I don't understand.
I really don't get why everyone is all of a sudden smoking pot. I mean seriously, Rachel, Alex, and I are the only people I know right now that haven't at least tried it. and we're the ones who have addiction problems in our families! well, I mean, Alex's second degree relatives had problems, so he's at less of a risk, but mine and Rach's moms are the ones who are fucked up! and we've never even tried pot!! it pisses me off how there are these good kids, who come from good families, who are willing to give them anything and everything they want. and their kids are just ruining it. they're fucking up their lives. even if they don't think so. believe it or not, pot, or weed, or marajuna, are gateway drugs. I mean, I'm not saying go all out straight edge, it's okay to experiment and shit..but this isn't the age. and especially not in the middle of the school year. I mean, if you wanna do all this as a young teenager, fine, but at least wait till ya know, summer or something. ah, but it isnt even the right age to experiment. why not wait until youre older? like 16, 17, when your life is starting to actually go somewhere. ehh, it just pisses me off. and what pisses me off even more, is that I'm wondering, if I had a free ride, if I'd be trying it too..no, nevermind, Alex would keep me off. thank god. I love him so much..anyways, I'm going to go take a shower and get ready for Rach's.

I do not like my mom.
[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]
What's your name? ::: Shannon
Birthplace ::: Florida
Age ::: 13
Age you act ::: don't know.
Current location ::: FL
Eye color ::: brown or something
Hair color ::: blonde and stuff
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? ::: lefty :)
Zodiac sign? ::: Aries
Height? ::: 5'1 maybe?
[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality ::: I'm American, bitch.
Your hair ::: ick.
Your fears ::: stupid.
Your perfect room ::: red..lots of bright colored pillows..pictures of my nonexistent friends everywhere.
What you practically do in a day ::: wake up, get ready for school, either pick up Jennah or wait for her to pick me up, go to Lake Howell, go to Tuskawilla, school, homework, Alex, Alex, dinner, Alex, bed.
[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse ::: like
Phrases you overuse ::: so like, dude what the hell?
Your first thought when you wake up ::: damnit..that can be a good damnit or a bad damnit.
Your greatest accomplishment ::: I don't know
Something you want to do ::: be happy 24/7..but I don't think it's possible
[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke ::: coke
McDonald's or Burger Kings ::: neither
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera ::: Christina
Chocolate or vanilla ::: chocolate
Adidas or Nike ::: neither
Black or white ::: black.
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) ::: bills
Burgers or hot dogs ::: don't care.
Egypt or France ::: France
Rock or rap ::: Rock
[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke ::: No
Cuss ::: like a sailor..;)
Sing well ::: haha
Sing in the shower ::: so quietly that no one can hear me..not even myself.
Talk to yourself --a lot-- ::: in my head.
Believe in yourself ::: depends.
Like taking these longass surveys? ::: sometimes.
Play an instrument ::: no
Want to go to college? ::: yes
Want to get married? ::: yes
Want to have children? ::: yes.
Think you're a health freak? ::: no.
Get along with your parents ::: "what does it matter? if I say I do, I'm an idiot. and if I say I don't, I'm an idiot." "no, if you say you don't, youre an idiot. but if you say you do, youre a liar too!" or something like that.
Get along with your siblings? ::: yea
Think you're popular ::: hahah
[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state ::: nope
Drank alchohal ::: nope
Smoke ::: nope
Get high ::: nope
Done any drugs ::: nope
Eaten an entire box of oreos ::: nope
Been on stage ::: not exactly.
Gone skinny dipping ::: nope
Been dumped ::: nope
Dyed your hair ::: nope
Stolen anything ::: nope
[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]
Craziest ::: Jennah
Loudest ::: Jennah
Most shy ::: Rachel..or at least you'd think
Blondest ::: me, or Erin
Smartest ::: I'm not being conceited, but considering I have like, 4 friends and I'm the only one with straight A's..me..or Stephen.
Kindest ::: none of us are really all that kind.
Best personality ::: I don't know.
Most talented ::: Jennah is the only one who actually does something, so her.
Best singer ::: hah.
Most ghetto ::: Jennah by far.
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) ::: we're all drama queens..we're fucking teenage girls, what do you think?
Pain in the ass ::: uh, Clint..or Patrick..
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style))::: Clint.
Funniest ::: Alex, or Rachel.
Best person for advice ::: advice? I never take advice, but the best person to talk to is either Rach or Alex..they know..everything.
Dependable ::: Alex.
Trustworthy ::: Alex or Rach.
Druggie ::: haha Jennah or Patrick.
Most likely to end up in jail ::: Patrick.
Person you've known the longest ::: Rach.
[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream ::: the night before last.
Last nightmare ::: the night before last.
Car ride ::: today
Last time you cried ::: today..but only a little, I realllly cried last night.
Last movie seen ::: Cold Mountain
Last movie rented ::: don't remember
Last book read ::: I'm currently reading Heavier Than Heaven..Kurt biography.
Last word said ::: "bye"
Last curse word said ::: I don't remember.
Last time you laugh ::: earlier on the phone with Rachel.
Last phone call ::: Alex..a few minutes ago.
Last CD played ::: Atreyu-Suicide Notes and Butterfly Kisses.
Last song you listened to ::: listening to..Darkness Surrounding by Avenged Sevenfold.
Last annoyance ::: my mom.
Last IM ::: Stephen
Last weird encounter ::: last night..I don't know if it's an actual encounter, but my sister and I were sitting in the Psychology section of Border's, which is right next to the "Erotic" section..and this fat lady comes over..and then her husband comes over..and theyre sitting there laughing at some book together..
Last person you hugged ::: unfortunately, my mom.
Last person you yelled at ::: my parents.
Last time you wore a skirt ::: 2 weeks ago I think.
Last time you've been evil ::: evil?
Sarcastic? ::: today
Last time you fought with your parents ::: last night.
Last time you wished upon a star ::: don't think I ever have.
Played Truth or Dare ::: years ago, I don't even remember.
Spent quality time alone ::: today..:/
[x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]
Are you talking to someone on AIM ::: yes
Do you feel lonely ::: yea, I do.
Ever TP'd someone's house ::: hah, yes.
How about egging someone's house ::: nope.
Do you not like dislike not like me? ::: I got this thing from a random woohu..
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? ::: they're black.
Yo Momma ::: kill her, please.
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? ::: um, no, not really.
What do you think of George Bush? ::: don't really care.
Any secret fetishes? ::: no
Do you like to wear chains? O_o ::: uh, no.
How many languages do you speak? ::: 1 and a half.
Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! ::: no..
Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you XP)) ::: wtf mate?

