if tomorrow never comes.. i would want just one thing.. i would tell it to the stars and the sun, i would write it for the world to see
my computers being gay and its not letting me upload my new icon thing.. so itll have to wait. i felt a need for change. today was good i guess.. i went to school and got the schdule fixed up .. as seen b4. i got my locker. the one from last year. i loved it. still has same combo + all my stickers. yay. went to costco. saw katherine a million and one times. went to office depot. then tj maxx. then came home. sat around. painted my toesies. feeling.. eh. theres something seriously fucked up with me. hopefully it will pass once school starts and i have no time to think about anything besides all the shit i'll have to do. my mind is just a big big blurr right now. i wish i could start all over.


oh yes. katherine - my mom said Mae is good to go .. i <3 them mucho.

dont feel likte talking about trip.im tired. really tired. sick of driving man.. going to sscool tomorrow. yay. night night people.

arrgh. im so sick of these fucking college tours. theyre all the same. lol. anywho. mom called me with my schedule today.
1-eng 1- zachar
2- french 2 lona
3- economics - einstein ?
4- spanish 3- halcomb
5-business ? -bean ... wtf now i have bean AND lona ... lol
6- chem- sci
7- stats- baum

wtf i didnt get yearbook.. my mom said to email ms landaker.. but my mom being the moron that she is sent me ms kellys email.. so im gonna try figure this out tonite ... tomorrow god knows where were going .. probly more schools.

its friday night .. whats goin on tonight... ... ... got my top down seat back rollin im ma cadillac..
well kiddies.. this is the last florida entry. i had an awesome last weekend in florida :) thanks to all who made that possible.. saw my sammy.. my rachie.. lizzy.. ADAM !!! i missed him so much... and my sweet potato as usual.. lol. today the girlies came over and we had our normal hang out day at my house. sam had projectiles stuck up her butt. funnies. lol. anywho.. im off to new york first thing tomorrow morning.. kinda scared. first time flying alone and moms leaving me at teh curb lol. maybe ill get her to take me in. hopefully. cause knowing me ill board the wrong flight or not even make it past security with all those gift shops. lol. wel.. its gettin late.. so im gonna go. night night.. ill miss all u guys.. selective people i knoe addresses of will be getting postcards ( like no one ) lol. and others might get some emails or woohu updates when we hook up lap top to internet.. see u guys in school.. maybe even before. love u all :)

warped tour baby :-D
so much to say so much to say.. many many stories. lol
sam drove, got there, met adam and andrea, andrea left with shane, i went into the crowd with adam to see story of the year, he moshed, i was scared, lol, ehh saw : the used, AFI, all american rejects, MEst, "rancid" lol, vendetta red.. cough cough.. the ataris.. simple plan.. starting line,less than jake , mad caddies, STUN, and many more we didnt even know lol.. saw lots of people. lots.
highlights :
1. adam moshing
2. everyone was throwing empty gatorade bottles in the air and me and adam did and then sams like ooh me me !! and she instead of throwing it UP threw it down and totally chucked it at this guys head.. the whole crowd around us turned and started cracking up... sooo fucking funny..
3. adam peed in a bottle lol
4. we almost got hit by a car sitting on the side walk.. moron mom driving on the sidewalk .. lol
5. got tons of free shit
6. me n adam got bowling for soups autographs and pics with them :)
7. saw chaz moshing.. . lol
8. got muddy.. very muddy..
9. disturbing lady dancing during reggae music. SKARY SHIT . lmfao.
10. we hid from sam behind a truck ..lol

ok me done. tire.d bought lots of crap. my face is so sunburnt. later gater s:)

warped tour tomorra :-D .. cant wait.

