hell...
hell...i'm pretty sure i fucked things up with a friend. i'm stupid. so yeah. home for break. work everyday but tuesday and next sunday...but sunday is meeting so that's not really a day off. i have to go to bed. i work at 10am tomorrow. night all.

procrastinating...
so i should really be reading the now 110 pages of "The Devil in the Shape of a Woman" for my witch class...but seriously i'm at work! and what do i do at work except for actually working?? that's right kids, i update my journal. so that's what i'm doing. not a whole lot is going on. its lent. i'm not catholic. so really it doesn't pertain to me, except for the fact that i think i'm giving up stuff. i think its sugar and then i'm going to try and take better care of myself with lynn. that'll be fun. we are going to eat better (when i actually have food) and go to the gym and stuff. i've just been hanging out and procrastinating. i have to write a paper tomorrow durning my break. i decided that i'm not going to write the one that is due tomorrow morning because i don't like the topic. i like the last three the best so its all ok. i'll write the one during spring break. still don't know where the fuck formal is. i wish we'd just fucking find the fuck out so i can send it to the fucking alumnae!!!!!!! AAAARRRGGGHHH!!! breath.....ok so i'm better. ther eis something in my eye. formal is in two weeks from saturday! YAY!!! so excited!

i should buy a pair of jeans this spring break when i go to the mall with my mom. my favorite pair has a hole in them. i also need some belts or something, i think the potato diet has cut some centimeters off my waist.

so yup. almost 5:30 i'm going to study!! bye! see some of you tonight!!! :)

eh
haha so i took this quiz...it was fun!!

You're Sudan!

Every time you get a headache, you reach for some aspirin, only to
realize that someone destroyed it.  That's just how things are going for you right
now... it's hard to eat, hard to sleep, hard to not have a headache.  You try to
relax, but people always jump on you about something that doesn't make sense.  If
you were a goat, you'd be a Nubian.
Take the Country Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid

i love this song!!
oohh love this song!! john can sing this to me...naked...on my bed...with his guitar...

sorry for that.

i'm taking a break in the cleaning of the office. its only 12:30 so yeah, i've SO got time. so i'll update quick like on my night and then go back to cleaning the floor, then cleaning the desks and taking out the trash.

yup so marco's roommate is a FUCKTARD!! giant asshole!! definatly knew people were coming over last night and he pretty much made us leave cus he was "sleeping". bastard. so we decided to move the shindig to our place. we played trivial pursuit and drank a bit. my team got SCREWED!! grr...then some people played some euker while i pretty much almost passed out on the couch. so yeah. that's it pretty much. lynn got HAMMERED!! haha haha it was funny. she had i would think about 5 shots that i knew about and two bottles of boones farm. wow. dan was also drunk. he was sleeping on the stairs. it twas funny. oh how do i hate customers. really i do. they are bitchy so i get bitchy. i'm leaving 30min earlier today in order to shower because we have meeting at 6 tonight instead of 6:30 because for some weird reason they are having an advisory board meeting. huh. so i'll be in kirkhoff for like an hour doing nothing. if anyone wants to have subway or something let me know. i'll most likely be bored out of my freaking mind...i should really be either a: studying or b: cleaning and as i'm typing more you can obviously see i'm not doing either. i'm actually telling donna my drunken stories from friday night.

going to have a mommie and me week during spring break. i'm EXCITED!! we are going to see a movie and take jacob to dinner and generally just hang out. yay!! my dad will be in pheniox that week. he comes back thursday and then they are leaving on saturday to go to FUCKING FLORIDA!!! grr....i'm SO mad about that...grr...they pick the days that i'm IN school, not the week before when i'm OUT of school!!! GRR.....yeah so its been about an hour since i stopped cleaning so i should continue. so yup. bored. i have 3 hours left...yeah bye!

