sonic reducer

:: 2006 9 October :: 10.36am

i have been sitting here for a long time it seems and i am starting to think that it would have been better if i just didn't go to class today.
blah.

spud	:: 2006 6 October :: 12.02pm :: Music: beatles - white album jeez. it's just playful banter. i guess i can dish it out, but i just can't take it. feedback

spud	:: 2006 4 October :: 5.05pm it gets me real pissed off, and it makes me want to say; it gets me real pissed off, and it makes me want to say; it gets me real pissed off, and it makes me want to say: fuck. 2 comments \| feedback

spud	:: 2006 3 October :: 12.37am :: Mood: exasperated :: Music: thunder you should buy my car. burning hair is pretty much the worst smell ever. and somehow, i think it smells worse when it's your own. son of a bitch. 4 comments \| feedback

:: 2006 26 September :: 6.57pm

About a couple more weeks!
I am so exhausted. Today we had a doctor's appt. for 8 in Cedar. So we had to get up at 6:30 to get there in time. Then we went back to sleep once we got home. Then I had a Chiropractic appt. Then I slept. Now I'm at the library. The baby dropped even more and it's harder to sleep. But I'm so excited I can't wait. The sky was soooo pretty early this morning! The clouds looked feathered and the sky was orange, purple, pink and red. I want to start painting again. This weekend was my baby shower and it was a lot of fun. Lots of good food too! Next week is my birthday, it came really fast. Other than that lots of doc. appt. and such. Lots of sleeping. Blah.

:: 2006 22 September :: 3.12pm

Rainy weather makes me exhausted.
It's really pretty out though.
I can't believe it's Friday already though. But that's a good thing I guess. Everyday is the same for me, lol. Considering I don't work or go to school. It's a seven-day weekend every week. The baby dropped lower and tomorrow is the baby shower so that's good. :-) I'm just really worried about having baby while dad is out in South Dakota w/grandpa. So things either have to happen before Oct. 11 or after Oct. 20. I'm still talking it over with baby. We're still hashing details...haha.
I love my family. Last night my mom and aunt came over and we soaked our feet and did pedicures/manicures and ordered Q'doba. And watched Peggy Sue Got Married. And stuff. And it was a lot of fun. Tonight I'm going to Home Depot to check out some grills. Then making Snickerdoodles for my daddio. Then going to my parents house . Then Charlie and I are going to have a scrabble battle. haha.
That's about it.

:: 2006 20 September :: 10.36pm

should i feel guilty for being pissed? i don't think so. i want to eat. i want to go home. i want to not have to do this shit.

hell, i daresay i'd even rather having to buy books.

son of a bitch, man.

she didn't really need to print off 150 copies of the habitat for humanity thing did she? i had to print of MY things. aren't I more important than her? and i can't get the marihuana one to work. that makes me sad.

meh.

:: 2006 19 September :: 5.46pm
:: Music: simon and garfunkel

we're doing dinner with professor eick tonight. it's been a few months since i've seen him, so that's cool.

aside from that, i'm at college, doing college things.

like, my radio show.
and harry potter club.
and sociology (i.e. cross-dressing and writing journals and reading articles)
and psychology (i.e. thinking about thinking and writing journals and reading articles)
and german (i.e. schlafen)
and film (i.e. watching movies and writing journals and reading articles)
and radio plays
and trying to get a job
and having lots and lots of sex
and doing laundry

you know; college stuff.

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:: 2006 19 September :: 3.56pm

the baby dropped the baby dropped the baby dropped
yayyyyyyyyyy
i can breathe again and eat yayyyyyy
i'm going to natural choice chiropractic tonight for a free massage yippee

:: 2006 18 September :: 4.13pm

Ughhhhhh. I hurt soooo bad! So we did end up going to the hospital. Everything turned out to be fine. But this baby is ready to come out!!! I'm measuring 37 weeks and just ready. I am exhausted, nesting, sick, uncomfortable. Blahhhh. Hear my complaints! lol. :-) I've started going to some natural childbirth-type classes and a really cool chiropractic office. Tomorrow is another class and we get free massages! Yay! My baby shower is this saturday! Double-yay!

:: 2006 18 September :: 8.36am

im sick of getting up before the sun every single day . . .

:: 2006 11 September :: 8.28pm

So a trip to the hospital might be in order tonight!

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:: 2006 7 September :: 7.08pm

Had a doctors appt. last friday. I am now measuring 36 weeks. Who knows what's going to happen :-) I'm totally nesting now, too. We finally got everything moved in and around and put away and it feels great. It looks like a home now. And this weekend we're going to get more stuff for the nursery and I am planning on cleaning/washing everything. I had the intention of doing it but I've been soooooo exhausted.
Anyway, it feels weird school is starting up again already. I feel kind of sad because I miss all my cooking classes, but it would be way too stressful right now.

:: 2006 6 September :: 10.44am

so today is the second day of school for me. although yesterday i only went to one class that lasted a mere hour and then i went home and sort of slept until i had to work.
i am sitting in the computer lab waiting for 11:30 to roll around. i thought about reading while i wait and again while i wait later for robby to get out of his class, but instead i called casey and told her she needed to hang out with me. i mean, reading on your second day back is just not right. i don't want people to think that i want to be here. seriously. i'm only here for the hot chicks . . .

