I'm there, they'll all imply
that I might not last the day
And then you call me and it's not so bad,
it's not so bad and
I want to thank you
for giving me the best day of my life
Oh just to be with you
is having the best day of my life
Push the door, I'm home at last
and I'm soaking through and through
Then you hand me a towel
and all I see is you
And even if my house falls down,
I wouldn't have a clue
Because you're near me and
I want to thank you
for giving me the best day of my life
Oh just to be with you
is having the best day of my life
Now that I've eaten up all the space on everyone's Friend page... Much love to everyone, I miss people... especiall my person =(
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2008 8 June :: 12.32 am
O.O;;
http://img.moonbuggy.org.nyud.net:8080/i-had-a-mishap-this-morning/
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2008 6 June :: 11.41 am
:: Mood: morose
So computer problems are taking up my life now. Kell told me how to do things to possibly fix it, but like... I'm not too awesome with computers so I think I'll just take it to the computer shop and let them do things. They've not killed it yet and we've been going there forever so that's saying something. But yeah, like... ugh. I want a new computer but mom probably won't agree that we need a new one which could be a problem. At least it'll be a problem until I punch her in the uterus and she changes her mind. Ha.
Anyway, hopefully my baby can sustain the weekend cause I can't get her in until Monday.
*crosses fingers*
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2008 5 June :: 7.32 pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: Creep - Radiohead
Porcupines
Mom's been a huge dick lately. She's so damn psychotic, it's frustrating and annoying.
Dad was offered a job at Monett school as a Votec teacher for construction. It's the fourth time he's been offered and this time he said alright. He had an interview with the bigshots yesterday, now he's got to get his application and resume filled out then have another interview with some other people and then he'll find out. If he gets it he'll have to leave June 30th for a week long seminar in St. Louis. He's excited and it's cute. I really hope he gets it for his sake. Plus it'll be a huge pay raise so, yeah, that's always awsome.
I have fuzz on my necklace and it won't come off. it just scoots along the chain. It's slightly amusing that fuzz is kicking my ass. It's equally annoying; I want it gone.
Um... I'm starting to get quite the tan. I fell asleep on the deck and no one saved me, so my back got burnt, but it's quickly fading into a tan. It's weird to see dark legs instead of translucent ones. It's a good weird though; Ashley's not making fun of me anymore.
Anyway, Kell's got a match tonight and so I've got an hour to waste so I do believe I'll go steal the remote from Taylor.
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2008 3 June :: 3.03 pm
:: Mood: mellow
:: Music: Sober - Tool
So last night was great. Kelly and I talked about things that needed to be talked about and I was put to ease on a few issues that bothered me. Then my friend Chubbs messaged me and asked if I wanted to go over to his house and play Scrabble - a game that I'm obsessed with. Also, something in which Kelly owes me four games of. We played a few games of that with Renkoski and then we went across the street to Chubbs' little persons house, Amber. They were having a *small* party and the three of us went to the living room and played Balderdash (another great game). After I kicked their asses on that one, we went outside and listened to music and watched drunk people which is highly entertaining. They slowly all passed out and we stayed up until four just listening to music and talking about stuff. Definitely a good time.
The only thing that sucked is that there was this couple and they were all lovey and mushy and making out and just talking and... ugh. It made me sad and I missed Kelly far too much.
But yeah, slept until like one this afternoon so... woops. But whatever, I had a great night.
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2008 1 June :: 6.10 pm
:: Mood: nauseated
(Possibly boring) Recap
This weekend was friggin awesome. I just packed my shit up and went to Ashley's and stayed for the duration of the weekend. Anyway, we've been hanging out with Lacey and Jake a lot lately, which is cool, I like them both and get along with them great, as does Ashley.
Anyway, there's this cemetery around here and it's claimed to be haunted so we went and checked it out.
I'm reluctant to say that we saw actual things, but I know for sure I imagined I saw shit and it was scary. There were definitely undeniable noises that I can't reason away as birds or the wind. It was scary; it's amazing how psyched out you can get yourself. Anyway, we went to Concord (the cemetery) at 2 a.m. Saturday morning, finally left at around 5 a.m. We then decided we were hungry and went and ate at this little diner at 5:30 in the morning. There were actually people there. You should not be awake at that time, it's ridiculous.
Anyway, Jake goes home, as do Ash and I, at like 7:00. We tried to sneak in the house but grandma heard us and killed us for being out all night. We go upstairs, finish our movie that we were watching before Jake called us to go, and then sleep until 5 in the afternoon.
Didn't really do much for the rest of the day.
Later at around eight Dad came over to give Ashley a letter she got in the mail and asked if we wanted to go work on his truck with him. We said no for the off chance Jake would want to do something again. Then we felt like dicks, got ready, and went and surprised him and had a nice couple hours just hanging out with him.
As we were getting ready to leave at like midnight Jake calls me and wants to know if we wanted to do something. We end up going back out to Concord. I had a really really bad feeling about it, and we were in the actual cemetery for maybe ten minutes before we got too scared to be there anymore, and hopped in Ashley's car. We sat in it for an hour or so. We finally left when it sounded like something was walking up the back of the car onto the hood. Scariest thing ever. Especially when you have a fear of zombies. Then we went and hung out in Cassville for awhile. Ashley and I had church to go to, but we didn't want to blow Jake off and he was completely awake so we went back to Ashley's to watch a movie. It was the Departed and like 30 minutes into it I'm asleep. Ashley stayed awake for however long and then when she started to fall asleep Jake left.
I like died during church, and came home and slept from one until like 5:45.
It was a rather eventful weekend and definitely enjoyable. Ashley said that I should just pack all my shit up and stay at Grandma's during the weekends and I think I just might do that. Kelly leaves and goes to events so I like never talk to him until Sunday and I would come home after church anyway, so I would still have the ability to do just that so really there's not much that's holding me back.
On a different note, I'm sick. I've got an insanely horrible headache and I feel like I'm going to get sick. It's pretty fail..
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