Get up, Stand up.
so.
my Valentine's Day started at about 9:40am with me waking up next to the Pale Princess and thinking to myself, this is going to be a good day. my Valentine's Day was filled with me being with the person who makes me the most happy. and lastly, my Valentine's Day ended at around 12:20am with me watching Headbanger's Ball uncensored with my dad. it was a good day, besides a little "thing" Alex and I had..but everything will be alright. just had a nice talk with Chris. :) and now I'm going to take Stephen's advice and make something to eat. good day to you all..wait. first I think I'll leave you with a good song...since I'm going with my sister today, I think a song about bullshitting christianity will be good. (it's atreyu, of course.) and to make it clear, he's not dissing god, he's dissing christianity..because it doesn't make sense. at all. the new testament and the old..they contradict each other and ah, it's all bull. but whatever, I'm not a christian, but I'm not an athiest either..here's the song..called At Least I Know I'm a Sinner..if anyone likes it.


Lift up a stone and you will find him,
cherish the beauty in the world around us
Not in buildings or crosses made by man
Judge me, fuck you, stop playing god,
Your forked tongue prophecies,
carelessly caressing the wounds of the weak
People like you should be crucified,
then maybe just maybe you would have an idea
Of what you are talking about.
My only solace is that one day,
judgment will come for the wicked, then we will see who burns
Raise your heads, unclasp your hands,
your weakness makes me tremble
True strength comes from within
And we were given this life to live,
not exist under standards, set by some bullshit rule book
What prayers of yours, were ever answered, by degrading others
Spare me your biblical back peddling nonsense
For the people that you've hurt, and the being you dishonor,
Your fall from grace, will finally justify my means
Judge me and now you are me and what's worse
You are now a traitor to your god
Tell me Judas, how does it feel to be looked down upon
Sinners like you, should be stung up from the highest tree
you judged me and now you are me, stop playing god



good day to you all.

so I'm at Alex's. could ya guess? I love him more than anything..as he's sitting here reading everything I write. but even if I wasn't here, sitting on his lap, I'd probably be writing the same thing. I love this kid so much. and I'm going to go now..go and I don't know, hang out with him or something crazy like that. ;)
Happy Valentine's Day everyone.

and nothing, no, nothing has ever felt..the same.
I love Alex! and I love Atreyu! ..in a totally lovey mood because it's Valentine's Day! but it's weird..because I'm in a lovey mood and an Atreyu mood. hm. I guess I'm multi-talented. dude, one of Alex's presents, is the shit. I'm so excited. I made most of it. and it's awesome. but I can't tell you what it is just in case he decides to read this before I go over there..I did get him a My Chemical Romance shirt..he already knows that because I SUCK at not telling people what I got them. I just get too excited..lol..eek.
I modified my journal..like it? :)
okay, I have to go take a shower.
MWAH!

Fuzzy Wuzzy DID NOT HAVE ANY HAIR!
haven't updated in a while...sorry to you diehard fans. :) I've had 2 really BAD days this week. yesterday, woke up with my period. and if that doesn't put you in the target for a bad day, then I don't know what the hell does. so then, I forget my freaking process paper. and I don't think Ms. Schmidt appreciated me talking on the phone with my dad for the first 7 minutes of her class..then there's history, our video sucked cause the music didn't copy on to it. and Mr. David is an asshole who treats us like ignorant 2 year olds just because we're advanced and not gifted. and then in english we had to do the 3 paragraph newspaper summary thing, which I HATE. but the day did get better because it was library day. :) Alex and I had..fun..LOL..hm. nothing sexual, we're just total idiots.

so i was downtown at this little coffee shop where i met this guy..he told me he liked me shoes, so i asked if i could follow him and he said sure..so we're walking downtown..chillin..when i say, hey, i cant stick my tongue down your throat, but i know a girl who can..and i gave him directions to your house..and apparently he went..and by the way, he wasnt mexican..he was australian..with mexican backround.

sorry, that was to Rachel..anyways. back to story telling time. so today sucked too. ruined rachel's coffee, forgot her shoes (but did successfully get them to her..), couldnt find eyeliner, or green socks, I got an 87 on a math test that I should have gotten a 90 something on, and ah, I don't know. it was just weird. and poor Rachel..hahaha, poor Rachel. I set my Bright Eyes guy out on her...;) CONFUSED RACHEL?!?! GOOOOO!! (and I meant to say goo, not good..lol stephen.)
oh yea, I got glasses. I like em. Alot.
for science, we're doing a project on any scientific topic we like, and I'm doing mine on bipolar disorder. I want to be a psychologist, and both my mom and sister have BD so I figured it'd be good. plus, I'm not really interested in anything else scientific.
I want Atreyu.