supposed to update
so i'm supposed to update on the nipple cup for lynn. warning: i can't really remember the whole incedent so there might be some facts missing...so there is this cup at marco's that was there when they got there. by the name "nipple cup" you can probably guess what shape it was in...yup a boob...with a nipple that had a hole in it for you to drink out of. so i saw that and being as drunk as i was i decided it was a good idea to drink out of it. so i'm sitting downstairs and i pour the rest of my wine in the cup and procede to drink out of the nipple. there was this kid dan there that is sorta shy and he wanted a drink out of the nipple cup so i said ok, but you have to drink it a certain way...yeah...so i then showed him how to treat the nipple the right way...with his tounge...the poor kid i guess was turning bright red as i am demonstrating how to treat the nipple right...holy crap was i drunk...that was bad. so yeah the nipple cup story that is definatly going to be a pearl on sunday!!! i have only about 30min left so i should call centers and get packed up to go. lynn and i are heading to the meijer's after eating spaghetti that chris, a lady i work with, gave me!! yaya leftovers!!! REAL FOOD!!!! not potatoes!!! hehe hehe sweet!!! then its off to marco's again for more beer pong, although as i said in the last post like 2 hours ago i will be the DD. yay!!! actually i'm excited for not going into work hung over again. I got next saturday off so i think i'm going to go with some kids to the YJ to celebrate spring break! woo hoo!! yeah i'm going now. bye!

headache
i have a headache. its bad. damnit my nail just broke. i write too much i think. i have a callous on my thumb from my pen/pencil. my hand is really bruised tis week. it looks like i punched someone...and in effect i sorta did. damn bloody knuckles. damn roomies on the phone!! i want to CALL you!! sweet!! this guy that is a uhaul dealer has a granddaughter that is on American Idol! She got 28% of like 2.15million votes!! so she's in the top twelve!!! cool huh? she'll be on again on march 16th. wow. so fun. yay for big jim in ionia. oh god...i just talked to lynn...she reminded me of my stupid stories last night. the nipple cup....dan blushing...interesting news...bloody knuckles...beer pong...falling out of marco's chair...shots of everclear with no chaser (i'm a champ i know)...whole bottles of arbor mist plus beer plus some of whatever julian was drinking....holy crap....fun night though i must say. if you really want to know ask. or see my right hand. i'm so stupid sometimes, i don't know why i played that fucking game in the first place. probably because me and marco were REALLY drunk. i'm pretty sure he might have bruised one of the bones in my hand. i'm cold and sleepy. not feeling too bad though. the headach that i said i had before is now gone. probably because i started writing this thing at 1:08pm and it is now 3:35. i am sober tonight! yay for sober fun!! maybe i'll play ONE game of beer pong with lynn but that will be about it. i love being 21. i have to read some stuff about the middle ages. so i should probably do that. ya...its now 4pm...3 hours left!!! YAY!!!

bored
so not a whole lot going on. after the fricken weird weekend things have calmed down. i have a lot of homework due in the next two weeks so i'm thinking this weekend, if i party at all it will be on friday. saturday needs to be reserved for resting and writing a paper. if people want to hang out that would be fine, i just can't go to work hungover/drunk again. i feel bad. so its just not going to happen again.
i am pissed. whoa pissed. my position is being pretty much taken over by someone else who had it before. which is just PISSING me off!! i feel like i've been doing a bad job with everything because she does it before i get a chance to. i mean i love her to pieces i just can't stand it anymore, how am i supposed to do a good job or hell even an ok job if i never get the chance? i just don't understand it.
formal is in 24 days. YAY! the hotel room will only be $31.07 and then $6 or $3 per night for parking (depending on how many people you drive with). I want a certain person to ask a certain person cus that would be fun. yeah. that's all you get. well actually i want several people to ask certain people. haha and then stay at the amway. cus damnit the whole fucking point of having formal at a hotel is to stay there with each other!!! so why in the flying FUCK would you go and get a hotel block somewhere else and totally miss the point of it. i'm just getting pissed. i hope amanda won't be mind me venting to her when i meet with her on friday to talk about it. GRR.....so yeah. 30min left. need to work. and read. and go home to read more. so yeah....talk to you kids later.



so leave a comment, i want to know who reads this little thing. :)

sorry
sorry. sorry for last night loie. i'm a bitch and you should do whatever you want. it was just the couple cuddle club on the landing made me want to fucking jab myself in my fucking eye. oh i don't feel so good. ramin was not the thing to eat this morning. i am going to leave early. cus i'm tired and i don't feel good...at all...at all at all at all. oh hey marco, my knuckles are all bruised now. hehe opps. that was a fun game though...when your drunk. i don't think it would so much fun sober. well i'll talk to you all later.

