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:: 2003 12 June :: 6.26 pm
:: Mood: lonely

well, ben and nicole are back together now...that just makes me happy...yea thats it happy. i feel quite alone right now...allix keeps complaining cuz she doesnt get to talk to her b/f that often, and i sit there and listen to her bitch day in and day out.....but noone ever listens to me! what the fuck is up with that?! god, ive formed some pretty fuckt up relationships with people these days...oh well, noone to blame but myself!
me and kristen went to the movies this mornin...it was fun..we were celebratin cuz she got her license yesterday...bruce almighty is a good movie..retarded but its hilarious! alright im outta here...im too pissed and hurt to care about copying it down!

:: 2003 11 June :: 9.14 pm
:: Mood: confused

meh
confused fits......yea
i dont know what to do about ben...i miss him SOOO much......it hurts. He's doin the swta play, and nicole's in it too, so knowing that he sees her all the time, well that just bout makes my day! He said he wants to try again someday, but i dont know how well thatd work.....not to say i dont want that....but i dont know if id be able to ever trust him again.....
i do want to be with him though....snuggled up in his arms feels like the warmest safest place in the world to me....i could stay like that forever and be perfectly content....
hmmmmm talkin like this is probably bad for my mental health

oh well....i want to see him so bad...i havent seen his face in a week now, but it feels like months. this sucks..big time sucks

i try to talk to him, but its awkward...and im not sure if he even WANTS to talk to me. I dont know what the hell im supposed to do...i wish life could just go smoothly for more than a week at a time...he made me feel completely happy, and i trusted him with all my heart...stupidity in motion.

on a cheerier note, lifeguarding is goin good...im teachin swim lessons with molly... the kids we have are horrible though! they dont wanna do anything... only one more day of that though! yay!

Alright im outta here......i dont have the energy to do this....

:: 2003 8 June :: 11.48 pm
:: Mood: confused

happiness only lasts so long
wow, not even a week later, and im back to being quite depressed....

Ben dumped me....he said he still has feelings for nicole and he doesnt think the relationship is fair to me......im believing him...but i dont want to. It hurts alot..i was so happy and it was torn away from me in an instant......goddamnit All i want to do is hug him close to me and know that i can squeeze him tight to me when i feel unsure....but no...its gone. Life goes back to its sucky disposition. Why cant something just work!? For longer than a week and 5 days...................

Work started yesterday......i actually had to save a kid!!!!! it was scary...
ok too tired to care anymore im out......

:: 2003 30 May :: 11.23 pm
:: Mood: happy

graduation day!
well ok, graduation night....same difference. and i wasnt the one graduating......but it was fun all the same... mike's real dad was there from california, so i got to meet him and the rest of his family, and i got to meet ben's brother, joe, and kim, who i like alot! I got plenty of pics and got to spend a little time with ben. I didnt see him for ONE fricken day, and i missed him horribly......its insanity in motion! He took me home, and we just sat in his car for like 5 minutes, jokin around and holdin each other, and then he kissed me.....ended up kissin a few more times.....but nothin too intense...more sweet than anything...he makes me too happy to even describe.....im out, goin to bed, too happy to write

:: 2003 27 May :: 10.01 pm
:: Mood: chipper

one day left!!!!!!
Yay, only one day of school left. I think what me and Allix wanted at the beginning of the year really did happen: We're ending the year happier than we could have imagined, and it's much better than the end of last year. MUCH better. She has Joseph all to her own, and as of now, I have Ben to my own...!!!!!! It's the most amazing feeling to be happy........yes, that's right, I'm insane....I know. Oh well. I have NO finals tomorrow......Study Hall, Gym, and Choir! OOoooooooooohhhhhhhh that's some hard action... later

