:: 2004 13 October :: 10.32 pm

Today has been so weird I'm not quite sure where to begin.
I'll begin with Joanne. She really really bothered me today! REALLY BOTHERED ME! When were done with our testing we all went into the gym to vote on class council and cheerleaders and stuff. Well we were supposed to be being respectful which includes being quiet and paying attention and stuff. Not too many people were really paying attention but you dont have to be obvious about it. She was talking with louise and they were being loud and drawing on eachother and stuff so I said "Be quiet." and then Louise said "SHUT UP!" and poked me with a sharpie which pissed me off because of the way she said it and the way she poked me. She was being an ass. Then Joanne was screaming really loud in support of some other girl and it was near my ear so I said "DUDE! SHUT UP! You're so annoying." I know it wasn't the nicest thing I could have done but shes been pissing me off for so long and then the Louise thing made me freshly angry so I kinda lost it for a second. I have a habit of doing that. Maybe I have an anger managment problem or something. I wouldnt be surprised if I did. I keep having this urge to smack her and tell her to leave me the fuck alone. But I can't... I've sorta been trying to avoid conversation with her and when I do talk to her I tend to be a bit short. I'm not like this to other people I dont like. Shes just different.

Lets see...I went to CCD. Nothing extradorinary happened. I saw Mrs. Saunders and Mrs. Borges and talked to them for a few minutes. Then Mrs. Cronin said hello to me. They are all really really nice. I think Mrs. Cronin is getting grumpier with age she was sorta rude. The calss was a little bit better today than last week. I actually got to do stuff instead of just sitting around the whole time. She also let the class out on time which is always nice. There was a hot dude in the Parish Office after. I've seen him around beofre...I think hes homeschooled. Well hes gotta be pushing 18 by now so he probably wont be homeschooled for too much longer.

My sister is so mad at my mom because we gave her dog away. Shes pulling a Sarah. She refuses to talk to us. My dad called and she gave him about a minute before saying she "really" had to go.

My bagpipe lessons are going pretty well. I need to memorize the notes and where they are on the paper which really sucks. When he tells me to play it and he plays it at the same time my fingers know where to go but when I'm trying to read it I'm just guessing.

DINNER TIME! BYE YA'LL!

Go fuck yourself

:: 2004 10 October :: 8.34 pm

HELLO THERE!
My weekend sucked pooh. I left for Shasta on Friday morning with my mother and we came back yesterday night. I went to help my sister move into a much better house and neighborhood. The place she was living in before was really really dumpy. It was on a street that was paved so long ago that its mostly gravel now. There are children running in the streets with dirty clothes on. One of the people has pot in a makeshift green house. The pot is supposed to be for medicinal use only but he sells it to anyone. There are like 10 dogs running around freely and a million cats and their kittens. This cluster of residential streets is behind a wood will where they take logs and turn them into boards and other stuff like that.

My sisters roommates are extremely stupid. Annie is 24 and has a 5 year old son named Jesse. She did a bunch of drugs and stuff when she was younger but according to Michelle she has gotten her life together since then. Her boyfriend has a house in Yreka but spends most of his nights in their house doing God knows what with Annie. He calls my sister's dog "Jock Strap" (His name is Jake) and he uses improper grammar all the time. Hes really really nasty. He also did drugs and has a baby who lives in the Bay Area with it's mother. So they are both really horrible people to be around. I think she likes them because they make her feel smarter and better.

Other stuff has happened but I can't talk now. I just needed to describe that.

1 did | Go fuck yourself

:: 2004 6 October :: 10.03 pm

hello everyone. TODAY WAS WONDERFUL!....Not really.
I WENT TO CCD! Sorta fun. I saw Lynn. She kept talking about things I didn't want her to talk about at that exact moment. I saw the dude,Justin, who was supposed to have hot arms. SOMETHING HAPPENED! They are not hot anymore. His voice is hot and he has really pretty eyes. *Lynn so nicely pointed that out for me.* I think that I am so desperate to see guys that I will find every single thing that is hot about them so that I can be happy. It sucks. My mom asked him and his sister if they remembered me and they did. SO SMART ARE THEY WHO REMEMBER ME! Lets see..I saw my Confirmation sponsor. She is so nice. I like her a lot. Duh. I wouldn't have picked her if I didn't like her. The teachers I work for are so annoying and I really hate them.

I'm not to bad at bagpipes. Its fun. Its hard though because I have to put so much air pressure into it. Its alright. My lips really start to feel it first.
Well. Goodbye everyone.

Go fuck yourself

:: 2004 5 October :: 12.34 am

hello there.
Bad news: Giants were eliminated. Not like I didn't know that would the result.

This weekend was fun.... I spent most of it packing up all my stuff. Then sleeping. I watchced American Dreams. I LOVE THAT SHOW SOOOO MUCH!
Tomorrow I start my bagpipe lessons.YAY!

