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2004 14 January :: 10.43 pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: loie playing the guitar
oh no
oh no...no no no...definatly not good...no no no...stay strong sister stay strong!!
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2004 12 January :: 6.21 pm
:: Mood: bored
where the fuck did the time go?
well so i'm here working....well so not working, just surfing the net and i look at the clock one time and its like 5:20ish or so and then BAMN its 6:20ish. huh. and i think the phone rang about 5 times during that time. what the hell. no point in staying open of no one calls. but NOO we have to stay open. so i'm bored. i should be reading The Witch-Hunt in Early Modern Europe. i have to have a chapter read by tomorrow and i only have like 10/20 or so read. that will be fine. i'll get it done. now the over 100 for love sex and gender...that might not get done. i should fucking do it though, no sense in getting behind already!!! right? haha haha right. so i'm cold now so i'm going to go. see ya kids!
oh still done. no more.
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2004 12 January :: 3.17 pm
:: Mood: bitchy
:: Music: lynn's fan that's STILL on
that's it
that's it. i'm done. i need no further distractions. i refuse to. anna said something at meeting last night that really struck a cord in me. put it in someone else's hands or god's hands. and that's what i'm doing. i should have done this months ago, but aparently i'm stubborn and hold on to something that even an optimist would have given up long ago on. its not worth the feelings i get or the emotion that i go through. really its not. so that's it. i'm going to distance myself away from the problem. sorry, but i have so much more important things to worry about than him. i don't care what he's doing or who he's doing it with. damnit. i want to be free again. nothing would have happened anyway so why bother? just move on. so if anyone wants to hang out give me a jingle, i'll be studying most of the time. yup so that's it. i'm done.
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2004 10 January :: 2.50 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: stix
stupid whore
well so an update of sorts. not a whole lot is going on. classes started monday. they are going fine. i have a TON of reading to do for each of them, but if i keep caught up i don't think it should be TOO bad. haha right...i say that now but in 3 weeks when tests are coming up i will want to fucking kill myself!!! we had margarita night last night. haha fun. large margarita glasses and lots of tequila. i am getting addicted to this game called cubis. its the best, i can play it for hours at a time at work. took a little nap today while i was here earlier. just about a 45min or 30min one. not THAT bad....tee hee....tonight is marco's party. its his first since he has gotten back. should be fun i think. he's a nice kid. my coat was made in sri lanka....huh....can you tell i'm bored?
my classes are:
ANT 370 - Cross-Cultural Gender
ANT 206 - Physical Anthropology
HST 376 - History of Witches
SOC 379 - Love, Sex, and Gender
HST 355 - Middle Ages
if you have any of those and would like to study with me that would be super! although like maybe 3 people read this...and they arn't in my classes...huh...oh well. you never know with the random thing. hopefully i'll have fun tonight. i just want to get out of work, go home, study a bit more and then go relax without feeling like i need to be a certain person or anything. me and lynn can drink like champs so we probably will be drunk again tonight. maybe i should slow down on the booze eh? but its not like i really drink THAT much. just in spirts. other times i'm just that sober girl who studies, or will become that sober girl who studies cus i HAVE to do well this semester. i really like my classes so hopefully i'll be motivated to do well. i finally called the guy for ford museum and hopefully he will call me back. i NEED an internship. REALLY REALLY bad. i was looking at prices for tuition for graduate studies and at CMU they are $200.05 PER credit hour, and you take about 6 so that's like $1,200 for tuition and at MSU its $17,000 or something for tuition and room and board and books and such. so i don't know if it really would be THAT much more expensive to go there than back to the devil CMU. If i could get the certificate for museum studies though from CMU i would go back there. huh...i don't know if i technically could though. i think i should email them. i just want to get this done right. and well. so i can get a job somewhere. i dont' care if i have to live alone or something, as long as i am going toward something that i want. i can't believe that maybe next year i will be graduating. i feel quite old. i need to get a REAL job now. or at least go to graduate school. maybe i'll become a professional student. that would be fun. like keisler.
sometime in Feb, i'm going with elizabeth and lynn to go to her brother's band thing at the VFW in cedar and we are going to go bar hopping in cedar. but i should go. have a great night everyone!
