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sugarjackj

:: 2011 26 June :: 12.58pm

Kriiii.....

Wtf.

FU.

goo goo

spud	:: 2011 24 June :: 2.22pm Day 30 - Your favorite song at this time last year this wound up being easier than i thought it would be. i bought this album last year, and i listened to it all the time. still good, though. here's to getting by. and finding the way to my heart. cheers! goo goo

spud	:: 2011 24 June :: 2.06pm Day 29 - A song from your childhood i still love this song. and i can still hit the high notes. although i was better at them when i was 7. 2 gaa gaas \| goo goo

sugarjackj

:: 2011 23 June :: 1.02pm

2 gaa gaas | goo goo

spud	:: 2011 17 June :: 3.59pm Day 28 - A song that makes you feel guilty i only feel guilty that i'm familiar with the original. this is actually pretty sweet. 1 gaa gaa \| goo goo

spud	:: 2011 17 June :: 3.44pm Day 27 - A song that you wish you could play vinnie colaiuta, steve gadd, and dave weckl. not much else to say. 1 gaa gaa \| goo goo

spud	:: 2011 17 June :: 3.32pm Day 26 - A song that you can play on an instrument most people can play the guitar part, but how 'bout some drums? this song wins simply by being about a frank zappa concert in switzerland. goo goo

spud	:: 2011 17 June :: 3.20pm Day 25 - A song that makes you laugh goo goo

spud	:: 2011 17 June :: 3.14pm Day 24 - A song that you want to play at your funeral wish i could find the album version of this song on the interwebz: also "prisoner" by Bruce Johnson, which is definitely not available online anywhere. goo goo

spud	:: 2011 17 June :: 3.06pm Day 23 - A song that you want to play at your wedding this one would be hilarious: this would be more appropriate: goo goo

spud	:: 2011 17 June :: 2.52pm Day 22 - A song that you listen to when you're sad apparently when i'm sad, i listen to songs about being away from home, sung by dudes with acoustic guitars. thus i give you: goo goo

spud	:: 2011 14 June :: 3.33am Day 21 - A song that you listen to when you're happy i'm more accustomed to the version off of underdog world strike. but this works too. 1 gaa gaa \| goo goo

spud	:: 2011 14 June :: 3.24am Day 20 - A song that you listen to when you're angry it's about to get a little brutal in here. maybe this is why phil pisses me off. 1 gaa gaa \| goo goo

spud	:: 2011 14 June :: 3.15am Day 19 - A song from your favorite album that's right, bitches. fuckin' supertramp FTW. goo goo

spud	:: 2011 14 June :: 2.58am Day 18 - A song that you wish you heard on the radio you should want to hear this too. 2 gaa gaas \| goo goo

spud	:: 2011 14 June :: 2.37am Day 17 - A song that you hear often on the radio funny part is, it's a song about making money by getting your songs on the radio. 2 gaa gaas \| goo goo

sugarjackj

:: 2011 11 June :: 11.56pm

My friend offered to rent her spare room out to me in her duplex for awhile. So I'll be moving out of this apartment Monday sometime. And a big fuck you to my roommate will be all of the shit I'm downloading off of his internetz roiight meow.

Still thinking about moving down to G.R.
Thinking.
Hmm.

I downloaded the Foo Fighters newest album. The song "Rope" i must say holds some sort of nostalgia for me. Its pretty good though.

Got my bridge card back. I like this.

hMM......

2 gaa gaas | goo goo

joslyn_julia

:: 2011 9 June :: 7.44pm
:: Music: Eisley- Smarter

dreaming with a broken heart
sometimes i wonder if i am always going to feel empty inside. I wonder if too much honesty is a bad thing. I wonder if i will ever find my inner peace. its all wondering, constant searching and contemplating and i feel as though I am just parading around like one of those poor horses at the fair- wandering in this dismal circle of sadness for the rest of my life.
Is it because I have too much empathy, compassion, hope for mankind, hope for myself?
Sometimes I can feel things that aren't there and I wonder if it is some invisible being trying to comfort me... a stroke of a finger down my cheek-- an embrace that couldn't be possible-- nothing makes sense.

how do you fight to hold on to something that was only an illusion to start? how do you believe in yourself when all the confidence you ever had walked out so long ago that you can't be sure you ever had it?
I just wish I could find happy... but it's always been such a fleeting idea. I've spent so long having to hide myself to make everyone else happy that somedays I wake up and I don't even know who the person is that is looking back at me.

Then again...
maybe I just have to face the facts, I never did heal oh so long ago and perhaps ever since childhood I have just been destined to be damaged goods. world you truly are a cruel, hateful place. we were never meant to be with each other-- you with your malice and me with my heart on my sleeve. and though i try so very hard my poor heart just wants love that for all i know will never be there, after all it rarely had been up until now.
oh bollox. i might as well just give up.

goo goo

sugarjackj

:: 2011 9 June :: 11.21am

I've been contemplating suicide a lot more that I probably should lately.
I know its cowardly, but at this point in time I think I'm alright with being selfish for once.

I'm a 24 year old child.

I take one step forward, then three steps back.
I'm not getting anywhere.

I have nothing to offer anymore.

I'm just wasting space.

4 gaa gaas | goo goo

spud	:: 2011 8 June :: 3.28am repost of day 14, for interested parties namely, me. in retrospect, i probably should have paid more attention in piano lessons. 1 gaa gaa \| goo goo