My soon to be awesome weekend!
Welp, I've gotta work from 4 till 10 tonight...without Mindy mind you! lol (fuck!) Then it's off to James' barn for an awesome night of fun. yup...that's pretty much my plans for tonight, and then tomorrow we're probably sleeping till Sonia's grad party then I probably have to work on Sunday because that's just how lucky I am or something, I dont know...welp, yup! That's what's going on I assume. So yeah, either see ya there (where ever "There" may be...) or not see you at all! Your choice! lol!

I'm a bitch...oh well...*shrugs*
There's just something inside of me. Just eating me alive. I don't really know what it is either. It's kinda weird I guess. It's strange, I'll feel all happy and junk one minute and then the next I'll be sad and depressed. I don't even know what I have to be sad about. It bothers me. I wish I wasn't like this and I wish it would go away, but I don't know how to get read of it. I really wish I did though. I've been acting so weird lately. Just little things are annoying me. Like, I dont know. Someone looked at me funny today and it just pissed me off completely. I cant fucking stand Lauren. I've been so mean. I don't like being mean either. I really want to try to stop hating people, and to stop holding grudges. It's just not nice and I feel bad sometimes. I think it would make me a better person if I just got read of those nasty little habbits that I have. Habbits was the only word that came to my mind to discribe them. I dont know. I just know I'm not too nice of a person and I really should start being a little nicer. I guess it's just something else I need to work on. Good qualities that I should have to have people not hate me. lol.

I just remembered something...my birth is in exactly one month! =) yay! 17 on the 17th! Golden birthday! We should get trashed...! lol!

Grow up damnit!
Well I just got off the phone with my sister Janis, and we were talking about college and whatnot. Come to find out you cant apply for financial aid if your parents dont do there taxes...well...my dumbass parents sat there and told me to apply for financial aid and they DO NOT do their taxes...! Now how fucking stupid can you possibly be. I mean, I know I didn't know that, but I dont do taxes. They on the other hand do. And if you do taxes (or in their case NOT do taxes) shouldn't you know everything about it and what happens when you do or do not do them? I'd imagine so. Just think if I were to sign up for financial aid with out knowing that, I could have gotten them into so much trouble. Now, I'm not one to be really sympathedic as most know, but they are my parents and I love them and whatnot. I dont want anything extremely bad to happen to them. But I kinda with the whole saying "What you get is what you deserve". I dont want anything to happen to them, but if they get caught and come crying to me, I might just have to blert out a few "I told ya so"'s or something. Because, that's really stupid. I mean you'd think after 45-55 years of living, you'd decide sooner or later that it's time to grow up. Take life to the next level and just be a tid bit more mature. I mean, I'm almost 17 and I'm starting to realize this with it being our seniors' last day and all, I realize that I'm going to be a senior soon and I'm going to have to start applying to colleges and all and that I just have to get my act together here. I've gotta just stop skipping class and stop procrastnating and all. And I'm still young, my parents have had all of their lives to realize this BUT...they still haven't grown up. Sometimes I wonder if they think they are still young and invinsible...welp, they're not!

So, we had dance try outs today...I didn't make it. Yeah...fucking sucks. I'm still pretty pissed. But..oh well. Somethings just happen for the best. I'll have more time to work and whatnot. I think I'm going to just take dance classes at that place in Cedar or somewhere maybe. I think that would be alot more fun. I'd learn alot more cool stuff and fancier tricks and whatnot. Yeah...*sigh* I still wish I made it though. Last season was a buttload of fun. I'm going to miss it. But the best is yet to come, or atleast I keep telling myself that...I've been saying that for quite sometime now. Maybe I'll prove myself right pretty soon here. lol.

Yeah, but last weekend was a whole lot of fun, hopefully this weekend will be as well. and then the weekend after if i dont have too much fun stuff planned with mindy or anything I'm thinking of going out dancing with some of my friends, should be fun. And if not, I'll make sure everyone regrets not giving me a good time...lol!

Mindy and I desided that we are pretty comical people. We're going to starting writing down the quotes that we say because we got some real real good ones! lol!

"She's so stupid, it puzzles me that she's still alive!" - Mindy

doop doop doobity doo...
Well, it was an okay day I suppose. Nothing too awesome happened.

Hopefully tonight will be a whole hell of a lot of fun. Tomorrow night too. Hopefully I can go. I'm pretty sure I can though. I just have to clean really...lol. But yeah. If I understood that conversation right, tomorrow we're going bowling...? I don't know. I just follow sometimes really.

Shit! I have a paper I have to type before I go anywhere or do anything...FUCK!

YAY!!! I found my Fricken A' CD!!! =)

I can't find my Fricken A' CD...=( damnit...
I dont really have anything to say, I guess I just wanted to make sure you guys knew that I was alive still.

Still living and breathing...


"What we gonna do with all the cash? Smoke Hash!" lol I love tenacious d!

Damn, I really hate when I get that weird kind of attention. The kind that makes every worried about me. I don't like people pittying me. I don't like sympothy. I do like good advice. But not being worried about...

*emo sigh*

But I suppose that I am the one that instagates it...*shrugs*

fuck!
Don't ask me why I keep doing this to myself. I don't even know...and it's really starting to eat at me...


errg...!


Fuck me!


I'm a dumb bitch sometimes and I hate me for it alot...

I'm so happy my Elvis CD works! YAY! Things are getting better and better little by little! =)

Going to the mall tomorrow with Mindy, Kelly, and Kevin. Should be a good time...or else I'll kill you all until you're dead...