Sometimes I hate this obnoxious roller coaster.

Just when things seem ok I plunge into despair.

My sister got evicted from her apartment. She and her three kids moved into our living room. If you know anything about my house you would know how crazy small it is.
Mom is sick so much. She can't drive anymore. She can't write anymore. Each day her memory seems to be worse. And again, there is nothing I can do to help her through this.
But the Deftones concert was amazing. Miranda and I were second row center. I was so close to Chino, it was heaven.
The BNL concert was also amazing. I'm glad I went with my parents to that. They don’t really get out much anymore. So it was nice doing something they wanted.
Goo Goo Dolls, again, spectacular. We were pretty close.
I'm getting my Interpol ticket today.
I lost some scholarship money this year because my GPA was not good enough. But I'm getting grant money from CMU and from the government that I didn’t get last year. So that’s cool. I know I should go to ISU, but not yet.....

Again, it’s like I said. Life’s a roller coaster. Sometimes I almost can’t handle it, but sometimes it’s ok.

i am afraid