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:: 2004 12 March :: 4.56 pm

this is now going to be a lyrical journal...i'll post some of my stuff every once in a while

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:: 2004 10 March :: 10.43 pm

poopy song
[[title]]: sigh before the scream
March 6th, 2004. 3:34pm

[[verse one]]
without you this room is cold
screams of ignorant silence suffocate me
as the walls close in,
cutting off the circulation of hope to my heart.
nothing cathces me as I fall deeper into the void
I stand frozen and cornered, silent
as my soul is murdered in front of my eyes
emotion is lacking in the presence of this masacre

[[chorus one]]
I died tonight
I know it, feel it
and I bleed it...
this unrelenting sorrow
you're gone
I need you

[[verse two]]
through these tears
I see the blood glisten in the moonlight
but I feel nothing
existence is hollow,
love has become just another reason to cry
my bloody tears of futility
as loneliness welcomes me into its embrace,
feeding me lies,
destroying who I once was
the one who loved you,
once a casualty to your silence
now a casualty of your absence

[[chorus one]]
I died tonight
I know it, feel it
and I bleed it...
this unrelenting sorrow
you're gone
I need you...

[[chorus two]]
I feel the world crashing down upon me
broken hearts and guilty consience looking for redemption
this empty bed and bare wall
are all that I have left
as the memories flood me,
paralyzing my breathing
...save me

[[verse three]]
I miss you, crave you
your smile
your unquestionable knowledge of who I am
your voice,
speaking words of comfort and love
as you pieced my tattered heart back together
when you left you took the best of me with you

[[chorus two]]
I feel the world crashing down upon me
broken hearts and guilty consience looking for redemption
this empty bed and bare wall
are all that I have left
as the memories flood me,
paralyzing my breathing
...save me

[[verse four]]
why did you have to leave?
with promises borken
and words left unspoken
dreams of the impossible lurke in the shadows
of my concious memories of you...
don't you know you took the best of me with you?
did you believe I would go unscathed?
save me...
I died tonight...

<3 Fin

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:: 2004 5 March :: 8.45 pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: love soon // john mayer

survey
Opening credits:The Remedy // Jason Mraz
Waking up:Carve Your Heart Out Yourself // Dashboard Confessional
Average day:So Long Astoria // The Ataris
First date:Remember to Breathe/So Impossible // Dashboard Confessional
Falling in love:On Fire // Switchfoot
Love scene:311's cover of "Love Song" by the Cure
Fight scene:There's No 'I' in Team // Taking Back Sunday
Breaking up:Brilliant Dance // Dashboard Confessional
Getting back together:Back to You // John Mayer
Secret love:Love Soon // John Mayer
Life's okay:Failure by Design // Brand New
Mental breakdown:8 of 9 // The Ataris
Driving:America // Simon and Garfunkel
Learning a lesson:Stare at the Sun // Thrice
Deep thought:Socco Amaretto Lime // Brand New
Flashback:You and I Both // Jason Mraz
Partying:Last Train Home // Lostprophets
Happy dance:Gone // Switchfoot
Regreting:Screaming Infidelities // Dashboard Confessional
Long night alone:Standard Lines // Dashboard Confessional
Death scene:Play Crack the Sky // Brand New
Closing credits:Great Romances of the 20th Century // Taking Back Sunday

Your Life: The Soundtrack brought to you by BZOINK!

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:: 2004 29 February :: 9.07 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Ben Jelen // Come On

I be back
yes so I haven't really updated in a while...so I will be soon

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:: 2003 23 November :: 4.39 pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Linkin Park

I dunno...
Nothing exciting to write about....

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:: 2003 11 November :: 7.17 pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: Brand New

Jude Law and A Semester Abroad
Whatever poison's in this bottle
will leave me broken, sore and stiff
But it's the genie at the bottom who I'm sucking at,
he owes me one last wish
So here's a present to let you know I still exist
I hope the next boy that you kiss has
something terribly contagious on his lips

But I got a plan (I got a plan)
To drink for forty days and forty nights
A sip for every second-hand tick
And every time you fed the line,
“you mean so much to me”
I'm without you

Tell all the English boys you meet
i'm your American boy back in the states
The American boy you used to date
who would do anything you say
Tell all the English boys you meet
i'm your American boy back in the states
The American boy you used to date
who would do anything you say

And even if her plane crashes tonight
she'll find some way to disappoint me,
by not burning in the wreckage,
or drowning at the bottom of the sea
Jess, I still taste you, and thus reserve my right to hate you
And all this empty space that you create
does nothing for my flawless sense of style
It's 8:45 (it's 8:45), the weather is getting better by the hour
(rains all the time)
I hope it rains there all the time
And if you ever said you miss me then don't say you never lied
I'm without you

Tell all the English boys you meet
im your American boy back in the states
The American boy you used to date
who would do anything you say
Tell all the English boys you meet
i'm your American boy back in the states
The American boy you used to date
who would do anything you say,
who would do anything you say

Never gonna get it right, you're never gonna get it [15x]

Okay no more songs about you. After this one I am done.
You're gone.[repeat untill end]

Tell all the English boys you meet
i'm your American boy back in the states
The American boy you used to date
who would do anything you say
Tell all the English boys you meet
i'm your American boy back in the states
The American boy you used to date
who would do anything you say

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:: 2003 8 November :: 5.10 pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: none (headache)

I'm back!!
I'm back homies!! I hope you all missed me, I will be updating this journal also, which is a total of 3...although one is not going so well...hmmm..oh well...

