Out of Anger

You tell me you know you have a problem
it doesn't seem to matter much, seeing how you hit the bottle

You make a fool of yourself and you don't even realize

You seem to think no matter how many nights you come home to scream and yell and hit I'll stay

Well you have another thing comin'

I'm not going to live worried if you're coming home from the bar tonight, if you're going home with someone, or if your locked up

I'm not the person to be torn down excessively and think 'oh he'll change' no, I've learned

and the sad thing is you don't even know, or at least pretend not to

I'm done with being scared and all around unsettled by you

I've had my chances with other great men but I always come home to someone who doesn't even know I excist

I look out for you, care for you, clothe and feed you
yet you disreguard it all

I know I'm not perfect but I work on my imperfections but not just for you, for me

So when you get home tomorrow, I wont be here - but the note will be

It'll tell you to call me and I'll explain
but you're packing your bags
and I dont need you to be a bottom feeder on my family and that I need a real man and until you become one you need to find a new host
to feed off of because I'm drained - completely

and the funny thing is I think you'll understand
I think you know that your time here is running short - is that why you were with her tonight?

I'm not an idiot
your slip-ups have become quite apparent

I hope you find yourself in a place where they make you work and pay for everything, I hope you realize what you missed out on, and I pray you think about it every day and all night until you loose sleep and it makes you ill, and I also hope you think about your kid every single fucking day and wonder 'what if I were there'

What are you going to do now that everyones gone? Now your friends are all in the army and moved away, now that you're alone?

I know I'm saying this out of anger but hell I know I'll say it again

Fuck you!
I'm done
I'm out
sadly not over it

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