Today was crappy. I went to school. Jessica had a shadow. The shadow was good. Then Joanne showed up. My day is always pleasent (I know i'm spelling that wrong) until Joanne shows up and her annoying sister, Jessica. I hate them. I don't hate Joanne because she is taking over Louise. I just really really don't like her. I don't how annoying she is. I don't like how fake she is. She really acts fake. I mean she talks all weird and stuff and says things and I can just tell shes forcing it. I don't know why I waste my typing complaining about her. Lately I've been saying comments under my breath about how I don't like her. I'm not sure if Louise has noticed but I'm kind of half hoping she does. Like last Friday I said "Well..my day was good until she came" and Louise looked but I'm not sure if she was listening.

Megan Lott has been pissing me off a lot for about a week or 2. She has gotten this new attitude where she acts like she is so much better than me. Whenever I see her eating now I feel like yelling "YEA! HAVE ANOTHER ONE TUBBY!" She is so large and she eats constantly. I wonder why people who are so fat just continue to eat. Don't they realize that that is the reason they got fat and remain fat? I also wonder how people can be so rude. I don't think that I'm that rude. I know I have my moments, but doesnt everyone? Well, I guess there are people that I'm just never going to get along with. Megan Lott is one of them. I'm glad though. I never liked her much anyway.

Well...I guess I'm done. I'm tired so I better be off to bed.
Wish me luck....I have a long 2-3 weeks ahead of me. Bye!

2 did | Go fuck yourself

:: 2004 3 October :: 12.48 am

The seasons are really changing. California is a really nice place because our seasons aren't very extreme and there are 4 really distinct seasons. It is fall now and I can really feel it. The days are getting so much shorter and that feeling is back. The feeling of wanting to be all cozy in a bed or on a couch while watching Billy Elliot or Angelas Ashes or Shakespeare in Love. I love waking up in the morning and seeing clouds instead of the sun. And in a few weeks most of the birds will gone, the trees bare, and the hills green. This winter I will not get to hear my precious owl that has so nicely screeched me to sleep the past winter. Maybe the next house will have an owl but I doubt it. Now that it is fall the house is smelling different. We've been closing the doors more and cooking inside more. I love that. American Dreams has started. Oh yes, and the biggest one: it is no longer unbearably hot. The only thing I'm going to miss about the summer is baseball. Mainly, J.T Snow because he most likely will not be returning to the Giants next year because they are asses. This Christmas will not be as good as the past in terms of presents because mom and dad just bought a house and there won't be as much money. Thats okay though. I understand. I do need new clothes which will be tough on them. I grew. My arms are too long for all my long sleeved shirts and I need new pants too because mine are shot. I wish I could pay for it on my own but I just can't.

Maureen is putting my money into a thingy that will get it more money. I don't quite understand it but her financial advisor said that it would really help get me more money with only a small chance of losing money. After Christmas I will have about $1000 in my savings account so why just let it sit there? I need to get more if I ever plan on making it to England.
I'm dead tired. Bye

Go fuck yourself

:: 2004 29 September :: 9.05 pm

GOOD NEWS...FINALLY!

As you know my parents have been searching for a house to buy. WE'VE FOUND ONE! They actually bought it....I mean finished all the paper work and stuff. My parents are going to be able to close escro (sp?) by October 20th. So we will be moving in that weekend. So that means I have 3 weeks to pack up all my stuff and help pack up everything else in the house. Also we'll be scrubbing and washing and lifting tons of heavy ass boxes and moving them downstairs. Then carrying dressers and beds and different pieces of furniture. I am excited by the idea because moving is fun....for like the 1st day. Then you do it for 2 more days and then its all over. When its all over its a wonderful feeling of accomplishment. You get to look around and feel proud that you helped with that. This move will be much better. My last until I move out. I can take EVERYTHING out of the boxes. Last time mom said to leave stuff I wouldn't be using in its box because we'd be moving soon.

Lately, the fights with democrats have really heated up. I need to go to Texas where the people have brains and actually like George Bush. BUSH IS COOL! Kerry is scary. OOO Look...it rhymes. My dad seems to think that Bush will win. I hope he is right but I think Kerry will be our next president. Maybe that is just because I'm surrounded by democrats. California has got to be the most democratic state. How come we elected a Republican to be the governor if most Californians hate Republicans?

Well...today kicks off CCD. From now on my Wednesdays are going to be school then CCD from 4:30 to about 6:30 or 7:00 PM. Its going to suck...At least I will see the dude with the hot arms. Not hot face...hot arms. His face is not the best but I must say it is not the ugliest. But I only like his arms. He plays baseball..he has to have nice arms.

WELL THEN I'LL BE OFF...HALF HOUR TILL I HAVE TO GO. Tonight it is 7:00-9:00. Arent they nice?
Bye Bye

Go fuck yourself

:: 2004 23 September :: 9.20 pm

So this is just a bunch of crap that I've been saving up in my over crowded head.

This week went by really fast. Thats good. I think I did really well on my first Algebra test. It is so weird but I am actually getting how to do Math for the first time in my life. Today we worked in groups on a big problem and the rest of my group couldnt figure out how to set up the proportion but then I finally did. I felt proud of myself.