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spud	:: 2006 5 September :: 4.47pm :: Music: Tool - Lateralus MERDE! der Universit�t ist sehr schwer! sehr viel, sehr gro� hausaufgabe immer!!! aber ... ich will leben. ich weiss das. und meine wohnung hat ein geschirrsp�lemachine. das ist sehr toll! 2 comments \| feedback

:: 2006 30 August :: 7.52pm

My life in pictures!
So this is where we live...

Charlie and I got married in a really cute park on June 2nd...

This is my wonderful husband...

Me again...

We had a carriage ride...

And this is our little baby! :-)

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:: 2006 29 August :: 11.47pm
:: Mood: tired

BK2SKOOL

that's really kind of an interesting contradiction... the fact that they can't spell "back to school" anymore.

anyway, i'm back, and school is where i'm at.

i live here:
10266 Laker Lane
Allendale, MI 49401

mail me things that won't explode or set off a metal detector. the anthrax i'll deal with.

good to see everyone's still alive. and i figured it was high time i asserted my own continued existence.

but i'm tired. and i have lots of homework already. and i'm trying to clean. and it's just not working out. but school is fun dammit. i'm busy this weekend. why do i do this to myself?

goodnight.

:: 2006 25 August :: 10.52pm

Saw baby today :-) He/She has dark hair, a lot of it, and a cuuuuute face. We had a 3-d ultrasound done as well, and got some adorable pics of the face. Baby was smiling again in these ultrasounds, at least it really really looks like it, even the nurse said so.
My aunt and I had a ton of fun at dinner. Seriously, who spends $140 at an Outback? hahaha. :-) Everything has been going pretty well.

:: 2006 24 August :: 2.14pm

Yay :-) My aunt is coming over tonight and we're going to dinner. That is going to be fun :-) Tomorrow is the ultrasound so we're really excited. We have to finally sign up for birth classes too, we're a little late. Oh, and next spring or around there Charlie, Baby, and I are going to Connecticut to visit my friend! I'm so excited!

:: 2006 22 August :: 4.09pm

So on Friday morning I started having contractions. Went to our doctors appt. and took some tests.
I am measuring 32 weeks!

Crazy stuff. So we get another ultrasound on Friday. If I go into labor in the next 4 weeks they won't try to stop it.

:: 2006 16 August :: 6.05pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: "white walls" still remains

major suckage
you suck so much sometimes.

:: 2006 16 August :: 2.01am
:: Mood: selfless, cold and composed? except for not.
:: Music: BnL - Born on a Pirate Ship

Mittwoch

man. so, i've been working on getting the truck ready. i took the cap off today. it looks better without it, but i need to put it on, so that way our stuff stays dry while we're camping, and so it doesn't blow away in transit. but it's pretty badass right now. and it's more fun to drive. i'm enjoying it, anyway. but the neighborhood nazis are sure to not be crazy about the truck cap now sitting on our front lawn, so i have to be quick about this. but it can't go back on until i wash the truck, fix the license plate lights, and replace that plate glass window on the front of the cap. which is proving to be a bigger bitch than i first anticipated. i can't even find a damn window to put in. lowe's said that they could have me one for 62 dollars, in about a month and a half. i basically gave them the finger and left. except, without giving them the finger. but i'm going to get up tomorrow morning and cruise plainfield looking for a hardware store. there's bound to be one somewhere. hopefully they can hook me up with some plexi and i'll be able to rig a setup to fit it into the opening. and there was this nasty-ass tar sealing the old window frame to the cap. it got all over my hands, and on my toe, and on the floor of the garage. sticky as shit. but i'm better now.

kevin is coming over tomorrow night. it's been awhile since i've had my fix. i asked mom for some booze. we'll see if that happens or not. either way it's bound to be a riot. but i'm feeling much more comfortable with my alcohol situation, which is good. i'm not so nervous all the time about it.

lifted weights tonight. that was a good time. we hit 'em pretty damn hard. i'll be sore tomorrow, but it feels good. i'm gonna try and bench 250 on thursday. wish me luck. that's pretty fraggin' heavy. but i did 245 tonight without too much trouble, so i'm feeling good.

now i have to go to bed, dammit.

be tired!

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it didn't work.

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:: 2006 14 August :: 4.02pm

64 days till baby!
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Pretty interesting weekend. Charlie worked Saturday morning. I had intentions of getting up but those soon fell through. Sleep was nice. Found out some awful things on Sunday. Now I feel more alone. Cuddling is nice but it'd be nicer to be able to still trust you with my thoughts and feelings.

Second bridal shower (ha it's over two months after the wedding) was a lot of fun and I love Charlie's family. His cousin's baby Gracie was there and she's adorable. I can't wait to use our new waffle maker. :-)

I'm reading a pretty good book right now. It's called "To Feel Stuff" and now I'm almost done with it.

I'd write more, but my feelings kind of shut off. ha.