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:: 2006 16 August :: 6.05pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: "white walls" still remains

major suckage
you suck so much sometimes.

:: 2006 14 August :: 4.02pm

64 days till baby!
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Pretty interesting weekend. Charlie worked Saturday morning. I had intentions of getting up but those soon fell through. Sleep was nice. Found out some awful things on Sunday. Now I feel more alone. Cuddling is nice but it'd be nicer to be able to still trust you with my thoughts and feelings.

Second bridal shower (ha it's over two months after the wedding) was a lot of fun and I love Charlie's family. His cousin's baby Gracie was there and she's adorable. I can't wait to use our new waffle maker. :-)

I'm reading a pretty good book right now. It's called "To Feel Stuff" and now I'm almost done with it.

I'd write more, but my feelings kind of shut off. ha.

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:: 2006 12 August :: 8.15pm

gaaah.
i got like 3-4 hours of sleep last night and then i had to work.
so crapppppppppy.
but then i took one of those 'not quite a nap' naps. i don't know if it did me any good. i woke up two hours ago and i am finally not sleepy.

and all this week i have to be in by 6 or 7 because all these morning people quit and i agreed to come in early. i thought it would be for a day or two. not a week or two.

oh well.

:: 2006 10 August :: 10.05pm

so . . . i am downtown right now.
someone just got chased and arrested for carrying knives!

so scary!!!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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:: 2006 10 August :: 5.08pm

I quit Applause today. It's sad cause I like the people I worked with but it was getting too hard.
I think the baby's eyes are open now because there's a LOT more action going on in there! Wow.
I'm getting sick in the morning again. :-(
I'm kind of excited about going back to school but I know once I do I will be upset. I'm not going back until next year, probably winter. Just taking a couple night classes. I know it'll be hard to leave baby!
Nothing else is really happening at the moment, just sick a lot.

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:: 2006 10 August :: 2.15pm

sooooo i'm at the davenport library right now. i haven't been able to update in a long time.

i had the photoshoot thing at davenport today, hence why i'm here. i also got lost on the way here since i was coming from 28th street. yeah, that wasn't fun because i was alreayd stressed enough about this. but it ended up being a nice time.

i haven't been able to update like i said, but i ended up moving in on tuesday. roman actually came tuesday too because of work crap and he was just able to take the day off. so that was nice because then i didn't have to lift all the heavy stuff.

living on your own is weird. its nice being with roman but unpacking was stressful and annoying. and i miss my mom. lol i had to call her yesterday because i missed her.

we are finally almost totally unpacked and our apartment is SO CUTE. we have stuff hung up and our cute walls painted. ahh it looks so nice. there are ducks that are outside our balcony in the pond every day and it's just so adorable. i love our decorations and it's just so cool.

we went grocery shopping yesterday.... we found out that we wll be shopping at ALDIS from now on. it's so cheap. and they have good cereal so yeah lol.

i think tonight we'll finally go down the trail by our house. it's so cute. and we haven't had time because i keep having to get up early for things... yesterday was my makeover thing and today was the photoshoot.

jess was supposed to come over last night but hmmm dont really know what happened with that.

but beans was so great and helpful and packed everything in to her car and then tuesday night came over and helped us bring it upstairs . thanks beans i love you!

so yeah... living by all the busy streets is nice exccept for the stoplights. it's nice being like 5 minutes from the mall.

blah blah blah..... so i got the lettinga scholarship which means i have free school here at davenport but the thing is, i also receieved the Buger King scholarship which i applied for a long time ago. soooooooooo then when we got the check in the mail , i t was made out to davenport and not me, sooooooooooooo i'm waiting here for a woman to talk to about how i'm gonna get that money. because if it goes to the school it's pertty much pointless because my school is free anyway.

they were telling me i oculd use it on my books but i already got all my books cheap online so i only have one more book i need to get so i'm doing that with my 1000 dollars.

grr.

anyway. i guess i'm gonna mosy around the interent some more before i have to go... my wireless i guess can't find a connection to mooch off of yet while i'm out in the a[partment. hopefully i'll figure something out soon but for now i duno.

well, peace out.

jess

:: 2006 9 August :: 7.43pm

I can't wait till the hot weather goes away. It's starting to, but not fast enough!