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2003 31 December :: 5.35 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: that milkshake song
ha
so i am bored a lot it seems. that is bad. i'm waiting for my nails to dry so i can clean my apartment before laura comes over and i also have to finish packing for the east. i'm super excited about that. i actually can't wait for everyone to come back so i can have my normal life back. with ast, with my roommates, with work, with school. i actually miss it and certain people. that is definatly not a good sign. but i think i will be ok i'm sure. oh shit, must paint toenails. fuck. i'm wearing open toed shoes. i hope tonight is fun. i dropped the nail polish brush on my favorite pair of pants. shit. oh well. hopefully i can get it out. probably not, its like paint or something. so i think they are almost dry now. so i should go now and get shit done. i never really seem to write a whole lot. huh. oh well.
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2003 30 December :: 9.59 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: nothing
hell yeah!
Pretty women wonder where my secret lies
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them
They think I'm telling lies.
I say
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips
The stride of my steps
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally
Phenomenal woman
That's me.
I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please
And to a man
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their kees
Then they swarm around me
I say
It's the fire in my eyes
And the flash of my teeth
The swing of my waist
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally
Phenomenal woman
That's me.
Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say
It's in the arch of my back
The sun of my smile
The ride of my breasts
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally
Phenomenal woman
That's me.
Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say
It's in the click of my heels
The bend of my hair
The palm of my hand
The need for my care.
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally
Phenomenal woman
That's me.
Mya Angelou
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2003 30 December :: 6.40 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: billy joel
blah blah
You are my Baking Soda!
Which object in my refrigerator are you?
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tee hee right....
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2003 28 December :: 11.39 am
:: Mood: working
:: Music: christina agulara-beautiful (she's a ho)
ah
ah. i'm bored. opps phones...damn they just keep ringing!!!!! my back is hurting me. i'm lonely and bored. wow that is sad. REALLY SAD!!! i have no idea what is going on for new years. i'll probably just end up sitting at stacy's house SOBER. oh well. not a whole lot i can do. i don't really want to go to canada because it is so expensive and such and other bars even around detroit will be quite expensive. so that's probably what i will end up doing. i don't know who is driving with me or when i'm leaving either. everything is just so damn confusing. melissa and holly havn't written me back either. huh. i'll call them on monday. i almost just want to drive over there the 1st and just hang out here for new years, but i'm sure that won't happen either. oh well. nothing ever really seems to work out for me, but what can you do eh? i'm working. i work until 5 today. then i work again tomorrow 11-7 and again on tuesday 11-7. but then i have 5 FULL days off!! but that's for like new years eve and the wedding and such. i might end up workin on new years eve if i'm not going anywhere or doing anything. whatever, i'll stop complaining about my boring life. no one wants to hear it.
talked to julian last night. i thought he died or was grounded for his grades or something. i havn't talked to him since he went back home. lynn's was fun. interesting. got a bit drunk. bought some HUGE margarita glasses. we are going to christen them when we get back to school with a margarita party. me and lynn love the margarita's. they are our friends. whoa...so i'm about ready to go crazy. its really boring in here. i am getting new glasses and contacts tomorrow. it'll be 259 plus tax. but that includes glasses, contacts, sunglasses, and the exam. that's pretty good if i say so myself. so at least now i'll actually have glasses, that works. great! about 3 hours and 20min left. i should go and work a bit i guess. or sleep.
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2003 19 December :: 6.05 pm
Name: Katie
Gender: female
Age: 21
Location: Allendale, MI
Pets(&Names): dog, Shadow
Bands/Artists: Dave Matthews Band, 3 Doors Down, Will Hoge, other stuff...
Top 5 Books:
HARRY POTTER!!!!!!
Gone With the Wind
Princess Diaries
The Devil Wore Prada
Anything by Nicholas Sparks
Top 5 Movies:
HARRY POTTER!!!
LORD OF THE RINGS!!!
