ahh a nice relaxing day.. boy i miss those. i got up round 11 today and lazied around the house ( i know thats not a word but hey now it is!) and i got the paper and i saw an ad for just married so i told my daddy we were gonna see it today lol so i did some hw n stuff and ate n crap n got ready.. then me n daddy n mommy drove to muvico.. to find it sold out (i told him it would be if we didnt go early but noooooo, dont listen to christine!) lol so we drove out to shadowwood and got tickets for the 5:10 show and they left me at borders and they went to bj's .. i was SUPPOSED to find old man and the sea and finish reading it for school tomorrow but mother nature was kind enough to bless me with my womanly time of the month so yeah that fell through i had to go to walgreens and yeah ill spare the details lol and then i went to mcdonalds n got some fries to eat and i went back to borders and my parents were there so we went to the movie..... it was so funny lol man u gotta go see it. my dad didnt think it was THAT great but he still liked it.. reminded him of our family in venice..(we ruined it lol).. so then i came home and read the rest of that BORNIG book and here i am.... lizzy! uhohs lol i put them back on, but not for the apparent reason, cause i dont feel attached to them, i just like them lol, so dont be all like i knew u couldnt do it! but i gotta talk to u, i think after some occurances today im back on the fense of not knowing what i want.. well about one thing not the other. w/e i think im just confusing u so ill just talk to u in spanish tomorrow or on the bus or somethin lol.. anyyyyways.. im really happy i feel like me and elana have become really close these past few weeks! shes so nice and shes always what i need to bring up my day.. always inspirational lol.. love ya babe! and everyone else too, i duno where id be without my amazing friends! k well im gonna go to sleep now.. nighty night.

today i got up and showered and stuff and i wore a SKIRT (gasp) lol.. my moms friend was like.. wow.. no more boy shorts? rr lol but anyways so we went to the cemetary and the priest had this service for my grandpa and that was really sad.. but after it was over i stopped crying and i was ok and we all came back to the house and i talked to elana for a while and then the priest did another little service and then people came over.. and i was like on the fone the whole night.. mostly with elana and now with missy! i feel like there my 2 friends who really understand me, i mean of course i appreciate all like my bus friends and other people at school who listen to my problems and they really help and make me feel better and bring my days up and stuff but elana and missy i feel are the 2 who really understand. im glad i have u guys! and now i now whenever im sad i can always go to lizzy and play the worry game lol.. but im just overall grateful for all my great friends who are always there for me and i love u guys, ive learned from u that i dont need to live with stuff that makes me sad i can just forget about the bad and get over it and im working to do that, and i feel better already! k well thats all for now.. nighty night

today was... informative.. to me at least. i realized that ive been letting some people push me around and im not letting it happen anymore! im putting my foot down! lol rach. at first i was all depressed cause well i just was dont really wanna share my reasons with the world... but then i realized that i shouldnt focus on what bothers me i should forget about those things and just focus on the good things in my life, like my friends that care about me! and so it turned out to be an okay day.. besides the fact that its been a year today that my grandpa died.. but it was actually a good-for-my-soul day.. me and lizzy bonded on the bus..(LIZZY I AM CONTINUING WITH MY PROMISE THAT I MADE MYSELF THIS MORNING IN SPANISH! I CAN DO IT! Lol.. and i went to loggers to visit mr. todd & mr. navetta with natalia and kailanne and sam and rachie! it was fun.. mr todd made a kaboom! lol that wuz skurry natalia! and he gave me his cool squishy toy and i got fat off his chocolate.. i miss mr todd! and loggers in general.. but i like atlantic too! k well im gonna go finish watching friends.. toodles!

ahh what to say what to say.. schools back. :0( .. it was so cool seeing everyone but ive noticed that everything people say or do is irritating me this week.. *sigh*... we got exam grades back! i got a's in history.. english.. and b's in algebra and bio.. i think thats all i know of so far.. at least its all i remember.. but w/e... i got my invisilign today! i talk with a lisp lol its funny.. but my daddy said u can hardly tell so i guess its okay! ok well im really cansada so im gonna go n sleep or something.. just wanted to update this a little! toodles