la la la
so friends, hopefully, i will be getting my ASS out of here either next year or the semester after. i need an internship for either next winter or the summer after that, like 2005. if i do the summer thing, i'll be here another semester i think. i'm not too sure on how that whole thing plays out. i might want to go and see my advisor...that would be helpful. i'm trying to work it so i only have classes on mwf my fall semester and then work on tuesday's and thursday's and then only have classes tuesday's and thursday's in the winter semester. that way i could either a) have an internship in the winter or b) work at uhaul those days 8 hours so i would have actual money to pay rent or something. you that whole thing. cus this working 3 hours a night just isn't cutting it. i'm POOR!!!! i am probably going to work the entire spring break, and not like christmas break where i SAID i was going to do that, i actually AM going to do that. its just a week, i can handle it. i just think i'm going to ask for sunday off of that week. i'm SICK of working sundays!!!! cus i go out saturday night and then wake my hungover ass up at 8 in the morning to come and sit in here and listen to bitchy people. i was a good kid today, i definatly got some shit that needed to be done done. i did my fasfa stuff and then looked at my schedual and started thinking about that. now i just need to read an ass loads, go to new member meeting, finish my gdi day cards, and oh i don't know. sleep. haha right.....oh hell, i have no idea when the new member meeting is....opps....oh well i'll call ashley. i am going to olivet on saturday for a wrestling thing. yay!! boys in singlets!! haha haha i am going to have to seriously restrain myself from actually taking score...i might smuggle a piece of paper and a pen and just do it to refresh my memory. its been about 3 years...oh god...3 years...i'm so old...sniffle sniffle...well i need to pack up and clean up. i get out soon. yay!!!!

la la la
so yeah. not a whole lot to update with. GDI day is looking like it might be fun. we might go to marco's again and play beer pong again, only this time there will be more people there. beside's marco's place is bigger than ours. and it has a beer pong table. i'm never getting out of this place. literally. never. fucking classes. i'm tired. i have to go to the greek store tomorrow before work. i made some stuff for my secret sis. it looks cool fo sure. i'm tired and bored an i know i REALLY need to get my ambition back. so that's what i'm going to do now, get my ambition back. i need to read a shit ton and possibly finish something for sunday. although i could just take those to work or something. ah damn....well so yeah. formal is in less than a month. so super excited. i can't wait. i'm going to dance. yay!!!!!!! well i need to go. bye all. comment, it will make me smile!!

nothing
so...i'm updating like a good little girl...i don't have a whole lot to say. i don't know what's wrong. it seems as if i say that a lot on here, i don't know what's wrong, but i'm starting to think that i really don't. that i really have no clue what i'm doing here or what purpose i'm fulfilling but staying and going to classes and reading and studying. well if you count what i do reading and studying. i think that is part of it. i get in a funk kinda thing and i'm stressed to the breaking point, and yet i don't do anything to releave the stress. its like this big circle of hell that i am always putting myself in. i have to leave for work soon. i don't really want to go, but i need to. so odds are i'll sit here longer than i should and continue to type. see the problem with what i'm doing to myself is that i know i'm doing it and i STILL do it! i'm too smart for my own fucking good. there is a sex toy party tonight at shalyn's. should be interesting. sometime in the no time that i have i need to go to hobby lobby to pick up some stuff. i don't feel very good. but i'm not sure what kind of not very good. like its almost nerves or something else, like my world is going to come crashing down on me. which makes me just want to stop time or something and not have to go through the motions of the day not really feeling anything, just smiling and pretending to have a good time. huh. the only things that sorta lift me up are my friends. they can make me laugh and if only for a couple of min be happy again. i heart you guys!

