what i pretend to be

:: 2006 3 October :: 5.18pm

i for the first time in like two weeks slept until like 10:30 it was great. i miss being able to do that so much. and seein to the face that i am sick it did a lot of good.

my kittens are no longer fat balls of fur,,,, there're realatively normal looking now. i did love them when they were fat, they were so cuddley but now all they want to do is play and bite my toes at night awww i love it.

one thing missing is well my life. all i do is work now, so i need to socialize more. this weekene will be the start! i hope anyways. and they maybe i will go out maybe once a week. that would be great.

so im bored,,,, this place makes me want to sleep, but i am getting paid to just sit here so ha to all of you laborers, i have the easiest job in the world.

sugarjackj

:: 2006 3 October :: 1.40am

I laugh at you.

It turns out I'm a little bit creepy.

hahaha.

spud	:: 2006 3 October :: 12.37am :: Mood: exasperated :: Music: thunder you should buy my car. burning hair is pretty much the worst smell ever. and somehow, i think it smells worse when it's your own. son of a bitch. 4 screamed \| i am afraid

.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 2 October :: 8.40pm

it's so bad. because i'm sitting in this class. i'm giving it three hours of my Monday night... and it's not even what i want to do with my life. i dont want to be a paralegal. gaaaaaaaaawd what am i doing... i dont want to be here at davenport. this isn't even what i want.

i just wanna go have babies and be a happy mommy and i duno. something else that isn't a paralegal exactly.

.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 2 October :: 8.35pm

i can't take this anymore. i have to get away. i seriously can't just sit here anymore. and i dont totally and completely mean just getting out of this 3 hour long LEGL 101 class that i'm sitting in right now.

i mean i think i'm gonna go do something drastic..

you've been warned.

BIATCHES!

.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 2 October :: 7.10pm

im drifting so, so very far away from woohu.

i hate being too busy to do anything you actually want to do. if i keep living like this, i'll surely die soon.

3 screamed | i am afraid

:: 2006 2 October :: 5.33pm

ok so today has been eventful. i have had customers come in and praise me for how wonderful i am, and customers who have yelled at me and called me stupid. its ok though i get to go home in 2 1/2 hours after being here since 9 this morning. at least i have saturday off! thats all that mattered to me. its awesome cause i basically get to work when i want since i get to make the schedule.

im gonna catch the end of band practice tonight. its just before red flannel so i have to see how good they are compared to last time i saw them. i love foinf and seeing them play it makes me so proud.

i guess im not making a float for the parade which sucks cause i love creating things like that. oh well my creativity is not all shot, i still get to decorate my house. which is gonna look awesome by the way and when it gets done we're gonna party!

:: 2006 2 October :: 9.17am

ok so i am now sicker than a dog. im sneezing, coughing, runny nosein, ugh i hate it. as long as i am ok for red flannel im good with it a guess. my weekend was ok. worked most of it. i put in 51 hours this week. its rather tiring but when i get that pay check it will be all worth it.

had katie n nikki over saturday n watched 40 yr old virgin for the first time. it was awesome. i cant believe i hadn't seen it before.

:: 2006 30 September :: 5.23pm

ok im back again,,,, im just too bored with this place but the pay is good..

i miss bill alot, and i just really thought bout nikki and her going and i want to cry really bad. im not known for all these girly emotions, but she's my best friend and i love her. i dunno what im gonna do without her. i do have other friends but they aren't charlie brown to me..... i guess i will be ok.

i also miss band. i miss making music with all of my friends. i love playing, but playing alont is well just me. i want to hear all the pieces put together to make a sound. i go to practices and all i here is something i used to be able to do. it seems so long ago so distant. god i just want to make music, to write it to play it that it sucks that im not going to school yet. ugh im pissed at myself but school takes money that i do not have. im just going insane. my clarinet sits in its case most of the time, and all i want to do is play all the time, but with working two jobs i cant. i listen to all the music on my computer, all the stuff we used to play and i want it all back. i know i cant but pep band is coming up soon enough.

:: 2006 30 September :: 4.17pm

hey IF YOU DO NOT HAVE A NEXTEL ACTIVATION AND ARE LOOKING TO GET A FREAKING AWESOME PHONE COME UP TO NEXTEL HERE IN CEDAR AND YOUR PAL ERIN WILL HOOK YOU UP!!

in other news, i pay my rent today and it felt good. Nikki leaves in 24 days and i cant stand that idea....ahhh..... Katie Anne, and Holly what you guys say bout going out red flannel night and do like a going away thing for here???? CALL ME

3 screamed | i am afraid

:: 2006 29 September :: 4.50pm

ugh today has been sooo long. we were busy here for a while, i didnt even get to eat lunch.... oh well less fast food for me to consume...

we lost the kittens last night, and then found them in the kitchen drawer. they snuck underneath it and got in the drawer some how! it was funny

nothing much more here cept i like my job better cause i got paid today,,,, for one week i got the same pay that i would have gotten at kfc for two weeks,,,, ha im soon to be rollin in it$$$ lol

:: 2006 28 September :: 4.29pm

it rained again, and yeah im at work do you think god is trying to tell me somethin..... oh well

i cant wait until red flannel just to be able to see all my friends agian is awesome!!!!!!

my house is almost done- the dry wall part ne way

1 screamed | i am afraid