Love Actually
Gone With the Wind
Dirty Dancing
Top 5 TV Shows:
Friends
Will and Grace
American Dreams
Sex and the City
Queer Eye for the Straight Guy
_Favorite_
Food: Spaghetti
Drink: Wild Cherry Pepsi
Ice Cream: Vanilla Bean
Subject: History
Color: Blue
Place you`ve visited: Chicago
What is your dream in life? To find whatever it is that I am looking for.
What do you like/dislike about yourself? oh too much to tell here.
1. Pierce your nose or tongue? umm...i don't have them pierced but i would maybe pierce my tongue.
2. Be serious or be funny? Funny
3. Boxers or briefs? Boxers
4. Whole or skim milk? Skim
5. Single or Taken? Singleton
6. Simple or complicated? Simple.
7. Law or anarchy? Laws
8. Flowers or angels? Flowers
9. Grey or gray? Gray
10. Read or write? Read
11. Color or black-and-white photos? Depends, mostly Black-and-White but for some things it is nice to have color
12. Sunrise or sunset? Sunset
13. M&M's or Skittles? Skittles
14. Rap or rock? Both
15. Stay up late or wake up late? Both
16. TV or Radio? radio
17. Is it POP or SODA? POP
18. X or O in Tic-tac-toe? O
20. Eat an apple or an orange? Orange
21. What came first the chicken or the egg? Chicken
22. Hot or Cold? Cold
24. Tall members of the opposite sex or short? tee hee doesn't matter much to me!!!
25. Sun or moon? Full Moon
26. Emerald or ruby? Ruby
28. Left or right? Right
29. 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend? 1 Best Friend
30. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? Vanilla
31. High or Drunk? oh definatly Drunk!! ;)
32. Green beans or carrots? Green Beans
33. Low fat or fat free? Low fat
34. What is your biggest fear in the world? failing
36. Kids or no kids? no kids but probably will end up having the little devils
37. Cat or dog? dog
38. Half empty or half full? half full
39. Mustard or ketchup? ketchup, i hate mustard
40. Hard cover books or soft cover books? Hard cover
41. Newspaper or magazine? hmm...depends on which newspaper or magazine
42. Sandals or sneakers? Sandals
43. Wonder or amazement? Amazement
44. Red car or white car? oohh red!! I heart Roxy!!
45. Happy and poor or sad and rich? Happy and poor
46. Singing or dancing? Dancing!!!!!! :)
47. Hugging or Kissing? Kissing
48. Corduroy or plaid? Corduroy
49. Happy or sad? Happy
50. Purple or green? Green
51. A year of hot sex or a lifetime of friendship? damn...why can't i have both!! j/k a lifetime of friendship
BASICS
(1) Your gender: Female
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: Straight (I like the penis ;) )
(3) Single?: yeah
4) want to be?: maybe now until that damn holiday in Feburary
(5) Your birth day: 11-05
(6) Age you act: 21
(7) Age you wish you were: 21
(8) Your height: umm...short, only special people know the true height
(9) The color of your eyes: gray blue
(10) Happy with it?: i love them
(11) The color of your hair: sorta lightish/redish/brownish color with some blond highlights sprinkled in there thanks to the coolest roommate lynn!!! ;)
(12) Happy with it?: lynn still has her eyebrows so i guess so!! :)
(13) Left/right/ambidextrous?: Right
(14) Your living arrangements: Townhouse
(27) your family: Mom, Dad, Brother Jason and Wife Sarah, Niece Lindsay and Nephew Jacob (SOOOOO CUTE!!!!!!), and Sister Amanda
(29) What's your job: Uhaul and student
(30) Piercings?: Two in each ear
(31) Tattoos?: nope, but hopefully sometime one on my foot, a yellow rose
(32) Obsessions?: uhh....harry potter
(35) Do you speak another language?: ha je parle francais un peut...
(36) Have a favorite quote?:
(37) Do you have a webpage?: i think its still there...its boring
DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
(38) Do you live in the moment?: no
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: yes unless they are certain people....jab myself in the eye!!!!
(40) Do you have any secrets?: haha i have a dirtly little secret...
(41) Do you hate yourself?: yup sometimes
(42) Do you like your handwriting?: sometimes
(43) Do you have any bad habits?: indecision
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people?: don't really get a whole lot, mostly i like your hair...