So Joanne is really annoying me. I feel like she is turning Louise against me in some way. Louise is turning meaner. Shes got more of an attitude and I know its only started since she started hanging out with Joanne. I feel like they are practically joined at the hip. When Louise is not around Joanne says "Where is Louise?" and when they are together Joanne always has to know who Louise is talking to and what they are talking about. Shes like one of those abusive boyfriends. Louise has become obsessed with her and vice versa (sp?). Its really annoying. Then Joannes laugh bothers me and how she wants to do those weird voice things which she sucks at. Sometimes that type of stuff gets really old but she keeps doing it. I feel like I'm losing a really good friend......IF YOU THINK THAT I AM MAKING UNFAIR JUDGEMENTS THEN FUCK YOU! THIS IS HOW I FEEL AND I DONT CARE WHAT PEOPLE SAY! I DONT LIKE JOANNE! AT ALL!

So I spent the night at Lynns house on Saturday. We went to Great America. There was only one hot dude there and he wasn't even that great. There was all those idiot people that are all gangster and are like 20 with their 20 year old girlfriends and 3 year old kids. That night we watched Dirty Dancing Havanah Nights. I love that movie. Its so good. Then we prank called like 4 guys over and over. I thought that was boring but Lynn and Sarah were very amused by it.

On Sunday, her mom made us go to 11:30 mass so that sucked. But overall it was a nice day. It was cloudy and it rained in the morning. The first rain of the summer and it happened on like the last day of summer.

School is going pretty well other than Joanne. I MISS GUYS! If they had a co ed Catholic Highschool in the area with uniforms I'd go there because I am attached to uniforms. They are so much easier than picking out what youre going to wear every day. College will suck when it comes to clothes.

The sun is really low right now and its only 6:45. How lovely. I can't wait for winter. 3 DAYS TILL AMERICAN DREAMS STARTS AGAIN! OOOO I CANT WAIT! I LOVE THAT SHOW SO MUCH!

Ok I'm done.

2 did | Go fuck yourself

:: 2004 13 September :: 9.47 pm

HELLO THERE!
Well I knew I'd be here to write this and if you consider yourself my friend and you didnt know I'd come back and type this then you obviously don't know my parents. So here it goes:
WE DIDNT GET THE HOUSE! Nope...again. As usual. The small fragments of hope that I did have are all gone. I knew this would happen. I haven't really thought about it too much but now that I am its making me really sad. My mom told me. She keeps saying "There'll be another one and were going to move soon." WHAT THE FUCK?! Theres supposed to have been another one for like 6 years. I'm not exagherrating. (sp). It always turns out this way. "Were going to get house" Me: "Yea sure." Them "No, really were going to get a house this time. I have a good feeling." Me: "You always have a good feeling" Them: "Will you just shut up, Marilyn?" Me: "Stop lieing to us.." Then they turn around and pretend like they didnt hear me. It always happens this way. I just want to live in a house and know the next time I move will be to move out on my own. Doesnt look like that'll happen. We move from rental to rental to rental. I've lived in 5 houses and 1 town house. I better get a good job and be able to buy a house for myself cause I can't handle the disappointment my whole life.

My life has been far from pleasent to say the least. My sister went into a phsco hospital when I was 3. She dislocated my moms thumb. She threw tantrums every night at dinner. We had the police at our house several times because neighbors complained about the fighting. I once went to Target with my mom and they wouldn't take her check because there wasnt enough money. So she got me my M&M's and we walked out completely embarrassed. That was when I was about 7. My sisters had to wear rasty clothes and get $5 shoes from K-Mart when they were little. All this because my parents lost a house because of an emergency surgery and Michelle's mental problems causing them to decrease the amount of work they could do. We also lived in a house that had termites all over the front door and holes in the shower. We had to beg them for a new shower. I know that people might not believe this but I swear it is all true. I'm not that starved for attention that I'd need to make this up. So anyway, my life has improved quite a bit but those memories still haunt me. Then I get sad thinking about it. My life has been better than a lot of people's but a lot worse than a lot of peoples too. To be completely honest I am somewhat jealous of the way Louise's life was when she was little. I know they had problems but every family does. I still want her grandma. Well I dont want to write about my life anymore.

THINGS ARE POOPY.....

1 did | Go fuck yourself

:: 2004 8 September :: 9.28 pm
:: Music: angry music

1 did | Go fuck yourself

:: 2004 7 September :: 11.58 pm

HELLO THERE YOUNG/ OLD PEOPLE!

School is getting better. Joanne (Louise's new friend) is not pissing me off as much as she was last week but that could change tomorrow. The climbing up 53 stairs several times a day is getting quite old. Also all the girls. One thing that I severely hate about other girls is screaming. Its so high pitched and its so loud. AH! GIVE ME SOME DUCT TAPE TO PUT ON THEIR MOUTHS! I am still forgetting a lot of things for different classes. I have got to stop doing that or else I'll be screwed. OOO GOOD SONG! "Touch me" by The Doors. I like it.
Come on come on come on now TOUCH ME BABE! blah blah blah...

