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sonic reducer

:: 2005 7 June :: 9.00pm

Well, gave my notice tonight. They said I was always welcome there. But I can't believe I cried! Blah. It was a hard decision. Hmph.
So I will be working at Two Sisters Cafe at Champion Fitness Center. That is about it for now.

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crazygirl

:: 2005 7 June :: 2.28pm

all around me are familiar faces
worn out places
worn out faces
bright and early for their daily races
going nowhere
going nowhere

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spud

:: 2005 5 June :: 6.42pm
:: Mood: done
:: Music: ben fondles five - Evaporated

jesus. life has been crazy. i moved into my dad's trailer. i'm working at steelcase. i put in 25 hours last week. probably 40-50 hrs this week.

i miss my lady oh so much....

money is seriously not worth this shit.

but i suppose food is. and it's hard to come by food without money.

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greenpixiestix

:: 2005 3 June :: 10.58pm
:: Music: Comeback Kid - The Trouble I Love

freaxin' ya out
Asshole guys. Good grades.
*shrugs* At least there are certainties in my life.

I finally got a tube of that XXL waterproof mascara Nina was raving about. This is only the 2nd time I've tried to use mascara in my life, and well, I'm not very good with it. I'm afraid that I'm gonna look like that insanely religious Bakker woman with the mascara obsession.

Hardcore concert on Monday with the guy - well, the one guy who's kinda into me who doesn't make me want to vomit.

In other news, I like to cook way too much - so much that I didn't really mind smelling like weird spices, since I showered immediately after I was done. Today I made chana masala and hummus. Yep, I gotta conquer those "ethnic foods". HAH. *shrugs* One thing I've learned is that I really, really like hot sauce (which is probably the fault of that 1/4 Szechuan part of me). And I use chili powder at an alarming rate.

Yawn. I like boys. I'm like the female version of Vonnegut. I can't get over the way guys are shaped. Shoulders. Man. Maybe that's why I think the Library Dude looks good now. Back in high school, he was puny, but he filled out and has the broad shoulders. Damn. Suddenly he's attractive in a Dave Navarro kind of way.

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holiday

:: 2005 3 June :: 12.02am

Ugh. Not feeling so well.
I do have a new job. It is so hard to decide whether or not to take it though. They pay a lot less than Carino's. I'm making $8 there, but at the cafe I would be making $6 (more in the fall though). I just went in to hand in my application and she was excited and we talked for an hour an now I have a job there. It'd be good because it'd be a more relaxed atmosphere, which is what I need right now. It's just so hard right now. I love working with the people I work with now. I don't want to leave yet! Ugh.
I really am having a hard time with this.
Tummy hurts going to bed now.

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holiday

:: 2005 1 June :: 9.06pm

I'm not so scared anymore. Still scared about my parents. Still thinking about it. Not so sure yet. I am so stupid. We'll be fine. We will be fine.
P.S.- I may have a new job @ Champion. The cafe there. Going to drop off my application tomorrow. Who knows. I'm sad about Johnny's though. There are so many people there that I have grown to know and I am so comfortable there w/everything. I know a lot there.
I think that's the problem, I know everything I can about what I do there, so there isn't challenge anymore. But I love working there sometimes and that doesn't help me make my decision.

Gah. That's about it right now.

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spud

:: 2005 30 May :: 11.52pm
:: Music: the WMA shuffle...

first things first...

01. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie reminds me of you.
03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be...
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.

because i love jackie. SHHHHH!!!

this weekend was pretty kick ass. i got to chill out. i got to graduate. i got to party all night long. i got to sleep. i cleaned, cleaned, cleaned. a lot. jackie came over. i grilled out.

and today i raced my car for the first time.

yeah, i went to grattan for the Alfa Romeo track day. i registered for the open touring session during lunch. i switched corners too fast again, panicked just like before, let off the throttle (STUPID!!!), fishtailed through turn four, and then spun into the grass. aside from looking like a moron and thrashing one of my front tires, no harm done. and the tire damage isn't bad. i just need to raise the front end a bit. and roll the fenders some more. i'd kinda like to pull those fender skirts completely, but i'm sure the metal is hideous underneath. maybe i'll be surprised. probably not.

but yeah.

and since all i talk about are cars, here you go...

i'm gonna get mom to let me do that with her mini cooper....