christini esta boreda.. thers spanglish for yA! im feelin good just kinda bored.. today i actually woke up at 9:40 but then i tossed around in bed n just layed there thinking n stuff n the next thing i knew i looked at the clock and it was almost 11.. so i went n ate somethin.. and i watched billy elliot.. then some boy meets world.. then i went for a jog so i am determined to remain fitting in my new jeans lol cara, and then my daddy took me to get some food from wendys before they went out to some romanian party.. and i watched the wedding planner too.. so it was a lazy day.. man i think im bored now but im gonna miss these in a few weeks! :o( o well.. sad news.. today was my grandpas birthday.. and on the 10th itll be a year since he died :o( i have to admit that wen he died i thought id be really sad without him around the house and dont get me wrong i miss him so much but i guess ive just gotten used to him not being here.. but every time my mommy sees a picture of him she burts into tears and its just so sad.. oh well i hope things dont get too hectic these few weeks.. k im gonna go watch another movie! toodles

i saw my cara today!!!!! i got up at like 1 again and watched some tv and read a little then i got ready to meet cara at the mall.. and we were there for a while.....i got some really cute stuff! i missed u hunny! remember once a month ! lol we better hold to it.. and u ARE ADDICTED to AIM lol im tellin u u need to do somethin bout that... and wen we came here we watched ms congeniality.. and then she went byebye:0( i duno it feels good to see old friends! speaking of seeing friends... lizzy and natalia and rachel.. natalia are u seeing malykie during the DAY or are u just spending the whole day gettin ready lol.. well that leaves sunday and monday.. and if id have a choice i think id choose sunday but monday'd probly work too..
..bad news.. i dont think im gonna go skiing this year :0( cause my parents wanna go n everything but no one else is going besides us and if there arent other people there its no fun.. whatsoever.. cause our family has this thing about constant fighting and not making anything fun.. so i either wanna go with someone else or not go at all (even though i was really looking forward to it this year ) but i guess what happens happens.. k well im gonna go finish watchin jay leno.. byebye!

eyy!! today was actually a pissed-off-free day.. wow lol.. i got up round 12-12:30 and i had a cookie :0) and then i was supposed to go to dairy queen with lizzy and natalia and rachel but natalia canceled and then my mommy and daddy made me go furniture shopping with em.. so that fell thru -sry guys! :o( - and so i showered n stuff and ate and we left and we went to a bagillion furniture stores in search of a futon or a couch or something for the family room.. we found one that we like but knowing my dad he'll have to see another 50 stores before he decides to get it lol.. so then we went to the radus (boring) and we came home.. and i came online and talked to my emy :0) and today was a good day for us no fighting so im becoming more optamistic cause i think as long as i keep my contradicting thoughts inside my head i think we'll be fine. so umm what else... me and lana havta reschedule for wellington mall.. (lana lemme know when u wanna go.. maybe like this weekend or the next..) and caras sleeping over tomorrow night n we might hang out during the day too.. im so excited i havent seen her since summer!! umm i think thats pretty much it for now..toodles

i dont know whats come over me but im really feeling better about this whole emy thing. i guess he kind of made me realize that i always contradict him, and i guess i get pissed over stupid little things and its not even worth getting mad over. i mean i love him, and he loves me, and nothing else matters to me. i figure if we have that, then we can work anything out. i mean when ur lucky enough to find someone who u love so much that it brings u to tears just thinking that ur not with them, and u get tingles inside when u just hear their name, and the only thing that can make u happy is being with them, if im lucky enough to find that, especially this young, then why am i gonna let little arguements ruin it. nothings perfect, i just have to work a little to fix things.

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"emergency call 911 shes pissed off at everyone...." another year.. joy. yesterday sucked major butt. i got up around like 1 i guess, and i hung around the house, i watched the glass house, dont say a word, and some of oceans 11. then my daddy dragegd me out running errands with him for moms party.. then he took me to blockbuster seeing as how even he felt bad for me cause i would be stuck in a house with like 20 romanians for new years.. and i rented minority report and i bought serendipity (the best chick flick out there lol) and then people started to come.. and i just watched tv the whole night basically.. and ate a lot. wow im getting fat lol, and i stopped jogging too so yeah this wont be good anymore.. but i really dont care so w/e. everyone kept asking me where emy was and i got really sad cause he shoulda been there!!! so i went upstairs and read every email i have from him.. like 60.. i know how pathetic.. and i realized that before he was so sweet and stuff and all those emails were so cute, and now we just fight, its not cool at all..i wish i still had the old him.. now its just like, fight fight fight make up fight fight fight.. i cant stand it.. and i doubt ill be seeing him anytime soon either.. like today i called him cause my mom told me he got really hurt yesterday or something and i called to see how he was doing, and hes like yeh im fine i cant talk im watching a movie bye. that reaaallly put me over the edge. i try and be so nice to him and show him how much i care about him, and hes been a real jerk lately, rr. i keep thinking that maybe he'll surprise me with something sweet one day but im just kidding myself.. somehow i really doubt that things will ever go back to how they used to be, but i guess i cant stop hoping they will