:: 2006 8 August :: 4.27pm

Weird.

:: 2006 8 August :: 12.33am

slight change of plans ....

im moving in tomorrow

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:: 2006 7 August :: 12.06pm

AHHHHHHH OH MY GAWDDDD

I LOVE MY APARTMENT

i love it!!! shannon and i went to see it this morning. it's all painted. i was so afraid that the colors would look bad and that i wouldn't like it but i seriously LOVE it!!! i love it.

the red walls in the living room the purple bedroom and green bathroom. yeah it sounds so scary but it is SOOOOO fricken cute. AHH i love it. i'm so excited. i wish i was moving today. it's so cute.

oh and we got a brand new refridgerator . it's stll in the packaging. brand new! and our air conditioner is right out of the box brand new with a remote. it's so neat. ahhh i'm just so excited i can hardly stand it.

wooo hoooooooooo . hanging out with dani and beans today, tomorrow have to finish painting the chairs with gramma that she's letting us use and then pack pack pack. wednesday i have my "Pamper and Indulge" Premier Salon apointment thing that i won and that after that i move in. so around 3 oclock in like two days.

hooray!!! so fricken excited am i.

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:: 2006 4 August :: 9.43pm

so stef and paul are getting married tomorrow.

tonight was the rehersal and i thought it went well and it should be relaly cool tomorrow.

OMG i can't wait to move in.... WEDNESDAY!!! YAY

i have to finish packing and everything. ahh it's hectic.

okay so thursday the 10th was gonna be my last day at the comstock menards and then i dont start at wyoming till monday BUT

this guy from Davenport called me today and he said that they had selected TWENTY out of the ONE HUNDRED FIFTY scholarship winners to come to a photo shoot and be featured in their 'best and brightest' section in the Admission Brochure. Or at least that is my understanding. Well, no, i am sure. IsNT THAT SO AWESOME so i'm gonna be in the little brochure about davenport that thousands of kids will recieve. how COOL!!!!!!! Also, I get a t-shirt or sweatshirt of my choice and a $25 or more gas card and lunch there. AHHH i'm so excited!!! it's on thursday

i was supposed to work a four hour shift and then go to the dentist but i called and cancelled the dentist appt. today and then i'm sure or at least semi sure i can get someone to cover the four hours on thurs. Otherwise seriously i just wont go to work and i'll just suffer a write up. or possibly a suspension cuz i dont know how many i have..... hmmm oh well!!

ahhh i can't wait

please leave me a note.

peace out

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:: 2006 2 August :: 11.45pm

dear gunnie

i noticed.

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:: 2006 1 August :: 10.20pm

So i guess the plan has changed. my dad was gonna be gone for a long time and wouldn't be able to bring the trailor and my parents wont let him drive the car and sooooooooooooooo

I'M MOVING IN ON WEDNESDAY instead. so now it's like 8 more days.... annnnndddd i'll be staying there by myself for 2 nights ahhh

but i think jess is staying the night. so yay

wooooow i can't wait!! hooray

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:: 2006 31 July :: 9.39pm

I FUCKING HATE LIVING HERE.

also it'd be nice if my 'friends' that i ask if we could hang out all the time would maybe return the favor once in a year or something.

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:: 2006 31 July :: 9.06pm

ugggggggggggggggggggggggggh

....