:: 2003 27 May :: 5.10 pm
:: Mood: giddy

happy weekend
wow my weekend got even better after saturday night.......
Sunday night I went over by his house for a couple of hours, just to kinda bum around for kicks and giggles...
We ended up watching Spiderman in his room, cuz I hadnt seen it yet, and Id been meaning to. I was giving him a shoulder massage, cuz it was buggin him, when he turned around to face me, and kissed me....... it was so cute!!!!!! I know, I know, i'm a spaz sometimes when it comes to the gushy stuff! But theres still more......
Spiderman ended, and we still had like half an hour till i had to be home.. he was layin on his bed, and i walked over and leaned on him, and kissed him, which led to more kissing, and more, until eventually i ended up on top of him, engaging in the most intense, passionate makeout session ive ever experienced! It went on for like the whole half hour.......by the time we were all done, we were out of breath, and we both decided we had no clue where that came from, but it was.......well, we'll call it interesting......
Before all this though, he did "officially" ask me out, so I wasn't just sleazin around or anything... so now all our friends are ecstatically happy for us, however, I don't think Nicole knows.........I dont really see this as a bad thing though.....
What did surprise me is that Megan is happy for us.........I always thought she hated me....yet another good thing. My mood just keeps gettin better.

:: 2003 25 May :: 12.57 am
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: Incubus

:D
Well, I have alot of good news, but I spose I should do it in time order. Itll be less confusing......ok....let's see....

Ill start with the more boring stuff.. lifeguarding, which on the whole is actually fun, but the other stuff is better... ok, I aced my prereqs in the water, and the in-water scenarios were alot of fun, despite the difficulty of some of them. I've actually started working, cleanin the pool and stuff like that, but hey, I get paid, so it's good easy fun. Had class today, which consisted of mostly scenarios, and we played a game kinda like Jeopardy with lifeguarding questions....it was pretty fun, even though Kathy was there.

Alright thats enough of that......now on to Ben.......

After that first note, I eventually wrote him again...saying that I'd always be there, and that I was kinda sick of the awkward crap we'd been going through. He wrote back saying actually saying he liked me, and thought of it every time he looked at me. I found out that Jess had known exactly what was going on in between me and him, and hadn't said a thing about it! I coulda strangled her. So, by this time, I had gotten Ben's phone number, but I wasn't sure whether or not to call him, cuz I had no clue what was going on in HIS head. I told Jess this, and after school Thursday, he asked for my number, and ended up callin me! We talked for like an hour and we were gonna hang out but he ended up havin to leave to go back to school for one of two awards programs that night.
I saw him at the first one, but we didnt really get too much of a chance to talk, cuz it was busy. I didnt expect him to even show up for the second one, cuz he'd told me he didnt wanna go. So, I got into the auditorium and sat down by Kristen, ready to tell her just about the phone call between us, when Jess comes over and asks me what I'm doing..... She said, "We saved a seat for you!" I asked who 'we' was, and she told me her and Ben! I told Kristen I'd call her later, and for the next two hours, got to sit by Ben, talkin and jokin around with him, Jess, and Ryan....
So now we're at today.....yesterday I was workin, so we couldn't do much.... He called at like 6 and asked if I wanted to do somethin with him and Mike. I was up for playing in traffic, but Ben vetoed that idea. We ended up goin to the square in woodstock, and hanging out for like 4 hours! It was apparently Buddha Day there, and this group of people spent like an hour chanting in the park! It was hilarious.
So, zoom forward a few hours...and we're getting ready to go home... Ben decides he wants to sit in back with me, which involved major moving of an immense amount of crap in the car, but eventually it all worked. We were just listening to music, mike's choice, and he put this really sad song on, and I just kinda curled up next to Ben and we ended up cuddling the whole way home.... it was so great because it's all I've wanted for the past 6 or 7 months.....and it was everything i wanted... mike got to my house like 20 minutes before i had to be home, so he ended up just having us sit outside in my driveway and he played his guitar, and me and Ben just kinda cuddled up next to each ohter. When he walked me up to the door, we just hugged and held each other for like 3 or 4 minutes (im surprised mike didnt leave!) and then i kissed him on the cheek and went inside...........
Alright no mackin it up or makin out in the backseat of mikes car, but if you understood how sick i was of relationships like that, and how much i just wanted to wrap myself up in someone's arms (specifically ben's), youd see that thats all I need right now.....it works......Im out

Night all......

:: 2003 15 May :: 9.32 pm
:: Mood: distressed

none
Ben and Nicole broke up! From what I understand, she dumped him and it had nothing to do with me.... I should feel happy, but I'm not. Im sad. Even though I like Ben alot.................above and before EVERYTHING else, hes my friend. My separate feelings can wait. And hes sad. I spent all 6th hour today crying because I dont know what to do, how to react, what to say. This is everything I wanted, but not even close. I want him to be happy, even if thats not with me. As one small plus, I think its a good thing I did end up giving him the note before they broke up. However, I think that may prevent him from wanting to talk to me about how he feels. But he knows I wanted them to be happy, and I dont wanna go after him this soon after hes gotten out of a relationship. It would be pure stupidity. Well, if anyone has any advice, I'd appreciate it. Just leave a note.

