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2006 19 April :: 11.02pm
The fact of the matter is, we don't have anything to fix. It's to the point where I don't even care what you have to say and the whole thing where you say you don't want to see me hurt. Well it's a little too late for that. And obviously you don't care about me more or you wouldn't be doing this. That's a lie. Everything that comes out of your mouth is a lie. I would rather you just admit it than act fake about it. I know. He knows. You know. We all know.
Oh no
Don't go changing
That's what you told me from the start
Thought you where something different
That's when it all just fell apart
Like you're so perfect
And I can't measure up
Well I'm not perfect
Just all messed up
I was loosing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
It's not like I need somebody
Telling me where I should go at night
Don't worry you'll find somebody
Someone to tell how to live their life
Cause your so perfect
And no one measures up
Yeah all by yourself
You're all messed up
I was loosing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
Now wait a minute
Because of you
I never knew all the things that I had
Hey don't u get it
I'm not going anywhere with you tonight
Cause this is my life
I was loosing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's was everything
Everything I'm not
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
she was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
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2006 19 April :: 4.24pm
heres to the worst day ever...
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2006 16 April :: 1.33pm
Well this weekend was pretty interesting to say the least. I pretty much just hung out with my friends and yesterday I got my prom dress.
I can't figure out why things like that happen and they always happen at the worst times. It throws everything off for me. Cheers to another akward moment.
I never knew, I never knew that everything was falling through. That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue, to turn and run when all I needed was the truth, but that's how it's gotta be.
Everyone knows I'm in over my head, with eight seconds left in overtime, she's on your mind & suddenly I become part of your past, I'm becoming the part that doesn't last, I'm losing you & it's effortless.
Stacy I'm waiting for you because I have my picture of my dress ready for you now lol.
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2006 16 April :: 6.11am
friday was so beautiful. keegan and i went to AJ's and went mini golfing (which i won) and then in the batting cages. i'm not sure that i've ever even held a baseball bat.. lol.
then we got ice cream and went to riverside park which was wonderful. after that we drove around downtown and stopped at nicks house (breakdancer) and last but not least, got smoothies from coldstone. it was a really good night.
saturday we had a yearbook work day. the senior section is seriously awesome. if you havent bought a yearbook you NEED to. for the people who didnt buy a book this year.. i think that once it comes out next year and people see how good it is, we're going to sell all of our extras.i just did 3 spreads in 3 days. (just so you know.. it takes some poeple about a month or more just to do one) im so excited for the book to be done!
yesterday after the yearbook thing and before i went to work, i went for a run/walk. i havent excersised in so long. and then i got home.. cleaned out under our bunny hut (which was long due... ugh) and wheel barrowed it to the back of our property. i was just in such a good mood ijust wanted to be outside. but TODAY my legs hurt from overdoing it on my walk thing, my back hurts from lifting the wheelbarrow wrong, my shoulders hurt from doing countless handstands, and my tricept is a bit inflamed. ah well, who cares.
we're going to my uncle david and aunt pats today for easter dinner. keegans coming after he gets out of work. he has to be in at 11 and his boss wouldnt let him come in at 12 after church. like ANYONES gonna be eating at logans on easter during church hours. so that's to bad.
the "easter bunny" brought me the carrie underwood cd and a silk robe in my easter basket this morning (thats right, im 17 and still get easter baskets and christmas stockings... my mom doesnt want to let go) and im SEEING carrie underwood at the KENNY CONCERT! i can barely stand the wait. derks bently is gonna be there too.. but i dont really like him. BUT brandi and i just got tickets for the tim mcgraw and faith hill concert too! OMG... now im just freaking out. because im going to two of the biggest concerts this year. i cant WAIT!
happy easter!
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2006 15 April :: 12.16am
I woke up and wished that I was dead, with an aching in my head, I lay motionless in bed, the thought of you and when you're gone, but the world spins madly on.
And everything that I said I'd do, like make the world blend in, and take the time for you, I just got lost and stepped right through the dawn, and the world spins madly on.
I let the days go by, I always say goodbye, I watch stars from my windowsill, the whole world is moving, and I'm standing still.