boring day today.
woke up at freaking 9. people should never have to wake up that early during summer.
went to dentist.
apparently ive been wearing my invisilign wrong? had to go back home to get my old set.
went to bjs and bought crap.
went back to dentist and he said i have to wear my old set till i come home from ny. ::sigh:: slowing down the process by like a month.
came back.
ate.
tried to do daybook but didnt work out lol.
talked to ppl.
ate.
found nemo.
showered.
packed up the rest of my stuff for ny since these are gonna be busy days :)

and here i am.. today was officially my last summer lazy day. its kind of depressing. people would always bitch about how they were so bored during summer cuz they had nothing to do.. but i loved the feeling of not having to do anything and just sleep and watch tv and laying out in the sun. sure helped my tan too :) . its so sad that its all over :*(

i need to let go. i need to forget him . i need to stop thinking about him. i need to stop secretely wishing he would come back to me. i neeeeeed to move on. for my sanity. its over and i need to accept that. him bringing up stuff from the past DIDNT exactly help that. i want to say that i dont wnt to be friends with him till i get over him.. but i do. i wish i could just stop loving him right here and now. and hes making it so easy. but i just cant. i gotta try harder i guess.. ive been doing okay as long as we didnt really talk about "us" but he brought it up tonight and booooooy did that fuck things up for me. so , i guess i just need to steer clear from that and it should be ok ? im just worried about what kind of reaction im gonna have next time i see him... :/

fuckity fuck fuck. i have the attention span of a 2 year old. im never gonna finish this motherfucking daybook. im on like, 170. i wanted to finish before i left. !!!!!!!! I WANT TO FUCKING SHOOT WHOEVER WAS THE NUMBSKULL WHO CAME UP WITH THIS MOTHERFUCKING PIECE OF CRAP WASTE OF TIME THATS KILLING THE END OF MY SUMMER .

boy that felt better.

does anyone know when the next water show is !?!?!


heh.. lets see.. yesterday.. i dont even remember.. probly wrote about it.. oh yeah.. packing + daybook. had to pack up most of my shiznit and send it up con mi papa + hermano. not very eventful day. today.. tanned.. i swear im gonna die of heat stroke one of these days.. with knee highs too. cause they wont go away. lol adnrea. its just one line now.. is so funny. lol. so.. i started to do daybook + andrea called me about tonite.. and i kinda stopped lol.. but im goin over there in like 10 mintues to work on it "together" ( copy eachothers.) lol. and were gonna go 2 subway n eat even tho i already ate but thats ok ill just get bigger n bigger.. one day i wont even be able to fit in my sofees. lol. who cares. its subway! jared lost weight with it.. so can i ! and then were gonna go 2 youth group.. and soak chaz with water guns :) . and mommys getting my pics from the trip today !!!! :-D . i cant wait. there were some pretty funny ones on there as far as i can remember.. lol. or maybe it was my 2nd camera that i have yet to finish :/ , oh well.. k.. g2g.. later kids ( im stealn rachs thing lol)

oh yeah.... WARPED TOUR IN 2 1/2 days !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHH! lol
im so exciiiiiiiited im so exciiiiiiiiiiiited ! its gonna be so fun. this is my list of people i know that are goin so far..
1. me
2. rach
3. sam
4. andrea
5. adam
6. someone else with andrea and adams 3rd ticket lol
7. shane
8. and 9. shanes friends
10-15 ish ? rachels friends
16. i think she said celines going ?
17. chaz..
18. maybe joe :) lol
theres probly more.. i cant wait! specially to see my little adancito.. i miss him !

::sigh:: , boring day.. yesterday i went out shopping with mommy.. but today wasnt too eventful. she told me to pack as much as i could for my trip cause dad and michael are leaving tomorrow morning with the car.. and to just put what i can in there so i only have to bring a carry on with me on the plane or something... so i did.. and i did some daybook. if i keep up with my plan.. ill be done by friday with it. so.. i hope i do. cause finishing it seems really appealing to me now so i dont have to take it with me on my trip. i have to read that book.. thats enough. lol
im kind of excited to be going up to NY all by myself :) .. they were suppsoed to send me up alone a few years ago.. but that never happened.. so this'll be my first time flying alone... should be good without having annoying daddy and mommy who wont shut up with me.. lol. i kind of wished i was leaving tomorrow so i could just get out of here... but no way am i leaving before warped tour :) .. anywho.. i think im gonna go finish my daybook for today.