On a lighter note, Lifeguard water testing is Saturday. I'm not nervous. Ive done the prereqs in practice a bunch of times and I think Ill do ok. I have class from 12 till 9 though. Thats a long damn time. With no actual lunch break..........seriously. My next like 4 Saturdays are all class. Busy busy busy.

Me and Alisha have been getting along really really well this year. She's turned into one of my closest friends, when last year I felt like I couldnt trust her at all. It's nice, really nice.

Alright im out im sleepy!

:: 2003 13 May :: 6.34 pm
:: Mood: chipper

crazy days
Wow......things have totally switched in the guy scene...........well, kind of. Things with me and Max arent going quite as well as I could have hoped, but then again, I really wasn't expecting much more than a take it for what it's worth and then leave it kinda thing. Ben finally knows how I feel. Of course this is about a week earlier than I planned on letting him know, but I have friends who love to force me into situations I'm not really ready for........all the time! However, it didn't turn out all that bad. Seeing as how he HAS a girlfriend now, there's not much to do, but we're gonna stay friends and keep in touch after he graduates. Things are a little awkward right now though. We're too aware of each other. We'll be talking and all of a sudden there's this huge shitty silence......its not much fun......but I have a week to work on that...................yea... I saw Brett Knowles last night!!!!!!!!! That makes me SOOOOOOOOOO happy. He graduated last year, and I've only seen him once since school started. We had a little "thing" over the summer, but it was nothin serious. More fun than anything else. But I missed him. Alright im out!

:: 2003 10 May :: 10.24 pm
:: Mood: frustrated

Wow, havent written in quite awhile again! Too damn busy! Alright lets see.......where to start? There's only 3 weeks of school left!!!!!! and CPR class is over except for prereqs next Sat. I still havent told Ben how I feel about him. I have less than 2 weeks to do it. I think Nicole may have figured something out, she been being really bitchy towards me lately, and its seemingly out of nowhere. It sucks, cuz its kind of starting to piss me off, but if she did find out how much we were flirting, I can see why she would be pissed. So while things are going fairly bad in the Ben area, things are going absolutely fantastic in the Max area!!!! It's goin really REALLY good. Im actually getting a bit of action now, instead of being on the sidelines. I'm thinkin of askin him if he wants to see a movie.........get to see each other outside of school and track, get to know each other a little better, more privacy.......... I still dont know if he'll be anything more than a fling, but even as a fling its damn good fun. Except that I want him really bad right now! I didnt get anything on Friday cuz i was "mad" at him, and now I'm regretting that cuz I'm not gonna see him till Monday. It's driving me insane!!!!!!!!!!! I dont know what to do with myself. I'm incredibly horny and there's not a guy in sight. Alright Im out for now.....cant think straight........

:: 2003 25 April :: 10.58 pm
:: Mood: DUH

duhduhduhduh
I completely forgot about both my birthday and Easter, which both happened to fall on the same day this year!
The birthday part was good, got over 200 bucks money-wise plus clothes and a couple of cds. All in all good times, cept I didnt get to see my niece Kristin, who I miss alot, or my nephew Chris, who's tons of fun.
The Easter part was good too! Basically just one huge party at Mike and Sue's house. Dad and Brian got into a bit, but they always do, so there wasnt much new with that. Nicole kinda got to me a bit during the day (my other niece) She's my age but sometimes she acts like a complete idiot! Alright NOW im done!

