hey kids (:
today was a B day and it was alrightt i guess. i had english which was gay because i didnt have my retarded bibliography because i didnt have the book i got it all from so i really couldnt do it. and it was just gay. then i had science which was pretty fun and easy.
then i had gym (: lmao i love gym! haha we ran the mile.. mer.. it suckedd. my score was less than impressive (: haha and it was FREEZING so tiffany stole sharples sweater and gave it to us so we were just laying it across our legs and on the way inside em and i both fit into it so we were walking around like that and getting in peoples way the whole time (: hahah it was so fun! too bad it was like mega-stretched by the end of class.. heh whoops!
civics was ok i guess. it was really easy today which was a plus.

lmao on the way back from lunch, i was with em, tiff, and kayla at the lockers in B and there were like HUGE GRANNY disgusting feminie hygiene products stuck to the lockers! lmao! it was disgusting and HILARIOUS! so i took one and stuck it on my shirt and then rubbed it on pete's face and then stuck it on tiff's locker but then em and i were like "shit dont want to get blamed for this.." so we stuck it back where we got it and later i found out that they were mere's! lmao! hahah molly and sarah went in her locker and put them everywhere in her locker and then stuck them on lockers (: hahah it was soo hot! jeez my school is hot..

hey homies
ugh well today was monday and it sucked mad balls! umm in spanish we went outside for the last like 15 minutes and i was freezing my ballss off! gosh that kid chris like stalks me now for some reason! i think its because im probably the only girl thats attractive that has ever given him the time of day. not that what i just said was the most conceited thing ever (: haha um math was cool as hell because i have my homie christian! haha ahh i love him to death! haha all we do is make paper airplanes called "the falconer" and shoot them everywhere. we're some badass kids (: ha then lunch was pretty cool and so i guess now cory isnt sitting next to me anymore..? or something..? ugh ok, so im even tired of going through this whole drama thing but whatever, it has to be said ): so i guess the deal is hes deciding to totally ditch me now for some reason? like he doesnt come to my locker anymore, doesnt sit with me at lunch, doesnt say hi to me in the hallways, doesnt IM me.. so officially i have no idea what is going on. like.. i dont even know my own feelings for him anymore because things have just gotten to retarded. honestly.. i dont want to care. but its kind of hard to do that just because he is a good friend of mine and apparently i cant be like him and just give up on someone in 5 seconds notice. i was talking to derek about it and he actually made me feel better because he and i were both saying like how i didnt see it when i shouldve and that i can do better but i dont know. im kind of tired of people telling me i told you so and how i can do better. i know what i want but i guess im just going to have to get over it. whatever, anyways. resource was ok i guess. nick and ryan were working together and we somehow got onto the subject where i was able to say "well i used to let you read my notes until you replaced me with hailey" and we got into it and ryan was just sitting there laughing and i didnt even plan on saying it but i just started revealing it so now i dont even know whats going on. then teen living was gay. & everyone keeps asking me if ryan and i are dating! goshh! i guess it must look a lot like we are because i get asked like 29823 times a day! i do love ryan like a son of a bitch but i havent really thought of him as a boyfriend but who the hell knows.

lmao! omg there is a big thing in the guys bathroom that says "i <3 jay" on in sharpie! lmao! all the guys starting coming up to me like 24/7 telling me about and now i want to f'ing see it! gosh! haha and apparently now more and more people have added things to it..? haha i dont know.. made me feel.. SPECIAL. haha<33 gosh all the girls must be so jealous to be in my position (: ha i want to go in there and add some stuff to it too! haha like "dude.. she gave me the herps!" or "damn that chicks got some SCABIES!" hahah gosh (: fabulous

havent written in a while
yeah i wouldve written in this during spring break but i was having too much fun being lazy and sleeping inn. yeah so once i got home from johanna's, i just chilled for like 2 days and then we went to georgetown for 2 days and got some serious shopping done. it was pretty hot. got rubbed up on by some sexually frustrated hobos! loved every second of it ok.. god. ha yeah so easter was kinda.. not anything special? ha i got like a basket and then that was about it besides dinner.

