what i pretend to be

:: 2007 26 September :: 5.53pm

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i need a new job.

please

:: 2007 25 September :: 8.20pm

college sucks

1 screamed | i am afraid

:: 2007 24 September :: 9.12pm

today was ok.... me n tj went for another bike ride, this time we didnt go all the way to rockford, so im not in any pain. we'll go further tomorrow.

:: 2007 23 September :: 1.23pm

BRIDES MAIDS READ ME...
hey girls i want to plan a day for all of us to go to davids and get you all measured before i move...... wednesday is my day off this week.... and i work all mornings so maybe we can get together for dinner or somethin!!!!!!!!!!!!

3 screamed | i am afraid

:: 2007 23 September :: 9.57am

some of my money is missing.

:: 2007 22 September :: 6.35pm
:: Mood: aggravated

OMG OMG
IM AM SO FRICKEN SICK OF YOU I CANT STAND IT YOU STUPID FRIGGIN SLUT!!!!!!!!!!! YOUR SUPPOSED TO BE MY BEST FRIEND BUT YOU WOULD RATHER FUCK A GUY YOU DONT FUCKING EVEN KNOW THAN HELP PLAN THIS FUCKING WEDDING...... WHAT THE FUCK EVER.

SRRY HAD TO RANT A LITTLE BIT. SLIGHTLY FRUSTRATED WITH A FEW THINGS.... AND HERE IS THE ONLY PLACE I CAN WITHOUT CAUSING MORE TROUBLE....

IN BETTER NEWS... WE APPLIED AT AN APARTMENT IN AUBURN. WAITIN ON THAT. I DUNNO WHAT IS GONNA HAPPEN WITH THE "ROOMATE" THING. I DONT THINK ITS A GOOD IDEA BUT HE ALREADY THINKS HE IS FOR SURE COMING WITH US N I DONT WANNA FUCK A FRIENDSHIP UP.

3 screamed | i am afraid

:: 2007 18 September :: 10.38pm

ARG ARG
I am so fucking sick of all of this fucking bullshit! lately everyone is pissy and bitchy and oh so depressed. well if there is a fucking problem FIX IT. geeze...

anyway, my dad was in the hospital this weekend... dont know why... cept his BAC was at like 2.8 which is pretty much dead! oh well. ive been expecting this for a while. he's a horrible alcoholic, and its time for shit to hit the fans. not even that my mom is going friggin nuts with this whole wedding and planning it and shit. im about just ready to call it all off and fly to vegas. its funny. she hate all of my ideas, which doesnt matter its my fuckin wedding, but then when she figures out that it is cheaper she say GREAT FUCKING IDEA!!!!!!!!!!!!

1 screamed | i am afraid

:: 2007 17 September :: 12.50am

gunnie if you are online please get on aim

2 screamed | i am afraid

:: 2007 17 September :: 12.05am

finally finished dying my hair. thanks to roman of course.

it looks kinda dumb but i dont care. i like the change. and since i am not cutting my hair because iwant it to be long at least this is a little change.

i love grey's anatomy omg. i love it so much. if i had a dying wish i think it would be to be a charatcter on greys anatomy. yeah fer realllllllllll.

shit.

i should replace meredith. because she is annoying and i loveh er but hate her at the same tie.

time

dont mind my typos. i just dont care and omg i can't breathe i feel like my throat is bleeding from all those chemicals and standing in the bathroom with all those chemicals for so long gahhhhhh can't breathe.

yesss! i love endoplasmic reticulum and ribosomes. gosh.

:: 2007 12 September :: 6.41pm

ok so our phones have been shut off cause we went over big time on the minutes! arg hopefully it will be fixed by tonite

nothin really new to say cept having troubles with the maid of honor... i need to fix them soon and my mom has taken over!

3 screamed | i am afraid

:: 2007 11 September :: 5.58pm

hes a handsome black man.

adn i just opened my book and it is confirmed.

i will fail this class.

grand.

:: 2007 11 September :: 5.53pm

great. my teacher is a really old, unapproachable man.

YES, he walked in to the wrong class and started writing his name on the board and a lady came in and said 'i thought you were in 301?"

"this is 301, isn't it?"

no its not hahaha- i still have a chance to get a better looking, younger, more approachable professor in this class. i'll keep you pposted as i'm sure you all care so much.

:: 2007 11 September :: 5.47pm

this is what you get because my statistics class is in a computer lab.

why is my math class in a fricken computer lab?

god am i typing really loud or is it just me?

i put my bags in the seat next to me because i dont want anyone to sit by me.
god i'm a bitch.

why are there so many old people that go to davenport. shit i hope thats my teacher because he's pretty hot. he's wearing a tie. oh, nope he sat down. anyway- old people? i hate having so many old people in my class because then no one talks out of turn and it's nothing like high school. everyone acts like they are so much smarter than they really are. i hate it. gosh that guy is cute. well - for a man . man. man man........................

shit i need to go drink and get the hell out of this clas. why am i in this class. i suck at math. i'm probably going to fail it. i did awful in my other math class. shit shit shit. why i am in this class. 3 hours of math. it's gonna kick my ass.

i haven't even opened the packaging on my book. maybe i should do that.
god i need some friends at this school.
but you remember i put my bags in the seat next to me so no one sits by me, right?

i'm a fricken moron.
lets get this show on the road before i write another pointless update.

4 screamed | i am afraid

:: 2007 11 September :: 5.44pm

the sky is pretty right now.

i'm going to have so many regrets when i die.

i'm never going to have that feeling again because i dont have enough time to.

i'm living my life grey's anatomy style. stop feeling sorry for yourself!

:: 2007 9 September :: 5.21pm

so fucking stupid.