:: 2003 25 April :: 10.44 pm
:: Mood: thoughtful
:: Music: lalalalalalalalalalalala

lotsa stuff, catchin up
Wow i havent written in quite a while. Been too busy. Lifeguarding/CPR class is alot of fun but its time consuming. Kathy's not as big of a bitch as I was expecting. (she's our manager/teacher). Me and Allix finally went to the YMCA on Tuesday. We were actually gonna go tonight but she had to go to her dad's. We have our pre-req's nailed. It's alot easier than I was expecting. We have 20 minutes to swim 8 lengths and we did it in 5!
School's goin alright cept im slackin majorly on my Algebra II homework cuz of class and track. Im workin on it though.
I'm kinda becomin friends with Mike Ortegon. He's alot of fun. I love his hair! He has like cheek-level long dark blonde curls! theyre awesome. lol Im sad though cuz hes graduating in May and on June 1 hes moving back to California. But Ive got a month so might as well have some laughs with him before he leaves!
Still havent told Ben how I feel about him. I feel retarded! All I have to do is say it and its done, but I cant do it! Ive turned into a wuss! It really sucks, and in this case I have a month till HE graduates, so while Im laughin with Mike, Ill be fighting with myself to just fuckin tell Ben.
Then there's Max! I told him he's not getting a blowjob from me, cuz our relationship won't last and I know it, and why get in too deep?! However, I did tell him we could do other stuff, just not quite as far as he wants. There's a party tomorrow night that he wants me to go to, but Im goin to my brothers which really sucks, because I need to get out and have some good fun. Havent done that in WAY too long.
Alright thats all i can think of at the moment , im sure ill write more later when i think of it.
OUT

:: 2003 3 April :: 5.03 pm
:: Mood: giggly
:: Music: good charlotte (somethin peppy)

a good day finally
Well our track meet was cancelled for today cuz its rainin outside. Personally I'd rather just compete! Screw the rain, its good for us. I finally got my glasses. Theyre actually really comfy. Me and Ben are getting along pretty well as friends and i think im gonna leave it that way for now, cuz I love friez and i dont wanna screw shit up in any direction. Me and Max are getting along REALLY well at the moment. There might be a fling or somethin but i think hes too much of a flirt to settle down for awhile. Webbs almost got 14ft 1in tuesday night vaulting. We were hopin tonight but.........they cancelled. Oh well, next tuesday maybe. He has all season to beat the record. Alright im outta here.......since there's no track i actually get to do my homework early!!!

:: 2003 26 March :: 10.18 pm
:: Mood: chipper

covered in paint
Hehe just got finished painting Kristen's bathroom. It took all yesterday and a good part of today! Got track tomorrow at 9. It's great cuz tuesday, it was me, mahnk and friez so we actually got time to throw, and coach went and got us the discs so we got to practice with those too! Fairly dumb, but oh so amusing and fun for me. Ah, stupidity joy of the masses. I still have a bunch of homework to do before monday. Procrastination - a side effect of being in humanities........
Still havent named our mal puppy either! We've only had her, what, a week now! Nobody seems to see the raw idiocy of this. The poor dog is being called 20 different names, she doesnt know what to do! Alright I'm out this is boring.

:: 2003 23 March :: 12.03 am
:: Mood: lethargic

Spring Break
Went bowlin last night with the guys - Joseph, Cody, Andy, and Marcus. Pretty fun, nothing extremely exciting but what can ya do.......Sposed to go to a surprise party for Steph tomorrow night, but I dont think im gonna go, just dont feel like it.

Allix is really paranoid cuz she thinks Joseph is tired of her.......theyve been together for 2 years now......I dont honestly know whats goin on. He does seem a little different but I have no clue as to why... Shes at her dads till wednesday, which isnt kewl, cuz shes too far away, im worried about her.

Havent seen Ben since thursday, and i doubt ill see him again til school starts back up again next monday. Wildly frustrating. Im starting to give up, its really irritating. When youre teetering on the edge, theres only so far you can be pushed............

:: 2003 20 March :: 10.52 pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: Taproot -- "Poem"

this song is a poem to myself
Yay Spring Break started today. The musical's long over...actually only a week but it feels like forever. Ben is still happily goin with Nicole, makes me wanna cry or sumthin....not quite sure what. I've tried to talk to him and say what i wanna say but the words just wont come out. They jumble up and stop at the tip of my tongue. IHSA Music Contest is April 4! We should actually do good, we sound like we know what were doing instead of like shit. Even Mr. K approves. He said we actually sounded good. It was rather amazing. Amanda got into MIT!!!! I'm so proud of her! She's so damn brilliant. I'm gonna miss her when she graduates. I'm gonna miss a boatload of people when they graduate. Plus, Goetzy (Sara) is enlisting in the Army this May, so she wont be here next year either! Humanities is really gonna shoot downhill i think. Track's goin pretty good at the moment. Im throwin alot better already this year. I didnt do vaulting cuz i felt like i didnt have any time. Oh well, theres always next year if i really wanna do it. If not, well thats that. I finally got my new puppy! She still doesnt have a name. I want to call her Trinity, but the 'rents dont approve surprise, surprise. Alright, well im out for now, heres to the wrath of my soul.......... ME

