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2006 17 December :: 1.27am
Just like to take the time to say, I made an ass out of myself.
Or atleast I feel like a total ass.
I called Justy tonight and I was completely hysterical.
I was out driving around and I started to have what I thought was a panic attack.
I guess I just need to stop pretending that everything is peachy keen.
Especially when I'm feeling completely empty and numb inside.
I have a problem.
I'm depressed.
And I think about how I am going to die.
I don't think about killing myself.
I just think of all the different kinds of acts of God that could accure and I'd be history.
Is that the same as suicidal thoughts?
Anyway, time to go to bed and try and get rid of the stress headache.
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2006 16 December :: 8.20pm
god damn. most of you suck, you guys need to do stuff on the weekends, so i dont have to sit around being bored. fuckers
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2006 15 December :: 5.34am
dont watch this if you have a weak stomach.
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=1258710232
i think about 20-30% of this is pretty fucked up. killing animal for human consumption is fine, and i love my meat (no pun intended assholes) but you could at least kill them conventionally, know what im saying? i bet we could find alot of wouldbe serial killers at slaughter houses. most killers start with animals anyways, some probley just arnt motivated enough to start with humans, thank god.
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2006 14 December :: 12.26pm
Mike and I were both sick last night.
He was the only one that was able to get up and go to work.
Lucky him.
Instead I sit here, hoping my head really doesn't explode.
I think I miss him more when I'm sick.
All he did was cuddle me this morning and of course all of last night.
But this morning he was holding his shoulder when he went to get in the shower, because he slept on his bad shoulder all night just so he could cuddle me.
And I felt bad.
I love him so much.
I know we have our problems, and have a little argument atleast once a day.
But I want it to last.
As I sit here writing this and recieve a text from him, I start crying.
I'm pathetic.
I miss him so much right now.
I'm not sure if the crying is because I miss him, or because of the headache, or even both.
Anyway, getting my hair cut today.
Well, more or less a trim.
Then maybe off to Lori's to get it highlighted.
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2006 13 December :: 12.15pm
i'm coming home now, bad stuff happened, not to me, to some of my family.
dont worry about it, just wish me safe luck on driving home.
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2006 13 December :: 8.00am
so fernando (dont make fun of the name, because i WILL kill you) gave an amp for the price of nothing. i know nothing about amps or any of this shit, so someone who does please tell me if this is a shitty, decent, or great amp for a car.
http://www.bluelagoonusa.com/almrvse4cham.html
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2006 13 December :: 2.15am
:: Mood: hungry
You have a way of coming easily to me
And when you take, you take the very best of me
So I start a fight cause I need to feel something
And you do what you want cause I'm not what you wanted
[Chorus:]
Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending give to a perfect day
Just walk away, ain't no use defending words that you will never say
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you
You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray
And I stood there loving you and wished them all away
And you come away with a great little story
Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you
[Repeat Chorus]
You never did give a damn thing honey but I cried, cried for you
And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died, died for you
Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Every smile you fake is so condescending
Counting all the scars you made
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you
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2006 12 December :: 10.25pm
I love this myspace shit, look look look loookie here
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=64677413
hahaha,
anywhoo,
this saturday i'll hang with you fellas, and brings the rest of the beer
I Didn't get home until like 7pm on saturday from K-zoo and
(that roger fellow likes to talk, but it is mildy exceptable, I mean, He's never met me before and what not, but by the looks of things, I'm fuck, both my grandpa are fat and bald, so this must mean that I'll be fat and bald when I get to 60 somethin'(his wife is crazy too))
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2006 12 December :: 5.25pm
my next class is high-performance welding.
i think i'm liking it.
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2006 11 December :: 12.32am
watching darkside of the rainbow, anyone ever seen it?
i think its awesome.
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2006 10 December :: 8.03pm
Today Mike and I took his eight year old daughter the mall.
Never again.
Those are the only words I can find to describe the experience.
But it made me feel like we were a family.
Put weird feelings in my heart.
But I love him to death.
Christmas is coming, and I have all my shopping to do yet!
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2006 8 December :: 9.17pm
so, here we go.
i arrived at boxes like 3 hours ago, i'm hungry, box and bonnie fell asleep, where to next, i dont know lol.
(edit)
went to nates, nobody is home.
walked to lizzy's, nobody is home.
went to mindy/jay/brenton's, mindy on her way out the door, nobody else there.
i'm bored now, damn it
(edit again)
i'm at jimi's now, we ate pizza rolls, and we decided to walk to tonys... man were bored.
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2006 8 December :: 2.57pm
so what do you guys have planned for springs break?
anyone wanna go to kansas and burn down the westboro baptist church?
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2006 7 December :: 1.02pm
i just wanna say happy birthday to my douchebag brother, you know i'm only kidding ty, he's 17 now, it really makes me feel old.
happy birthday kid.
maybe next summer i'll teach you to canoe.
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2006 7 December :: 12.58pm
anyone have any plans for 4am on friday morning?
i need somone to come get me from dorr and then find a ride back to dorr on sunday at 2pm, i can throw $10-20 at you for gas depending on where your coming from.
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