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chelthesmell

:: 2006 30 April :: 1.45pm
:: Music: Saints and Sailors - Dashboard Confessional

Well, prom was fun...both of them. The after parties were fun. Friday night was a little too much for me though I guess...lol. John explained to me though, you're stomach is like a dance club. When you get all these clowns, russians, and mexicans in there, it's not a pretty sight. Because they start dancing crazy and fighting and then the bouncer comes in and says "Okay, everybody out..!" lol. I love John...


Welp, that's my weekend in a nut shell I suppose...

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eddy

:: 2006 30 April :: 1.09pm
:: Music: The Killers - Jenny Was a Friend of Mine

And post-euphoric depression sets in...

You wouldn't care if you ever saw me again, would you.

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joeydomina

:: 2006 29 April :: 2.06am

Pics From Prom
Joe And Syd At Prom



Jess And I Infront



Jess and I Close



Oh It's Syd



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rayray

:: 2006 29 April :: 12.44am
:: Mood: *in the you can kiss my ass kind of mood*
:: Music: *If you leave me now - Chicago*

*a continuation to my endless rant, call my life*
I don't know what it is, but songs by Chicago, make me want to sing. Extremely loud.

It's hard for me to say I'm sorry, and If you leave me now.

A lot like love is one of my favorite movies. I've seen it like 42 times in the last 3 weeks.

I finally caved in and went to the grocery store and bought some food. Of course I just had to get some Orange Hi-C. It's the best beverage ever. And I was in the aisle that has soup, and I was getting chicken noodle.. And there is like 8 different kinds. Theres superhero shaped noodles, dora the explorer, alphabet, circles, and like 3 other kinds.. besides the regular noodles.. Crazy.

I don't understand it. My boobs are shrinking, yet my stomach is getting bigger. I eat too much fast food (Taco Bell).

I went to Belding, Cedar Springs, and Sheridan today.

I really really really really really really really really really really want a kitten. So that I can name it Otis. Even if it's a girl. Just kidding. Otis is the name of my shark.

Will someone find me a kitten? Please?

I hate Alltel. They are stupid crack whore bitches. It's going to cost like 165 bucks to get my phone fixed. But my phone is still under warranty. For 165 bucks, I might as well get a newer and better phone. However, they tell me that I cannot purchase a new/different phone until 90 days before my 2 year contract is up. And being that I got my phone in July 2005, I am no-where near that. I am getting a new phone damnit. They can kiss my ass for all I fucking care. I will get a new phone..

And if that is Mike that just buzzed me, he's retarded because he has my spare keys.. fuck tart..

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joeydomina

:: 2006 29 April :: 12.30am

prom
well all prom is finally over and that means that its not long till my babe graduates. i am gonna get pics up on here as soon as i can and so you can all see how leet i looked in my tux. my babe looked fantastic and i couldnt keep my eyes off her. ahhh she is the love of my life

Tux

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rayray

:: 2006 28 April :: 1.51pm

I woke up today and Mike wasn't next to me.
I started freaking out because he was there when I went to sleep.
Next thing I know, my phone is ringing and its him.
It was like he knew that I had just woke up and wondered where he was and that i hadn't gotten out of bed yet.
And then he told me to go look at my computer screen.
There was a note that said "Hey beautiful, I didn't want to wake you. I went to go get the part for my truck so I can fix it. I will be back later. I miss you"
He makes me so happy.
And I love him more everyday.

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rayray

:: 2006 28 April :: 2.46am

After taking my contacts out for the first time in like a week, my eyes burn.
There is a red ring around the colored part of my eye.
And they are slightly blood shot.
Not like anyone can notice, because it hurts soooo much to open my eyes.

I rented Match Point and Fun with Dick and Jane tonight.
Match Point: I watched like 7 and a half minutes of it, and was bored.
Fun with Dick and Jane: Made me laugh. Like actually burst out in laughter. Too bad, I was alone in the laughing process because my dearly beloved fell asleep and was like dead to the world. I understand though, he worked last night and was up all day.