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holiday

:: 2005 30 May :: 9.03pm

It just feels like a vacation. I'm watching Hell's Kitchen right now. I am getting kind of scared...of everything. I want to make sure this is what career I want to do. I've been cooking for a while now it feels too late to back out. I just want to get to the top the fastest way I can. It's really hard. About something entirely different,
I am scared it is too late. I'm calm but scared. I keep messing up. These dreams are strange. I keep dreaming the same thing.
But Charlie keeps me strong. Ahhh have to go.

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spud	:: 2005 29 May :: 11.20pm What??? Cars were designed to stay on the ground??? ... not in my world... 8 comments \| feedback

crazygirl

:: 2005 29 May :: 3.31pm

voy a ir a mexico.

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spud

:: 2005 28 May :: 6.47pm
:: Mood: exhausted

finally!

The Basics and Some Personals
Name:: Christopher Lee Best
Age:: 18
Shoe Size:: 12 or so.
Height:: about five ten.
Weight:: 225 lbs. eesh.
Pants Size:: i've surpassed square bottoms... 34x32
Shirt Size:: large.
Innie or Outie?: innie. outies are for freaks.
Love Questions
Are you in Love?: always. it's a perpetual thing, you know...
Are you single or taken?: taken
If single, for how long?: about 4 days.
If taken, for how long?: i don't remember the official date. i hope she doesn't mind.
If taken, by whom?: jack.
Do you like guys or girls?: girls, obviously.
What do you think about Sporty guys?: homosexuals. every last one of them.
Smart?: sporty guys are certainly not smart.
Dorky?: yes, i'm pretty dorky.
Popular?: among certain circles. it's all relative, really.
Your Favorites
Kind of Food:: the good kind.
Color:: ... cool colors. quite literally.
Song:: what the hell? you honestly expect me to have a favorite? ... barenaked ladies - these apples
Band:: jeez. i don't know. probably BnL.
Singer:: Brandon Boyd. hands down.
CD:: spice girls... actually. i've never even heard that cd. Dave Brubeck - Time Out.
Kind of Music:: Jazzz jazz jaz...
Animal:: i like dogs. big ones. but ferrets are pretty kickass too.
Place to be?: anywhere in nature. by a lake. with lots of trees.
Vacation spot:: the beach.
Actor:: i have so many. Alan Rickman.
Actress:: i don't know. Maggie Smith? she's pretty hot.
Comedian:: anyone who can say something funny that has nothing to do with politics or stereotypes.
Soap Opera:: none whatsoever.
Day Time Talk Show:: the wayne brady show. that was flippin' sweet.
Game Show:: Jeopardy. it's like trivial pursuit in my family. fun stuff.
All Around Favorite Show:: ummm.. i don't really watch tv much. i'm sure i have one though. i'll get back to you.
Drink:: cola
Restaurant:: bilbo's!!!
Number:: 3 or 7, or anything with those numbers in it.
Letter:: B
Word:: apparently
Your Short Opinion on..
George W. Bush:: moron. but his intentions are good.
Gay Marriage:: it's not my place to tell them not to.
Rocketing Gas Prices:: i drive a rabbit, bitches.
Minimum Wage ($6.75):: i thought it was like 5.25. where the hell have i been?
Drunk Driving:: stupid. irresponsible.
Legal Driving Age:: i know plenty of people who are 30 that shouldn't be driving.
Anorexia:: not my problem. obviously. but a valid concern.
Mary-Kate and Anorexia:: people have this celebrity fixation.
Lindsay Lohan (18) and her 23-year-old boyfriend:: lucky guy. smart girl.
Young Marriages:: lustful. again, not my place to say no.
Young Parents:: look at anakin and amidala
Pregnency without a Marriage:: something i'd like to avoid.
Telemarketers:: trying to make ends meet, just like the rest of us.
Pop Quizzes:: every quiz is a pop quiz for someone who never studies!
This Survey:: far too long
Label Your Friends!
Loudest:: probably jackie.
Quietest:: sarah. although she's really not that quiet.
Nicest:: dani? yeah, she's TOO nice.
Person who doesn't think before they speak:: " i don't know the strength of myself..." hahaha.
Outspoken:: Kevin. and becky. they were a really bad couple, for this reason.
Annoying:: arden bremmer. not really my friend. but hey.
Popular or has best chance of becoming popular:: Dance Break!
Best Dressed:: oh, gosh. i don't know. teh fil, i suppose.
Worst Dressed:: me.
Sweetest:: like i know that...
Giving:: hm. i don't know either.
Selfish:: probably kevin.
Ungrateful:: none of them.
Social Butterfly:: i'm just obsessed with jackie. that's all.
Will be crowned Most Likely to Succeed by their class:: seriously...
This or That
Soda/Punch: soda
Sour/Sweet: sour
Summer/Winter: both
Christmas/Thanksgiving: Christmas
Easy/Challenging: challenging
Light/Dark: dark colors/ light humor.
Sun/Moon: moon, without question.
TV/Movies: movies ... a lot.
Out with Friends/Out with Family: both.
Cat/Dog: dog. but i don't HATE cats...
Penguin/Dolphin: hm... penguins!!!
Book/Magazine: magazines are for wasting time. books are for spending it.
Last Questions about the Survey
Did you like the survey?: hey, you're moderately attractive!
Would you reccomend it to a friend?: highly unlikely
Where will you put your results?: my journal.
Thanks for coming...: no, thank you.