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: Wow, how tall are you?
(46) What's your biggest fear?: failing and that I will never meet anyone that I really truely love.
(47) Can you sing: tee hee me and lynn make a GREAT team!!
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: i don't think so, sometimes maybe but i don't know i'm doing it.
(49) Are you a loner?: sometimes, when i'm in my moods
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: probably not
(52) Are you a daredevil?: haha no, i'm a chickenshit
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: well yeah...my likelyhood of addiction
(54) Are you passive or aggressive?: passive
(55) Have you got a ?: a what?
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness?: i guess loyalty, but that is both
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself? oh too many to choose from
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose?: probably love
(59) How do you vent?: yelling...sorry lynn, julian, loie, kristen, stacy, and the many others i've yelled at when i'm truely not mad at them! i heart you!!
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: not really
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: oh god if i try and list them all it would be like 10 pages long. but you can't regret the past, its the past.
(62) Do you think life has been good so far?: it could be worse and i thank god that it hasn't
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: Tell how you really feel, don't lie and keep it all inside. Tell your loved ones and family that they mean the world to you and spend time with them.
(64) What do you like the most about your body?: eyes....and boobs! ;)
(65) And least?: my ass, hips, stomach and theighs
(66) Do you think you are good looking?: ok on my good days
(67) Are you confident?: fuck no
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like?: I have no idea.
69) Do people know how you feel?: no
(70) Are you perceived wrongly?: all the time
DO YOU...
(71) Smoke?: used to a little, not addicted
(72) Do drugs?: no, crack is wack
(73) Read the newspaper?: try to sometimes
(74) Pray?: Yes
(75) Go to church? sometimes, i am going to start going this next semester
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: no, they always think i'm someone else
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals?: tee hee yes
(78) Take walks in the rain?: no, although that would be romantic
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them?: oh god yes
(80) Drive?: yes
(81) Like to drive fast?: yes
HAVE YOU EVER...
(82) Liked your voice?: ehh..its ok
(83) Hurt yourself?: not on purpose
(84) Been out of the country?: canada doesn't count
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick?: umm...no i odn't think so
(86) Burped?: yes
(87) Been unfaithful?: No
(88) Been in love?: No
(89) Done drugs?: No
(90) Gone skinny dipping?: No
(92) Had a surgery?: when i was really little, i have a cute second belly button from it too!!
(93) Ran away from home?: wanted to so many times...i wasn't a happy teenager
(94) Played strip poker?: haha no
(95) Gotten beaten up?: no
(97) Been picked on?: what do you think? OF COURSE!!! all the time actually
(98) Been on stage?: yupper
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath?: haha no but i have spilled a blowjob shot on julian and passed out in the bathtup while my roommates were trying to change me...
(100) Slept outdoors?: heck yeah!
(101) Thought about suicide?: umm..actually yes
(102) Pulled an all-nighter?: not for studies, the closest i've come is 3 hours of sleep
(103) If yes, what is your record?
(104) Gone one day without food?: yeah, forced anorexia
(105) Talked on the phone all night?: umm..no i don't like the phone
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: yupper, i like to cuddle
(107) Slept all day? not since i was little, i get headaches
(108) Killed someone?: haha no
(109) Made out with a stranger?: nope
(110) Had sex with a stranger?: no
(111) Thought you're going crazy?: hahahaheeheh ahah ah ha....the laugh of someone currently going crazy...tee hee
(112) Kissed the same sex?: umm..no frenching, but i think in a game of truth or dare once.