I'm going to completely re-vamp this page, color, icons, lyrics, etc...

be ready!!

woohoo....

"Upon arrival the guests had all stared, dripping wet and clearly depressed he headed straight for the stairs" - Brand New

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:: 2003 2 October :: 7.03 pm

I'm starting a new journal, I will be currently updating this one but I am only giving out my new journal address to certain people

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:: 2003 28 September :: 6.20 pm

Blue info
Your Heart is Blue


What Color is Your Heart?
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:: 2003 27 September :: 8.56 pm

again i go unnoticeed
Again I Go Unnoticed


Which Dashboard Confessional Song Are You?
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:: 2003 26 September :: 6.06 pm

Tony don't love me no more....:(

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:: 2003 26 September :: 5.45 pm
:: Mood: thirsty
:: Music: phone

none
WANTED:
Hot loser emo-kid; who likes Brand New, Dashboard Confessional, and going out for Coffee.
Wanted by a not so hot loser emo-kid...

preferably in the Battle Creek/Kalamazoo area

*sigh* this is what I have been reduced to

woohoo...

"I don't think that you know what you've been missing" - Taking back sunday

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:: 2003 26 September :: 5.40 pm

JENNY SHALL HAVE MY BABIES


whoa...

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:: 2003 26 September :: 3.06 pm

Season = Winter
You're Most Like The Season Winter ...

You're often depicted as the cold, distant season.
But you're incredibly intelligent, mature and
Independant. You have an air of power around
you - and that can sometimes scare people off.
You're complex, and get hurt easily - so you
rarely let people in if you can help it. You
can be somewhat of a loner, but just as easily
you could be the leader of many. You Tend to be
negative, and hard to relate to, but you give
off a relaxed image despite being insecure -
and secretly many people long to be like you,
not knowing how deep the Winter season really
is.

Well done... You're the most inspirational of
seasons :)


?? Which Season Are You ??
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:: 2003 24 September :: 3.43 pm
:: Music: Story of the Year

Anthem of our Dying Day
The stars will cry the blackest tears tonight
And this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
Here I am pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
Thats exactly,
Exactly what I need...

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day...

For a second I wish the tide will swallow every inch of the city
As you gasp for air tonight
I'd scream this song right in your face if you were here
Cause then I wont miss a beat cause I never,
Never have before...

Of our dying day
Of our dying day
OF OUR DYING...

For a second I wish the tide would swallow every inch of this city
As your gasped for air tonight...

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:: 2003 24 September :: 3.40 pm
:: Mood: headache
:: Music: Nickelback

bad week
This has been a REALLY bad week...I don't have the strength to post about it...all I can say is that my arm looks like a fucking autopsy table

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:: 2003 24 September :: 3.38 pm

NOW I HAVE PROOF SHE WAS LYING HER ASS OFF!!!
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Suzisport: the thing is, is that if she had really talked to my parents and they knew it wasn't true they would've talked to me about lying to my friends and shit like that

x x suicide doll: she did talk to your parents .. and so did i.

x x suicide doll: except your mom didn't wanna talk to me about you me, and ben, so i just left it at that.

x x suicide doll: nothing about the whole leukemia thing. i'd like to talk to your mom about it.

Suzisport: things is there's a lot they won't admit, i mean really would you really admit to one of your daughters friends or aquaintences that you bveat them?

---------------------------------------------------------

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA!!!

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:: 2003 19 September :: 8.41 pm

I hate crying, it hurts, it feels like needles are coming out of my eyes....

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:: 2003 19 September :: 7.07 pm

omg...

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:: 2003 19 September :: 3.49 pm

I actually believed that everything between us would be ok and maybe with luck work out. guess I was wrong....

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:: 2003 19 September :: 3.46 pm

If I died would anyone care??



...........


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:: 2003 17 September :: 7.15 pm

I would kill for the atlantic but I am paid to make girls panic while I sing

"They call them rougues they travle fast and alone, 100 foot faces of God's good ocean gone wrong. What they call love is a risk, you'll always get hit out of no where, by some wave and end up on your own." - Brand New

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:: 2003 17 September :: 5.40 pm
:: Mood: unloved

boys suck

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:: 2003 14 September :: 3.24 pm
:: Music: Dashboard Confessional - Carve your heart out yourself

DASHBOARD IS COMING!!!
the dashboard concert is slowly approaching yay!! lol...

anyways...

*sigh* I hate being sick...I am so behind! I have 2 biology and 2 chemistry lab reports to finish tonight...*tear*. I'll be up late tonight....joyness.....!!

I am real nervous about tomorrow. I am supposed to have a conversation with Tony after I get back from the Center and I really don't know what to do. Mina has continuely voiced her opinion and hopefully I can stay true to it. I just don't know....*sigh* She wants me to go to homecoming with this other guy named Tony but I really don't know if I want to go at all now...*sighness* emo-like angst....lol

I ran out of fun-dip powder so I am using pixie sticks...hmmm.....

woohoo....

"oh look now, there you go with hope again" - Dashboard Confessional

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:: 2003 14 September :: 3.18 pm
:: Music: the cult

great....
dsds
Unfortunately you will quickly be forgotten. You
might just have a funeral, but it'll be other
with soon, and people would just move on. Who
knows what you could have done to have them
think this? Your lack of caring or lack of
something else may cause it. You care mainly
for your own things and probably are very hard-
headed that people can't convince you out of
something outrageous. That may be why they gave
up on you. Hopefully that will chance, my
friend.


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