2 flames | light a fire

:: 2003 18 March :: 7.57 pm
:: Mood: crushed

im givin up i dont give a fuck im tired of being ordinary
The subject of this are some lyrics to a song, but i dont remember by who.....if you know, could ya leave a note? Thanx

Alright, anyways, this thing with ben is driving me insane....i plan on telling him how i feel eventually, but id feel really awkward doin it now....when he has a girlfriend. Didjya know that when youre friends with the girfriend it complicates things quite a bit? I dont much like it, but hey, what can ya do? Chorus is finally back to being fun again....no more drill seargent. That was getting old anyway. All the "bad" people dropped out, and now almost everyone is someone who wants to sing. Its a hell of a lot easier. alright im gonna fly got a crapload of homework that needs to magically be done.......

:: 2003 15 March :: 4.12 pm
:: Mood: sleepy

2nd day!
Whew! Opening night of My Fair Lady was last night. We didnt get out til 10:30! Exhausting. Two more performances left, today and tomorrow! I slept all day today, cuz I have to be there at 6.... Bens in the musical. He plays Karpathy. He even died his hair........its kinda funny cuz its sposed to be black but he had blonde hair so it wont go daker than brown... Choir was great yesterday. It was a free day cuz gibbons wasnt there. me, jen, alisha, dan, and ben were sittin around reenacting every stand-up act from comedy central we could remember.

:: 2003 8 March :: 9.23 pm
:: Mood: discontent

I love him but every day im learning all my life I\'ve only been pretending without me his world will go on turning
One of my favorite lines from the song \"On My Own\" from Les Mis.....its a great song......if you havent heard it, go find somewhere to hear it....you may be surprised......hade rehearsal all day today...yea thats right on a saturday...my director is crazy, but shes awesome.

Guy problems are ongoing.......oh well....its a typicality now....but that doesnt mean it doesnt suck......lol I hate the fact that I screwed up with Ben, and in hindsight I probably screwed up with Zoli too. I\'m sure Ill laugh about all of this later, but for now it hurts and its painful, but I keep laughing. I think laughing keeps me partially sane...

I realized I haven\'t cried in a really long time.......at least 4 or 5 months......no tears whatsoever...that cant be healthy.....i need to scream or cry or something but it won\'t come out....its stuck.. you can tell im not thinking clearly by all the dots.....they give me transition where i shouldnt need it......

I\'m surrounded by happy in love people all the time, which drives me crazy. Not that i dont appreciate love, but I want some of my own, to feel safe and warm all the time........

:: 2003 5 March :: 10.10 pm
:: Mood: annoyed

lifes a bitch sometimes
alright maybe not a bitch but pretty damn close. Zoli's goin out with one of my friends. I'm liking Ben more and more each day, but he has a g/f too! I hate this! Guys suck!!!!! Well ok not all of them. Thats all for now.....pretty stupid i know, but i dont have time.

:: 2003 28 February :: 10.09 pm
:: Mood: bemused

DAMN DAMN DAMN...................ive grown accustomed to her face.
hehe thats one of my favorite line from My Fair Lady. Today was fairly boring, not much to do, alot of catching up cuz i skipped school yesterday. Stayed home, watched the Goonies (which is in my opinion, the best movie of all time), made milkshakes and slept the daylight away. Quite nice for a thursday. Guy situations are goin pretty well actually. Me and this guy Max are gettin along really well these past few weeks, but I'm still bummed that Ben, yet another guy I like, has a girlfriend. I was stupid with him. I'd just fallen out of a relationship and I didnt wanna start one so fast. He moved on..........damn life. Well, Zoli doesn't like Michelle, however, he likes one of my friends (and for "my own good" according to my friends, im not allowed to know this person's name)! It's a lose-lose situation. Kristen and Squid broke up. I guess you could say that. They weren't really ever "officially" going out to begin with though.