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex?: NO
(114) Been betrayed?: hell yes
(115) Had a dream that came true?: no not really
(116) Broken the law?: hell yes, the speeding and the boom boom room
(117) Met a famous person?: umm...no
(118) Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: bugs and stuff don't count
(146) Stolen anything?: uhh...oh once me and my sister, brother, and some friends of theirs stole candy from great day. but that's it
(147) Been on radio/TV.?: YES!! in alabama on ESPN
(148) Been in a mosh-pit?: yup, amanda kept trying to pull me out
(149) Had a nervous breakdown? several
(150) Considered religious vocation?: tee hee me and lynn are becoming nuns
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance?: haha never had sex
(152) Bungee jumped?: no
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back?: all the time
CLOTHES and other fashion
(154) Shoe brand?: depends, kswiss
(155) Brand of clothing?: Gap, New York and Company, others as well
(156) Cologne/perfume?: Romance by Ralph Laurence
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work?: jeans and shirts and sweatshirts
(159) Wear hats?: sometimes
(160) Judge other people by their clothing?: no not really
(161) Wear make-up?: yeah
(162) Favorite place to shop?: Gap, Marshall Fields, Kohls, New York and Company, and other places
(163) Favorite article of clothing?: black stretchy pants
(164) Are you trendy?: haha NO
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: maybe, i kinda like them, and then there wouldn't be the obvious choice for cliques
BELIEFS
(166) Believe in life on other planets?: ehh...maybe
(167) Miracles?: yeah
(168) Astrology?: yeah
(169) Magic?: eh, its all what you perceive
(170) God? : yup
(171) Satan?: hehe hehe yeah....and the anti-christ!!
(172) Santa?: no, he's a stalker
(173) Ghosts?: haha...yeah
(174) Luck?: eh sorta
(175) Love at first sight?: no, lust at first sight yes
(176) Yin and Yang?: sometimes
(177) Witches? tee hee i'm taking a history of witches class so i'll find out eh?
(178) Easter bunny?: no
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: yup, to the right person
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: fuck no
(181) Do you wish on stars?: no, they never came true
LOVE, and all that
(182) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: no
(183) Do you remember your first love?: i remember who i first liked, i've never really loved someone like that
(184) Still love him/her?: no
(185) Do you consider love a mistake? no
(186) What do you find romantic?: little things.
(187) Turn-on?: doing something for you just because they know you like it
(188) Turn-off?: manipulating and lying
(189) Do you base your judgement on looks alone: no not at all
(200) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: bad, but you can't change your feelings.
201) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"?: eh, probably knowing them
(202) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: i guess, but i'm a chickenshit anyway so i still wouldn't do it
(203) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: oh god yeah, its weird
(204) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: haha probably not
(205) What is best about the opposite sex?: personality, like humor, and eyes
(206) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: sometimes their inability to communicate
(207) What's the last present someone gave you?: uhh....gift bag from tara and chris full of duckie and AST stuff
(208) Are you in love?: nope
(209) Do you consider your significant other hot?: not seeing anyone
(210) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk?: check them out.
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON..
(211) That haunted you?: no one
(212) You wanted to kill?: can't really remember
(213) That you laughed at?: dona i think, or sarah
(214) That laughed at you?: sarah or dona or hey all of the girls in traffic for thinking i was flirting with scott from 65...i SO was not!!
(215) That turned you on?: haha wouldn't you like to know
(216) You went shopping with?: julian, he kept going to the workout machines and testing them.
(217) That broke your heart?: its happened to many times to really know who the last was
(218) To disappoint you?: don't know
(219) To ask you out? haha that's a good one...its been way too long to know
(220) To make you cry?:
(221) To brighten up your day?: lynn
(222) That you thought about?: grandpa van
(223) You saw a movie with?: weaver, julian, amis, shannon, and this other girl. LORD OF THE RINGS: RETURN OF THE KING!!!! GOOD MOVIE!!!!!!
(224) You talked to on the phone?: umm...michele from 54
(225) You talked to through IM?: rick...weird ass conversation...
(226) You saw?: umm..the new AFM for Route 5
(227) You confused: no clue
(229) You thought was completely insane?: RICK!!!