omfg today was monday and i was ready to shoot myself in the FACE! god i was so freaking bored and derlerious! atleast today was my easy day which was nice. i had spanish which was gay cause she made us actually do shit which sucked andd then i had math and i got my interim and i have a freaking 63! lmao im FUCKED! ha so i just gotta turn in all that shit that i just looked over before and then im set so its really not that bad soo then i had lunch and holy shit russel was like going under the table and like stroking kathleen and my legs.. haha omg it was so freaking scary and hilarious! i almost died? ha so then i had resource and actually hung out with melissa and cory most of the time which was alright i guess but i randomly started talking to spencer and it was hot haha. he shot these bottle caps like into the air and shit.. it was hot. so then i had teen living and we watched a movie so i just tried to sleep the entire time and then mere told me that her and brandt had sex? lmao i was like uhhh.. haha it was hot. kinda random but thats ok.. she like told me not to tell anyone but then she like told jess who ran up to me and sarah to tell us and so its basically definite that every is going to know by the end of this week. i kinda feel bad for her cause they broke up like a second later so that was kinda pointless. plus.. retarded as hell that her first time didnt mean jack shitt! i told derek about it and we were talking about how we think its retarded to like do it before youre even in highschool and especially with a boyfriend that youre not even serious with.. how retarded. i was kinda suprised that derek was saying that but i was still impressed.

so the other night, jeremy's dad kicked him out of the house.. its reallyy sad. jeremy is the kind of person who wont show when theyre upset but i mean something like that happens.. you kinda have to be sad. so jeremy has like a bookbag full of clothes, a bottle of water, toothpaste, and like a jacket and hat.. its freaking raining like SHIT outside right now and i feel horrible knowing that he is freaking outside! he came over at like 8 last night and stayed until like 12. samm and i kept offering a bed or even a floor or blanket but he wouldnt accept any help.. i wish jeremy was mature enough to realize when he needs help and when to accept it. bleh i dont even want to talk about it because its sucha sad thing..

hot shit
so i stayed at johannas for 4 days lmao. i got back yesterday. while i was there we just hung out and did hot stuff! we went to julia's funeral and a lot of people showed up so it was good. lmao omgg johanna was talking to MATT CUSTER on my sn and was like telling him i wanted to fuck him and all this shit and then he asked me out and johanna was like YES. lmao so he thought we were dating and it was hot!! lmao omgg..

lmao holy shit! yesterday jeremy let me give him a mullet! OMG! lmao it is rediculous. damn.. haha so hes gonna let me shave it in a couple of days. sexcellent. ha and today we made human pyramids with the hotties outside today. it was hot. yeah so we just got home from a little diner in frederick and now im bored and i want to throw up! yeah so thats my story. later kids.

ha aw cory is telling me how much he misses me. lmao i forgot to say that at johanna's, jo told him i was moving away and he like FLIPPED OUT and when jo told him it was a joke he was like "god damn johanna, that is not funny" haha ahh it was hot! i love that kid like a son of a bitch<33

f'ing tiredd
hm so its 7:52 in the morning and im updating cause im terribly bored waiting for samm to finish getting ready so i can go off to school.. merr.. well at least i look good today. im wearing my new hollister skirt with my a&f white long sleeve, samms white chucks and vintage white pearls (: alright well im heading out now i think, later gators

big events
so most importantly, sunday, Julia Young committed suicide. The dean came in and told our class monday morning.. it was horrible. all the teachers were crying and lots of kids were freaking out. Julia and i were very close but i still felt for her and i feel sick to my stomach that i didnt ever get the chance for her and i to talk about what was going on with her. I just reallyyy wish i couldve helped her. im sure i wouldnt be the first choice for her to talk too but i mean, we were civil to eachother, she was nice to me and i was nice to her. i knew that she mustve had some depression/bipolar issues but i didnt know that they were that serious. i just feel soo horrible. i had math with her, and her locker was 2 down from me. everyone at school is still shook up about it. the worst part is Julia's sister, Sadie, found Julia dead in her closet.. Julia hung herself. omg, i just want to cry for sadie soo badly. i can even imagine, well i dont really want to talk about it anymore.
RIP JULIA YOUNG Sept. 10, 1991-March 13, 2005

so aside from that, cory asked me out today. kinda weird, i tried to stall for as long as possible cause i had noo fucking idea what i was going to say. so we walked together and he just asked me. he was trying to get my attention and kept like calling my name and i just kinda pretended that i was caught up in another conversation and i even tried to get lost in the crowd.. its kinda bitchy but still. so cory tracked me down and asked me so i just kinda stared at him for a little while and i was like "why?" and he just told me how much he liked me and i just told him that i wasnt sure but even though i dont want to admit it, i know im going to say no. i mean, there was something there but he fucked it up and im really not interested in going back to that same old crap and just ending up getting frustrated and pissed and then us not even being friends. hm.. look at this

cory: uhm nothing but you're the hottest,nicest,most prettiest girl i know and im sorry that im shy in person its just i want to be be perfect for you because you're perfect and i love you...