:: 2006 31 July :: 4.59pm

So. I'm at my parents now cause it's 98 degrees and they have wonderful a/c. And we do not. :-) Last week I went to Labor & Delivery Triage cause Thursday I was running for the phone and the doorknob caught my belly and Friday I had a huge bruise. When I called they said we'd probably be there for 4 hours for monitoring. But it wasn't that long and everything is okay. Saturday I had to work (my last day! Hooooooray!) And Sunday was really nice :-) Today I had my 1-hour Glucola test where you drink the nasty sugar stuff (which didn't end up being all that bad) and then wait an hour in a noisy waiting room then they stab you in the arm and steal your blood. Okay, I may have been exaggerating a little. It's not really that bad. After drinking all that sugar the baby was going crazy in the waiting room and I couldn't stop laughing! He/she kept kicking my ribs and kicking sooooo hard I was moving around a little. After the test Charlie and I went to Panera :-D Yummy. Then I have to go back to the doc in a couple weeks. The date may be Oct. 28. That's what we're thinking. Anyway, our house is finally coming around we're getting stuff put away and everything. Yay! And it feels good to not have to work anymore.

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:: 2006 30 July :: 10.31pm

remember to call wyoming about hours

:: 2006 28 July :: 11.32pm
:: Music: brand new girlfriend.

i got a brand new girlfriend, think i'm really onto something
Okay.

so i'm feeling a bit better about the money thing. it looks like (if i calculated correctly) i will end up with more money after move-in than expected. so i'm happy.
i never really had anything to worry about i was just spending more than i should i guess.

I got all but one books online with my mom the other day and to know that i only have to pay for half them and with that i'll use my burger king scholarship and to know that i'll be going to school for free should put my mind at ease. so i cannot complain.

i have fourteen days, that's two weeks, until Roman and I move into the apartment. this next week (hopefully tuesday) i will get to see it painted. and i'm so excited.

and the wedding this next weekend, i can't believe it's already here. it seems like stef and paul hardly have been engaged long at all and i still remember when stef was asking "do you think a winter wedding would be okay?" hahah

i babysitted starting at 7:45 today and then went to menards and worked till close. I was in SUCH A BAD MOOD on my way there. i vented so much to roman it was really bad. i did not want to be there at all. but besides this stupid ass crotechy old dumb ass man, it wasn't that bad. because i got to be on service and there weren't many returns. i'm gonna miss most of those people from menards. i'm transfering to the wyoming one so yeah. hopefully they are nice.

DON'T FORGET TO CALL ABOUT STARTING HOURS AT WYOMING

so that's it.
And with that, I conclude this entry with one question:

Do your chain hang low?!

peace out homies.

PS: stacy- if there's anyway you could fix my icon from being all distortedyyyyish... that'd be cool. but i dont know if you are even around or not lately or anything so it's fine either way. thanks homey.

:: 2006 27 July :: 2.39pm

Worked today. I am officially tired. But only 2 more days and I am on leave. Charlie said I could probably be off work until the baby went to preschool, but I'll probably want to go back at least part-time. I still have to finish school next year. And then 2 more years after that probably. But it's okay. Everything will get done in due time. I can feel where the baby is and how he/she is laying. Like I can feel where his/her back is. And you can see kicks really well now. Everyone keeps feeling my tummy. OH OH OH, we bought a crib last weekend and it came in so we're getting it on Saturday. It's awesome, it's antique walnut and it converts to a toddler bed then to an adult bed. We thought it'd be worth the 300 bones. So baby's nursery is almost done. Probably should have a baby shower soon. Another HUGE purchase we made this week: washer/dryer. After the whole situation with those (long story) we went to sears and picked out a couple Kenmore High Efficiency ones. They're coming today between 4:45-6:45 so that's awesome! They were way expensive ($1700) but they'll pay for themselves and using them won't hurt our energy/gas bills. So yeah, lots of purchases this week. This is a long entry really not about much.