uhh, im really bored.. even though i shouldnt be.. today i got up around 1... and i went online and i talked to emy till like.. 3.. he told me his mom wont let him come for new years..:( i guess i shouldve expected to see that one coming.. but w/e, i dont think he wants to come anymore anyways.. i dont even know what i did hejust like left, and i called him, like 5 times all of which he hung up on me.. christines done it again.. i got him pissed off again and i dont even know what i did.. whatever if he doesnt wanna talk to me, thats fine. i just dont understand why he bothers talking to me if all i do is piss him off and he gets mad and leaves like every frikken day. w/e. then after my attempts to see what i did i gave up w/e if he wants to talk to me, which i doubt, i guess hell try to. maybe. so i watched some of ferris beullers day off.. then i switched to watch oceans 11 with my daddy.. then my mommy made me her slave and help her around for her little shindig tomorrow.. im gonna like fucking od on nyquil so i dont have to have any part of this.. she asked me if emy was still coming and i said no and shes like why not his mom wont let him and i was like yeah shes like oh thats too bad. she always tries to do something about it when something like this happens.. but i guess she didnt this time. w/e im gonna go..byebye

today was actually better than i thought itd be! i woke up at 1.. i read a lot of chicken soup for the soul..like 200 and sum pages.. and then i went to the movies with missy to see maid in manhatten.. and then we went to borders.. best buy.. and came home.. i got the goo goo dolls cd that ive been meaning to get lately.. so i listened to that for a while.. then i talked to emy and it did me surprisingly well.. he helped me sort of end my depression lol.. and hes coming over on tuesday and hes spending new years here and hes sleeping over :) and i think staying the next day here.. so thatll def. cheer me up. if his mom says no im gonna cry. really. lol. k well im gonna go me and daddy are gonna watch everybody loves raymond..

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christini is depressed. she feels like no one likes her and she feels like she has no one.. cept for missy :) cause missys the only one that understands her and how she feels.. like.. EXACTLY.. i love u missy! thanks for introducing me to cookie dough lol. it helps. a lot. i duno wat id do without her right now.. i feel like i have no place in this world :( and that no one wants me.. it sucks :( im gonna go now and look at missys sezy woooooooohuuuuuuuu journal lol ill be back later>

o yeah lizzy everyone told me that traveling pants is a really good book so up urs! lol im jk

mmmmm cookie dough :)
rrr my computers like fucking broken, my internet wont work for shit.. the world and its people are pretty much pissing me off today! which is why my room is pretty much spotless now lol.. i only clean when im pissed or stressed or sad or something.. it somehow makes me feel better.. and now im eating cookie douhg :) the solution to EVERYTHING right missy?? even when ur on the verge of killing urself, grab a tub of cookie dough and a spoon and ull feel better in no time..
soo what did christini do today.. she woke up... watched tv.. had a doughnut.. watched tv.. went online.. rode my bike to missys.. got my movie.. came home.. cleaned out my closet.. cleaned out my dressers.. and everything ON anything in my room.. so now its all clean.. i reaad part of the traveling pants.. and some chicken soup for the soul. (needed it today lol).. and i talked to emy for like 5 minutes then he left.. then i called ange and talkd to her for a while.. then i played on my crapass computer.. then i took a shower.. and i baked cookies :) and now im gonna leave the internet world for the night and watch austin powers so if anyone wants to talk u can call me! night

just got home from missys.. hehe i mished u hunny! make it clap! (hehe!) u gotta remind me ta pick up Austin Powers tomorra or have ur mommy or daddy drop it off k dont lemme forget cause my daddy'll bite my head off lol...
i think things are on their way to getting better with emy :) im really glad cause i miss being able to talk to him about anything and being open with him n stuff.. but my mommy told me that his family isnt coming over for new years this year :( so i duno, im really tired, but i dun wanna sit around the house doin nothin tommorrow like ive been doin so far.. its my last big break at home in boca till summer and im not gonna waste it!! i wont i wont i wont! k im gonna go to sleep now.. natalia thanks for ur help today :) luv ya hunny! and so does ur lesbian lizard stalker! lol nighty night

o i did this little quiz thingy from lizzy cause i was bored..

Name: Christine
---> Birthdate: 12-12-1987
---> Birthplace: Poughkeepsie NY
---> Current Location: Boca Raton, Florida
--> Eye Color: brown
---> Hair Color: brown with highlights
---> Righty or Lefty: Righty
---> Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius
---> Innie or Outtie: Innie

series two - describe
---> The shoes you wore today: my vans with unmatching shoelaces cause im too lazy to change both
---> Your hair: in a messy bun
---> Your weakness?: emy :)
--> One thing you'd like to achieve: passing the 9th grade, maybe finishing Ib.. but u know its either me or the wall lol Amy so I don’t know.. it’s a tough competition..