(230) You wanted to be?: probably me
(231) You told off?: can't remember, probably some stupid uhaul customer
(232) You trusted?: lynn, jennie, kristen, and loie
(233) You turned down?: nope no one
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
(234) Smiled?: about 10min ago, it was forced
(235) Laughed?: when dona was talking about how her daughter never likes the clothes she picks out for her
(236) Cried?: almost going to now...i hate the holidays
(237) Bought something?: yesterday
(238) Danced?: its been a while
(239) Were sarcastic?: sometime today i think
(240) hugged someone?: my mom on tuesday
(241) Talked to an ex?: its been a while
(242) Watched your fave movie?: its been a while
(243) Had a nightmare?:
(245) Talked on the phone?: right now
(246) Listened to the radio?: right now
(247) Watched TV?: this morning, Dawsons
(248) Went out?: movie the other night
(249) Helped someone?: just now
(250) Were mean?: always
(251) Sang?: earlier today
(252) Saw a movie in a theater?: Lord of the Rings
(253) Said "I love you"?: i don't know, probably jennie
(254) Missed someone?: always
(255) Fought with a family member?: actually fight? its been a while
(256) Fought with a friend?: huh...no in a long while
(257) Had a serious conversation?: with jennie a couple of days ago
(258) Got drunk?: umm...i think it was monday
(259) Had sex?: haha never!!
there you go another long survey that only lynn will read...oh i'm so loved...
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2003 19 December :: 5.07 pm
:: Mood: apathetic
:: Music: comercials on the radio
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
k so i'm bored..opps phone..ok. well so as i was saying, i am bored. i don't know what is wrong with me, i'm in a funk. a big green moldy funk. i don't want to buy anyone anything for christmas and i don't really want anything either. i am just not in the mood so see anyone or do anything...maybe its delayed reaction to my grandpa's passing. i don't know. i just wish i could feel the same way as i did last year. i was excited about christmas and giving and seeing family, but for some reason this year i would rather not do anything at all. its horrible to say i know but its how i feel.
i guess on a brighter note, lynn's birthday is sunday! the big 21!! we are going out i think on monday when i go and visit her. she is sick, i feel bad. hopefully she will feel better by sunday. her best friend is here from where ever he was stationed.
i am also going to a wedding on the 2nd of January. its lisa's wedding. she is one of my sisters. she is cool. i am leaving with laura z, holly, and melissa on the 31st to go over to the detroit area for new year's eve and then the next day before the wedding. it should be a fun time.
nothing much has been happening, pretty boring i know. jacob and lindsay are getting bigger. school is done for the semester. i got three b's, one a-, and a c. so basically my gpa has slipped ONCE again to a 3.063. which isn't TOO bad...but oh well...
going to allendale tonight, maybe i'll drink some of the beer. although i'm pretty sure i'll be there alone. i forgot some stuff there and i need to pick up a book from steph so there is no point in going there getting the stuff at 10 and then going back to cedar. i'm not really in the mood to socialize with anyone now either. i can't get a hold of jennie or i think she would come with me but i can never get a hold of that girl. she doens't turn her phone on much. well so i should go or something. i've got like 2 1/2 hours left at work but i have nothing left to say. happy holidays!
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2003 26 November :: 6.59 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: not sure
bored as fuck
So i'm at work and bored. really really bored. i only have like 10min left which is nice...maybe i should clean up the desk...tomorrow is thanksgiving. we are staying home. its hard for my mom to be around people right now. my grandpa died on wed so its hard for all of us, especially her. it was her father. my professors were nice about it though. i get to take my tests like two weeks later than i was supposed to. i wish i didn't have to but there was nothing i could do about it. so i don't know. i'm ok i guess. life's been going ok except for last week. i missed my sorority's initiation and date party so the boy i was going to go with, a friend of mine, lynn, and others are going to go rollerskating and bar hopping in cedar with me. tee hee it actually sounds kinda fun. aparently it was supposed to be a suprise but lynn didn't know that and told me. oh well, i had plans anyway that i had to fiddle with so i could go. i'm going up to central that friday to see chris, tara, and possibly amanda. chris has a dickens christmas thing that night so i'll get to see her in that!!! yay!!! i miss them tons!!!!! sigh...and then she's not on duty so we are going to hang out. maybe see some AST's from central, not sure what we are doing. just hanging out with them will be fine. well i should go and clean off the desk. nothing much has happened in my life so there isn't much to report. have a good Thanksgiving all!!!! oohh and this weekend/thursday tell your family you love them. like really do it, not just say you'll do it. you never know what is going to happen so you should do it everyday!!!
