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:: 2004 15 November :: 6.25am
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday - Go on

Find yourself a better life.
I hate how he can be a complete, selfish bastard. How he can try to ruin someone elses life, who has done nothing wrong to him for the past months. Someone who is trying to just forget. I don't want to be enemies, I just don't want to be friends. Yet, every day he pushes me toward hate. I don't get it. I don't think I ever will. How can someone "love" you, then a few months later want to make your life hell? I regret him more than anything.

How are everyone elses comments rude, or uncalled for? And every cold word he says, appropriate? He's a terrible person. I see him as a jealous, pathetic, boy who didn't get exactly what he wanted, so he's hating the girl he so dearly "loved" because her life is somewhat decent. I have every right to hate you. So I will.

And go on, try to ruin my life. You can only do so much. I'm sick of your empty threats. You're weak in my eyes.

Oh, and if you're going to tell everyone you want to know why and you're going to ask me, fucking do it. Or are you too afraid that I'll actually have an answer? Don't worry, sweetie, I have plenty.

:: 2004 13 November :: 1.13pm
:: Music: Frou Frou - Psychobabble

You're just dying to try me.
In all its ugliness
it is beautiful.

:: 2004 9 November :: 4.21pm

I am so fucking sick of everyone.

Selfish, back stabbing, pieces of shit. That's all you are.

:: 2004 8 November :: 7.05pm

I hate how I get dissapointed so easily.

:: 2004 4 November :: 6.27am
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday - Set Phasers to Stun

I won't ever make another promise.
I want to know everything.

:: 2004 29 October :: 9.02am

I've all ready fallen, love.
You mean everything to me.

And so much more.

It'll be ok soon, just keep your chin up.

:: 2004 28 October :: 8.51am

I'd like to say I never felt this way.

:: 2004 23 October :: 6.00pm
:: Music: The Smiths - Asleep

Don't feel bad for me, I want you to know..
I love days like this.

When every song gets to me.

Sing me to sleep.
Sing me to sleep.
I don't want to wake up on my own anymore.
Sing to me.

:: 2004 23 October :: 3.18pm
:: Music: The Used - Take it Away

The girl too afraid to change her name.

:: 2004 21 October :: 6.37am

You are beautiful, but you don't mean a thing to me.

:: 2004 18 October :: 2.30am
:: Music: Bright Eyes - The Center of the World

We are far less than we knew.
Your touch was the best kiss I ever had.

:: 2004 18 October :: 1.19am
:: Music: Bright Eyes - Contrast and Compare

I was playing with your necklace and I didn't really notice.

Ah, sweet irony.

:: 2004 17 October :: 2.25pm
:: Music: Elvis Presley - I Need Your Love Tonight

And it won't change anything.

It never matters.

How can I expect it to?

:: 2004 14 October :: 11.18pm
:: Music: The Cure

Sigh and fall apart.
I love when you say it's overwhelming..

:: 2004 12 October :: 9.23am

I hate knowing you exist.

I wish you were a stranger.

At least I know now. You've left no room for me to wonder.

:: 2004 11 October :: 9.14am

I don't understand you.

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:: 2004 1 October :: 6.35am

Just look at me, look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake.
-The Used

:: 2004 28 September :: 6.27am
:: Music: Elvis Presley - I Want You, I Need You, I Love You

Deal? deal.
I'm content.

You bring out the best in me.

:)

:: 2004 20 September :: 9.31pm
:: Music: The Killers - Mr. Brightside

I hate you so much, because I can't hate you at all.
I'm sick of looking pathetic.

I'm sick of being pathetic.

I don't get why everyone acts like I have to be happy all the time. Like I'm not allowed to be sad.

I have to be the funny one. The one that makes everyone laugh. The one that gets laughed at. The joke. I'm a fucking joke.

Don't get me wrong.. I like to laugh and joke around. But it gets old when you're not getting anything out of it.

Don't use me anymore.
I want to know what you want.
What am I supposed to do?
Just tell me.
I'll do it.

I will.

:: 2004 19 September :: 9.22pm

God!

Whhyyyyyyyy?

*laughs out of frustration*

:: 2004 12 September :: 4.12pm
:: Music: Bright Eyes - Haligh, Haligh, A Lie, Haligh

I was watching stand up on comedy central and this guy said somethig that sparked my attention. I didn't think it was funny, I thought it was logical..

He talked about how humans are the only creatures aware of their death, so something like heaven and a God had to be created so we wouldn't all be afraid to die. So humans would just look at it as another life. When really we just die.

I don't know .. I've always looked at it as if we'd just die, and that'd be it.

But I talk about religion far too much, so I'll end this.

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:: 2004 5 September :: 10.19am
:: Music: The Postal Service - The District Sleeps Alone Tonight

Survey.. all the cool kids were doing it.
Read more..

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:: 2004 2 September :: 2.58pm
:: Music: Saves the Day

Fuck you.
I hate being like this.

:: 2004 29 August :: 8.23pm

Not to sound like a depressed fuck or anything, but..
This all hurts far too much.

:: 2004 29 August :: 6.32pm
:: Music: The Cure - Last Dance [*]

I won't ever forget the sound of your voice.
"I don't deserve that."

I know.

You deserve so much more.

:: 2004 28 August :: 11.12am
:: Music: Rilo Kiley - Spectacular Views

"It was an unrealistic night. Like being high or intoxicated, but we didn't drink or smoke at all."

:: 2004 28 August :: 11.08am

"Stacy is so tough acting, but we both know she's not. That's not an insult."

True.

:: 2004 25 August :: 1.44pm
:: Music: The Smashing Pumpkins - Galapogos

I'd have to say walking in the cemetary at night, alone, has been one of the best moments in my life.

I'd love to live in a graveyard. A house right in the middle, surrounded by grave stones.

Yesterday, I was talking about how I want to die. I'd want to die in a cemetary and have someone find me there. Dead.

You may think it's strange, but death fascinates me.

I love photoshop..
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Man.. I'm a twisted fuck. *grins

:: 2004 24 August :: 12.20pm
:: Music: Kill Hannah - Boys and Girls

I feel this great, great pressure coming down on me. It's just constantly coming down on me. Crushing me.

:: 2004 21 August :: 3.17pm

You're weak, but not giving in.
And you'll fight it, you'll go out fighting all of them.
Rilo Kiley - A Better Son/Daughter

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