My parents have been looking at houses. They are going to put an offer in for a house tomorrow unless something happens which it always does. I'm doubtful that I'll ever live in a house that is not a rental until I buy one myself. I think that being a pessimist saves me from disappointment. You can blame my mom for this because when I was little Louise and I always wanted to play at eachothers houses. Sometimes she'd say no and I would cry. Yes..I would actually have tears come out of my eyes. I know its pathetic but the last time I did that was when I was 7. In order to save myself from the crying I would say "Mom is probably just going to say no so don't get upset". When she did say no I still got upset but just not as bad. Now whenever my mom or dad say that are close to buying a house I know it really means that were close but not close enough. GOD! I JUST WANT TO LIVE IN A HOUSE THAT WHEN WE GET THERE WE CAN UNPACK EVERYTHING. Last time we moved I asked my mom why we left several large boxes unpacked in the garage and she replied "Because we aren't going to stay here for too long." We've lived here for just over 2 years and facing another move again. Before this last move we lived in a shitty ass house for 7 years. We had bad termite problems, holes in the kitchen floor, tiles coming out of the kitchen counter, old carpet that came up in several spots, and our windows rattled so loudly any time a door was open or closed. All of us had chronic colds and allergies. When we moved our sinus problems cleared up and we were instantly feeling better. Well..I think thats enough about moving. Everyone who even cares about me in the slightest bit please wish or pray or hope or whatever that we can get this house.

Lets see.. my sister came home this weekend. She ruined it. She constantly compares everyone to my dad or her or whoever else she can think of. She will say "Your like me, Marilyn because..." I HATE BEING COMPARED! IF THERE IS ANYTHING YOU CAN DO TO ME THAT WILL MAKE ME WANT TO BEAT YOU, IT IS TO COMPARE ME TO PEOPLE. Especially to people that I dont like or I dont care about.

My neighbor has strange sleeping habits. I think he is a police officer at night. Somedays hes home at night and sometimes hes gone all night. Sometimes he has his wife over with their dog and they work on their garden. I know they are married because he told my dad once. I don't understand why he doesnt live with his wife. Sometimes people who I assume are his parents go into the house when he isn't home and do stuff. I'm so confused by it. I shouldnt be so concerned with other peoples lives but I can't help it. Its so odd that it makes me curious.

This weather is killing me. People who talk to me are probably tired of me complaining but I'll do it again anyway. Our weather since Saturday has been upper 90's to low 100's. Its going to stay that way until Saturday. This severly sucks butt. I CANT WAIT TILL WINTER! OOOO IT WILL BE SOOO NICE! AND COLD! AND BEAUTIFUL!

ERIC RUINED MY WRITING MOMENT. SOME ASSHOLE SENT ME AN IM CHAIN THING. I'M DONE HERE! BYE BYE!

1 did | Go fuck yourself

:: 2004 25 August :: 6.51 pm

hiya fools! This will be all about highschool and some random other shit. That should probably go under the "subject" part of this..oh well.

Yesterday was orientation. I carpooled with Lindsay and the second we got there it was like I had cooties or something because she quickly ran off somewhere and thats what she did today when we took her to school. Orientation was REALLY boring but also really helpful. I feel pretty confident I won't get lost except for when I have to change into my clothes for fitness. We did a shit load of icebreaker type stuff and we walked around the school a lot. The lunch sucked so I didn't eat very much of it. I met all the people in my homeroom yesterday. I was on a softball team with one of them. Thats about all for orientation..

Today was my first day. In the morning I was really nervous so I didn't very much (2 nutri grain bars. One of them tasted gross) When I got there I saw Jessica getting out of her car so I went over to her. I was really thankful that someone was there that I could walk in with. Then it was up the 3 fatty ass flights of stairs to get to the lockers. We went to an assembly..that wasn't to bad. They did a singing thing that was pretty cool. After that I had Free Block period. I went with Erin and Cassie (another girl from Holy Family) to the SLC a.k.a the "student life center" then we quickly left. We went to the library and Cassie and I talked at one of the tables with Megan occasionaly coming over to interupt. It bothers me when your talking with someone then somebody else who has no idea what youre talking about interupts and starts a whole new conversation. Its rude. Cassie is really nice but like Lindsay the second she gets the chance she splits. I don't think its that they hate me but that they are a really tight nit group and they dont want any new people intruding. I saw them all at lunch in a little group with nobody new so its unlikely they just hate me. My favorite class was Drama. It was really fun and for some reason I feel pretty comfortable..at least for now. It might be different when we really start doing things in front of everyone and stuff. I thought I was going to miss not having any guys at school but I like it better in a way. I'm a lot more comfortable and there is always Bellarmine...

Well I'm going to go.Byesters

1 did | Go fuck yourself

:: 2004 15 August :: 9.56 pm

My parents suck. My sister sucks.

This past weekend I went to Manchester Beach. It was foggy the whole time except for this morning. The beach was the best. My dog is so cute in the water. He gets scared of it so he runs back up.

