what i pretend to be

:: 2006 25 July :: 9.08pm

PICK UP YOUR FUCKING PHONE!

2 screamed | i am afraid

:: 2006 25 July :: 6.33pm

omg. band camp is next week. it makes me want to CRY. i miss band so much.

justine, who is instructing pit and how is it going? If you are instructing, GO YOU! and good job. but either way go you and good job because i'm sure you're as awesome as you've always been.

and ps. what music are you guys doing?

god i'm so sad!!!! i might stop in to see you guys sometime

5 screamed | i am afraid

:: 2006 25 July :: 4.24pm

so i'm feeling slightly good. no work today... bought all but one of my books online for discounted prices. seventeen days until we move in.

stef's wedding on the 5th. got the rehersal dinner off by trading hours. still dont get out until 7:30 on the bacholorette party day because menards is dumb.

only one thing really bugging me because of a person who bugs me more than anyone on the planet i think.

now if only i could lose this weight.

oh well, one thing at a time right. g'day

stef i got your signs done and i think they look pretty good so let me know what you think, i'm gonna try to email them to you

4 screamed | i am afraid

:: 2006 24 July :: 11.58pm

okay so i went to "bed" at 6:30 because i had nothing better to do and i had to get up at 6 today and i was tired and then it's so hot in my room because i'm still used to sleeping in the cold basement and i just felt crappy and then i wake up at 11 something and i feel horrible... really really sick and so i go downstairs in the basement to sleep where it's cold and i can't sleep because i still feel like crap so i go into the bathrroom and then start puking my brains out. UGHGHGHG i HATE THROWING UP. it is the worst feeling ever. ughghghghgh. and i was just throwing up like 2 weeks ago too. ugh i just hate it and then i want to call my boyfriend and talk to him and his phone is dead woohoo.....

well whatever. that's my story and i still feel like shit.

2 screamed | i am afraid

:: 2006 24 July :: 11.28pm

I know I know,
I need to clean up my mouth.

*not good*

swimfan14

:: 2006 24 July :: 6.04pm

I'm in Washington D.C. right now at our hotel. This place is definitely beautiful. Our flight was at 6:30 am this morning and we were an hour away from the airport so my cousins and I have been up since 3:00am. I barely slept on the plane either. Tomorrow we are going to Virginia Beach for the rest of the week. *Smiles*.

<3

:: 2006 23 July :: 9.13pm

la la la. i work at menards and have no life and wooooo hoooooooo

blah blah blha and my feet hurt.

18 days till i move. woohoo.

:: 2006 19 July :: 11.05pm

OH MY GOD I FUCKING HATE MENARDS.

I AM NEVER WORKING 2 WEEKS WITHOUT A DAY OFF EVER EVER EVER EVER AGAIN! EVER~!@@!%!#$%^!#$^#$^$%&@$

I FUCKING HATE IT.

1 screamed | i am afraid

swimfan14

:: 2006 19 July :: 8.31pm
:: Mood: Happy

Off the coast of somewhere beautiful.
Hey. I guess it's about time I updated.

Last weekend on Friday I hung out with Elyse. We stayed the night at my dad's new house. I really like my new room. We went to Olive Garden and then my cousins Brooklyn, Kyla, Kaylie, and the new baby Briley came over. I love her, she is so cute.

Saturday I went out on the boat. It was definitely interesting to say the least. Haieligh and I went tubing with Casey and Chad. We had some pretty fun times.

Sunday I went to Holland to watch Luke's basketball games.

I can't remember when, but I went and saw Pirates of The Caribbean 2 with Luke and The Devil Wears Prada with Elyse.

This week I've just been hanging out with Luke and my friends. Our power went out on Monday. We just got it back yesterday. That definitely sucked.

Friday I'm going to Champion with Elyse in the morning and then later on my family is going to Grand Haven for the weekend and we are staying at a hotel on the beach.

I just found out a few days ago that on Monday I'm going to Washington D.C. and then we are going to Virginia Beach. I'm going with my dad, my uncle Mike, and my cousins Rachel and Sarah. I'm pretty stoaked for that. Our plane leaves from Detroit on Monday morning. I think I'll be gone for a week. I honestly don't really know the details since my mom just informed me of all this. It will be fun though, except I'll be missing Luke, a lot.

I guess that is about it. Much love.

Ashley

When you whisper you want this, your eyes tell the same. Picking up speed, I can barely breathe, 'cause I'm caught in suspension.

6 screamed | i am afraid

:: 2006 17 July :: 11.15pm

in your eyes. in your eyes. in your eyes. in your eyes.
i wanna cry. but only if i'm with you.

:: 2006 17 July :: 2.19pm

Does anyone have a gun?

Because I want to shoot myself in the head.

*boom*

2 screamed | i am afraid

:: 2006 17 July :: 1.19pm

Yes I said shit, god-damn.

I'm a man, I'm a man.

spud

:: 2006 17 July :: 12.43am
:: Mood: much better
:: Music: genesis (yes, still)

alrighty. i'm doing a lot better. and to evidence the change of spirit, i now entail the assistance of a webcomic, directed particularly at one shannon rench, who i assume will be internet stalking me tomorrow sometime before i talk to her.

i could be wrong though.

because they want to know what the hell is wrong with you.

4 screamed | i am afraid

:: 2006 16 July :: 10.56pm

Wouldnt it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldnt have to wait so long
And wouldnt it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong

You know its gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together

Wouldnt it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through

Happy times together weve been spending
I wish that every kiss was neverending
Wouldnt it be nice

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldnt be a single thing we couldnt do
We could be married
And then wed be happy

Wouldnt it be nice

You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Wouldnt it be nice

3 screamed | i am afraid

empath

:: 2006 16 July :: 10.46pm

I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings

A free bird leaps on the back of the wind
and floats downstream till the current ends
and dips his wing in the orange suns rays and dares to claim the sky.

But a bird that stalks down his narrow cage
can seldom see through his bars of rage
his wings are clipped and his feet are tied so he opens his throat to sing.

The caged bird sings with a fearful trill
of things unknown but longed for still
and his tune is heard on the distant hill
for the caged bird sings of freedom.

The free bird thinks of another breeze
and the trade winds soft through the sighing trees
and the fat worms waiting on a dawn-bright lawn and he names the sky his own.

But a caged bird stands on the grave of dreams
his shadow shouts on a nightmare scream
his wings are clipped and his feet are tied so he opens his throat to sing.

The caged bird sings with a fearful trill
of things unknown but longed for still
and his tune is heard on the distant hill
for the caged bird sings of freedom.

Maya Angelou