**~Long Survey~** (w/ good grammar and decent, unique questions) brought to you by BZOINK!

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spud	:: 2005 26 May :: 12.23am :: Mood: tired Why i love my car... ... or, rather, why i want this one... 2 comments \| feedback

holiday

:: 2005 24 May :: 12.06pm

It feels great to be out of school. I feel lazy though. I slept in till 11 this morning. This is going to be one busy week. We'll see what's new probably Friday.

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spud

:: 2005 23 May :: 3.48pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: mario bros. (stuck in my head)

... i see your schwartz is as big as mine...

Green
Green is your Lightsaber's color.

Green is the color of nature. It symbolizes growth,
harmony, and freshness. Green has strong
emotional correspondence with safety. Green is
also commonly associated with wealth and
happiness, so someone with a green lightsaber
like yourself is a fortunate soul.

What Colored Lightsaber Would You Have?
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yeah. i haven't seen episode three yet. i feel like such a loser. it's been so long, i hardly remember the original trilogy. and i only saw episodes I and II once each, so those didn't stick really well either.

but i do know that natalie portman equals the hottest thing i've ever seen. like, lovably cute, type-deal.

but i made up for it by watching three episodes of star trek yesterday.

... what the fuck were the romulans thinking? Kirk had it in his pocket the whole time. fucking morons.

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greenpixiestix

:: 2005 21 May :: 8.39pm
:: Music: The Real Enemy - High On Placebos

Does anyone read this? *shrugs*

So in the past few days, I've gone through emotional hell. It happens quite often, really. Anyhow, I'm attracted to guys who are beyond me. They're so bad for me. And I'm bad for the nice guys. It doesn't work.

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blondie17

:: 2005 20 May :: 5.06pm

well i passed my senior exhibition with flying colors.....i am now a true graduate....yay!!!!!!!!!!!!my open house is june 25th! from 2-6pm....so if you all want you alla can come! il get you guys some invites soon! just need your addresses and ill be set!

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crazygirl

:: 2005 16 May :: 1.57pm

i'm gonna leave st. louis.

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blondie17

:: 2005 16 May :: 7.59am
:: Mood: worried

this is going to hurt.
iknow im going to cry
I wont be able to take this pain
only he knows why

can i bear it
if hes not by my side
how can i keep doing this
when will i realize

that even though he reaches for me
and goes to grab MY hand
that its not how i want it to be
and that it isnt planned

its not in the books for us
and though i wont give up
he tells me to hang on a while
cause only time can tell.

so what do you propose i do
should i leave or stay
do you know im waiting for you
hoping for someday...