I can't stop sneezing.
I complain a lot.
But if you don't like it, you can suck on someones junk.
I really like this song and I've only heard 13 seconds of it..
Confidence (For you I will) - Teddy Geiger

Tonight my mom and I went to dinner at Smyrna (big surprise there) and as we were sitting there talking, in walks JIMMY "TIGHT PANTS" MILLER! I totally freaked out. He works at Clarion (where i was previously employed) on first shift, as a die setter. I would stop everything I was doing, just to look at him. His work pants are so tight around his butt. And he has huge biceps/triceps. Blonde hair. Blue eyes. And he's 6'4". A total dream boy. He's 24. Anyway, he walked right by us to the bathroom, and when he was walking back by us, he goes "HOLY SHIT! I didn't think I'd ever see you again". And stopped to talk to us for like 20 minutes before he went and sat with the guys he came in with. and then he went over, ordered his food played a 4 minute game of pool and LOST.. And then came back over to talk to my mom and I for like 45 minutes. And we discussed how I can't be in there after 9 because i'm only 18. He was really shocked.. Or acted shocked.. So me being the unshy person that I am, wrote my number on a napkin and when I left I went over to his table and gave it to him and told him that if he wanted to hang out sometime to give me a call..

My mom and I are sitting there taking a break from moving furniture and he calls me. So of course our 10 minute break ended up being like 40 minutes long because I was on the phone. I was really surprised that he called me. He told me to call him back, but I didn't because I went to Mike's and then we came back here. Perhaps tomorrow..

Oh, and I still love Mike more than anything so don't be thinking that just because my dream boy is talking to me, and called me, that I am going to leave Mike. Sorry kids.

I totally fucking hate my phone.. It sucks so much ass. It's broke. And I have to wait until next week to get it fixed. Bastards. I might as well just get a new one.

I hate it when people have their phones on them, and they don't answer them. they just let it ring like 8 thousand times. Pisses me right the fuck off..

My knee hurts. I feel like bitching. Which is the pain purpose of this entry. Because it is 2:59 in the A.M. I am very tired. My head/eyes hurt. I have no plans. Can't sleep. And I keep sneezing.

Alright, Im going back to my bed to cuddle with the bed hog, who whines in his sleep and when he snores, sounds like a kitten. It's adorable.. For like 2 minutes...

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 27 April :: 9.19pm
:: Music: I will survive - Cake

I dont know if I'm going to go to school tomorrow or not and if I do, how long I might go. My sister, Janis said she would do my hair for me cause she's awesome. Hmm...who knows? I dont know. I know that no matter what I am skipping Anatomy because I dont want to fail that fucking test...ergg...! welp, yes, tomorrow better be fun or else I'll kill someone and we dont want that to happen. And better news, my daddy came home a day early so I'll have money! YAY! and I can go buy cameras! YIPPIE!! I love Mindy! =) yay!

I'll catch you homies on the flip side in my sweet dress! =)

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 27 April :: 3.47pm

Gosh! The day that I finally feel better, well better than the other days, my mother finds a way to ruin it for me...


She's sucha bitch sometimes and it drives me mad!

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skife

:: 2006 27 April :: 10.43am

so yeah,
since last nigth i've gotten a call from meijer for an interview and i got the job.

and i get home today and Family fare called me for an interview....

seems grocery is hiring right now.

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rayray

:: 2006 25 April :: 5.00pm

Do you ever have moments where you just start crying for no fucking reason. And you can't stop no matter how hard you try.

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 25 April :: 4.15pm

I love you guys...

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rayray

:: 2006 25 April :: 1.27pm

Cocoa puff flavored milk makes me happy.

I'm flat broke.
Unemployed.
And in love.

Things are going well right now. Too well infact.
I feel like there should be something wrong.
I think I'm so used to things being shitty, that I am looking to find someone wrong. And not enjoying the fact that things are great.

Stupid life.

I'm scared. Not sure I should be, but I am.
I'm scared that I may not be able to have kids in the future. When I'm ready to have them.
Things keep happening and pointing to the possibility that I may not be able to.
And I don't think I will be able to handle it, if I can't have kids.
It would break my heart completely.
I'm too young to even have to think about this stuff..