My dad is an ass....no...HES A FUCKING ASS BITCH! He has called me a bitch several times. The most recent time was when we were in the motor home. Its not exactly the biggest kitchen area so normally my mom just serves our plates for dinner. He doesn't understand that mainly because hes a dumbass. He started yelling at me and my sister and saying that we are lazy and blah blah blah. I do the most chores of anyone. Yeah..so I did the dishes. Then later on I kept asking him to be quiet because he was talking through the olympic opening thing. He said "You are such a spoiled, lazy, bitch!" He fucking talks through the olympic thing and he fucking yells at me for asking him to be quiet. I guess I should be used to him calling me a bitch. I know most dads don't call their daughters that. I am spoiled. I know that. I don't, however, think that I am a bitch. He keeps threatening to pack up all his shit and leave. Most of the time I wish he would. He smacked my face when I tried to defend myself. I have a cut on the inside of my lip from the braces. Such an ass...I think he had had a few too many drinks...like every night.

I was quite tired this weekend and I thought Manchester would be a break and let us just relax and sleep. When I get tired I get really grumpy. I can't help it but thats just what happens. I probably stirred up some of the trouble and I deserved to have some consequences but not the kind I got.

Maureen keeps insulting me. She called me a loser today because I didn't feel like walking down to the beach. She also said that "every 5 minutes you need to be told to shut up." I do not need to be told to shut up every 5 minutes. Later that night I said something and she said "Do we need to go back to that rule?" Fuck that. She also said that she really doesn't like me then a couple minutes later she tried to rest her head on me. I pushed her head off my shoulder. You can't tell someone you don't like them and expect them to allow you to put your head on them. She started hitting me when poked her..it was a playful poke. When I was talking to my other sister and I said something that didn't quite make sense or something liket that she said "She's just a stupid 14 year old. Don't listen to her." Maureen keeps saying shit about my age cause thats the only thing she can think of to use to insult me. I like being 14 and I'm only going to be 14 once so I will fucking enjoy it. On Wednesday I was watching the beginning of Seabuscuit (I only saw the last hour that other night) and she wanted to watch the reruns of Dawson's Creek (shows how mature she is) . I don't like Dawson's Creek. So I got up to put something in the sink and she stole the remote. Then I started yelling at her because she always does that when I don't put on what she wants. Eventually she gave it back and started saying "Wa wa wa. I'm Marilyn and I'm spoiled. Wa wa wa." She did that for like 10 minutes and I said something because she was really pissing me off and she started saying it louder. If anyone was being spoiled it was her. Then they said the word "incoragebale" and she said "That reminds me of someone I know....look it up Marilyn, I know you don't know what that means." She was right but I didn't tell her. I found out on my own. I can't believe she tries to use intelligence against me. I am 5 years younger than her. If I knew as much as her I wouldn't be going into the 9th grade. Stupid ass. She's done that before. I told Mary about some of this and she says "it's because she has a lot of insecurities."

Other shit happened but I have to go. Byester. If anyone decides to comment make fun of Maureen.

3 did | Go fuck yourself

:: 2004 9 August :: 9.01 pm

HALLO! This weekend was horrible. I went to Solvang with my sister and dad. We got there at like 3 pm. We walked around the town and it was cool. There were so many Dutch bakerys (bakeries?) and they smells like danishs and stuff. It was really hot though so that really sucked. Then later we went to dinner and there were 2 hot guys in there but I was really tired so I didnt care. The horrible part was at night. We went back to the hotel room and we watched Seabuiscut. Thats a good movie. Then we tried to go to sleep. My dad snores so loud. I only got an hour of sleep the whole night. My sister was also awake so we started complaining. Finally we woke him up at 7. He went outside and that gave us the oppurtunity to call my mom. She talked to him for us and he agreed to drive home. Then while we were on our way home he said "If it makes you feel any better, I didn't sleep that well either". It didn't make us feel any better. In fact if anything it angered us more. He sounded like he had had the best night of sleep ever. So I went to bed at 9:30 and woke up at 8:30.

Today was nice. I went to Coyote with my dad to do some stuff. When we were at my grandmas house I went into my grandpas old den. You might think this is odd or not believe me but when I went in there I felt different. I had this heavy feeling and it made get a nervous feeling in my stomache. I felt like my grandpa was still there sitting on the couch or at the desk. I looked at his huge collection of books. A lot of them are action books and he even a Sherlock Holmes one in there. I then came across an old album from his 40th wedding anniversary. There was a picture where my dad had his arm around my grandpa's shoulders and he looked so happy. You could just tell by looking at it that they were very close. I went into the closet in the room. There was his old Greyhound uniform- a shirt and a heavy wool jacket. Then I opened the other door and I saw a gun cabinet. That kind of freaked me out so I shut the door. I looked in his desk drawer. He had loose bullets. That scared me so I shut that too. He had old pipes and stuff. I felt like he would be saying that its rude to go through other peoples stuff so I left.

I went in my dad's room. He had loose bullets in his night stand. I asked him about that and he said grandpa had put them there. So i guess he had a habit of leaving bullets in random drawers.

