I think my Ego has some issues to talk to me about. Its growing too big for its own good. Its attempts to satisfy both my superego and id just fails. It overcompensates both and ends up rushing into recovery mode. The superego and the id just end up bashing the ego together making a mess in my head. Neither of the two parts is getting what it wants because the ego fucked up. It doesnt know how to tag things on one side and make the other end understand its meaning. This sersious lack of inner correspondence is my fault. My black hole. Every problem it eats only makes the hole grow and become worse.

When do i get my cut in this process? when do i get to let go of the leash making this mess?

If you want me to just cut my losses and start over, then fucking give me a sign about what to do once Ive cut and run.

Cut. Run. Ok what now?

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