My friend Allix is really pissing me off. I'm sposed to sit and listen to her bitch n moan n cry about her poor sad life, but I cant get a word in edgewise. If I was on the verge of killing myself, she'd be oblivious. It kinda sucks. I've been draining myself listening to her and makin her laugh so shes not sad, and she gives shit in return. Screw that noise.

I've got rehearsal tomorrow for 4 hours and then monday (of course, she slave-drives us on our extra day off) i have it for 7 hours, with a lunch break of course thank god.

Now for the better news of this week. Me and my best friend in the whole world, Kathleen, got in this fight of sorts way before Halloween and we stopped talking......and now after a little work from both of us, were talkin again. It makes me really happy. She's that friend that you can tell ANYTHING to, the stuff that you could NEVER tell anyone else about. It's just not the same. I can't even begin to explain. If you have a friend like that, you know what I'm talkin about. If not, try to find one, someone you can love with all your heart and trust with your deepest secrets and life. It's the best thing for an injured soul. All right, well now I feel a little better writing this all out..kinda releases everything.. Night to you all

:: 2003 21 February :: 10.28 pm
:: Mood: drained

tiring day
Drained is THE perfect word for today. I went to an academic challenge the whole day. All we take are two tests but theyre difficult. It was fun but my brain feels sucked dry. Our school didnt qualify as a team, but Amanda whos a senior now, got 1st in Chem of course, and is goin to sectionals....which also happens to be opening night of the musical, so thats gonna be stressful for all of us. Hopefully she makes it back in time. I think zoli and michelle might have something goin on. I dunno. I dont see him often enough. The guys went snowboarding yesterday. Me and Kristen were gonna go, but I had rehearsal, and Squid didnt tell her till right after school, so we just didnt go. It kinda sux, I wanted to spend some more time talkin to zoli a little, but shit happens. Had rehearsal after school but she ended up not even needing the servants (were doin the musical MY FAIR LADY), so Jess drove me home at like 4:30. Not bad for the day, but oh so tiring. I wish me n zoli would work out. I'm really sick of falling for guys. It follows the same vicious cycle. We may hang out a bit and talk, but then all of a sudden there's another girl, like competing, and he chooses which one he wants, and i don't remember the last time I was the one the guy chose......................

:: 2003 19 February :: 9.44 pm
:: Mood: discontent

here we are again same old argument
all right, gotta right again on this guy, who by the way, goes by the name of zoli, to make it easier. I figure I might as well just right it all down. I met him for the first time on this snowboarding trip. We sat kiddy corner from each other there and back, and talked quite a bit. It was alot of fun, and when I got home, I couldn't stop thinking about him. The only person I told was my best friend Kristen, and I thought that was it. But she told Squid, her kinda sorta boyfriend, who is friends with zoli. Another friend of mine, Sarahi, overheard me and Kristen talking one day, and told her brother, Adrian, who also was boarding with us. Squid told zoli, and now Adrian (who is also called ED), Squid, and Zoli, three of the people who really didnt need to know, know it all. It's driving me crazy. I have no idea what he thinks, and I barely see him during the day. I just don't know what to do anymore. It spiraled out of control, and is slowly unraveling before my eyes. I just want it all to go simply.

:: 2003 19 February :: 9.27 pm
:: Mood: sad

life to start with
hmmmmmmm.....alright to start from the beginning. My life appears to be constantly spiraling downward with no signs of slowing. I'm surrounded by friends who are thinner, happier, and more content than i am at the moment. Not to say I'm always this way, just right now. I've taken up yoga again, in an attempt to relax. I recommend it to everyone. It's quite relaxing. School's not too bad these days. I finally raised my Chemistry grade back up to an A. That F was brutal for awhile. Extra credit is a great thing. Went snowboarding last week (?). I don't know how ever long ago the 7th and 8th was. Maybe two weeks. Started to really crush on this guy. He's a senior, and there's just something crazy about him that makes him completely irresistable. I don't know what he thinks about me. Thanks to Squid and Ed, he knows I like him, which was not sposed to happen, but hey, yet another thing gone wrong. I think he likes Michelle though. He talks to her alot. I really wish this could just go right for once. I'm sick of suffering. I want to have some damn fun. It's gets boring. Me and Kristen are trying to figure out sometime to go boarding with them again. Hopefully before the season ends.

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