Now to complain about Sarah. This is her current profile:
Mino u r mybitch!
Lynn go comb ur "naughty" hair lol
Karissa our boobs are WA Y to big for that boat ride thing lol luvya
mikaela WAY too many insiders with u!
kristen kiss the horse no his mouth is open! the merry go round lol
nicole OMG THE SKY FLYER THING WAS SOO SCARY!!!
Stephanie lol put the monkey in daycare!
meghan ur the best!
david is a pimp!
steven is hot!
the best song ever jadakiss-why
Sticks and stones may break my bones, but chains and whips excite me. So throw me down, on the ground, and show me that you like me! haha kristen

She is so nasty. Her whole profile is about sex. Well..most of it. And that fucking ass song "why" is so bad. It asks "Why did Bush have to go get the trade centers blow up" or something like that. HE DIDNT FUCKING GET THE TRADE CENTERS BLOWN UP! The terrorists were doing their research when Clinton was president. Bush really shouldn't be blamed for that. I think the only people who should be blames are the ones that helped in anyway to attack the Centers. fuck that dumbass song.

Well...I think thats about it. GOOOOD BYE FOOLS!

ooo one more thing. I told Ashley about the chuckitattthewall thing. Luckily she forgives me. I really dont desearve it. Bye.

1 did | Go fuck yourself

:: 2004 5 August :: 7.27 pm

I took this fatty thing from jessica who took it from jimmster.


Your full name:: Marilyn Anne...
Age:: 14
Height:: 5'2. yes i'm short. they measured me at the doctor...
Natural hair colour:: brown
Eye colour:: brownish green
Number of siblings:: 4 older sisters
Glasses/contacts?:: yup
Piercings:: 2
Tattoos:: no
Braces?:: yes. i'm your typical nerd with glasses and braces

FAVOURITE
Colour:: dark blue and gray
Band:: dont have one
Song:: don’t have one
Stuffed animal:: My monkey puppet that makes noise.
Video game:: I dunno what its called..
TV show:: Dunno..
Movie:: Billy Elliot, School of Rock and others..
Book:: The Inheritance
Food:: Dont make me pick...raviolis, which we only get once a year cause my moms an ass
Game on a cell phone:: That space one.
CD cover:: i have no idea
Flower:: dude. this is hard. i dont remember the names of flowers
Scent:: The toilet.. jk. i dunno
Animal:: Chicken/Rooster
Comic book:: i dont read comics
Cereal:: Raisin (sp?) Bran with a shit load of sugar
Website:: ...woohu? i dont care
Cartoon:: Bugs Bunny is a classic so i say that

DO YOU
Play an instrument?:: I'm going to learn the bagpipes!eventually..
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?:: Nopers
Like to sing?:: Yea when I'm doing homework and no one can hear me
Have a job?:: nope
Have a cell phone?:: yea right..
Like to play sports?:: some.
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:: no
Have a crush on someone?:: its fading quickly..
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?:: Nope.
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?:: no
Have any special talents/skills?:: not really
Excercise daily?:: I try. Some days I run/walk a mile and a half and I lift my sisters weights. but other days I do nothing..
Like school?:: Not the academics but I try

CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?:: No
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?:: sort of
Speak any other languages?:: Small amount of spanish, a few words in a Italian, and I'm going to learn french
Go a day without food?:: nuh uh
Stay up for more than 24 hours?:: 22 hours was the most I ever stayed up
Read music, not just tabs?:: No
Roll your tongue?:: Yeah.
Eat a whole pizza?:: I ate 3/4 of one a long time ago when I could eat whatever I wanted

HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?:: Yea..
Cried to get out of trouble?:: I think so
Gotten lost in your city?:: I got lost in my own neighborhood
Seen a shooting star?:: A couple
Been to any other countries besides the united states?:: no
Had a serious surgery?:: I've never had surgery
Stolen something important to someone else?:: i'm not tat cruel
Solved a rubiks cube?:: nope
Gone out in public in your pajamas?:: Lots of times when I was little
Cried over a girl?:: My aunt was a girl and when she died I cried over her death so I guess so.
Cried over a boy?:: The day BEK graduated..
Kissed a random stranger?:: ..no
Hugged a random stranger?:: Nopers
Been in a fist fight?:: no.i think I will eventually though
Been arrested?:: No
Done drugs?:: well alcohol counts is technically a drug and I've had that but I have a feeling thats not the same
Had alcohol?:: yup
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?::Yes. it hurts. but coke hurts worse and I've had that come out of my nose too
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?:: no
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?:: no
Swore at your parents?:: no...thats like scuicide
Been to warped tour?:: no. my sister said it sucked unless youre really punk
Kicked a guy where it hurts?:: No
Been in love?:: Oh yea with that guy i dated for a day! I PUT "I LOVE GEORGE" IN MY PROFILE! but then he dumped me...and i cried and stuff
Been close to love?:: no
Been to a casino?:: yes. they smell so bad i hate them
Ran over an animal and killed it?:: not me personally. my mom killed like 5 birds when we drove across the country
Broken a bone?:: nopers
Gotten stitches?:: been close but luckily no
Had a waterballoon fight in winter?:: no
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?:: yea
Made homemade muffins?:: oo yea. blueberry and corn muffins
Bitten someone?:: yea
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?:: disneyland and epcot.
More than 5 times?:: no
Been to niagra falls?:: oo yes! i go soaked but it was fun and really pretty
Burped in someones face?:: yup
Gotten the chicken pox?:: Yes.

WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth:: before my orthodontist appointed this morning
Went to the bathroom:: uh..a couple hours ago. why do you care?
Saw a movie in theaters:: Catwoman. Last Friday
Read a book:: 2 weeks ago
Had a snow day:: we have RAIN! YAHAHAHAHAHHA! and it beats the shit out of snow
Had a party:: dunno
Had a slumber party?:: I dont usually have those. so a long ago.
Tripped in front of someone:: When Monica took me to get my birthday present
Went to the grocery store:: a while back
Cursed:: a few minutes ago

PICK ONE
Fruit/vegetables:: Fruit
Black/white:: black
Lights on/lights off:: off
TV/movie:: dont care
Car/truck:: SUV? can i have that
Body spray/lotion:: oo depends
Cash/check:: Cash.
Pillows/blankets:: BOTH!
Headache/stomach ache:: how about a mild stomache ache
Paint/charcoal:: both
Chinese food/mexican food:: either..i'm hungry
Summer/winter:: winter
Snow/rain:: RAIN!
Fog/misty:: fog..in San Francisco at sunset
Rock/rap:: rock
Meat/vegetarian:: yummy..meat
Boy/girl:: i think guys are hot.
Chocolate/vanilla:: Chocolate.
Sprinkles/icing:: icing
Cake/pie:: apple pie. chocolate raspberry filled cake
French toast/french fries:: depends on whose french toast. but usually fries
Strawberries/blueberries:: Strawberries
Ocean/swimming pool:: I like to look at the ocean but i'd rather swim in a pool
Hugs/kisses:: hugs
Cookies/muffins:: i dont care
p33n/bewbz:: ...gross
Wallet/pocket:: pocket
Window/door:: door
Emo/goth:: i dont care. goth is less scary
Pink/purple:: purple
Cat/dog:: dogs
Long sleeve/short sleeve:: short sleeved
Pants/shorts:: dont care
Winter break/spring break:: Winter break
Spring/autumn:: autumn. its a lot prettier
Clouds/clear sky:: Thunderheads that cover the whole sky
Moon/mars:: hmm..either

FRIENDSHIP
How many friends do you have?:: uh...
Do you have a best friend?:: yea
Have you ever liked one of your friends?:: sort of.hes not a friend anymore
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?:: more girl friends
Have you ever lost a friend?:: yea. i was an ass
Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?:: of course
Whats an inside joke between you and a friend?:: i cant remember
Have you ever gotten in a big arguement with a friend?:: millions cause the "friends" were bitches
Whats the nicest thing youve ever done for a friend?:: no idea
Whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?:: Let me cry and give them a hug as I cried
Do you miss any of your old friends?:: yea
What friend have you known the longest?:: Louise
Do you regret anything youve done to a friend?:: sadly, yes
How often do you spend time with your friends?:: uh..i'm not sure
Do any of your friends drive?:: no
Has a friend of yours ever died?:: no
Whats the dumbest thing youve done with a friend?:: Gone out for a walk in the middle of the night and letting my dog get loose because we left the gate open
What do you think your friends think of you?:: Hopefully that I'm nice and a good friend.

LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP
Have you ever been in love?:: no
If you have, with who?:: ...shut up
Are you single?:: Yes
Are you in a relationship?:: no
If so, for how long?:: this is pissing me off
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?:: yea
What was your first kiss like?:: it was soo like..oo so romantic! omg
How old were you when you got your first kiss?:: 3545486
Do you think love is a load of shit?:: i guess for some people it is cause they have bad luck but i generally i dont think so.
Whats the best experiance youve ever had with the opposite sex?:: i doooo not know!
If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?:: NO!
Have you ever been dumped?:: NO
Have you ever dumped someone?:: no!
Whats the most sexual thing youve done with the opposite sex?:: uh...hug lol

WORD ASSOCIATION

Slippers:: soft
Hat:: Sombrero
Hard:: cement
Free:: bird
Space:: scary
Taste::food
Good charlotte:: fat ugly guys
Red:: heard
Deep:: ocean
Heart:: blood
Cord:: cable
Cheese:: smelly white stuff
Rain:: beautifull. blue. gloomy
Work:: sucks
Pedal:: bicycle
Head:: nose
Bed:: pillows
Fluff:: cotton
Hardcore:: hell
Race:: ribbon at the finish line
Knife:: swords
Jump:: skydiving
I.... am:: lazy
want:: my parents not to fight
need:: food cause i'm hungry
crave:: food
love:: EVERYONE!
hate:: liars
did:: not do much today
feel:: in pain because of my head
miss:: my aunt, mr.vane, grandpa
am annoyed by:: stupid people
would rather:: be sleeping
am tired of:: worrying
will always:: be pessimistic and annoying

SILLY STUFF

What is your favourite genre of music?:: whatever
What time is it now?::5:57 PM
What day is it?:: Thursday
Whens the last time you called someone?:: Today
How much money do you have right now?:: $800
Are you hungry?:: yes
Whatcha doin?:: finishing this annoying thing
Do you like parades?:: not really. they always dissapoint me
Do you like the moon?:: sure
What are you going to do when youre done with this?:: eat food and relax
Isnt cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?:: yea
If you could have any magical power what would it be?:: to fly and go through walls
Have you ever had a picnic?::yeah
Did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young?::no
What about sock em boppers?:: what is that?
Are you wearing any socks right now?:: yea

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
funny?:: well i can make people laugh but i'm not like a comedian
pretty?:: no. but ugly kids turn pretty and since i'm in between right now there is still hope
sarcastic?:: yea. sometimes i get in trouble for it
lazy?:: oo yes
hyper?:: yea
friendly?:: I try but i'm shy (that rhymes)
evil?:: i think evil but I dont act upon it
smart?:: average
strong?:: somewhat
talented?:: everyone is talented
dorky?:: yea...