Welp, it's time to go finish getting ready, so I can take Mike to Jodan's (Nora's baby) funeral.

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skife

:: 2006 25 April :: 11.08am

now i wanna go riding again, i miss it.

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skife

:: 2006 25 April :: 9.54am

yesterday was cool.

Box and Mcwilliams came over and we're all like, yeah man, were going to go ride MCdub's quad over at box's house... You should get that 80 out and go ride it with us... i was like yeah uh huh sure....
next thing i know i'm taking money out of my saving account and buying 4 gallons of racing gas.

:P

It runs, Fast as hell, just like when we put it away. I'm trying to trade it right now for somthing bigger, like a 125 or a 250 or somthing.
But yeah, it was fun riding somthing that fast again.

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rayray

:: 2006 24 April :: 11.57pm

Mike and I combined our movie collections.
Dear lord is it huge.. the movie collection that is.
He has me do his laundry now.
So that he doesn't have to go home to get clothes.
His time spent in sheridan, is spent with his daughter.
Our relationship grows more and more each day.

We saw Brian and his girlfriend at Taco Bell tonight
I caused an awkward moment.
I guess saying "you're out late on a school night" to Tiffany was the wrong thing to say.
Either that or it was "My Brian, your daughter is growing up so fast".
Because I got a couple of dirty looks and they didn't talk to us anymore.

Im a bitch. But it's fun.

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 24 April :: 8.56pm

Have you ever asked yourself; "What's the point in even trying?"

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eddy

:: 2006 24 April :: 8.22pm

The best story in the world people. And it's not finished Yet. Oh yes, there will be much more to come. XD

Stacy's Date #1

Stacy's Date #2

Stacy's Date #3

This isn't part of the series. This is a song Sydney made for Stacy's Australian "lover" =D haha
Sydney's Song for Christian

We had another video too, but me and sydney are in our underwear (nothing dirty you pervs!) And so she made me make it private. So even if I gave you the link, you couldn't watch it! =D

Enjoy Kids!

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 24 April :: 6.25pm
:: Mood: irritated
:: Music: Secrets dont make friends - From First To Last

Things just keep getting better and better dont they...?
So, I've come to realize that you really cant trust anyone. There are a limited number of people that I desided that I can trust with most things. I just think I have to be more considerate towards myself when choosing friends and other people who want to have some kind of realationship with me. I'm sick of thinking I know someone and then turns out they've been lying to me or talking behind my back. Drama, drama, drama...I tell ya...I cannot wait until summer. Then I choose who I want to see each day. I'm sick of dealing with fucking backstabbing bitches who complain about their lives and then try to fuck up someone else's. Seriously, how can you be so two-faced?! ugh! I really hate people.


Fuck...!

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 23 April :: 7.41pm
:: Music: Dutch Treat - Jaja Swab

"You know you're dating an emo kid when he has more razors than you"
Well, Battle of the Bands on Friday...Pretty awesome. I was a Judge. It was cool. Jaja Swab won! My boys!!! yay! Mike's band was there. *gags* God do I hate him. You know I was beginning to deside, I didn't hate him, I hated the situation...then I found something out. Okay, Friday Lauren golfed with a girl from Fremont whom claimed to be friends with a girl that dated a kid named Mike Todd at the BEGINNING of the school year...how ironic eh? I dated a kid named Mike Todd at the beginning of the school year as well...as soon as I heard that, my mind changed again...I hate him. With everything I have in me do I hate him. But what I hate the most is the fact that the more I hate him, the more I miss him...but I'll never, in a million years go back to that...I'm better and stronger than that.


Anyways, Saturday rolled around...had to work. Then Mindy and I went to the movies. We saw Benchwarmers. It was my second time seeing it and it didn't get old. Funny shit...I love that movie. Then I spend the night at Mindy's and had to be to work at 8 in the morning which blew but I got out at 1 so that's ok. We had our gay Spring Concert for band today. It was so fucking retarded. Oh well though I suppose. That shit is almost over with anyways.