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2003 16 November :: 11.34 am
la la la
01. Fallen for your best guy friend? holy shit yeah...its really bad bad
02. Made out with JUST a friend? uhh..yeah
03. Been rejected? well...i have a tendency not to put myself out there enough to get rejected cus odd's are it will happen.
04. Been in love? no i don't think so
05. Been in lust? fuck yeah
06. Used someone? umm...sorta...but not really
07. Been used? yeah it goes with the above one
08. Cheated on someone? no
09. Been cheated on? well actually yeah i think i have
10. Been kissed? yes
11. Done something you regret? oh god yes all the damn time...(the dancing the dancing...)
Who was the last person...
12. You touched? umm...julian i think
13. You talked to? jennifer from muskegon center
14. You hugged? julian
15. You instant messaged? lynn
16. You kissed? julian i believe
17. You had sex with? no one...still pure! ;)
18. You yelled at? lynn about someone
19. You laughed with? donna
20. You had a crush on? lets not mention names here now
21. Who broke your heart? well if this question means that he broke it and and knew he broke it then i don't think anyone...but if it is that he had no idea he broke it then probably rick...but if it is current and not past tense we won't mention the name....
Do you....
22. Color your hair? yes
23. Have tattoos? no
24. Piercing? Ears
25. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both?: no i wish
26. Floss daily? used to...but i'm poor
27. Own a web cam? no
28. Ever get off the damn computer? well no actually because my job is phones and computers...and i go home and i'm online...huh...i'm a loser
29. Sprechen sie deutsche? uhh no
30. Habla espanol? non, je parle francais...
Have you/do you/do you have...
40. Considered a life of crime? hell no
41. Considered being a hooker? well if i fail my SS300 test i will...plus we are going to hoe kristen out for booze money
42. Considered being a pimp? well if you count us going to hoe kristen out then yes i've considered it.
43. Are you psycho? don't think so.....am i?
44. Split personalities? no not regularly
45. Schizophrenic? no
46. Obsessive? nope
47. Obsessive compulsive? tee hee lynn...yeah kinda
48. Panic? only when stressed to the point of breaking....like this next week....
49. Anxiety? sometimes
50. Depressed? off and on
51. Suicidal? no
52. Obsessed with hate? good lord no
53. Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? eww...no
54. Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? no, pyscho
58. What are you listening to? Commercial
59. Can you do anything freakish with your body? uh..oh there's a funny little ball in my knee that i can move around.
60. Chicken or fish? definatly chicken
61. Do you have a favorite animal, no matter how lame it may be? DUCKIES!!!!!!!!
CURRENT STUFF...
Current Clothes: traditional black stretchy pants, BFE 21 tee-shirt, and Navy Sweatshirt
Current Mood: ok...really not bad actually...oh except for the fact that the guy i'm falling for has NO feelings for me except for as a friend...
Current Music: Uncle Kracker (I HATE THIS SONG!!!! DAMN YOU WLITE!!!!!!!)
Current Taste: some pesto chicken thing
Current Hair: definatly up...as always
Current Annoyance: the song, phones, and boys...always boys
Current Smell: the uhaul traffic...not a great smell
Current thing I ought to be doing: working.. :)
Current Desktop Picture: Black Uhaul thing
Current Favorite Group/Artist: Will Hoge, Jesse, 3 Doors Down, uhhh...a lot actually
Current Book: The Middle Ground (not actually sure as to what chapter i'm supposed to be reading for the presentation on wed....i should find that out...
Current DVD In Player: umm...i think Finding Nemo
Current Refreshment: water
Current Worry: why 751021 is not open...is it that hard to fucking get there on time!!!!! its noon and i don't want to have to call my dad with this news....
Current Crush: oh god...no names...but its there...
Current Favorite Celebrity: uhh Colin Firth as always!!!
FAVORITE...
Food: tee anything...i have none.
Drink: wild cherry pepsi
Color: BLUE!!!
Shoes: KSwiss
Candy: oh definatly milky way
Animal: DUCKIE!!!
TV Show: FRIENDS, umm...Real World, OC (although i never get to see it, i'm always gone), American Dreams (same...never get to see it but sometimes they tape it for me!), the batchler.