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:: 2006 26 July :: 11.45pm

i am definately in one of those downward spirals as of right now.

the sadness is sweeping in like a cool breeze. it feels nice after trying not to feel. i don't know why i can't make myself leave it. it's almost as if i want to be here alone on the brink of tears. somewhere safe.

i know this place. i have spent many hours alone.

i can't make myself call people. it seems like so much work.

i just wish i could sleep, but it's too hot in my room. if i weren't too scared i would sleep outside. friday my parents leave town. i am happy. not because i want them to leave, but then i won't have to sleep alone. i just wish we could get a house. some days the longing is worse than others. today i fear it is worse. all i want is to fall asleep next to him and wake up the same way. no more sleepless nights, no more anxiety, no more loneliness.

isn't it odd that whenever you are sad and the music is on shuffle, the most depressing songs always play. it never fails.

this is what worries me the most. nothing went wrong today. nothing. there is absolutely no reason for me to be so worked up. i had servesafe class which means i basically got paid to do nothing, and i know i passed the stupid test for it. i didn't get lost. robby wasn't mad about me crying over the phone last night and being unfair, in fact he took me out for lunch. i went shopping with sarah and spent money that wasn't mine. nothing went wrong.
so what is the deal?

WTC???

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:: 2006 26 July :: 11.02pm

JESSICA MICHELE WILDE:

You have like fifteen days until you move into your new home.

DO NOT spend any money (except for gasoline to fuel your vehicle) (and perhaps gifts) for two weeks.

Please.

Thank you.
Love,
Jessica.

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:: 2006 26 July :: 10.52am

omg like almost justtwo weeks until we move innnnnnnnnnnn

i'm so fucking excited. ugh i still have a lot to pack i'm realizing.

:: 2006 25 July :: 6.33pm

omg. band camp is next week. it makes me want to CRY. i miss band so much.

justine, who is instructing pit and how is it going? If you are instructing, GO YOU! and good job. but either way go you and good job because i'm sure you're as awesome as you've always been.

and ps. what music are you guys doing?

god i'm so sad!!!! i might stop in to see you guys sometime

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:: 2006 25 July :: 4.24pm

so i'm feeling slightly good. no work today... bought all but one of my books online for discounted prices. seventeen days until we move in.

stef's wedding on the 5th. got the rehersal dinner off by trading hours. still dont get out until 7:30 on the bacholorette party day because menards is dumb.

only one thing really bugging me because of a person who bugs me more than anyone on the planet i think.

now if only i could lose this weight.

oh well, one thing at a time right. g'day

stef i got your signs done and i think they look pretty good so let me know what you think, i'm gonna try to email them to you

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:: 2006 24 July :: 11.58pm

okay so i went to "bed" at 6:30 because i had nothing better to do and i had to get up at 6 today and i was tired and then it's so hot in my room because i'm still used to sleeping in the cold basement and i just felt crappy and then i wake up at 11 something and i feel horrible... really really sick and so i go downstairs in the basement to sleep where it's cold and i can't sleep because i still feel like crap so i go into the bathrroom and then start puking my brains out. UGHGHGHG i HATE THROWING UP. it is the worst feeling ever. ughghghghgh. and i was just throwing up like 2 weeks ago too. ugh i just hate it and then i want to call my boyfriend and talk to him and his phone is dead woohoo.....

well whatever. that's my story and i still feel like shit.

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:: 2006 23 July :: 9.13pm

la la la. i work at menards and have no life and wooooo hoooooooo

blah blah blha and my feet hurt.

18 days till i move. woohoo.

:: 2006 21 July :: 3.10pm

I love my husband!
He just got a very large raise so I can now leave work! And once the baby comes there won't be a hurry for me to go back! :-)
He's really wonderful.

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:: 2006 19 July :: 11.05pm

OH MY GOD I FUCKING HATE MENARDS.

I AM NEVER WORKING 2 WEEKS WITHOUT A DAY OFF EVER EVER EVER EVER AGAIN! EVER~!@@!%!#$%^!#$^#$^$%&@$

I FUCKING HATE IT.

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:: 2006 19 July :: 1.58pm

I just didn't think it was possible. But it's happened again. Goodbye.

~

In other news, I am now the proud owner of a pretty vaccuum! Whoo. hahaha. (I was actually excited about getting it. jeez) To complete my new look I will soon purchase an apron. You can actually see baby move now. Crazy! Like an alien!

:: 2006 17 July :: 11.15pm

in your eyes. in your eyes. in your eyes. in your eyes.
i wanna cry. but only if i'm with you.

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