its sweet but i dont know if that is going to make me change my mind.. oh well. i dont want to worry about it now.

spring break is next week and im going to johannas friday and im prolly gonna end up LIVING at sarah's or hannah's cause we're cool like that. so thats basically my news, im also going to julia's funeral saturday and i really want to go just to feel like im being there for julia but i cant even predict what im going to do.. ill prolly cry. god. alright well im gonna get out of here, later.

damn its cold
wtf is MARCH and it snowed today.. god.. haha i hate the snow so much now.. i just wish it was warm so i could go TAN! haha im getting so pale its even freaking me out.. merr.

today we had a freaking SOL english test today.. it was only 34 questions and they gave us an hour and a half.. all the gay smarties in my class were like taking their time like reading EVERY WORD CAREFULLY and i was the first one done.. by like 15 minutes.. but when everyone finished we got to do whatever we want so it was good enough for me - and i got to miss english with fuckin donosaurs.. jesus christ i hate that class! ha well other than that it was just a regular gay day..

omg for once the fucking highlight of my day was the bus! lmaoo omfg it was soo funny! ok so it was pretty fun just hangin around talking with everyone on the way to town and right after we dropped garrett off we realized that there was a huge tree down in the middle of the road and thomas, derek, and jeremy were like LETS MOVE IT! so every single person got off the bus and like grabbed a branch and samm and i took like the MAIN bulk of the tree and i was laughing to hard to even do anything and so i was like "meh, fuck this" and samm and i got on the bus and all the other chicks followed us on, and so while we were sitting there, i started seeing how many seats i could jump over and shit and it was soo much fun - and then thomas got back on and did these like flips over the seat and it was hilarious. soo we were just sitting there for a while and samm and i started swordfighting with out arms and it was freaking hilarious and so, i was in the backseat, and i jumped on the very back like.. panel thingy thats just a flat surface and there is a little siding on it so i thought she wouldnt be able to see me and so i jumped up there and like 30 seconds down the road we hit this HUGE pothole and i FLEW! lmao omg is was fucking AWESOME! haha holy shit it was so hot and then i was sorta.. stuck up there cause i couldnt get off cause she was either, moving, or she was looking right towards the back - but i got off eventually lmao. ok, so she dropped us off and she was going to go down and drop us off by our houses but samm derek and i got off first and so we decided to all walk in the middle of the road so rainee couldnt get by and it was fucking hilarious and so derek and i just stopped in the middle of the road for like 5 minutes and then i ran away cause i was freezing my balls off & thats all! lmao it was freaking awesome

alright well im done, write back tomorrow

im so tiredd
godd im freaking tired for some reason haha - well.. i just had milk.. soo you know. haha anywayss today was flipping monday ): fucking sucked. at least today was an A day or i wouldve shot myself in the face. hm today was pretty low key/boring as hell. i seriously have nothing new to say

lmao look at this hot stuff
me: ha nevermind then - its jay
daniel: oh heyy baby!

haha random and i like it lmao hes asking me if sarah is a whore and i was like "omg yeah shes the fucking biggest slut ever!" lmao i love fucking with people.. it gives me amusement.. yes this is officially the most boring entry ever - ah fuck SOL essay thingy tomorrow.. hmm i wonder if i can get away with looking like shit for like.. 2 weeks haha wtf ive been too lazy to try to look good lately.. hmm.

alright im out, ill write back tomorrow

blehh
wtf paul is on johanna's sn is like being gay as hell.. ive like never even talked to the kid before and he just came to this school like 3 seconds ago & now hes like trying to talk to me all ghetto.. and he thinks hes so badass.. what a faggot. we're in loudoun.. get used to it sweetness. geez im surrounded by idiots!

yeahh so today was pretty gay. i just sat at home and did nothing basically because there is nothing to do. its sunday and samm was at work so i shopped online basically all day haha.. mm.. fun. i got some cute stuff from hollister, a&f, and victoria's secret. thenn i went and picked up samm from work and then we went to panera as usual. exciting.. i know

woah the only news i have is that chris broke his hip! holy shit! sam & keith went over to wyatt and miles's & they hooked the 4-wheeler up to a sled and went around the circle in the way back, and chris got flown into a tree and like broke his hip! damnn..