ASSOCIATE THESE WORDS WITH SOMEONE YOU KNOW (or dont know)
high:: ..hmm..not sure
skip:: peanut butter elephaunt that does the skippy commercials..i dont know
dance:: Jessica Lenker
lonely:: my rabbit but hes not a person but hes lonely
pen:: jennifer
flower:: skunk i know thats not a person but it reminds me of a skunk
window:: jessica. she put me so i'm putting her
psycho:: ..i'm not sure
brain freeze:: THIS SUCKS
orange:: I DONT KNOW!
sassy:: DONT KNOW
jelly:: DONT KNOW

FOR OR AGAINST
suicide:against
love:: for
drunk drivers:: against.
airplanes:: for
war:: For!
canada:: for
united states:: for
rock music:: for
gay marriage:: for
school:: for
surveys:: for
parents:: for
cars:: for
killing:: Some people.
britney spears:: Against
pants:: FOR! People running around pant-less?! *shudders* Reminds me of that time in San Francisco...

WOULD YOU EVER
Sky dive?:: yea
Play strip poker?:: not likely
Run away?:: no
Curse at a teacher?:: if i was in college
Not take a shower for a week?:: yea. but only if there is a river or lake near by i could go in to get my hair wet
Ask someone out?:: dunno
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?:: no
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?:: yea
Go scuba diving?:: sure
Write a book?:: i'd try but probably fail miserably
Become a rockstar?:: no
Have casual sex?:: i'm not sure. probably not

LAST QUESTIONS
What shampoo do you use?:: different ones
Whens the last time you did something sexual with the opposite sex?: never
What kind of computer do you have?:: compaq
What grade are you in?:: I'm going into 9th.
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?:: no
Or just make out?:: havent done it so i dont know..
How many posters do you have in your room?:: 1
How many cds do you have?:: don’t know
What time is it now?:: 6:08 PM

Go fuck yourself

:: 2004 22 July :: 8.10 pm

HI! I'd like to start by declaring China town in San Francisco to be one of the grossest places I've ever been. There are like 100 people all around you at all times. You bump into people and some of them stink and some of them get mad. The only good thing is about it is that its only like 2 or 3 blocks. Everything is so dirty there. I'm not trying to say that other parts of San Francisco are terribly cleen but its worse there probably from all the people.

My mom and I walked up California Street and if you don't know, California Street is a hugeass street that the is on a hill. We had to walk up hill then down hill and then up hill again. I think I strained one of my calf muscles. After that we went out to lunch and went to 3 churches, Baker beach, and home. We drove through Pacifica when the fog was blowing in. How truly pretty that is.

Yesterday was the most interesting day of the week and I don't think that anything could top it.

I went to the mall with Jennifer and Louise because Jennifer is going to England and needed some poop. (sorry we didn't tell you jessica but you were at the beach anyway) We spent like 6 hours there. It sucked. Jennifer and Louise are obsessed with purses and wallets and stuff...I guess thats okay but it got annoying after a while. As we were walking back to leave the mall Louise got a bloody nose. It was really really nasty. We ended up at a drinking fountain because it was the closest thing we could get to. After about 5 minutes this old guy was standing near the edge of the walk path thing and was staring at us. I thought he was going to help or something but instead he had to have a fucking drink of water. The mall is huge. There is more than one fucking drinking fountain. So he said "Excuse me ladies..can you move your stuff" I wanted to tell him to go away but he was old so I had to be polite. So we had to move our shit and Louise had to stand where everyone could see the blood on the tissue while the asshole satisfied his thirst.

Jennifer left and we were waiting for Louise'se aunt to pick us up. We waited for an hour cause she forgot. That sucked really bad too.

Later that night I went upstairs to watch T.V after dinner. I kinda snuck out so I wouldn't have to help with dishes so when I heard Mary yell "Marilyn, get down here" I thought I was going to get in trouble. Relunctantly, I went down to see what I did. I didnt do anything. Mary yelled "Monicas pregnant!". I dont think I still quite believe it..I'm going to be an aunt when I'm still 14. That means when the kid is 14 I'll only be 28. I dont want Monica to have a kid. I can't see her as a mom.

When we were gathered around the phone my dad was trying to figure out when it was going to be born. So some how she ended up telling us the exact day of conception. Not something I like to know.....I don't know what she said after that because I had covered my ears and was trying not to listen. I guess its good that a baby will come into the family but I'm not ready for it to happen...

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