Prom is this week which is pretty fucktastic! I cant wait! I'm going to look so hot. You're all going to want to do me but...I probably wont let you...ok I might but it's only because I dont want you guys to die cause I know if I was someone else who wanted to do me and I wouldn't let me, I'd die and that wouldn't be too cool. lol..yeah I'm pretty full of myself I know..

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moomoo

:: 2006 23 April :: 4.34pm

So I haven't updated in a while. Things are going pretty good. Trying to get all my internships done, I only have one left. Thank God, at least it will pay off in the end right? That's what I keep telling myself. Other then that its been work and more work and then Kelly. Then last night me and chelsea went and saw bench warmers, it was pretty funny. Then sonia came there 2, which we didn't know she was going to and saw me and yelled my name in the theater. It was kinda scary at first, Cuz I didn't know who it was. So then we all sat together. Then afterwards Me and Chelsea were racing to the car and I flung my key chains all over the parking lot. It was funny. I cant wait for prom. Its going to be so much fun. Well g2g, Kelly will be here in 15 minutes to have dinner with my family. Wish him luck.

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rayray

:: 2006 22 April :: 4.00pm

If I hadn't already paid for my dress. I'd tell them to fuck off.

This has been a very good week. Things are going so great between Mike and I. We are very happy. AND I have hung out with FRIENDS! Imagine that. My car got fixed as well. Mike and I went out in public together in GRAND RAPIDS. We also went to my moms the other day. And he took me to meet his grandma, and a couple more aunts and uncles.

Yesterday we went to hospital to see his cousin Nora, because she lost her baby. She was 5 months along and the baby died. However, they think the doctor killed it. I feel so bad for her. We took her flowers and a card.

We went to the Secretary of State yesterday and there was this guy sitting behind us, and the lady that was walking around asking the people what they were there for and what not, asked him if he wanted his title today or mailed to him in which he'd recieve it in 5-7 days. Without hesitation he goes "Whats faster?". Mike and I laughed for about 5 mintues.

When we were on our way to grand rapids we were behind this van that stopped at a GREEN light. Mike and his road rage that is like 10 times worse than mine, goes "People need to learn how to read". I was like "hey, uhm, I hate to break it to you, but stop LIGHTS don't have words on them".

Last night I hung out with Rachel Waringa. It was nice to see her again. I miss her.

Anyway.. Im bored.

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 20 April :: 8.07pm

Went to the mall with Mindy, Jessica, Eddy, and Holly. We had loads of fun. Was going to hang out with Gravid but he cancelled on me! ugh...ahole! kidding...Yeah I got a sweet Marilyn Monroe tank top. I love it. and yeah...Eddy, Jessica, and I went to Wendy's for some chow and we left and got down 17 mile a little ways and Eddy realized that Jessica threw away her retainer. haha! It was hillarious. lol.


But battle of the Bands is tomorrow! yay!!! woohu! fun!

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 19 April :: 9.02pm
:: Music: A Crazy Little Thing Called Love - Queen

So tomorrow...I'm pretty much skipping golf to go shopping with Mindy, Eddy, Jessica, and Holly. It should be fun. I have more stuff to get for prom and I need new Khakis for golf so yeah. That all needs to be done. I have an all day turnament on friday, hoping that goes well. But I dont know. Depending on what time we get back from the mall I might go to the course and do a little bit of practicing by my lonesome. Yup...that's pretty much the plan. And then Friday night is the Battle Of The Bands! I'm soo excited! I might get to be a judge! That would be awesome. So yeah, if you're not doing anything Friday night at 7, head over to Tri County and check it out. It's only 3 bucks and there are like 6 or 7 bands playing, It's going to be awesome. And Mike's band is playing, so yeah, we're pretty much throwing bags or shit at him so dont miss it! lol!

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 19 April :: 4.36pm

ATTENTION EDDY AND JESSICA!!!
This is pretty much just a letter to Eddy and Jessica...

I NEED your prom money this week! prefferably this week. Monday is the very last day. I hate to be blunt, but if you dont get me your money then I guess you're not going. I dont have the money to pay for you so please get it to me this week. It's only 20 bucks, I already got Kelly and Mindy's money so you two just need to let me know what's going on. ok? OK!

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