I woke up and wished that I was dead, with an aching in my head, I lay motionless in bed, the night is here, the day is gone, and the world spins madly on.
The thought of you and when you're gone and the world spins madly on and the world spins madly on.
I miss you.
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2006 13 April :: 8.21pm
:: Mood: Confused
That was definitely a lot harder for me to handle than I thought.
I guess things change in time and not always the way I want them to. Oh well I guess. It's just something I'll have to deal with.
I never stopped believing in you and me.
Your leaving? It never changed things.
Ohh and we can't forget that akward moment at school today. I seriously about died. I think Stacy seriously about died witnessing this whole thing. That couldn't have happened at a worse time.
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2006 11 April :: 8.06pm
"heyya i no him he 1 of my furends, we make brownE's together n the chocolattte spill on da shirt"
That's how some of you type. That's not my point but it's true.
Stacy knows. She's one meen bug. ahahahaha
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2006 10 April :: 8.21pm
I spotted this in Detroit. Our plane just flew in, we left the aiport and were on our way to eat when we seen this. I have no idea what it is but it was dancing and I called it a douche bag and my dad got mad at me for saying that haha..it just makes me laugh because I have no idea what it is or what they are doing!?!?!
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2006 9 April :: 8.01pm
STACY I MISS YOU!
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2006 9 April :: 6.27pm
my voice is gone.
rampage game last night, bobby went with me. lets not get into the game though....
i stayed at keegans last night and this morning i woke up and one of my eyes wouldnt open. *sad face* what a BEAUTIFUL thing to wake up to... "baby, i cant open my eye" (keep in mind my voice sounds like a cat stuck in a metal pan) "aww, let me help you". i wont get into the sight he must have seen either... (now that HAS to be a test of our relationship!) i've got a really good one. and then of course his mom tells me to drink orange juice.. i think she thinks orange juice will cure everything. any illness... "ohh drink some orange juice." *smiles.... i love this family.
i went home while keegan went to work and my mom and me and shelby took jessie for a walk.. what a wonderful day. we even let shelbys bunny run around outside. then i took my NEWWWWW car in to town to vaccume it. THEN me and keegan brought shelby over so she could see sushi and we let him run around outside. he's not very fast.. it was so cute to see his tiny little self running around the grass. NOW we're waiting for keegans mom to get home to make us pork chops. i've been craving some pork chops for a couple days.. and sense im in NO condition to be seen, we're staying home tonight. i dont care though.. i just want to cuddle with my asian. :)
oh and stacy.. perhaps this will bring back some memories?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MAf8tNijuds&search=dane%20cook
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2006 8 April :: 6.18am
Born2bOnStage x3 (6:14:13 AM): please tell me you are not up right now.
mish is electric (6:14:23 AM): I'm not up right now.
Born2bOnStage x3 (6:14:33 AM): me either. i'm sleeping.
ahaha I just had to.
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2006 7 April :: 6.25pm
I'm happy about that but yet I'm not. I'm not waiting around again. Clearly waiting around doesn't help me at all. I waited around for months for someone and that just wasn't good enough for them. If there can't be any commitment made then what the hell are we both doing?
I miss you and as much as I shouldn't say that, it's true and it's even worse when I can't do anything about.
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2006 7 April :: 11.07am
i just cleaned my little sisters room for 2 hours.... now im cleaning my room.
*thumb down
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2006 7 April :: 5.21am
i went up to my grandma's yesterday.. she lives about 40 minutes away in whitecloud in the middle of the woods. and i was about to leave, it was around 10:00.... and she looked out the window and there was a BLACK BEAR!!!! OMG! it was HUGE and it was like 10 feet away from the window standing on its back legs reaching up at the bird feeder! it was SO cool! they get bear every year so they werent suprised or anything, but i was like HOLLLLYYYY... lol. when we would go to TN thats one of the things we'd look forward to, was seeing black bear.. and here i am in MICHIGAN, 40 minutes away from my house and theres a full grown black bear 5 feet away from my car! it was crazy! its a good thing she looked out the window before i walked outside... i probably would have had a heart attack. i couldnt believe i was looking at a BEAR! so yeah... that was my excitement yesterday..
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