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spud

:: 2005 15 May :: 1.53pm

it's strange how things just kinda work out.

seriously. it was just awesome. her family is very much my speed. further evidenced by their collection of pirated movies. not so much the piracy as the movie selections. good stuff.

and we got to watch SNL! i find that hugely ironic. just because that was something i had always wanted (yes, even prayed for) and had given up on completely. and then it just kinda happened, and as we were watching... i realised; my wish was finally granted. and i didn't even know i was wishing for it at first.

just weird shit. the ride home was long and lonely. but i grabbed some coffee. it's a good thing i remembered to get gas before i went too far. that needle kinda wanders back and forth, and it was past an eighth of a tank.

NOOOOOOO! wrong wrong WRONG! .... i love it.

warm fuzzies again. i had leftovers for breakfast. i even blew my nose with the tissue she gave me. now that's class, right there.

it all just worked out so perfectly. i'm still in awe.

right. now i have to go mow lawn. and my sleep schedule is totally FUBAR. but it was well worth it.

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spud	:: 2005 13 May :: 8.44pm time is moving so slow. how can i blow off the next two hours? 8 comments \| feedback

spud

:: 2005 12 May :: 12.03am
:: Mood: awesome

i just feel so good when i talk to her. even if it's through this damn computer. i hate this almost as much as i hate the phone. but hey, at least i'm learning to type faster.

but seriously. just the stuff she says, without even realizing, is just totally dead on the money. i just wish i could do the same thing for her. but she seems really receptive to the crap i dish out, so either i do better than i realize, or she's just that much more incredible.

it's not like a hot 'i wanna bone you' sort of thing, either. i mean it's just... sharp. real sharp. she keeps me on my toes sometimes. that's definitely refreshing. and i just wish i could make her feel as content as i feel when i hear what she says, or even read what she types. it's just that peace that everything's okay. some sense of completion, and yet a hunger for more. and to know that there's more there. it's just... oh..... i..... wow...... yes.

and with that, i pass out. i gotta quit staying up so late.

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spud	:: 2005 11 May :: 10.44pm anyone who's pissed at ryan gorter needs to stop being pissed at him. go to this website and laugh at him instead! 3 comments \| feedback

spud

:: 2005 11 May :: 4.36pm
:: Mood: weirded out!

this is some fucked up shit.
it just seems so surreal. my life is completely crazy. just school, no school, school in the gymnasium, mom's gone, mom's home, no car, cool car, good student, flunking class.

i just can't keep up with all this. and it's not that i'm trying to keep up and getting frustrated (although, that's where i usually am). but i'm not keeping up and i'm not caring that i can't keep up, and i just don't know what's going on.

it's just freaky as hell. my wallet's in mrs. millard's class. but i found the spare car key... ROCK! i mean, i wasn't that worried when everybody else was freaking out. i was mr. calm-cool-and-collected. but now that i'm home, with no school tomorrow, and all of my patterns disrupted. it's an unpleasant sensation, to put it lightly.

my source of any sense of normalcy?

there you are:

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blondie17

:: 2005 11 May :: 12.05pm

ANDY
andy! is there any way that you can print off all my entries....?

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spud

:: 2005 10 May :: 11.00pm
:: Mood: sleepy

alright... my OFFICIAL OPEN HOUSE INFO!!!!

i finally beat my mom into submission and made her settle on a date. jigga w00t w00t for beating family members senseless.

here you go:

when -
SUNDAY, JUNE 26, 2005. 1-5 PM. (i won't necessarily be kicking you out at five. i just had to pick something)

where -
the NEW HOUSE = 2676 ARBOR CHASE DR.
directions are thus; take the east beltline south to three mile. go left (east) on 3 mile (you have to do a michigan U-turn). a little ways down on the right, past Dunnigan Rd. (if you hit Maguire, you've gone too far), you'll see a subdivision thingy; go in. you will then be on arbor chase drive. a little ways up the hill on the left, is our house. i don't know where the number is, but i'm sure it's there. and we'll put out balloons or something. because i'm totally worth it.

who?-
you and whoever... just give me a ballpark figure of how many people to expect.

why? ----- because i'm tremendously POPULAR! remember?

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