jumpy
i'm jumpy from the caffine and the tension headache medicine i took, that has caffine in it. opps. so i went out last night. i had to work until 7 then me and lynn and weaver went to see this butterfly effect movie that was wow weird. i mean wow. there is no words. i wanted to leave like 10min into it but i paid 5.45 to be there so i fucking stayed. there were parts that were just FUCKED up!!!!!!!! once again i'm working. until 5 this time so about 4 hours. not bad. there is nothing to do either, the lady that was here earlier definatly did EVERYTHING. the floors are clean, the dishes done, the trash taken out, the desks cleared off, the reservations for tomorrow already called and schedualed. all she left was scripts and there is only 10. i tried playing cubis but it took literally 20 min to load so it looks like i'm reading the rest of the time. oh so anywho i was talking about last night! so after the movie (which weaver wasn't supposed to be at because he was on saferide...bad weaver...bad) i went to marco's to play a little beer pong. GO TEAM MANITOU!!! tee hee...we won one game...damn you jay...then after we were pretty well smashed and after weaver called me 4 times we went to 21D to see him. jay, mark, me, lynn, and harris walked from pierce (further down from campus view) to their place (we were drunk and stupid). damn it was cold. we hung out there a while, damn weaver was trashed!!! it was fun!! he was fricken happy for some reason, he would not tell me but i'm happy that he was happy!!!! julian got back a bit after lynn went to walk jay home ;). he had a weird night. lynn came back for like 10min and then left again to visit jay again. after a heartwarming display of affection between julain and weaver lynn came back and julian (the sweetheart that he is) kindly walked back to pierce with me and lynn to get kristen and to drive us back to F5 because we were all drunk. if kristen wasn't at pierce i would have just stayed on the couch cus i was that tired/drunk. i passed out pretty much right as my head hit the pillow at 6am...that was my night...eventful eh? there's more but nothing really exciting.
so i'm working right, and well there is this guy who keeps calling us and wanting us to remburse him for his hotel stay, which we do do that but i personally can't. WELL he keeps calling and wanting us to do this TODAY because we have to do it TODAY!! and well the manager of the place where he is taking it to, which could i think actually do the rembursment isn't there anymore and there is no one here that could do it cus i'm alone....so i told him he would either have to fax it to us or mail it to us and now he wants to drop it off at our office....i'm here....alone....so i called the guy where he is dropping off, which ironically is like 100 feet away from our office, and told him that he was not under any circumstances to tell that guy where i was because he (the customer) is not nice at all and frankly i'm a little scared because i can't remburse him so of course he'll be pissed.....fuck.....so i turned the lights off and double-checked the doors to make sure they were locked, if i could i would move my car to make it look like there was no one here, i'm that paranoid. i'm also not opening the door if someone were to knock on it. not at all...
i have meeting at 6 tonight until 7 then its pledge pinning!!! YAY!!! and then the ice cream social!! WOO HOO!!!! i think there may be a suprise waiting for the new girls...tee hee...:)
well i should go...maybe read or something, until that psycho calls back...i don't think i've ever really been scared to be here alone until now...fuck...

holy fuck
holy fuck so seriously who comes and picks up a date in a MINI-VAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the guy is definatly married and has children, or has baggage to the point where 20 year old kristen should not be going on a date with. he's 31!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NNNNNNNOOOOOO!!!!!!

owww
so i think i may have an ingrown toenail...it hurts a WHOLE lot!!! probably from wearing those heals last night hmm...i'll soak it when i get home in some warm water. no epson salt though. i should just go to a doctor for the pain medication!! tee hee just kidding. its my sister-in-law's birthday today. she is 25...old...i tried calling but some guy answered and said that they were at the movies so i have to call back and see what they are going to do tonight for the birthday thing.
i'm at work. its boring. i have about 5 1/2 hours left. wow that isn't even on one hand yet. tonight is beer pong at marco's. i'll bring my slippers with me so my toe won't hurt as much. its cold in here now..they are smoking and have the door open. grr...5 hours left. i usually take about 3 hours to update this thing while at work. i have the witch books with me today for my schoolwork. blah......blah.......blah.......now its about 4 1/2 left. god i hate the phones...they suck.
so school is going well i guess, but actually not really. i'm not doing the best in my classes. some are hard, and those that arn't i'm not sure why i'm not doing well. i just think i need to study more or something. its weird. usually i can get away from not REALLY studying that much and still do ok, but for some reason i didn't do so well. i think that is because it was bio anthropology and i'm not so good at the whole bio part. which sucks. so hopefully i can sqeeze a b out of it. not too happy with myself about that.
dang...haha i only have 3 hours left...damn i'm slow. sarah is sleeping now...first she was at the movie and now she's sleeping...geeze. huh. so i should stop this now and maybe play some collapse or cubis or something. not a whole lot else to report. i'm pretty boring i guess. sad. have a super week!!!

julian is whipped
marco doesn't want our food.......
julian is whipped.........
weaver's mean........
umm.....yup......
school sucks........
formal is in march.........
taking the kid who doesn't want our food......
should be fun.....
that it folks........enjoy