Series three - what is
---> Your thoughts first waking up: ugh
---> Your greatest accomplishment: I don’t think I have one! lol

series five - do you
---> Smoke: No
---> Cuss: yep
---> Sing: yeah but only along to the radio lol so im not too good..
---> Take a shower everyday: yep! Im very proud of that too lol
---> Want to go to college: yeah, I guess
---> Like high school: eh
---> Want to get married: yep :)
---> Think you're attractive: not really
---> Think you're a health freak: your talking to the queen of junk food
---> Get along with your parents: most of the time, no, but sometimes yeah
---> Like thunderstorms: yeah there cool!! I love running around in the rain lol
---> Play an instrument: im GONNA learn how to play the drums!!! Ull see!! (but I don’t know if that counts)

series six - in the past month, did/have you
---> Drank alcohol: yeah
---> Smoke(d): no
---> Go on a date: I don’t think it was a date lol
---> Go to the mall?: yeah
---> Been on stage: no
---> Been dumped: no
---> Gone skating: no but I wanna!
---> Made homemade cookies: I got cookie dough does that count ?
---> Been in love: yep :)

series seven - have you ever?
---> Played a game that required removal of clothing?: uhh not that I remember
---> Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: don’t think so
---> Been caught "doing something": lol no but I just thought of something eeeeelse lol ange
---> Been called a tease: no
---> Changed who you were to fit in: yeah .. so not worth it

series eight - the future
---> Describe your Dream Wedding: hmm not sure yet
---> What do you want to be when you grow up: well me and andrea are gonna start a band and im gonna play the drums and shes gonna play guitar but yeah if that doesn’t work out (lol) then either some kind of shrink, a lawyer, or a pediatrician (all for the mattress!! Lol Rachel)
---> What country would you most like to visit: AUSTRALIA!!!!!!!
---> Current Desktop Picture: little stars its so cute :)
---> Current Book: The traveling pants.. yes christini is reading.. :o
---> Current DVD In Player: I think its still a walk to remember..
---> Current Worry: that ill never start my daybook..
---> Current Crush: I love emy!!!
My Father thinks I am: an annoying little person, wait not little he calls me fat everyday
My Mother thinks I am: a stuck up little person (she doesn’t think im fat lol)
My best friend thinks I am: yo no se
you get embarrassed when = I don’t get embarrassed too easily but I guess when…… uh I don’t know cant think of anything
makes you happy = seeing emy!
upsets you(pisses me off) = when people aren’t nice lol

Yes or NO....
+you keep a diary = this is an online journal isn’t it..
+you have a secret you have not shared with anyone = hmm
+you fold your underwear = no lol
+you talk in your sleep = no
+you set your watch a few minutes ahead = no its by the school 7:30 bell

WHAT WAS THE LAST....
x. movie you bought: umm I don’t remember,. I RENTED Austin powers last night tho
= x. song you listened to = simple plan – id do anything
x. person that's called you = drea? I don’t know ive been secluding myself from the world lol
x. TV show you've watched = I watched oceans 11 last ngiht.. but tv show I think TRL
x. you wish you could live somewhere else = San Francisco.. and I WILL someday.. u wait and see
x. you think about suicide = very very very very rarely but then after a few minutes I realize its so stupid
x. others find you attractive = I don’t know lol why don’t u ask “others”
x. you want more piercings = not really
x. you drink = not really
x. you do drugs = nope
x. you like cleaning = when im really bored, (lol natalia), or when im sad, I don’t know why though
x. you like roller coasters = yes I love them!!!
x. ever cried over a boy/girl = many many times
x. ever lied to someone = yeah
x. ever been arrested = no.. I was afraid I would be once lol but I didn’t (don’t ask me what it was ull just laugh lol)

What...
x. are you scared of = snakes, being alooone, walking downstairs in the middle of the night.. I always think theres someone out there lol.. , um sometimes when im home alone and its quiet and I hear a loud noise it skares me, and that stupid commercial on buzz 103.1 that sounds like my alarm clock lol natalia that skares the shit outa me!

Number...
x. of times I have been in love? two
x. of times I have had my heart broken? Once, and I hope it stays that way
x. of hearts I have broken? I don’t know.. possibly one, maybe two at most
x. of girls I have kissed? Not unless u count cheek kisses