Movie: Love Actually, Gone With the Wind, ect..
Dance: the 80's dance..and oh the butt dance the butt dance
Vegetable: corn
Fruit: pretty much anything
ARE YOU...
Understanding: i hope so
Open-minded: yes i think so
Arrogant: no not really
Insecure: that's a yes
Interesting: probably not
Hungry: i just ate
Friendly: i think so, i try to be
Smart: lord no but sometimes i pretend to be
Moody: damn being a woman...yeah sometimes
Childish: sometimes, but not usually
Independent: yeah you have to be if you don't live at home anymore
Hard working: uhh...well considering i'm doing this at work...yeah i am though because i work hard when i need to
Organized: tee hee if you have seen my room you may not think so but i know where everything pretty much is
Emotionally Stable: sometimes
Shy: yeah actually
Difficult: no i think i'm easy going
Attractive: sometimes...i have my good days where i suprise myself
Bored Easily: depends on what is going on
Thirsty: ALWAYS
Responsible: yeah i think sometimes, now that i'm 21 i should be a little more though
Sad: not really sad....but more disappointed in myself and my weakness
Happy: well not at myself
Talkative: not really i'm more quiet
Original: ehh...sometimes
Different: i guess everyone is different than someone else, there is no two people the same
Unique: probably not
Lonely: yeah that's a definate
WHO DO YOU WANT TO...
Kill: no one
Slap: umm...no one.
Look Like: anyone else
Be Like: i guess me cus so far i'm not dead so that's a plus eh?
Talk To Offline: you ;)
OTHER:
Parents nicknames: mom and dad
Age: 21
Hair color: well if you count the roots then a darkish blond more brown, the ends are a little redder
Birthday: 11-05-82
Eye Color: grey blue
Siblings: Jason 24, Amanda 22
Righty or lefty? Righty
What's your sign? Scorpio
On preferences...
Chocolate milk or hot chocolate? chocolate milk
McDonalds or Burger King? McDonalds
Marry the perfect lover or perfect friend? both
Sweet or sour? sweet
Root Beer or Dr. Pepper? Dr. Pepper
Sappy/action/comedy/horror? comedy
Cats or dogs? dogs
Ocean or Pool? pool!
Cool Ranch or Nacho Cheese? Nacho Cheese
Mud or Jell-O wrestling? Jell-O
With or without ice-cubes? without
Shine or rain? Shine
Winter/Summer/Fall/Spring? Fall
Vanilla or Chocolate? Vanilla
Snowboarding or skiing? Skiing
Cake or cookies? Cake
Cereal or toast? cereal
Gloves or mittens? gloves
Eyes open or closed? closed
Fly or breathe under water? I think probably breathe under water
Bunk-bed or waterbed? bunk
Chewing gum or hard candy? Gum
Motor boat or sailboat? umm...both are nice, but motor i think
Lights on or off? off...teehee unless your the Sigma Pi guy...wow he's HOT!!
What's your favorite:
Number? 7
Holiday? Christmas
Radio station? WSNX or WGRD
Place? Chicago
Flower? yellow roses but i REALLY love lilac's
Scent? home
so there's a LONG survay about me! i hope you enjoyed it. not like anyone but maybe lynn reads this anyway!!!
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2003 15 November :: 7.03 pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: george michael (sp?)
DANCE PARTY!!!
DANCE PARTY F5!!! tee hee starting in about 2 hours!!! yippy!!!!! hopefully people can come....if not it'll just be me and lynn boozing it up together!!!!! good times, good times....maybe i'll update later when i'm drunk!! CUS I'M 21!!!!!!
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2003 9 November :: 3.05 pm
:: Mood: eh
:: Music: tv
blah blah and stuff
Everyone remembers the 'faked-orgasm-in-a-deli'
sequence from your kind of movie When Harry Met
Sally. It seems that you're falling for a buddy
or have already fallen for them. Uh-oh. You're
probably caught between the possibility of
having a great relationship and wrecking the
one you have now. You know what they say, it's
better to regret something you did than
something you didn't do.
What Romance Movie Best Represents Your Love Life?
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